There's things I've always wanted to tell u i believed would go unheard... As if i was meaningless within so many useless words... Yet u were that life i waited to feel awaken within me... As my luv for u went to waste even i could see aching but u bcuz the feeling i felt was free... Untamed n uncontrolled as it jys had to show u the crave in my heart... Half the time i had no idea what i was doin but trying to mage u smile as that was not hard... Ur smile touched me in places i never knew existed... N for as long as i can remember u were the answer until everything got twisted... But I'll never say a damn thing bad if u ever come up... For i have images in my had of the real u that transformed in before my eyes as i was left standing alone in the middle of luv... N it felt like i died inside... Somehow lost the thrill to enjoy my time... Ur presence in less own bright more joy to my heart than any shingle thought i can recall... As i know now after everything I'm not for u at all... Even though I'm left with the fantasies that druve me wild... Though i put the thrill of what turns me on about u in a file... Locked in my head away from emotion to every reach for how u felt so fuckin close... U were the definition of comfort n a place called home... N I've chime to realize i never had a chance n it's ok... I'm not for everyone due ti i aunt like others faking their way... U don't know what it took to let u go... How difficult it was to regain my own flow... As i had to stand uo n move on without u in my life... It damn near burried me knowing u weren't mine... Shit, I've never touched anyone with so much passion the way my fingertips felt ur skin... Causing the most silliest expression within my grin... How u couldn't see it i don't know... But it's cool for ur at least ur honest about I'm not what i thought i was to u when luv was shown... I guess i jus want u to know the depths u were able to sink into landed u in an untouchable desire... As life itself will find memories of someone else's face that I'll learn to admire... After adoring n cherishing the one person i wanted the most... I've come to understand what's food for me n I'm now willing to leave u alone... The way u did when i fell apart desperately trying to hold on to u... As my all went unnoticed like i didn't give ua reason to fuck with me or even set u loose... Choices is what eases the mind through comprehending situations tgat create a better life... N u weren't the one that wanted to have me as u broke my mind... U were wanted beyond flaws that could never stop me from opening up for u to destroy... Taking every blown jus bcuz i could be ur toy... Hoping when it was all said n done you'd see the real me still standing as a friend... As even that we both know had to come to an end...
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