Would eva could...

Thinking within a conversation with self.
Not getting the response I need to be felt.
I'm divided between the heart n the mind.
In the middle of their feud tryin to get on with life.
These two stubborn mofos jus can not agree.
N all I wanna do is sleep in peace with my dreams.
This name callin bullshit is for the birds.
Neither of them for one an other have any worth.
My thoughts tells me I'm a sucker for luv.
Yet my own fuckin emotions say they refuse to go numb.
Both flipping fingers to show me what I've done.
I guess I've separated who I am n it isn't any fun.
I'm jus bein me torn apart inside attempting to relate.
Pulled through the ups n downs hearing the hate.
Why are we alone my feelings ask daily.
As my own brain simply jus can't save me.
There's no winning with neither of them turning out.
Sittin in silence this battlefield needs to calm down.
It use to be peaceful beneath what is shown on the surfaces plane.
As for what resides now is luvs dismissal of nothing that remains the same.
Speaking to myself doesn't do any fuckin good.
But I wish one of these two would eva could.
Jus give in n find mutual grounds to play nice.
My personal lil fiasco done with the way I live my life.
Yet they jus don't understand we are the full package.
As the rise of hormones chimes in n awakens what's to be imagined.
No! I will not allow us to step to anyone til this is settled.
N they pout like two yr olds bcuz I meddle.
Bcuz I care to be united with who I truly am.
Damn if I do. Damned if i don't. Damn!