I fell from the belief of luv the day i freed myself from the restraints of so called friends needing emotional lusts... Now i can't feel a fuckin thing as I'm off on my own wondering where i belong as I'm running from the touch... Pointless is a friendship on another level jus to havta try n forget memories held close to the heart... Nonetheless i released the wants n found my needs at peace as I'm no longer chard... I do not believe in depths surfacing from a passion so deep it controls the mind... I haven't the desire to play that game of seek n destroy as i jus wanna live my life... To control my own actions n be who it is i am to be... So to live without a woman by my side to me is me allowing my sanity to speak... All hope has been lost in someone claiming me as their own... N home is jus walls n locked doors to keep me safe from the torment jus wanting to be left the fuck alone... As relationships are nothing more than transforming ones own person into a vision that bows to an other's expectations that force the fact... I can't do it n i must admit even if i havta go without the sexual intensity at least I'm still intact... Truths of others say they aren't like everyone else that places them all together... N to hear words try attempt to capture the curiosity by saying you'll never find another me is a mindset so full of bullshit they're nothing more than jus another luv'r... I descended n cut myself from my own noose in mid air as the old me died... I'm able to see through my very own eyes at the design n details of what use truly is as i landed with a bounce... I haven't the feelings that posses me to cater to what will turn into a war that begins in hurtful distasteful tones flung from the mouth... One in which that swares to never cause pain... As I've come to realize luv is a selfish kinda uselessness that only breaks down everything good standing with tears hidden by the rain...
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