i have no fuckin clue to which direction i'm truly goin. all i know is i needed a come up to replace my norm. maybe one day soon i'll finally figure it out. n the day after that, it's possible that i'll go home somehow. i jus don't know n it really feels like i'm lost. it's like i'm in a sense of stuck in a pause. wondering what's next as it's yet to stroll into my life. as my head is set on a swivel looking for signs. strange thing is in those i just do not believe in. so i wait on time to drop me a subtle hint. a look within a stare that drives me wild. to awaken the silliness of my inner child. i'm not so far gone that i'm outta reach. i've jus been unfolding myself until i find a need. i had to come back to the center of everything i've ever known. as it's been way to fuckin long since i've given in to anything more than being alone. for i've listened to the silence for so long that i'm glad i'm still alive. n there's so many jus like me that have turned inward jus to save self from the whispering lies. knowing it was a slide of a card or two that cheated us outta the hands we were dealt. n that shit was more than felt. like me, they too jus gave up. coming to the line where lips felt good to say fuck luv. though it isn't the truth that slid from the tips of tongues that flips useless tones. even bypassing selfish desires that create passionate moans. the linger in life is a misplacement to rarely move. stagnant until appreciative once self has been cut loose. free to believe again so a key can find a lock. somewhere in a great big world the emptiness hasta stop. drifting into a defining situation that makes the wait worth the ache. i don't have any idea where i belong as i save those special expressions upon my face for my moment to simply escape. to come from depths n share who it is i found deep inside. able n willing to enjoy what's left of life.
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