please help me understand

What is it in me u say u dont wanna lose?
Cuz im fightin a battle in which there is no proof.
Sittin round waitin on good times to come back again.
When all I see is vibrations from words tearin me apart as a man.
So tell me, y me of all pepole do u decide to rip into shreds?
Cuz I dont deserve the lonely abuse n empty promises left in my head.
Im havin a hard time believin that im am the one.
The only thing I hear is a tone callin as the rest of u is on the run.
Please help me understand the complications u force upon me.
Cuz ill never get how luv could destroy what I bring.
Tell me how it is u think youve awoken to the need of my face.
Cuz im lost n direction is a triangle where the compass' way is erased.
U gotta understand what it is u did to me.
N y I shake on the thought of havin u in my dreams.
Can the truth be heard if spoken after so many lies?
Im jus askin cuz I havent quite got u off my mind.
Its jus the details u leave behind that mske me wonder.
Is this a game in which u r the hunter?