the crack that broke me

As private as it gets to be unsaid round bout now.
Theres pieces if me shattered about.
The crack that broke me wasnt so quiet.
I imploded in the not so gentle hands of silence.
As self fell apart without a care chasin a dream.
Chips bounced into a million itty bitties of me's.
All starin back for answers that screamed.
Like as if in a smashed mirror n they didnt recognize me.
As simple as it sounds im jus an image that failed.
Not all of the puzzle is even here so I cant be repaired.
Ive lost key microscopic elements to my own design.
Empty is what I am inside anymore as tears r invisible to the eye.
Rounded edges r more sharper than I remember.
Bleedin ducts drip within n im drownin alive all together.
On emotions I cant bare to explain any longer.
I jus dont know how to put me back together.
I cant look at my reflection long enough to figure it out.
A snap exploded inside me as I crumbled with a frown.
A trigger to my own character comin undone.
The wind mustve blown away the connection gone numb.
The one between me n my happiness escapin.
I feel the rottin of who I was deterioratin.
That man with purpose that gave his all on the line.
N of the fragments that were left behind.
They were plucked from my luv while still alive.
Pulled from my heart like teeth from the mouths gritted grind.
Makin sound adjust to the ear so damn confusin.
Mumbles n moans of gibberish went unheard causin delusions.
I dropped my shell n was taken out by the hunt.
Shot down by what appeared to be a 50 cal. From cupids very own gun.
Takin the life I knew away from whom I was deep in my core.
N to be honest I jus dont wanna live this way no more.
As quiet as its kept on the hush side of secrets.
Ive lost my will n if u find it u can keep it.