If i could jus...

If i could jus feel u pressed up against me... Allowing our hearts to sink... To make it easier for me to breathe... That would be sweet...  As nice as the smile stretched across ur face... Embeded in my mind that cannot be erased...  I'd play fair to be felt to keep u safe... Playing beneath the lights in the flickering flame... If i could jus hold u for a lil while so content... I'd be real for the chance to use way comes from the chest... With one condition of never giving up no matter the test... I'd dance with u in the middle of anywhere until we needed to rest... If i could jus be the one in ur life... The only that helped ur natural ability shine... The comfort of ur presence would forever reinvent luv's design... For u my all could never hide... Wrapped uo in arms willing to move with u... Damn the thought that comes n goes... As the catering would spoil ur every laugh ripping loose... If i could jus do more than imagine us at home... Ur so fuckin beautiful in the most imperfect ways... N laid up on me you'd look good saying my name... So tell me who it is i am off u feel the same... Time ain't gonna be here for the moment we are you be claimed...

No thanks...

So it's feedback that u so claim is the pieces that fit... Though i know better bcuz it's the the way I've witnessed u bite ur lip... U demand in a round about way of the acknowledgement of an us... Yet i ain't gotten that far into giving to the tone carried to consider luv... Like is still up in the air n i haven't jumped to feel it in my hands... N u lead with an emotion u try to hide due to i ain't giving away my heart... U jus might get hurt risking into my arms... I ain't for all the fuck shit females bring to the table... I've walked away from a few that were stable... Thing is, i could care less on how u feel... N i have that right bcuz i feel something different n to me it's real... A friend would be nice but i refuse to be confused by the ups n downs... I ain't got it in me to even figure out if ur worth the whispers creating sound... Life as we see it conflicts in ways u callout admit... Attempting to go as slow as necessary to put uo witch my shit... So who's real n who's the fool Sebring something right now that cannot have it their way.?. Speaking honestly i have not one single vibe willing to play that game... As u truly believe u see something in me that simply does not exist... My guess is the day will come tgat ur gonna find out how it feels to be standing still with clinched fists... All due to ur inability to listen to the words coming from my mouth... N it's typical of u to assume i need to open up to a proof as i clown... I'm no one u wanna have partake in ur life... I like my solitude for i can whatever i wanna that's vibes to mind... N the constant messaging that goes bank n forth... The wyd like a check in as if i don't comprehend u wanting to knowif I'm a whore... I pat my own bills n am not in a relationship with u or no one else... So if u could, back off a lil n chill bcuz it's the onmy way of possible you'll ever be felt... I'm nothing line you've even encountered before... I'd never wanna hurry u but it won't be my heart laying on the floor...there's no pretending to the madness that coukd occur... N i don't wanna witness u chance as a once was that can onmy be remembered as a blur... So hate me now n see what tomorrow brings... I don't wanna ware no fuckin ring...

Go fuck n fake ur moans...

U sound like everyone else... Being so different with the tone u carry that doesn't help... N ur attitude speaks of no one ever being able to get close enough to feel how real u once were... Chard hearts if not scraped clean are still burnt... In poison auth bitterness telling others how much they ain't shit... Thinking were all the same as if w haven't been betrayed by the same hate that leaps from ur lips... Typical u are yet u cannot admit it's u that cannot cannot move on... Living day to day devoted to hide the fact that ur not torn... So who ain't shit when the truth finds its way ball to u.?. Unable to decide to create something better so ur emotions can move... Having being bottled up with the negativity is an ugly look... But Buti cannot live ur line so write the pages of ur own book... Let em win n catagorize every single person that comes along u make others believe isn't worth a fuck... All bcuz ur immaturities cling to the hurt of thinking ur a strong individual not needing to be luv'd... Strung out on the feeling is who u truly are... But I'm no one to say a word for ur blinded to expressions tucked into the mirror's charm... Becoming ur own independence so arrogant u can only attract those fuck boys u claim are who all men will ever be... Dropping ur gaurd to the same ol shit due to u ain't the words that u yourself leak... Ur the victim of ur own demise... The choice u hide behind... The linger u allowed is the source of all the twisted memories that won't leave u alone... Go fuck n fake ur moans... Choose a mask n wear it as if it is really u... Stitch the seams to ur face so no one can ever see the pain left unchanged in ur use...

Some n others...

Some are chasing the money n others are running from a life that ended too soon... Unwilling to feel n lost in a memory that's digs into the past's truth... Rolling on down the road attempting to free the mind... As the rubber meets the asphalt needing a different type of life... Some have homes n others haven't the feel left in their hearts... Distancing self from the pain as the roads tend to give comfort to an end so harsh... With the spinning of thoughts stopped off hear n there... Pieces they hope to replace from time to time so emotion can remember what it's like to play fair... Lost n looking for something not found as of yet... Off too an unknown destination tgat creates that thumping in the chest... Although it's most likely that normal will become a home on wheels... Prolly never once reasoning to ever being healed... Some have an escape that helps the long haul settle the nerve... N then there's the ones who haven't a sigh of worth... Following the signs that lead them I to a bigger bank... As self has turned inwards n is relying on no other than a solo act trying to soft witch the fade... Living in tones on tongues that winner of what happened to such n such... All the while loosening to the winding of backroads wrapping moutain sides as beautiful like fingers in the skin so flush... Some like the alone time n others dwell in it's cure... Slowly adapting to the lines that separate lanes traveled so safety is secured... Finding a sense of peace resurrecting who once felt so fuckin alive... Wandering from city to city n small towns dreaming of the day the foot stomps on the brake to setlle with life...

Shushed...

Hidden are the words i wanna say... Tucked away from the tongue wanting a taste... N fur some time it's been building up... The feeling of unsettled thoughts on the run... Yet the answer to the questions isn't what if like to hear... So i go on about my day silenced by the fear... N as long w one asks me of my turned I'll need not lie... It's all in the way the heart clings to life... Changing motions n altering moods that swing from side to side... Bouncing off the walls in my mind... I think of things i shouldn't on a repeated cycle... With space n time being wherever i come be knownas my survival... Chewing on sound that can only muffle moans... Folding the cards for my usefulness refuses to play along with hope... Giving a shush to who it is i could be... Though the feel has vanished to tango in useless dreams... Hiding the fact that heatbeats race when under the hypnosis of luv... Crppling the awakening of the morning's light forever hushed...

She knows...

Only do what no one else has has ever done to me... I seen her eyes speak as if she was coming back from some sort of daydream... With us perfectly in sync to a groove in the design of her eyes... Relax she motioned me back that spoke of how she seemed to know what was going on in my mind...  She was willing enjoy me just to see me fulfilling her desire to be disciplined every time... When she looked up at me it was as if she was already mine... Hypnotized by the way truth came to life in the middlle of a stare...  Her walls craved to swallow the reality of the mood being so fuckin rare... She talked to me through motions as her body began to move... Allowing me to remain in silence for I need not tell her what to do... Helping the nerve loosen up to moans expectation more than waking up... In a moment creating thoughts that play with the tongue on hush... Hands using sign language that would make any man sigh... There are no words for the need in her actions defined... She's a treat with every second of pleasure... For when she opened her mouth I understood her version of a burried treasure...

My own...

My forever fell from her fingertips n i ain't been the same since... Guess it wasn't enough of me to lay it all on the line... But that's life... They come n they go... Touching the heart to feel the same ol thing sitting alone... I ain't never seen a tear fall from a cheek... Nor a luv'r be anything more than a fuck in need... N they wonder why i refuse emotion the way i do... N how i can just go on living on the loose... Untamed by the shackles of relations waiting on the hate... N not a one ofem can ever relate... Being so dependent on the feeling of luv without a true friend in sight... If rather not lose my mind... So the distance from back when i truly felt something move within me... You the point of no return as I'm the one who changed the way i breathe... I couldn't have what i wanted of all things... Laying my word in the wearing of rings... With the greatest joy there comes the ache of a lingering passion left to die... N that's the end of my reasoning of opennng up to what's nothing more than a hype... Bcuz it took just once to realize the show must go on... Every so slowly trying to pluck the attachment from the heart's norm... I can't feel shit even if i tried... I believe I'm alive but dead inside... Fighting off the way comfort hooks I in the middle of the night whispering my mane... As i look over every fuckin time to a strangers face... I'm no one too cater to the demands forced upon me... The omit natural thing I've every felt turned n walked out on my dreams held close in a once lived reality... As they say the truth shall set u free... It's a lie bcuz the only one who can't leave is the one who always comes clean... From grasps that were said to not strangle the life outta my heart came tge dead silence heard... With a pulse that echoed until it was i that was felt in burst... Kick starting the vibe to dig in n relieve the mind of foolish desires... I lived through the chaos of relations to outgrow the childish games patient to the connection burnt by the fire... On to my life evolving into what i have no idea as of yet... I'm numb on levels of deeper than a friendship as i chuckle from the chest... Luv here is hard to crack open when I've seen what it can do... Creating crazy as a fuckin loon...

Are u done yet.?.

All they can see is how pretty u are... As i sit back n wonder if you'll ever find the comfort to fill ur heart... With a goodbye stare that's strong as fuck... Always coming up empty handed willing to give into luv..  With ur patience in hand damn near strangled to death... I feel that shit bcuz u remind me of myself... Following wandering eyes that constantly stare all around for the next best thing...  I've seen how u witness others making shit so difficult they make it hard to breathe... Yeah i get it... When lips don't taste the same way they once did..  I see them wanting to fall for ur curves... Having no true intent to give passion any kinda worth... N as soon as it starts the end comes along way to soon... Locking self behind closed doors to hide from the moon...  N all i can think is how ur whole demeanour tells ur truths... Changing ur facial expressions that reflect on ur bodies motion calling a truce... Trying ur damndest n fed the fuck up with all the illusions of depths never reached..  All bcuz no one seems to comprehend the difference between wants n needs... Stuck to ur physical presence is attractions that can't fill the void... I've noticed how u tend to only fuck with boys... It shows how much u hate how others cling to nothing more than ur beauty... Unable to wait on the skin bared in its nudity... U ain't never been touched by a use that'll never let go... One in which has interests in hoping time goes every so fuckin slow... Lures fucked up i know... How u can unload yourself to be seen time n time again... Yet become a fixation to those wanting some eye candy n claiming to be ur number one fan... Being reintroduced to a stranger u thought u knew... Auth a brush of the hand once ur through that gestures shoo

...

I came back...

Finally feeling the pieces of me fit... Free to move for I don't need to be missed... I'm able to smile knowing luv left me to dream... No longer a slave to passion driving me to unheard screams... For I've had my moment to feel it breathe as i find what i truly needed... It was i wanting peace from within as i just had to feed it... With sights as clear as far as the eyes can see... I'm me... Moving my feet n making life happen... Sitting all by myself as i chuckle just before i get to laughing... At last what was can be accepted as a chance taken to create life... To enjoy a lil something to ease the mind... N it's calmed the nerves to the comfort of hope liking the fact that it ain't nowhere near over yet... I still have the choice to live as it's me i feel that's cleaned up the mess... It just took a lil time to gather what i thought was lost... I was the one that went in to pay for the outcome of the cost... N it was i that was misdirected by self... No longer am i relying in an other to be the passion that is felt... Here in the now of doing what comes so naturally... Moving without restraints of prior trials n errors that used to cling to my individuality... I've cone back to claim what is to become of the image in the mirror... I matter so i released the burden of emotions that weighs in the heart as fear... I got me once i loosened the thought of what i thought i wanted in my head... I'm the normal i waited to witness in the flesh... Off to wherever i just might linger... Giving birds better known as two unrolled n raised middle fingers...

Deprived is a earning...

You'll get what u give although I'm not going all out... If like to see time tell on u before i go through that round about... With pieces scattered from here until the end... It'll take that long to witness u as a friend... Lil by lil to gain the trust u wish to jump in to... Just so i know who it is in u I'm to cut loose or gives me proof... Deprived is a earning as emotion rests until it has a reason to move with ur pulse... Anything less is a game of now or nothing yet to be considered a loss... To recieve is to have patience or its an other u seek... To live life in the way it flows is to enjoy the way we breathe... Days gathering a friendship made from scratch showing there was a time whee we never existed... A small detail in which can not be resisted... For the compatibility could go either way... Parting prior to the good life or creating moments smiling face to face... What u deserve is how u are with a heart waiting to open up... N even when it does if u switch positions you'll never get my luv... There's actions that comprehend motion in sound collected in tones flung into the air... N it's the intent freed that tells the story of two individuals claiming they care... So listen n live n speak on ur side of the tale... Hope has no purpose if self cannot understand the changes that will come if we fail... Watching all that is to be shared die in the blink of an eye... There's only one way to go the distance if u truly feel the comfort of having me in ur life...

A friend to free u...

I'm that no one u can go on living without... This i know... This being the truth after it's all said n done... I'm what you'll never luv... I'm just someone so u don't feel so alone... To help u create a new hope... I'm no more than the one to get u over ur ex... A friend until u find an other beating rapidly in ur chest... N it's cool that I'm not what u need... U can't hurt me... I just wanna be a want for a lil while... For a moment to drift off doing timeless things with the way u smile... Showing u what ur true worth is... Without ever making u feel ur obligated to a long term kiss... I'm merely here for a bit until u recover... It's ok for u to use me as a passionate luv'r... To reclaim yourself by feeling life must go on... I'm nothing u could ever admit is ur norm... N i accept the terms for my chance to remold ur emotions... As a reason to believe in there are men out there wanting that devotion... As u open up n talk with me about life... As i tell u what to look out for when u are ready to try n ease ur mind... I'm ur release to get to who it is u truly are... Before u allowed a man to confuse thoughts by ignoring all the alarms... U don't want me for I'm not like others n it shows... N u won't look back once u find yourself laid up at home... As arms wrap u up n i become a memory that witnessed u transform... Off to something better damn near reborn... I don't want anything but to settle u down so u too can breathe... So u can gather the one you've forgotten how to be... With no ties to capture u at a vulnerable state... Even if u don't give me a taste... Just adapt n live is all I'd like to see... N when u feel the need, i will leave... For i ain't the fire u seek the most... I'm just me as a i roam... Wanting to just see u fly... Flipping birds to a past that could never hold u just right... Just so u know... Ur worth more than falling in luv with being alone...

What ur not looking for...

Just maybe it's i don't like the thought of an other touching u bcuz i know they wouldn't feel u the way i would enjoy a single finger stroking ur cheek... Or maybe it's just i know how the serge rushes over the thought of u smiling as if ur cares have been considered when u look at me... Perhaps all i know is how u linger within me as the answer that calms the nerve when i get to thinking about u... As i do not believe anyone else could ever reach into me without even trying n bring joy the way u do... Perhaps it's the presense u possess that affects my well being to give all that i am to be witnessed in ur eyes as the one u seek for comfort... It could just be the purpose i feel when i awaken to a life enlightened by ur will to be with me as u too cannot help yourself as ur always wanting more... Yet I've come to terms with how my daydreams crave the image of u n i in a moment of truth able to see clearly... In our time to accept the good in opened arms wanting to hold a luv liked so all the chaos will finally leave us to live peacefully... Then again i could be delusional as if i we're ever to be ur type... As to be with u would leave me wanting something i could never earn no matter who i wanted to be in ur life... Destined to fail trying to enjoy ur presence for as long as i could... Atrempting to avoid the way it hurts as i witness others come n go chapter after chapter in ur book...

Reflections change...

Squeezed from the heart was emotion at its peak... Ever since the numb comforted the forgetfulness as sighs came from lungs creating a weeze... Yet in the descending spiral there was much pain that never seemed to wanna fade... Constantly imagining the highest level of luv expressed upon an other's face... Though it cut the lifeline so slowly as it hurt until the solitude swallowed life... Eventually killing the nerve severed from the mind... As hands were felt strangling the well being of hope that turned on the way emotion weeped... Dead man walking is the equivalent of never believing in dreams loosening to the stares caught in the middle of blinks... Going down a road so dark the sun couldn't reach the remains scattered about... The reflections changed as something was missing deep within... Seen upon the surface expressions eventually loosened with a different purpose to live... N in the awakening all that was wanted find no need in the sane ol thing... Believing in one cannot drown in shallow waters with meaningless flings... Chocked was the absent minded uselessness so it wasn't all a loss... Helping the mind reevaluate what it needed to gain a more familiar cause...

Is it an illusion.?.

The wonder crosses the mind of how you'd like to live out the rest of ur life... As the curiosity drifts with thoughts of have u had enougb of going without a reason of why... Are u yet to miss the hyoe of emotiin rushing through ur heart's free will.?. The question comes to me when i think of u sitting alone so dustant from the thrill... Creating a sense of interest hidden away from the naked eyes... I look at u n can't believe u feel the way i do living without sighs... Confronting any n all that wanna touch more than the skin... A nonbeliever in luv if like isn't a factor that shapes the grin... I drift in daydreams of how the details of a friendship could possibly meet at both ends... Having what it takes on the middle of whatever we'd wanna call it as a truce is lent... With so much time that's passed feeling only self in our own comfort nice n safe... The image of u taking a peek at me jus to ask me my name... I get a lil beside myself knowing I'm content with the way things for me are turning out... Though i wanna give into someone at some point who can relate to common grounds... As the solitude is a piece of who I've cine to be... Only to exchange it for something as real as an indivudual who enjoys it here in reality... Do u ever contemplate to open up to an other but find yourself unable to.?. Like ur waiting on something different that clicks n makes sense of the interaction as ur desire of hope is put to use... Maybe I too am patient to the fact that want what i want... To be felt the way I'm willing to give to a friend in which i give my luv... Are we the same on levels of truths can live as is.?. Allowing the details of who we are mingle together even in a sexual crave that isn't as normal as some regular kiss... Though i may never know due to like u I'm afraid to speak... So caught within myself where it doesn't hurt as much as losing another so called need...

Wants not needed...

To want a luv through the no matter whats end when there's nothing in them one needs as they become a memory that lingers in time... Feeling the heart move on when time finds a different shape of a smile that creates such a chuckle followed by sighs...

I wanted her as there were no others until i come to realized there was nothing about her i needed to keep a healthy mind... As vague smiles remind me how no matter was a momentary memory lingering as i live my life...

Once u come to terms with how luv is a want that needs not the pain that cripples the fight to speak of how no matter what luv will live... The memory will look back once day n force a chuckle when the linger touches the heart n how much it did give...

To the left...

Fuck ur feelings, they only get in the way... Talk to me like a friend n see where we go today... I ain't trying to convince u I'm the best thing for u... Nor will i feed ir ego bcuz i know the love is long enough to wait yrs for u to give me a truce... U say step up or miss u witch who i am... I'm cool with sidestepping ur kind due to the attitude towards every fuckin man... Fuck what u think for I'm not a hoe... I could be but i choose a more simpler road... So judge me by sight n what u assume u know... Be typical asf yet clsim ur more different than jus anther moan... That self righteous lunatic bs if a fake front to to convert up the pain u hold so tight... By all means grip it n squeeze ur chances from the chance of ever being a piece of my life... I see u for what u are a others want what rests between ur legs... N all u want is a man to give chase witch a lil beg... That shit is unattractive asf but ours what u seek some dude beating om his chest... To be cherished as u act out over emotional delusions concocted in ur head... Then point fingers at the world for ur own choices bcuz u cannot own ur own... Sitting all alone with a bitter taste clinching ur metaphorical throne... Evolve n just maybe a real one would actually take an interest in the curiosity lingering about... But Before u do why don't u fix ur face as u wear that fucked up frawn... It's not me u hate... Correct yourself prior to demanding luv without a friendship that will last longer than being someone's luv'r played to the left as from u they havta escape...

The me i agree with...

When i don't sound like myself is when i make the most sense... Who am i n what have i become in my presence.?. A stranger too who i was... An older face starting back having issues of trust... Wtf happened to the way my heart felt so alive.?. This isn't the me that was once free to shine... There's no will I here nor in my expressions anymore... N there's a loss within my core... I don't knew thugs version though i can't relate... Tired of the tongue having to switch uo names... So yeah it tens to touch something unfamiliar deep inside... My heart is empty n I've doubt myself happier alone I the middle of life... How did this come to be a breath without a sigh.?. Reshapong the silhouette in my eyes into a shadow that changes from days to nights... Hiding like a child afraid to talk to a stranger... Wanting to yell danger damger.!. Fuck me... N twice due to i haven't the crave to give in to needs... I am just noir the same... Lousy in a world trying to figure out how noir to get burnt by another flame... This wasn't supposed to be who it is i have adapted to be.... I was loose n moving with the motion penetrating moans freed... A beast with a heart as pure as luv... Yet here i am in this confused clarity that tilts my head as it shakes trying not to bust... Attempting not to believe in the truth of how others truly are... N it's hard...

Trying to go figure...

Where does it begin.?. That part of life when giving in pays off as real smiles digs in... Embedding themselves I the mind so the heart can feel true thoughts... As the individual can't help but to cling to an other who's found self in their cause... How does one know without going on n outta the same ol played out routine.?. It's just too much to flow in the mix of relations in which is harmful to ones own dreams... Creating distance in places the naked eye caanot lay sights on... Who is too carresss metaphorical scars whenthe healing saves what's left of what's been torn.?. With a touch to soothe the concept of question that linger I the silence... Able to avoid the whispers behind the back the brings on verbal violence... Is the speifics of what one needs to mingle have a expiration date.?. Or is it the wiil to try n fail repeatedly the terms of conditions that disguise the belief in tasting names.?. Having to linde a double life of trying bout to be a hoe that is afraid of attachments unknown... Foriegn to the creation of hope resting I the balance of a set of hands not wasting to be alobe... How can one decipher who is ready n who just wants to play rolls so nights aren't a total waste.?. For we all have crossed those limits of do not return causing so much hate... In which delusion does self appear to be the one without illusion speaking back in the darkness... To hear a voice quietly rable on without the constant balling of fists.?. To appreciate a friendship in the loathing of satisfaction... Does one just imagine the details or free the possibility to accept a different kinda imperfection.?.

On my own...

In between lives just doing what i can... Seems a lifestyles in its own transformed me into a better man... A solo type that doesn't want for much... Not having to depend on the inspiration of luv.... In a devoted mindset thoughts in the now of where i am has become independently defined... I have damn near all i could ask for other than the comfort of the emotional hype... Off the deep end i descended to find the shits n giggles that awaited... I'm just lingering somewhere to the left of someone always wantingto be right as i do noir want to feel their hatred... It's a choice to settle the nerve that has been severed from all pain... The only thing missing is the familiarity of a well known face... Though the heart doesn't crave the want of a touch the way the mind has found peace from within... Making time worth a lil bit more as the acceptance of self is whatneeds to live... As hope from depths has adjusted to the circumstances that create my reality... Here in the makings sleep is not lost in daydreams drifting away from my individuality... Free to be in the middle of wherever in the fuck i wanna go... I've evolved beyond the loneliness by chuckling in the solitude that took its toll on me while i was in my zone... N the happiness I've cine to know by gathering the pieces has been the difference in the mirror... Trusting in my own decisions for my well being is a factor that doesn't live through fear...

In need of a real one...

To be sucked on as if she actually enjoys the feeling of a thick warm cock in get mouth... Not jys for afew minutes but for as long as she can make luv to it as she jerks from me unheard sounds... Forcing me to moan n watch her stroke my dick with such a skill I'd damn base pay for the pleasure... As she luvs when daddy calls her my lil cum sucker for it turns her on... Showing her true desire to fulfill her crave down on her knees until i cum n give her the tasty treasure... Oh how nice it would be to for once to feel not jus lips wrapped around my girth... As the length finds the back of her throat as she can't wait to gag on muffled words... Having no need to hear her talk as i just want to be gobbled up like I'm on the menu... Giving me head in a sense of if she were broke she'd be exploited as if the tend was due... Used for a lil while so i too could sit back n roll my eyes with every slurp... As she smiles knowing she's got me all to herself for a moment as her fingers lurk... Licking n tickling my shaft just bcuz she can... It be so fuckin nice to endure a real blowjob where it doesn't rely on her hands... As that stares looks up so innocent yet provocative i feel my nut shooting through my erection for her to play in... Like a good girl to give a visual of how she prefers the war warmth of it touching her grin...

Believe what u want...

N what if i don't wanna fuck u in a way i know would make u fuckin explode.?. U ever thought that just maybe i don't need the problems that wouldn't leave me alone.?. For all u know i could be some lame whos stroke isn't worth the time to bare ur skin... N I'm cool with that due to i like sex without limits as i do what it is i wanna do to bring u from within... So if u never feel my hand wrap around ur neck just knkw it's not a loss... I don't need the attention for i can already foresee the outcome satisfied with the results of u submitting to me in my palms... But please think of me as if i can't get it up, i don't mind... I kinda like the smirk of u believing ur all that not knowing what I'd do to ur whole fuckin life... I'm a bit different n idk if u have it in u to play to the fullest intent u could only dream of... Or it could be ur desires haven't awakened n would rather be luv'd... Either way as long as I'm not involved we can just get along... There's no need in u doing something u just might be scared of... Transforming ur hormones into a lust craving beast wanting too escape from a depth so far down the release would turn u inside out... But we don't havta do shit to provoke anything by word of mouth... Ur legs are safe from the shaking so talk auth a tongue like i ain't about that life... Having my way with u isn't a necessity although u look like a good girl due on ur knees ready n willing in my mind...

Said n done...

Only if u coulda seen the pain left in my eyes...  N how my stare was distant to ever feeling alive... Lost i was hurt having words that could never clear out the echoes in my head... Though they were loud enough to remind me of memories playing from my chest... Damn near dead emotion turned inward to shake off ur touch... Hidden i fled to a safe place running away from luv... Face confused of what was truly going on... N i felt the loss of me when u decided i want ur kinda norm...  Only if u woulda told me face to face... Maybe i wouldn't have held on to the way i called u babe... There were times i didn't realized who i was without u in my life... Even worse i thought you'd always be my wife... But u showef me how lil the thoughts was as u made sure i was to hurt... Even though it was ur doing that crippled what we shared tgat now buried in the dirt... Laid to rest workout a tear to moisten the soil... As i remember how u purposely sat me out in front of the world to spoil... U laughed as i fell apart for i believed in the u u allowed me to hold... Damn, how unreal it became a reality of how i fishy bounced back as i refused to fold... Slowly plucking pieces of u outta my heart as if u went speed to be removed... Yet it helped mold me into a better version without the bitterness as u cut me loose... N i couldn't thank u enough for that act on its own... For i am free from fake smiles sitting upon their thrones... N even though i am alone i am not lonely for i found within me what u somehow missed... Even though I've never felt a kiss create sparks the way i tasted ur lips... Goodbyes have been said as I've been asked for my heart to be returned... Something i never thought was possible until i caufht a glimpse of ur true obsession intention lurk... As i gotta say Sitting her today, I'm glad it was u... Just bcuz i now know it could be anyone else to gain the earning of a real sense of use...

Just be...

Just be u when w finally come face to face... It would be great to see a actually friend not be so fake... I'll be tasty ready by the time the heart is too be opened up... When it's u being the one in which i like accepting the way ur capable of luv... It's the inky way you'll find me coming from within... To watch u awaken come mornings where we still exist... Allow ur lips to speak what it is that makes u unique... As self show me that u lie way out means to live outside of dreams... As beautiful u are just come with some depths that aren't so needy... N believe in something other than yourself so when we do us it isn't all for nothing as every memories is in the leaving... I've had enough of the momentarily flops that lasts longer in thoughts than in my arms... So if u could just be who u are behind closed doors where u find the only u in sync with ur random weirdly odd charm... With a lil give to feel me coming from outta nowhere to ease ur mind... Willing to stand in motion to move with a sway like I've known u all my life... As if i I've missed u without knowing u although i do apprecite ur worth... Wait for me n keep ur head up just in case u see me first... I'll be the one who can't seem to look away from the way u shine... Sighing with relief for i can hold u on the outside of the confines of my wandering mind...

Poof...

The stranger u never truly got to know... The me worth the moment to be known... Waiting patiently for ur eyes to focus in... To witness a use come from within... The one who got away... The real truth that u refused to luv bcuz u were filled with hate... Lost in dreams is where a friend could feel ur heart... Identified as that piece that fits silwnting alarms... Yet it's the crave u couldn't seem to keep a float... Taking away the purest thing I've ever felt as a home... Knowing it was u i didn't wanna go without... It was a familair face that didn't comfort the luv u said u found... A drifter winging it to change the image u held in my mind... The rarest passion felt that ever got the best of a reason of why... Crazy legs spun with the coming n going to look at an other with me still in ur sights... As it only took a blink to realign interests to move on witch life... So easy, so loose the distance increased in between desires dying alone... The nightmare came true the day ur number one fan lost hope... The only one to touch places u feared to go... So deep it was as if we were the same person when we moaned... Though it's the pain tgat told on u... As we like whodini wen poof...

To stand still...

To feel the comfort n not knowing who in the fuck won't turn... The distance grows when all that's wanted is to be felt in arms having worth... Yet what's the cost to land in an embrace willing to hold on to free will needing a friend.?. When it all comes to a close where memories for some reason always end... Like the final curtain is to be reopened to a different set of eyes fixed on who they believe self to be... As the hungar of having a voice ease a day that doesn't get old before an others own interests fade... Going from a standing ovation to drifting with the sounds of goodbyes applauding n trying to forget how the lips shape names... For the thought of a head placed in the chest is a feel that awakens what's been hidden... Never to take a bow in the spotlight for it's about two people's open admittance... To have someone woo cares that isn't over emotionally wearing their heart on their sleeve... With a mindset that can conversate with a tongue that can enjoy the flavor of needs... Opening to how touch triggers a tender kinda sigh that can be trusted... When luv comes after likes n passion can coexist with what is lusted... Smiling bcuz the natural affect of has come to terms with a genuine feeling allowed to flow... Having a partner would calm the nerve when there's so much tucked within that for some time hasn't been shown... In awe when getting stuck in stares when they aren't looking to when they are there's magic in the air... It would be nice to find a belief in the way a kiss could satisfy a lurpose to enjoying someone woo isn't scared... To come to life in the presence of what truly speaks of use by jus living in the moment for as long as possible... One who has a level head n knows the importance of being responsible... So the linger pauses when chuckles act as two children laughing together... Falling into nights where bodies bare to the sensual sexuallity that pushes limits ti be known as even a luv'r... The wonder fucks with the curiosity of a face that sticks to dreams as if reality appears in the flesh... Standing grounds with one expectation, to be real n nothing less... To be speechless as the cling wraps itself around the neck... Squeezing the stealing of a few seconds to be closer to heartbeats finally met... Flipping everything upside down so one can be seen willing to partake in the escape... To remain imperfect as the perfect gain... Appreciating the best of the worst as lies never tell the truth... Standing still with the way joy moves...

?

What is it u wanna know.?. Who is it ur looking for to be known.?. Am i supposed to be what you've been waiting for?. Do i somehow have what u consider a norm.?. Is it u jus wanna believe I'm this thing u thought up in ur head.?.. How did i know u jus want someone to wear the silhouette with a mentality of who's next.?. Why can't i be done with the luv factor u fail to realize doesn't exist.?. Are u blind to the fact that i need not emotion to live.?. Does ur intuition ever step back n gather an other ok with being alone.?. Or has not dawned on u that i can't be the visual of anything more than a moan.?. N is it safe to say u see what u wanna see when u lay ur eyes upon me.?. Can u help me understand why u feel I'm the answer to the need.?. Would u be so sure to dig in to find there's mouthing to gain.?. Where within me to u insist this lingering of a desire is so i can ease ur pain.?.

I have me...

I fell from the belief of luv the day i freed myself from the restraints of so called friends needing emotional lusts... Now i can't feel a fuckin thing as I'm off on my own wondering where i belong as I'm running from the touch... Pointless is a friendship on another level jus to havta try n forget memories held close to the heart... Nonetheless i released the wants n found my needs at peace as I'm no longer chard... I do not believe in depths surfacing from a passion so deep it controls the mind... I haven't the desire to play that game of seek n destroy as i jus wanna live my life... To control my own actions n be who it is i am to be... So to live without a woman by my side to me is me allowing my sanity to speak... All hope has been lost in someone claiming me as their own... N home is jus walls n locked doors to keep me safe from the torment jus wanting to be left the fuck alone... As relationships are nothing more than transforming ones own person into a vision that bows to an other's expectations that force the fact... I can't do it n i must admit even if i havta go without the sexual intensity at least I'm still intact... Truths of others say they aren't like everyone else that places them all together... N to hear words try attempt to capture the curiosity by saying you'll never find another me is a mindset so full of bullshit they're nothing more than jus another luv'r... I descended n cut myself from my own noose in mid air as the old me died... I'm able to see through my very own eyes at the design n details of what use truly is as i landed with a bounce... I haven't the feelings that posses me to cater to what will turn into a war that begins in hurtful distasteful tones flung from the mouth... One in which that swares to never cause pain... As I've come to realize luv is a selfish kinda uselessness that only breaks down everything good standing with tears hidden by the rain...

For always...

When the lights go way down low,  it's u where ouuta my way goes... Putting together a night o felt fin the beginning to end brining us home... Back to the basics of us in a moment to adore the passion shared... So luv can live in the presense of hope coming alive in the eyes that glare... Beneath the smiles where we enjoy the roots of our rarity so safe in hands feeling their way along the body's curves... Playing so freely to the pulse vibbing to tunes heard... It's u n i until life no longer exists is my promise as whispers cling to the way we kiss... Ur my all that's opened the heart that knows i can believe u to be the cycle in my ribs... Aa the day breaks to candles lit to intice a mood willing to roll around... I'm urs for u to do as u please with me creating beautiful sounds... Loosening the restraints long enough to show u exactly how i feel... In a motion that slows to a rhythm i cannot deny so real... Face to face watching how the flames flicker in my sights as it's u in my view... Damn there's jus something so soothing in the way we move... A satisfaction in knowing it's u wrapped up in my arms as the grind releases sighs... I crave u the deeper i go as i can admit i need u in my life... For always i juts wanna be the highlight of ur very own joy... Ur the difference I've come to lean on to as i taste ur lips as emotions are deployed... Set into actions to follow-up on words that's expressed my true intent... My luv, it's u i wish to invest... To give special pieces of me to only u for u are so much more than jus a friend... Ur my comfort laying still once the sexual pleasure has fallen into cuddling with a truce that could never be broken or bent...

Emotionless comfort...

Awakening in a moment to admit emotion cannot be felt... Lost to the feeling of hope of ever allowing the heart to melt... When time gets away from self in no need of a friend... Lost thoughts refuse to stand out in between all the memories spent... In a split second one acknowledges the emptiness that's become a comfort known as safe... Unwilling to ever allow luv to transform into hate... The truth comes clean as superstitious behaviors are recognized as a loss... With a sense of free has a gain in discarding all thoughts tossed... When there's a holw tgat cannot be filled life accepts how things have played out... Never to bow to an other who can only identify as expressions heard as the heart making sound... In the waking of reality the simplicity finds a friend in the mirror that's unmatched by the passerbyers lingering on the threads of sleeves... Dangling no more is a mindset of needing others to become what self truly needs... N being able to smile only draws in attempts to luv... Missing the point of solitude's finest bright out the inner most rush... Having a home wherever the body travels n rests... The freedom is rare n at times lonely due to it would be nice to hold a convo worth the tongues motion... Though in a blink of an eye out ain't no one elses3 responsibility to inspire the good creating devotion... As it is a lone act to assure use is in the design of life... Without any reason to abide by commands that demand the now of torture going along with the hype...

i'm free...

sitting at home took it's toll as others were out living with sighs... seems to give into the chance to lose it all over again ain't on my mind... as i'm off on my own no longer waiting around for life to come and find me... i've crossed over n felt myself when the solitude held control of my dreams... those empty moments changed me in ways i don't ever need to claim luv is more than like... as touch is for two people looking for a bit of comfort to enjoy the sexual sensations of life... i'm free from it all n have to interest in turning around to look up from the bottom the way i once have... as my face feels great to admit i put in the work to smile as i laugh... without restraints n ties that cling to my movement jus wanting to flow... it was in the dark where i realized i wanted to live n here n there listen to a good woman moan... having no commitment that drags out the hate of a friend that depends on another to come alive... so i'm on my way to getting to wherever i wanna go n whenever i wanna get there due to i choose to not hide... tucked behind doors in which i've been for far too long... gathering the pieces n losing out on memories never made in my distance of trust gone wrong... yet i'm a different kinda loose hoping to see more than i've ever been accustom to... out n about n getting use to a better sense of new...

the cycle...

others look at me the way i look at u... as my heart slides down my sleeve every time i imagine the way u move... seems we want those who never want us in return... n it's u lurking behind my eyes in a visual having so much worth... i may not be much to u but u tend to mean something to me... as i live my life without being able to get close enough to touch what's in my dreams... life awakens on the thought of ur skin felt through my fingertips... jus to feel u in a moment where time pauses long enough so motion can live... it's truly a loss to havta go on without u ever knowing of cherished u really are... even though u could care less that there's a luv for u that clings to my heart... unbreakable n silent as heartbeats themselves tremble to this fact... having to find out where i belong alone opposed to building a world for our own depths to comfortably be intact... sights watch me ignore gestures so kind a fool would pass them by... yet i'm staring at u pretending i do not exist while chuckles form a line... from one to the next the silliness can be heard when intent is meant in words released... as sighs could only hope you'd lean in to me n somehow believe... n it's a cycle that rotates until broken by self when it's witnessed as an empty hole... fantasizing of how things would be stuck in a walleyed vision seeking a place to call home... they peep me the way i long to hold u in my arms so tight... as u to are lingering on someone drifting to find their one to be considered as mine... having a difference of likes that build every belief to gain trust... as a friend is always bypassed due to attractions wander on the wonder of certain types held flush...