feeling ur flow...

feeling it throb as it wraps around the head... sliding slowly to a snug fit as if hormones are fed... stopping half way to take it the tightness squeezing the shaft... dripping down inch by inch until landing at the base of the mass... filing the void that needs to be felt... as filth comes from lips flung to make the gush melt... talking dirty of how it feels between a sweet set of legs... reaching for vocal chords to moan with the display... ridden to preference as walls are touched all the way around... hearing bodies move in motion as sound has been found... true to the sexual act of desires wanting to cum... hips rotate n swing with a pop to create the penetration stroked with a twist n a shove... as speed picks up for the fit loosens to the texture thrusting... with sighs  doin more than their share of adjusting... getting closer to a climax with every lil movement to spring it free... holding out for the pleasure to enjoy how wet n hard mix with dreams... up n down n around goes the working of the mind... putting in an effort to make it last for perfect to be defined... with the gripping of hands around the neck n breasts catering to fetishes on the loose... daring each other to get off so the sensitivity can simultaneously go kaboom... as sweat rolls form the pores... knowing jus once won't be enough as there will be a wanting of more... as one as it's right fuckin there... spittin out obscenities for the full affect coming from the core... aaahhhhhh, yeeees... ur the best...

the sexiest thing...

confidence without arrogance is the sexiest thing one can obtain... the mind is on some other shit that is way more appealing to those who can relate... unbreakable n so much more funner when the smile rises to it's peek... being serious n humorous in the same smirk holds the key... with a smooth flow that delivers worth without a negative tongue towards others... unaffected by judgement's n never selfish for self is as real as what goes on beneath the covers... with poise in movements that define the mindset to a tee... not once showing the lack of courage to be... humble in a way of life that describes rational thoughts... claiming sexy without vanity being the only thing important to the individual within getting lost... as a calm nerve soothes the presence of a stable interaction no matter the situation that comes along... knowing self absorbing is as ugly as an attitude gone wrong... so positive thy will is true to good vibes seen in motion... as beautiful as one can be to earn devotion... taking nothing for granted as every moment is vital to self esteem... believing in who one is a feature of character having quality without the acceptance of others blowing off steam... assured in their own that it's ok to be alone until the vibe is met... so the feel they have to give comes correct from their chest...

makes no sense...

thuggery n this g shit has gone too far... when will it end so men can feel what's real in their hearts.?. convincing others it has appeal so they can shine... creating a visual type of ignorance females like... not having shit bur keeping it real in a hood based mind... knowing the atmosphere is fake with its cut throat way of life... ruining the will of young women of what a real individual is... as hate eventually slips from their lips... falsely accusing hard working men of being the same ol thing... seems to break down females is hinges that swing... coming n goin at will bcuz dudes cannot commit... as others are held to standards so beneath them they submit... feeding into the malarkey everyone people are literally acting insane... as boys have their egos n their image they havta maintain... hard asf with drama based bs spit into the wind... slinging someone else's lyrics as if their own from their lips... mindless immaturity's has become the face of gullible children playing a role... n to say anything one's considered a hater to overshadow stability's hold... like dumbing down is forced or one's a bitch... shit don't make no fuckin sense... pretending as if a show must be put on to prove their better than others... when in actuality all it is is buffoons who refuse to get with more than running through luv'rs... on display due to the shallowness within... yet it's attractive to belittle females with an arrogant grin... it's not a culture thing but the bottom reaching for what they cannot have... as it claims no singled out race as every shade cling to misbehave... so they too can have given to them what they cannot earn outta respect... having a lack of integrity so foolish it's ugly to watch... as so many go along with the disability bcuz their imposition needs another notch...

do me...

mmm hmm... put it in ur mouth... enjoy how it feels... suck it... yeah... like that... yeah... yeah... fuuuuuck... get it ... right there... shiiiiiiiiiit... take it all... taste my fuckin cum... yeeeeeeeeeeah... fuck... gobble me up... play with me... on ur lips show me who u truly are... mmm... get it... yes... yes... yessss... don't stop... ooooo, use ur tongue... suck... twist it... cuff my balls... fuck yeah... there it is... feel me... here it comes... yuuuuuup..... catch it... ahhhhhh.... shiiiiiiiiit... get the tip... yeah... keep goin... more... more... moooooore... oooh.. ok... stop... i'm cool... damn u... it tickles... mmmmm... untie me... 

I have these thoughts...

Drip on my chin until i feel u squirt... Come undone upon my face as orgasms tweerk... Grinding to how u cum with each stroke... Ate n tasted as ur gasps crave my hard stiff cock penetrating depths no longer alone... Have a seat n twist me ur thoughts... Place ur wet pussy in my face n get lost... Rubbing my tongue to fit ur groove... I jus wanna feel the way u move... As ur thigh grip snug to my cheeks... Making it hard for me to breathe... Get urs n think about my cock... Reaching back to grope its girth as hard as a rock... As many as u can get... Keep goin as i hum on ut clit... Jus to allow urmind to crave my shaft... Climbing off to slide down my body until ur kitten meets my mass... I wanna watch u straddle me... Face soaked as u grab my cocks width... Placing the head I between ur lips n slowly inserting it as u slide down inch by inch... A lil at a time so it doesn't hurt... Feeling my girth... Length touching every sexual thought felt put to use... N as u land with it all the way in u i wanna look at u sitting stll... To take notice i the way my hard thick cock makes life of ur will... Squatting on my erection having a looksie... Buried in ur tight sweet beautiful lil petite pussy... Yea, I keep seeing u on top on me... Riding my dreams... Breasts bared n naked so I can see ur skin... My hands feeling the curve of ur body as fingertips sink in... So beautiful u are ready to fuck my eagerness loose... Enjoying how deep you've placed me within u... Pulsating with ur walls  gripping what is real... as u begin to grind my cock back n forth for that extra feel... Allowing it to consume ur sexual desires... As sighs are released n moans come out to play with the flame afire... Lifting to ease back to the lowest point... Filled to max compacity as u rise to drop back down... Finding ur rhythm as i listen to u how we come together to make that wet slippery sound... In n out n around u go with ur hips all in one motion... Proving a point to show me a use for devotion... Fucking me for ur own pleasure as u cum... Yet i ain't ready until ur pussy can't take no more n goes numb... Telling me to get it with a filty tone... Forcing me to bust with the curling of my toes... I'll enjoy how u slip over my dick as it reaches for ur heart... After cumming on my face jus to penetrate the feeling of how tight u are... N if i'm too big, u can work it loose so u can take it in ur depths... Digging into ur g-spot as u gush with sweat... I have these thoughts that I want u to bring to life... As ur looking down on me with one hell of a sigh...

in between ur legs...

lookin into my eyes as u feel my tongue slide through ur pussy lips nice n slow... head felt by ur fingertips as u moan... it's a thought that\i crave oin which i don't wanna do without... feeling ur clit in circular patterns as i taste u in my mouth...  you'd be getting urs the way u want it... pleasured until the nerve tingles from the kisses let loose from my lips... enjoyed beyond the expressions on display through motion as i jus want a piece of u... to feel u move... rotating ur hips with the skills pressed to ur desires... looking down ur body noticing how i refuse to give up until every last nut is admired... i dream of licking ur juices as they come from within...dripping from my chin to create a puddle on the bed... face deep in passion holding on to ur waist... legs spread before me as i into a new reality fade... focused n at ur tones mercy trying not to fuck any time soon... i jus want to go down on u to prove to u i want ur woo's... those pretty lil sounds the vibe from ur throat... released uncontrolled into the air as ur curves are groped... touched n ravished with a sincere stroke to ease ur mind... watching u come to life i jus wanna witness as i peek up arch ur back as hormones climb... reaching altitudes with ur knees as ur thighs squeeze for me to stop... as i chuckle n give u a minute before i show u i missed a spot... commencing to wear u as a facial piece all night long... from the front to the back my swivel is thinking of ways to hum me a song... To be buried tongue deep in ur crotch licking ur eyes into the back of ur head... Mmm jus to be that close to ur orgasms needing to be put to rest... It's funny but I'd definitely please u as i stroked my cock... Jus to feel the the steam from my breath bounce off the texture of ur crotch... Tasting ur juices attempting to drive u mad... Hand wrapped around my shaft... I'd give u head to watch how u quiver when u cum... I'd get off on it jus bcuz... 

until the end of time...

where is the end that claims lives.?. all the sooner than later bs is so fuckin sneaky it never lasts til the edge of life... falling into the descend is the focus on a friend to walk off the face of the earth... anything less is a waste of time as it's temporary memory that havta be reset when the feel wears off of worth... rubbed like a woman's make up back to factory set basics with a wonder of luv in the eyes... as if self is to be lowered into a grave alone bothers character checked from within the middle of life... prior to promises that shift with tongues filth that swore it wouldn't know what to do without... wow... left in the moment to discover jus that... waiting on time to wrap days into comforts that do not move so fast... to get to the taking where there is no return... slowly creeping along to enjoy a bit of something real from the silence can be heard... as together becomes a belief beyond dreams concocted by thoughts that run wild... knowing the hype is lusts rushing up on emotions demanding a gimme now presence as their other side smiles... so done with the bs is the transformation of realities jus wanting to have a chance to remain the same... until death catches up to legs getting it in with the same ol face... goin the distance it takes to emerge at the a lifetime looking back at all the shared interactions that create a friendship so rare... acting a damn fool n as silly as laughter can handle the laughter shared...

Life goes on...

It sucks, it hurts, n we must move on... Another reality awaits the smiles curve moving to its norm... Letting up on the restraints to allow life to evolve... With good things to come as comfort revolves... Spinning the mind of the possibilities that heart is yet to accept... Leaving errors in the past where corrections are quietly kept... As onward releases what we truly thought was the answer being naive... Burying the memory of what was for the now of yet to come is more of a dependability... Loosening to the fact that happiness is a will wanting to live... Not an after thought of careless lips of prior chapters forcing a wedge for change to be missed... The twist aches, breathes, devours passion jus before eyes can see... Touching a mindset where adaption chuckles with all the unfulfilled dreams... Thankful for a chance to be reminded of how self rounded out... Reminiscing later on with a smirk due to what is would've never been if the end back then kept lingering in tones tgat make sounds... Letting go isn't easy, fun, nor harmful to growth... When the toes are kicked up come one early morning with another that fits who's to be known... Looking forward to what days are ti bring side by side... From a time where trying to figure out desire to embracing the transformation of like into a luv speaking through sighs... In the moment at last with a friend opened up for they too have been around long enough to get the bigger picture... As the silence gives to heartbeats in a simultaneous thump pulsating together...

who to choose.?.

options in choice waiting to figure a few things out... going from one face to the next wondering what kinda friend is to be found... who to get close to n who's a good time here n there... seems the mind settles the heart jus long enough to give in every so often to hear its cheer... from this one to the retreat slung into someone new... luv wants to be chased when the mental state of comfort knows better than to continue to lose... having decisions in a variety of differences eager to get loose... attempting to trigger the configuration of pieces misplaced... losing the connection of a body to land with fingertips on what's said to so much more than heartbeats that race... trying to decipher which life to go with in the way it changes when another comes along... looking at their reality as is it what self wants when the fit desires to belong... jus needing to slide into the groves of someone as if the tuck  smooths out curves dug to deep to fill themselves... being as careful not to get sucked into the selfishness of a foe taking jus anyone to cater to how their felt... it's a pickiness that balances pros n cons on the teeter of emotional interest... mature so the weighting of alternatives can be pushed to the side for that one jus close enough to perfect in their own silliness... witness to each possible luv'r drifting in n outta their own personal selection with patience holding on to musts... avoiding the deceitful gimme now type that have no depths as the luv to play in lusts...

only with u...

anything go's when it comes to u... that's what the heart wants to do... whatever comes to be is a gain felt as a truce... jus to feel u closer than air as umove... whenever the moment reaches for smiles lifted up... there's no limits to my willingness... wherever is a mindset craving ur luv... as bounds are not restricted to ur happiness... however it comes about... time is patient to see u come mornings light... forever being the comfort of now... loosening for ur presence to spend long night... together is the bond unbreakable as us... making u an equal in my life... whichever lifestyle we decide to live within as flush... enjoying the yrs to come on one infinite ride... the pleasure is mine as i accept u feel it too... clinging to reasonable stipulation made of common sense... as leisure as putting the work in to make it happen for the sake of emotions on the move... goin further than dreams could ever imagine worth spent... whether good times get rough of bad times lingering on... we as one are the answer to how we coexist... members of a relations on another level of how depths are poured... calming temers with a tone spat from each others voice to ease the tension of this world gone astray... laughing uncontrollably as we're one in the same... neither any lesser than the other as friends trust an honest face... having no restraints to capture who it is we will become side by side saying one another's names...

i jus want u...

i jus wanna walk up on u n commence to kissing on ur lips... walking mine down ur cheek to ur neck... sucking on ur flesh... tasting ur sweat... smelling ur scent... as i fall to my knees slowly... using my tongue to lick on ur body... around ur nips... nibbling jus enough... as my hands grope u... feeling u beneath my fingertips... with heavy breathing trying to control myself.... knowing it's u that fuels my desires... n as i land before u.. pulling ur panties to ur ankles... lifting ur sundress up... putting my head where not even u can see me... i wanna bury my face into ur pleasure coming undone... to hear u moan... to enjoy ur skin as i sink in... unable to stop... wanting u to get it as many times as u can... loosened up... giving in... grinding my will until u pop... again... n again... right up to the moment as u try to get away.... n i force u to hold still... like a beast eating his starvation away... jus to hear u beg... please stop... please... for u can't take no more... the sensitivity being too much... as i release u jus to come back up... inserting a different feel of joy... diggin.. thrusting... showing u how bad u turn me on... deeper n deeper... listening to u become one with me... moving to the excitement that's come to life... looking u in ur eyes... noticing u falling into the design of mine... as we simulatneously implode... gripping each other as we twitch... jus to lay still tryin to catch out breath... jus long enough to capture the full affect... i jus wanna do u.. jus bcuz i can't stop thinking about how we'd meet expectations coming unglued... n the passion we could share... i jus wanna get tangled up with u behind closed doors... putting on a display of how much i actually care... as u can jus lay back n feel all the thoughts i've thunk n how with u i wanna play.... doin more that locking the tumbler to keep us in... as fantasies come to life... as u become mine... n i as urs to serve ur every need... from ur head to ur toe... my sights cannot get enough of how ur body curves... i jus wanna step to u n give u something u would luv over n over again... from me to u... i jus want u...

Come with it...

be exactly who u want me to see... for who it is i witness u as is who u are... switching shit up once we get goin is jus gonna show ur fake as fuck... n to jus to draw me in to a false reality tryin to be what u think i want... that goofiness loses the respect given as a one time chance to keep it real... n i'll be unable to carry on with anything deeper than a so called friend as emotion i will peel... they're second hand next to truths allowed to be seen as a worth... anything less than who u truly are is a lie said to my face as our eyes connected believing in words... be u n a reason to fuck with u will remain in ur favor for as long as we can keep it goin... otherwise i won't think twice to overlook the thought of how ur doin... that deceitful nonsense ain't no kinda attraction when u cannot come from within... living behind a mask to gain a feel u know damn well will end before better days gather for a memories grin... step up or step to the side so use can decipher who it is wanting to enter my heart... bcuz it's the one thing i cherish the most n the last thing u are allowed to affect until i know for sure u can create art... without tones changing in due time bcuz u can't keep pretending to be someone u are not... so think for a minute prior to aiming ur all in my direction putting depths on the spot... i ain't free to jus anyone mingling in to my comfort like a chameleon... stand on ur word with actions to back ur natural flow n we together, our smiles can share the same reflections... jus be so i can focus on the blurry vision coming into view... or we can do whatever doesn't involve me n u... beauty sinks further in when it isn't forced to be seen by blinded sights as that's all their is... Come with it...

dead roses...

goin for days without anything to say... who's friend are u not wanting to see my face.?. if hate is what u feel jus lemme go... i ain't gonna fight to kiss azz on a daily jus so can wear ur throne... we don't havta live under conditions in which cripple emotions running for shelter... it's jus too hard to  be satisfied with the hopelessness of the heart starving to find comfort in a dweller...  i can't be as miserable as the discomfort u luv so much.?. having an issue with every other thing u cannot have ur way... it pains me to havta shut down the roller coaster as it twists me to the point here with u i refuse to stay... if this is who u are u need a more disgruntled individual to disrespect with ur selfish intentions... bcuz it isn't me that will put up with it any longer as u believe it to be ok to cause an unreasonable deception... claiming to luv me yet u throw fits when i wanna be who it is i am... treating me as if i do not matter to ur childish behavior forgetting we were once strangers n we can be once again... reality is u havta matured enough to earn my worth with the way u avoid a common conception that this takes the two of us bringing each other to life... n ur jus a neglecting arrogant self absorbed degenerate to the health of my own mind... i didn't come around for u to break me down so u can enjoy the way it hurts me every time... u can keep the false hopes n the tongues lies of having me in around for my own gain... for ur nothing to give a reason to fuck with how u put a glum presence on display... but u cannot witness what the mirror is blinded to so we need to decide together to walk away from this side show so we can get back to a more enjoyable life... i no longer want u to be my destruction clinging to my side... ur ball n chains is a wrecking ball to my thoughts as ur taring me apart... i jus can't do the topsy-turvy bs n need to be done with all the bitter azz remarks... ur not what i thought u were so this is it... i'm releasing u from my grips... as it was ur very own flame burnt me from the inside out... dead roses were done the day u plucked my nerve with the way u pout...

stage fright...

if i could get it out i would... but i cannot find the words n i'm shook... searching myself over to breathe... digging deeper hoping to say what it is within me... as fear shakes my insides no... pausing the thought process it takes to speak the truth... damn me if i can't move my lips to speak of a truce... as trembles touch sensitivities not ready to be known... unable to loosen up n free what's been gathered while sitting alone... with no escape plan for the comfort is held deep beneath the surface... seems without the linger there's nothing n that i believe to be worthless... so if i could somehow release secrets held in... i'd be in a different mindset looking to remove myself from muted jibs... yet i'm stuck with thoughts roaming through my mind... n as the situation comes up i lose focus as it hides... playing peekaboo with the tongue wanting to taste what's been unseen... unable to get it out for sights to see me... if i could tell it like it is n expose my crutch... i'd luv to scream it at the top of my lungs... it's jus for some unknown reason it doesn't wanna be heard... nor seen due to it's scared of change... or maybe it's evolving from all it knows in its ways... confused i am of the misconception lingering behind my eyes... carried in a heart holding weight of what's hidden as i push through life... petrified to let go of a sooth that touched the texture ever so soft... as i sit n wait to be able to flow with truths stuck in a pause... at the edge of moving forward... i stare at the one thing that resembles horror... looking away from mirrors thy tongue reaching into the back of my throat to grab a hold of what chokes me... desperately needing to rid myself of a burden lost in my dreams... catering to the stage fright of something new... in a world of who's who clinging to their own curtain to hide from the woo's...

If things change...

You can speak on anything you want... So don't shy away of you loose the feeling of luv... There's no need in hurting each other... Just be a friend n tell me your curiosity's with a different luv'r... I know shot is subject to change... Like every beginning that remembers the shape of ones face... Embedded in thoughts in silence has no worth... So tell me if you drift within so many words... It happens n i accept we could go either way... All i ask for is the truth every single day... As respect is the one thing we share the most... Feeling emotions ride the heart's coast... But if you ever lose how you feel for me now... Allow the tongue to spit it out... Just make sure you're okay with letting me go... Because if I have to walk away I know long nights will come back to better days... N you won't be nowhere around to see me smile... So be certain if you come to rethink my presence as a worth to your while... You see, can open up to everything on your mind... Even if it's you and I living separate lives... Be real and be useful to the moments we have... As I'll do the same just so you know we weren't a fluke of something we once had... With lips that seal tones only to be released with true depths... Hoping you can come to me if your rhythm has redirected its vibe towards another felt... Just don't let me waste my time... Lost to a wonder wandering through my head looking for signs of life... Don't do me in a way as if I mean nothing to you... We can be a little more than that if it comes down to walking away from us having no use... I'd rather be mature than to pretend I never cared for you one bit... So if you wanna different reality than the one you have with me, I'd want u to go live... No judgement's and no guilt trips... I'll understand for I believe everything has a life span that can only last as long as a chuckle in the ribs... Just look me in the eyes and give it to me straight... I wouldn't want any complication no someone in my own life who has gotten tired of my face... Step if it's the answer of your heart's calling... Until then, just enjoy in which the lean gets to falling... I may be for you now so i insist on feeling me out... And if I'm not, words will never be fowl coming from my mouth... We all have a life to live as we need not lie... Like me or just tell me goodbye...

weeping with wounds...

jus one good tie to allow emotion to be freed... feel it dig in to how the legs shake at the knees... breaking down the hearts walls... emptying depths as eyes leak correcting self's flaws... letting the feeling of pain roll like tides... own how it consumes what we could never hide... goin with the flow of natural gestures able to live... accepting change battling the mind running from the lips... when luv falls through n hate becomes confused... in the mists of clinging to memories abused... missing what failed to keep goin with life... when together ends for a new face to be recognized in the mirror so fuckin blind... dying n lost left to unravel promises to find the truth... cry n adapt to the human presence within fingers slipping from grasps... let the rain come down n be at one with the texture of how it in the middle of a sob makes u laugh... earn it in the makings of loosening grips on a forever gone to a past... evolving with every drip that slides to the edge of the chin beneath the mask... as crazy as it sounds rip loose n mourn them as if they're dead... for when it's over you'll see a different version of self concocted in a well leveled head... bury yourself in the sorrow n get it outta the way... taking notice in the expression along the way that touch the face...

The way it curves...

Feeling the affects of its curve... Life is sparked by its irresistible words... As pretty as eyes can gaze... Ur lips touch the expression untamed... As high as its points will rise... Creating beautiful images in my mind... It lifts me up so i too wear its shape... N i can't did anything but wonder how it tastes... Felt it is within my curiosities thoughts... Causing my heart to face as my motions pause... Attractive to the sigh of sighs... Soothing to perfection shine... It looks so good on u as my emotions rush...... Having happiness in the way it turns up... Reaching for the sky without any limits... So alive ur smile is so vivid... Real n unfazed by the negativity that lingers in the air... It seems you've mastered ur wills tgrive to enjoy what cannot be spared... As time ads to the purity u possess... Making heart beats skip n leap from my chest...

Loosen up...

Dig in... Where the bottom holds the key... Way down... What is it u cannot seem to free.?. Let it go... Feel how the release soothes the mind... Open up... Listen to ur heart come back to life one more time... Show me truths... Having a use in a friend willing to stay... Where's depths end.?. Reaching for comfort to touch ur face... Go further... Gather all tge pieces that no longer fit... U don't need them... So say what u haven't been able to taste upon ur lips... Grab it... Make it cimply with what u need in ur life... Removing all tge unwanted leftovers... To stand on ur own with a stare unloke you've ever felt believing in more then the hype... Remove the restrsints... Allow ur vulnerability to ease into a well known embrace... Helping the cause... Resurrecting ur very own passion for ur heart beat to race... Get beneath the surface... Find the sensitivities that hold u so tight u cannot breathe... Dismissing fear... Correcting luv hidden within u as motion moves to the flow of finally freed...

in the middle of the twist...

where's ur sense of reason when ur expectations aren't met.?. as someone else isn't allowed to be themselves jus bcuz u demand something different... is ur col gonna sidestep ur own determinations of what u feel others n situations need to be.?. as if choices must be exact to those u make with motion following ur impatience changing the way u breathe... how do u respond to individuality showing true worth in self before ur eyes.?. can u ease back n accept another willing to live with what comforts their own mind.?. without ur reticule beating them from head to toe... taring apart what u are not willing to adjust to in the break down of truths shown... are u a friend that can understand the concept of everyone does things their own way.?. never afraid to hurt ur feelings to be who they are...

do u need to control those in ur life as if they were to act n think like u... what if u didn't agree with actions played out in plan sight jus lookin for a use.?. is ur mind capable of realizing we all live to become who resides within that hasn't been as of yet seen.?. n decisions are in the makings of terms of commitments taking shape before wants ever need... what would u consider if the heat was felt upon ur face of an reoccurring frustration touching ur complexion.?. will u be defined as a compassionate person or a deranged judge mental psychopath waiting to verbally blurt out obscenities to be ur reaction... do u understand we are not the same in every way.?. so to come together there's gonna be times where eyes aren't always gonna meet as we evolve within every day... so how u respond is needed with compassion to go the distance less traveled or we are doomed... or we can jus call a truce...

mission failed...

i understand that look...

reading me like a book...

thinking u have me figured out...

oh how cute are the words to come from your mouth...

trying to prove i'm just like everyone else...

just because love within me is earned before fell...

due to i'm not looking for a damn thing...

i must be hurt...

or somehow lost my own self worth...

as it's never i just rather have a little me time...

to enjoy me some of my own fucking time...

i comprehend your thought process well...

and how your out to show the world how everyone fell...

to become this thing you say you are not...

firing shots...

having a twisted mentality of trust gone astray...

hiding the fact of others you truly hate...

attempting to point out flaws to make yourself feel like you're right...

with your self gratification poking at others lives...

wanting people to witness what's behind the scenes...

as they fail to realize you are as broken as the distance between you and your dreams...

going around taking your own choices out on everyone else...

all because some dip shit reached in and had nothing to do with what they felt...

leaving you to expose hidden details of what you believe is real...

taking away the line of sight from your own ordeal...

claiming you're not bitter one bit...

like the smile you wear doesn't need a face lift...

you carelessly direct your attention at something you do not know...

becoming frustrated with the lack of evidence to be told...

forced to accept i am just what your eyes see...

as the frustration in your expressions crave to speak of me as if i lie...

unable to feel better about who you are hitting a brick wall...

i guess is you just cannot win them all...

and that creates a drive to pursue our tongue to provoke inner intentions...

hoping to put me on display for your belief of suspicions...

slow to realize you havta move on to someone you have pegged...

all because you couldn't trigger me just by pulling my leg...

needing the shallows to open up for depths to emerge...

yet for the idiocy i just have no need to give a worth...

devastation's phobia...

not wanting to move on... afraid to find something better... eyes are blinded by selfish lusts... written down in unsent letters... fear rips through the heart... stoned n frozen in time... unable to hold on...  helpless to to the release trying to hide... scared to be luv'd by another... having to let go of something more precious than worth... realizing friends ain't what has ever been seen... left to die alone... tucked behind closed doors is the tears drip... transforming emotion into a work of art... missing the kisses that go astray... like flutters on the wings of butterflies... free takes on a different meaning each n every day... horrified that a new face will be a comfort settled in... clinging to an attachment like no other... shaking the vibe loose from the hook... the drift divides intent once known as a luv'r... cut open to drain the laughter from within... turning on interest wanting to get beneath the skin... restless becomes anxiety being torn the fuck apart... so far in luv with the end of a life lived...

creating thoughts that linger in the mind... breaking smiles down to bare minimum when the betrayal sets in... terrified by the feel of touch nerves run from the surface... sitting with upside down grins... goodbyes are a correction that never come too soon... for a chance to reason with what truly gives pleasure it's depth... looking into a set of eyes that do not resemble what we thought would always be... as a force of panic is unsettled to the flow of sighs unwilling to invest... with doubts wedging distance in between someone else believing we are their happiness... in a game of pain feeding a nightmares trickery of who we are... as the other side cannot come fast enough to chill the heat from a raw tone fogging up the mirror showing what no one can see... waiting of the process to come full circle doing it's very own part... nervously impatient jus wanting the hurt to fade... desperately holding on to memories until they don't carry the same thrill... finding shadows blending in with the night jus to follow us during the day... with another chance to enjoy a bit more than what was with a different kinda fill... plunging into the shallows to swim in the deepest satisfaction know... bringing back the alarms sounding off... blaring cautions remind the sensitivities of a threat staring into a sunset made for two... jus to awaken one day ever so lost...

the only thing...

the only thing missing is u laid snug to my side come mornings light... awakening to the feel of comfort holding on to a lil thing called life... moans coming from within as the body isn't wanting to move... jus laying here with no need to leave the rooms quiet atmosphere... in bed pressed against each other until fully awake... hearing a good morning rise to the days claim of eyes opening to see ur face... watching a smile curl into it's points sitting high upon ur cheeks... wondering what silly lil thing u got lost to in ur  wildest dreams... jus to return to me waiting to be with ur presence laying as still as happiness can rest... clinging to how we are about to enjoy what's to come once again from the chest... as it's a race to the bathroom like two lil kids having to pee... knowing it'll be me standing my turn damn near unable to withstand fluids freed... listening to u laugh as if it's so fuckin funny to witness me squirm... for it's all good to have u around for u are a rare worth... the only thing that ain't found these kinda moments is the liking of u willing to spend the night... as we fall deeper into the tingle that creates a spark for a bit of light...

What it is...

Most people hear the music but know nothing of the vibe... Claiming to have struggles yet is an excuse to linger through life... Fake n bouncing to the rhythm of something they truly can't relate to... Jus wanting to be a part of a voice so they can act out as if a choice has no use... From the burbs back to the hood n no matter what shade is embedded in ones skin... People jus wanna partake in a fight to fit in... Catering to a way of life tgat gives nothing in return... As it's said to be attractive with a flow spat out in words... Clever tongues twist the reality if what hard times really are... Pointing fingers n blaming others for the bottom sucking them into the cards... As the color of the decks matter for some reason depending on where the game is played... But it's the lack of will to become who self truly is that keeps individuals from evoloving at any rate...

N sidestepping the social oppressors within ones own is to be disowned as fingers rise with the birds having no trust... Goin along with the same ol roles so eager to cause a fuss... Lazy in mindsets to correct the battle once lost... To higher grounds away from the chaos stuck in a pause... Draining the feeling of hope from fingertips aimed for a buck... As yuppies feed into the lifestyle bcuz the sound of it can never be hushed... Knowing damn well it's a cut throat division of hide n seek... Accepting a number that clinches the ankle to the slums trying to shuffle ones feet... As the details find a beat within the music that transorms it into a beautiful work of art... To deceive a listener groving to a melody reaching for their hearts... Blinded to the self infliction of decisions to get on with a world needing someone to scrap up the shit... The poor want out n the the wealthy want in... Neither can make it the others domain n pull it off... Always being the unaccepted one forced to feel lost... As heads nod to a rhytmic pulse felt deep in tbe nerves... Dealing with judgements cast upon us all as classifications lurk...

nope...

caught in a pause staring u down... if life were to change it be u i'd want with me now... as my eyes cling to ur skin... lost in daydreams thinking of a chance to feel the twist... shaking up emotions within ur presence occupies my mind... as inward u go without knowing i'm willing to take a magical ride... i'm stuck with my sights wanting to get beneath the surface... to touch u in ways luv will never feel worthless... jus by the way u walk i beg myself to open up... to allow u to come inside to find comfort to trust... my vision has a liking of u n i cannot turn away... i've never seen anything so beautiful if i must say... as ur movements compliment the sound of ur voice... creating a passion awoken to the way my heart beats to u making so much noise... locked in zoom i feel what it is i want the most... as words scramble to gather sense made of hope... it's u walking through my mind so free with each step... taking ur time so i can enjoy giving u my best... as i wanna reach out n pull u closer so our bodies can relate... able to wrap ligaments around a moment standing still long enough to escape... crawling upon the bed creeping with the night... until morning comes back around to give ur face the deserving light... for i can't seem to break away from gawking the way i do... there's no help for me but to have the pleasure of u move... for it's the life u possess that triggers such a wonder... n i'll be damned for i'd luv to be ur luv'r... ur friend n that one person u can count on the most... yet ur the one that refuse to look my way that forces the grunt of nope... knowing the capabilities unseen by the naked truths will go to waste... like a stranger walking by without a thought to look twice at my face... as the realization settles into the nerve of how everyone is looking for the same ol thing... i step back when i'm ready to step up jus to leave u be...

i know...

i know what brakes me, n i know what brings me life...

i know my pain for i've felt it create an enemy in my mind...

i know the depths of joy, n i know passions touch...

i know the little things are what truly ads up...

i know how to luv, n i know how to walk away...

i know what a friend is standing face to face...

i know what to allow, n i know what's no good for me...

i know of character that needs no characters to be freed...

i know what lays restless in my heart, n i know who i am...

i know the details of what it'll take to take me hand...

i know what me eyes see, n i know when to speak up...

 i know i'm nothing special though i am someone to trust...

i know the feeling of deceit, n i know the pleasure of will...

i know the difference of like n craving the thrill...

i know how to witness truths, n i know the meaning of a truce...

i know i have it in me to give to someone new...

i know the stroke of fingertips, n i know the patterns in which from i run...

i know there's more to the hype the dies after the rush...

i know differences are good, n i know the same ol shit ain't worth a damn...

i know imperfections are the most beautiful thing belief can withstand...

i know lusts rise to the occasion, n i know peace can exist...

i know sound can even find a tone to make another believe in lips...

i know hope lingers within us all, n i know solitude only does so much good...

i know life in it's own is the treasure of thoughts shook...

i know where intent is hidden, n i know it to be as real as air...

i know by staying alert of who actually cares...

i know the motion within the chest, n i know it longs to breathe...

i know this for i too have wants that wanna override my needs...

i know what triggers an attraction, n i know what turns me on...

i know it's not jus sexual yet the sooth is desire keeping it on...

i know to remain alone isn't healthy, n i know giving in to jus anyone is a game...

i know how to decipher what to tolerate n what's genuinely great...

i know the opening can lead down two opposing paths, n i know i'm no fool...

i know chance is all there is if the decisions refuse to drool...

i know happiness is accepting true bliss, n i know the crackle a smile can give...

i know the heat of the fire sparked by emotion insisting to live...

What is it u seek.?.

So u wanna know details of who it us that stands before u... To accurately decide how u are to react to what it is u find in tbe loop... From u to me n back around like a boomerang tbat returns... That way u can identify throufh actions of accordingly who i coukd become to ur worth... I get it n i dont mind giving u an insight but there are things ur gonna havta accept ur gonna havta earn... Aint no one lookin to open up jus to wind being hurt... So what is it u seek in tbe digging if my chest.?. Who do u believe me yo be prior to getting to know depths yet ti surface... Yeah, i too have an angke in the wonder that ia curious to ur interst directed in my direction... Yet I'll start by saying imma need someone a lil mor in tuned than jus giving me an erection... As I'd be willing to bet u could use anotger fir more than making u wet... As i assume we need not hild back on a convo jus waiting to pretend we do not have turrets... Able ti speak freely as we share vital lessons tgat created who we are... Or is that not what ur looking for as it's to deep for u ti take part.?. Jus wanting to get close enough to feel someone cute... It's not my thing to keep rollibg around with others losing friend after friend to the rush of the abuse... What intrigues u on some real shit if i may ask.?. As ur staring at me like u wanna dive in without masks... U wanna relate yet fir how long befire u realize im not like anyone you've ever met... As the cgase u follow loses the temptation in ur eyes bcuz u cannot keep uo with what lingers in my chest... Or is it that's all u want.?. To lean in witbout a mental aspect of what it takes to get to ur fantasy called luv... So are u after someone u jus might like.?. With sight willing to communicate with me to somehow enjoy life... Talk n let who it is u are to freely come out n play... Otherwise i ain't even trying to entertain the shallows of ur skin tamed...

Jus so u know...

There's things I've always wanted to tell u i believed would go unheard... As if i was meaningless within so many useless words... Yet u were that life i waited to feel awaken within me... As my luv for u went to waste even i could see aching but u bcuz the feeling i felt was free... Untamed n uncontrolled as it jys had to show u the crave in my heart... Half the time i had no idea what i was doin but trying to mage u smile as that was not hard... Ur smile touched me in places i never knew existed... N for as long as i can remember u were the answer until everything got twisted... But I'll never say a damn thing bad if u ever come up... For i have images in my had of the real u that transformed in before my eyes as i was left standing alone in the middle of luv... N it felt like i died inside... Somehow lost the thrill to enjoy my time... Ur presence in less own bright more joy to my heart than any shingle thought i can recall... As i know now after everything I'm not for u at all... Even though I'm left with the fantasies that druve me wild... Though i put the thrill of what turns me on about u in a file... Locked in my head away from emotion to every reach for how u felt so fuckin close... U were the definition of comfort n a place called home... N I've chime to realize i never had a chance n it's ok... I'm not for everyone due ti i aunt like others faking their way... U don't know what it took to let u go... How difficult it was to regain my own flow... As i had to stand uo n move on without u in my life... It damn near burried me knowing u weren't mine... Shit, I've never touched anyone with so much passion the way my fingertips felt ur skin... Causing the most silliest expression within my grin... How u couldn't see it i don't know... But it's cool for ur at least ur honest about I'm not what i thought i was to u when luv was shown... I guess i jus want u to know the depths u were able to sink into landed u in an untouchable desire... As life itself will find memories of someone else's face that I'll learn to admire... After adoring n cherishing the one person i wanted the most... I've come to understand what's food for me n I'm now willing to leave u alone... The way u did when i fell apart desperately trying to hold on to u... As my all went unnoticed like i didn't give ua reason to fuck with me or even set u loose... Choices is what eases the mind through comprehending situations tgat create a better life... N u weren't the one that wanted to have me as u broke my mind... U were wanted beyond flaws that could never stop me from opening up for u to destroy... Taking every blown jus bcuz i could be ur toy... Hoping when it was all said n done you'd see the real me still standing as a friend... As even that we both know had to come to an end...

Tell me...

I'd luv to know what u truly think of me... How ur thoughts come to believe what it is i am... Jus to listen to ur version speaking free... So i can see who i am in ur eyes as a man... Onlt if you'd say what's on ur mind... Telling no fibs as the tongue did not twist nor fail... It be nice to hear u be as honest as i... Spinning ur collectiveness out into thin air... So the knowing can be seen as truths cone forth... To u I'm someone i might not know... So open uo the secret n let it touch ur vocal chords... Don't be afraid bcuz grudges i do not hold... For it's ur turn to create sound into the microphone... Putting me on the spot where i feel i belong... But by all means don't restrain yourself n mumble with moans... It's vital nor one syllable is ti be withheld as u can say no wrong... As it's what's gone unsaid that gains my curiosities thrill... Willing to hush long enough to take in ur angle of things... Giving u a moment to free ur thoughts for ur lips to be real... Babbling from ur prospective of the kinda person i am to ur belief...

mine.!.

cum for me... i wanna watch... jus play with it... rolling ur fingers through ur twat... don't be shy... that shit ain't no type of fun... bring to life the images in my mind... roll around with yourself n fuck... i wanna hear u moan... witness ur bodies need... stroke it slow... i'm in luv with the way ur pussy leaks... so open ur legs n show me what u got... tease me while listen to u breathe... putting on a display to make the room hot... jus imagine me down on my knees... as ur fingers slide through ur hormones... touching nerves upon my face... triggering my interest to never leave u alone... now upon ur lips, have a taste... suck as if it were me in ur mouth... dripping down ur chin... lemme hear u make my favorite sound... so erotically with a sinister grin... that come fuck me look... to deliberately turn me on... feel ur clit as u spin it in a circular hook... flipping the tip as if u were in a porn... cum again... as ur pulse plays a factor in the intensity throbbing between ur thighs... now up on all fours to arch ur back as i take a stand... giving a ovation so hard as i push myself inside... forcing a gasp... pulling ur hair... thrusting within u so gently until i cannot help but to go fast... pounding a vibration deep in ur lair... treated as if owned... cum with me one more time... get it with me as i curl ur toes...  now suck it off n tell me ur mine...

Homeless heart...

Where is it i fit in.?. Seems there's no place i know of that comforts my grin... As I've turned corners like pages trying to tell a story so fuckin unheard... Even tasted words that lost depths in meanings after the facts were no more than a simple flirt... Oh how nice it would be to land somewhere i refuse to leave... Secure in the thought of deciding without a doubt of moments shared are more than jus dreams... Yet I've noticed not one memory tgemade it through... Leaving self with the feeling of there's nothing to loose... So where can i rest my head n never havta worry admit rolling out cone mornings shine.?. There's gotta be somewhere where i can settle in n live a bit of life... As i believe I'm a loner wandering around with nowhere to belong... Turning down n shutting doors on attempts from others wanting to touch depths... Knowing lifestyles jus don't align the way comfort needs to rely on what's best... Lost in a world that could care less if i ever make it home... I think to myself how will i know if it finds me sitting alone...

down to the matter of facts...

truth is saying it's when you've given damn near every piece of yourself away for a better cause and your left sitting alone...

with a fucked up vision of a lil place called home...

as you've already given up on anyone who comes along because the end is feared long before a beginning can ever create a smile...

tucking emotions away from hands jus wanting to feel on the surface for a lil while...

and it's hard to consider another to fill the empty emotion that jus wants to feel anything but the loneliness that lingers day in n day out...

going a phase where self hasta chance words that are released from the mouth...

not knowing who to trust for what if the right one comes along while seeing about someone else as they keep it moving without u...

yet, who's who when looking for comforts use.?.

forcing the solitude to find comfort in redefining self...

falling more in luv with the solitude than waht's needed due to the heart wants some sorta help...

it's confusing...

as it's even more amusing...

it's weird when people feel they have an interest and they don't even know you...

ready to jumo at the demand of passion tricking desires into cutting loose...

yet, it's not until you begin to see the ones who are different that use finds a reason to mingle...

considering relations as in no longer single...

bringing fear to the surface to be felt...

knowing slashes from the tongue leaves deep whelps...

for eyes jus wanna witness how depths reacts to someone new wanting in...

thinking of the teetering going on inside the mind weighing yays n nays with a grin...

and the balance can go either way because the real ones want a friend...

as there's no way without time to tell when it is to end...

everyone else demands to be loved...

expecting the physical attachments as hands on the body rubs...

it's scary to open up when you know you only have one more chance in you...

with a keen sense of realism that picks shallow prints from the skin abused...

shit happens and if you try a few times over you lose the feel of ever wanting to willingly give in to hope...

all the while jus wanting to create a more pleasure type of moans...

when in actuality you'd rather enjoy the peace and quiet...

flipping back n forth on another's reach for the ease that becomes an issue felt until thoughts can reason with an answer within the silence...

to own a certain piece of mind is as free as luv transforms from being who you are with another to free from the bs to reclaim who you truly are on ur own...

gathering the rule of thumb to measure walls seeking to be blown...

there's things that have to be in order to enter the gates of the mind attempting to reach another level of joy...

in a story of a girl n a boy...

one that not many have the mindset to comprehend the decision of allowing another to get close...

groping the after effects of actions shown...

others are either  bitter and not ready themselves of have already gained what the rest of us are still waiting on...

so many of us allowed ourselves to be torn...

n i'm nothing special myself...

running from the trigger squeezed as the living dead isn't a life i choose for self...

i've just learned how to smile no matter what...

as the clown chuckles to make time avoiding the untamed rush...

just because i can...

jus because i refuse to cater to the selfishness i've banned...

because i will never forget who i am again...

n that's jus where i stand...

as i too know what it'll take to get beneath my own skin...

tickling the sensitivity of the ribs...

point being is the matter at hand when it comes to relations is if you're going to be with someone you have to know they're good for you...

that they can think in a situation where two are as one in an individual that moves......

able to feel safe...

to relate...

to communicate...

n reason with being claimed...

having a presence about them that sparks a light on why you should see where things go...

speaking freely to show self in raw form without thrones...

it's a caution taken so there's no option of losing someone else...

help.!.

the goal is to want a long lasting time of ones life...

past the initial demise of the hype...

to find that crave like you do not want to live without them...

having a win win...

knowing you can do more than partake in a motion shared so life itself is lived on both ends equally...

visually...

this is where my mind is at...

where thoughts come to comprehend facts...

lingering in my own time alone...

wondering of the long lost whoas...

 in silence...

defiant...

with patience...

living in hesitance...

so i too can live for once...

hoping to obtain a rare luv...