Starin at the memories left in the mind.
This road has become a test of time.
As the heart alone will never let go.
Of a friend in moments that went so slow.
Images remain behind thoughts left.
Somehow things came round now felt.
Its the memory that aches walkin solo.
Things play out from a season so cold.
Diggin in to what remains as a friend.
Left in the depths til the inevitable end.
Seems to be touched is somethin special.
N all anyone can do is cope with the mental.
Guess times unfair n we jus cant have it all.
People come n go n friends fall.
After sharin days that made a difference.
As to hold on needs to be an alliance.
Findin a place deep within the confort shared.
N its left wantin the emotion that cared.
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Monday, March 17, 2014
unfulfilled
Sayin all there is to be said.
Leavin dead echos in an empty head.
Transformin what has become.
Into a confused state of mind gone numb.
Livin within the shadows of thoughts.
Hidin from the emotional wants.
Scared to look into eyes that care.
Unable n unprepared.
Time has lost sides of luvs gain.
Sittin motionless as feelin isnt the same.
In a trans of simply left alone.
Not knowin which way to go.
The caved in heart has collapsed.
Jus needin what one that they had.
Movements dont seem to even wanna try.
N thinkin brings tears to the eyes that cry.
Lil patience linger in hope.
Yet it doesnt help to bother to cope.
Its jus the loss of pure unjustified depths.
That came to life as self was swept.
Away n never given a real chance.
To walk aside in a blinded glance.
Theres nothin more to say anymore.
Jus gotta find a home for the cure.
Not speakin of how it feels.
Brings fourth a sense of the unfulfilled.
Livin n breathin jus goin with lifes will.
Runnin from anyone that touches the thrill.
Waitin on that hand thatll only do.
But how long can one actually ooze?
Before the inevitable apears in the unseen mirror.
Shuttin down even on the lonely fear...
Leavin dead echos in an empty head.
Transformin what has become.
Into a confused state of mind gone numb.
Livin within the shadows of thoughts.
Hidin from the emotional wants.
Scared to look into eyes that care.
Unable n unprepared.
Time has lost sides of luvs gain.
Sittin motionless as feelin isnt the same.
In a trans of simply left alone.
Not knowin which way to go.
The caved in heart has collapsed.
Jus needin what one that they had.
Movements dont seem to even wanna try.
N thinkin brings tears to the eyes that cry.
Lil patience linger in hope.
Yet it doesnt help to bother to cope.
Its jus the loss of pure unjustified depths.
That came to life as self was swept.
Away n never given a real chance.
To walk aside in a blinded glance.
Theres nothin more to say anymore.
Jus gotta find a home for the cure.
Not speakin of how it feels.
Brings fourth a sense of the unfulfilled.
Livin n breathin jus goin with lifes will.
Runnin from anyone that touches the thrill.
Waitin on that hand thatll only do.
But how long can one actually ooze?
Before the inevitable apears in the unseen mirror.
Shuttin down even on the lonely fear...
Saturday, March 15, 2014
like the window
I remember sittin in bed listenin to this song that repeated in my head.
N I felt the pain squeeze tears from my eyes as I felt an end to the hype.
Well before she turned on me in another day for the final time for her own ways.
It was a harsh reality I faced comin from a friend I wanted to see breathe.
As free as the poluted air in her lungs n tge candy she ate.
I sat a man defeated by other than what it was truly I gave.
Yet as still as I was motionless there was nothin I could do to change the b.s.
I jus think back n visualize a blinded fool that luv existed in the mix.
N as the piano played I knew a nemory would come from the life she lived.
Idk how many times I asked her no to leave me outta pure luv she wasnt willin to give.
Countless hrs were spent tryin to communi catw with even myself.
Yet its was comin n I hadnt a thing I could do to help.
I jus wasnt enough when I stood next to her as she blew like the wind.
She really fucked up my grin.
Patrick Swayze... shes like the wind.
N I felt the pain squeeze tears from my eyes as I felt an end to the hype.
Well before she turned on me in another day for the final time for her own ways.
It was a harsh reality I faced comin from a friend I wanted to see breathe.
As free as the poluted air in her lungs n tge candy she ate.
I sat a man defeated by other than what it was truly I gave.
Yet as still as I was motionless there was nothin I could do to change the b.s.
I jus think back n visualize a blinded fool that luv existed in the mix.
N as the piano played I knew a nemory would come from the life she lived.
Idk how many times I asked her no to leave me outta pure luv she wasnt willin to give.
Countless hrs were spent tryin to communi catw with even myself.
Yet its was comin n I hadnt a thing I could do to help.
I jus wasnt enough when I stood next to her as she blew like the wind.
She really fucked up my grin.
Patrick Swayze... shes like the wind.
I guess
Like the flat line screamin til the plug is pulled.
I guess this is the end of the show for sure.
Nothin sadder than a luv so pure gone to waste.
But it wasnt my actions y we wound up like this.
Its an emotion im gonna miss n that's no lie.
Jus wish u coulda seen me before the end of our time.
THE ANGERS faded as if it jus dont matter anymore.
My thought is I jus wasnt enough n u wanted more.
Yet I was the total package that stood by ur side.
N u did e erything u could to destroy all possibilities in my mind
Its crazy to think of life without u.
But its jus one of those things where u gave ti much abuse.
U,u dont do much as its settled in n im lookin out at a world I no longer wanna face.
Cuz alone ill feel til my dyin inevitable day.
Y u did what u did ripped us from luv for drugs.
N its a cryin shame we cant find each other with kisses n hugs.
Forever torn from the one I choose is the way ill live my life.
Cuz u never truly knew y I wanted u as my very own wife.
But its cool the way u jus gave up as I stood still.
Standin with luv drippin in my hands losin its thrill.
Yeah, its s void I cant seem to come to terms with.
N idk y im not worth the ecpressions I spit.
Must be u coulda never luvd me the way u say u did.
I guess butchie is jus a memory to mandy as when we were kids.
I was there in the struggle givin my all for u.
N what hurts the most is how u could jus walk away without me a use.
U forced me away so I wouldnt see who u were to become.
Cuz u knew I wouldnt have any part of that life goin numb.
It was foolish of u to put us thru the pain n the hurt.
Cuz now I sit in wonder if luv was really meant thru words.
I guess this is the end of the show for sure.
Nothin sadder than a luv so pure gone to waste.
But it wasnt my actions y we wound up like this.
Its an emotion im gonna miss n that's no lie.
Jus wish u coulda seen me before the end of our time.
THE ANGERS faded as if it jus dont matter anymore.
My thought is I jus wasnt enough n u wanted more.
Yet I was the total package that stood by ur side.
N u did e erything u could to destroy all possibilities in my mind
Its crazy to think of life without u.
But its jus one of those things where u gave ti much abuse.
U,u dont do much as its settled in n im lookin out at a world I no longer wanna face.
Cuz alone ill feel til my dyin inevitable day.
Y u did what u did ripped us from luv for drugs.
N its a cryin shame we cant find each other with kisses n hugs.
Forever torn from the one I choose is the way ill live my life.
Cuz u never truly knew y I wanted u as my very own wife.
But its cool the way u jus gave up as I stood still.
Standin with luv drippin in my hands losin its thrill.
Yeah, its s void I cant seem to come to terms with.
N idk y im not worth the ecpressions I spit.
Must be u coulda never luvd me the way u say u did.
I guess butchie is jus a memory to mandy as when we were kids.
I was there in the struggle givin my all for u.
N what hurts the most is how u could jus walk away without me a use.
U forced me away so I wouldnt see who u were to become.
Cuz u knew I wouldnt have any part of that life goin numb.
It was foolish of u to put us thru the pain n the hurt.
Cuz now I sit in wonder if luv was really meant thru words.
Friday, March 14, 2014
touch
Touch. As soft as it gets rough excites me thru fingertips that slide in a caressin tease grippin with the pain pleasin me that keeps me on my knees. Forcin the need to feel what's real as contact gently turns into passions fire rippin lose thru touch fallin madly in luv as fantasies r plucked from dreams. Landin flush as bodies connect n rub in sweat inspectin to be felt as emotions r dealt with the ease acceleratin into a ragin act of wants pleeds. Begs becomin demands as two open up in a moment holdin the gift long enough to enjoy blush turnin into all out straps, restraints n chokin with a side of truth escapin the english language n movement seen.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
please help me understand
What is it in me u say u dont wanna lose?
Cuz im fightin a battle in which there is no proof.
Sittin round waitin on good times to come back again.
When all I see is vibrations from words tearin me apart as a man.
So tell me, y me of all pepole do u decide to rip into shreds?
Cuz I dont deserve the lonely abuse n empty promises left in my head.
Im havin a hard time believin that im am the one.
The only thing I hear is a tone callin as the rest of u is on the run.
Please help me understand the complications u force upon me.
Cuz ill never get how luv could destroy what I bring.
Tell me how it is u think youve awoken to the need of my face.
Cuz im lost n direction is a triangle where the compass' way is erased.
U gotta understand what it is u did to me.
N y I shake on the thought of havin u in my dreams.
Can the truth be heard if spoken after so many lies?
Im jus askin cuz I havent quite got u off my mind.
Its jus the details u leave behind that mske me wonder.
Is this a game in which u r the hunter?
Cuz im fightin a battle in which there is no proof.
Sittin round waitin on good times to come back again.
When all I see is vibrations from words tearin me apart as a man.
So tell me, y me of all pepole do u decide to rip into shreds?
Cuz I dont deserve the lonely abuse n empty promises left in my head.
Im havin a hard time believin that im am the one.
The only thing I hear is a tone callin as the rest of u is on the run.
Please help me understand the complications u force upon me.
Cuz ill never get how luv could destroy what I bring.
Tell me how it is u think youve awoken to the need of my face.
Cuz im lost n direction is a triangle where the compass' way is erased.
U gotta understand what it is u did to me.
N y I shake on the thought of havin u in my dreams.
Can the truth be heard if spoken after so many lies?
Im jus askin cuz I havent quite got u off my mind.
Its jus the details u leave behind that mske me wonder.
Is this a game in which u r the hunter?
tears of joy
Lets go to war.
Bounce off the walls to the floor.
Bring hell!
Let shit fly n blood spill.
Makin the battle worth the fight.
N then see if we can get at life.
Findin a truce.
Cuz hard times give proof.
Yeah I wanna see what luv is.
To witness u help fix shit.
Cuz without the pain.
The pleasures nothin but vain.
Complete the fuckin package.
N stand stand in hand with matches.
Havin to decide.
Is this shit worth the ride?
All or nothin.
Even with the cussin.
Its what's makes tears of joy.
Feelin emotions void.
Come get at the struggle.
Make life with me n cuddle.
Swiingin with opened arms.
U cant have luv if the heart hasnt been chard.
It gives reason of missin out.
We can show each other how.
Til the death of luv or knowin what we got.
Cuz my luv for u hits the spot!
Bounce off the walls to the floor.
Bring hell!
Let shit fly n blood spill.
Makin the battle worth the fight.
N then see if we can get at life.
Findin a truce.
Cuz hard times give proof.
Yeah I wanna see what luv is.
To witness u help fix shit.
Cuz without the pain.
The pleasures nothin but vain.
Complete the fuckin package.
N stand stand in hand with matches.
Havin to decide.
Is this shit worth the ride?
All or nothin.
Even with the cussin.
Its what's makes tears of joy.
Feelin emotions void.
Come get at the struggle.
Make life with me n cuddle.
Swiingin with opened arms.
U cant have luv if the heart hasnt been chard.
It gives reason of missin out.
We can show each other how.
Til the death of luv or knowin what we got.
Cuz my luv for u hits the spot!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
come tomorrow
By the time tomorrow pops over the edges of earth.
My luv will appear before u to stand as urs with a smile that curves.
I feel it comin as the night reaches for this day to rest.
Comin from within itll probably explode on ur touches best.
Its been buildin since weve started n drives me into ur arms.
N to wait for the sunset to ease my pain of ur absence is to much.
Rollin past the midnight hr with patience of day break cuz I fallin in luv.
Ticks of seconds at this point feel like decades gettin lost.
N all ive ever wanted was someone real in my life as the sunrise rests on u so soft.
So when the contact redeems the pleasure put on pause.
Jus know only u can repair a man wastin away on the run
I'm findin a completion thats missin for thats what youve become.
My luv will appear before u to stand as urs with a smile that curves.
I feel it comin as the night reaches for this day to rest.
Comin from within itll probably explode on ur touches best.
Its been buildin since weve started n drives me into ur arms.
N to wait for the sunset to ease my pain of ur absence is to much.
Rollin past the midnight hr with patience of day break cuz I fallin in luv.
Ticks of seconds at this point feel like decades gettin lost.
N all ive ever wanted was someone real in my life as the sunrise rests on u so soft.
So when the contact redeems the pleasure put on pause.
Jus know only u can repair a man wastin away on the run
I'm findin a completion thats missin for thats what youve become.
enough
Y do u havta ask u to hold on.
When as natural as it gets should come fourth.
I got thus feelin like I jus wasnt enough.
Yet I gave my all ti sit aline with luv.
I was there as u ledt me standin confused.
Ur that one id never thought id lose.
So y is it u didnt see me at all.
N u firgot who I am as I called out ur name.
U didnt wanna make it last n idky.
N matter what still wants u in my life.
Even after the change has focused on u as my wife.
How could u jus s throw me away like that.
N watch me come undone not bein able to see ur face.
Is it u jus didnt care enough to try jus once.
Cuz im torn in the way I stand n under the gun.
Facin reality of turnin away or comin home.
Luv I jus dont know if I am the one.
U gave up after the emotions was shared.
In the middle of my all bein bared.
N I cant help but to feel I jus wasnt enough.
For u to give n prove to me ur madly in luv.
Isnt that ebat u meant when u said u dont know what youd do without me.
Yet I crumble n u smiled as I landed on my knees.
Forced to find my way in wonder if u even thought bout me.
Beggin to the walls daily please, please, please.
When as natural as it gets should come fourth.
I got thus feelin like I jus wasnt enough.
Yet I gave my all ti sit aline with luv.
I was there as u ledt me standin confused.
Ur that one id never thought id lose.
So y is it u didnt see me at all.
N u firgot who I am as I called out ur name.
U didnt wanna make it last n idky.
N matter what still wants u in my life.
Even after the change has focused on u as my wife.
How could u jus s throw me away like that.
N watch me come undone not bein able to see ur face.
Is it u jus didnt care enough to try jus once.
Cuz im torn in the way I stand n under the gun.
Facin reality of turnin away or comin home.
Luv I jus dont know if I am the one.
U gave up after the emotions was shared.
In the middle of my all bein bared.
N I cant help but to feel I jus wasnt enough.
For u to give n prove to me ur madly in luv.
Isnt that ebat u meant when u said u dont know what youd do without me.
Yet I crumble n u smiled as I landed on my knees.
Forced to find my way in wonder if u even thought bout me.
Beggin to the walls daily please, please, please.
selfish
I havent forgotten how I got these fuckin scars.
N how I was broken in my restless heart.
Nah, I remember n feel it in ur face.
Everytime I peek at ur selfish games.
Foolish was a man to have let u rip shit apart.
Yet I needed u to act out in a displayed art.
But hate u I dont for some odd reason.
Even though u change ur mind on like seasons.
Here today n its good for a while.
Then u flip out n im walkin on wires.
Yeah, I think ive seen it all standin next to u.
Everything but luv me in honest truth.
What u did was an act of selfish violence.
N I sit motionless n alone with my silence.
Waitin to witness if ur best will ever appear.
As a friend furst it is u I truly havta fear.
N how I was broken in my restless heart.
Nah, I remember n feel it in ur face.
Everytime I peek at ur selfish games.
Foolish was a man to have let u rip shit apart.
Yet I needed u to act out in a displayed art.
But hate u I dont for some odd reason.
Even though u change ur mind on like seasons.
Here today n its good for a while.
Then u flip out n im walkin on wires.
Yeah, I think ive seen it all standin next to u.
Everything but luv me in honest truth.
What u did was an act of selfish violence.
N I sit motionless n alone with my silence.
Waitin to witness if ur best will ever appear.
As a friend furst it is u I truly havta fear.
leadin the mislead
Confidence without arrogance is sn action spoken behind wrods so rarely used.
Teachin the gullible a more suitable way shown by simply givin a truce aside the proof.
Leadin the mislead curruption if sn others mind state thats seen n been thru to much.
Openin doors as the hearts floor is swept clean n luv shines the surfaces misused truth.
Layin to rest the disadvantage damaged by time along the course of relations past.
Standin firm n in character of landin deep in emotional gain that jus might last.
Correcting what has happened before a gentle hand guides the saddened thoughts the plague.
Its an interest of willingness that no matter what, happiness is shared n is here to stay.
Teachin the gullible a more suitable way shown by simply givin a truce aside the proof.
Leadin the mislead curruption if sn others mind state thats seen n been thru to much.
Openin doors as the hearts floor is swept clean n luv shines the surfaces misused truth.
Layin to rest the disadvantage damaged by time along the course of relations past.
Standin firm n in character of landin deep in emotional gain that jus might last.
Correcting what has happened before a gentle hand guides the saddened thoughts the plague.
Its an interest of willingness that no matter what, happiness is shared n is here to stay.
special kinda fool
If I were to. If I did. Maybe touch that secret within me. Jus allow it to live. Is the line enough. Possibly longer that I thought. What if I opened up. Would emotions luv soft? Lets say I felt u still. Like I never gave up. Where would that leave me? Cuz once before I was crushed. So what the odds. The outcome of the chance. At all costs. Is friend finally ready not lost? If I turned me inside out. Bared all truth. Would I be a soecial kinda fool. Or am I worth bein put to use. Think before answers r spoken. Words we can not retract. Somethin we both know for sure. Now act as I react.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
have u faced reality
R u ready?
If all hell would break loose.
If time wasnt on Ur side.
N the calapse fell thru.
Blinded by the hate.
Opened to the crumble.
R u able to stand?
N be more than humble.
Hidin in the shadows.
Lingerin in the dark.
Dancin in the misunderstood.
Could u feel ur heart?
Pumpin n fightin for survival.
Losin ground with impatience.
Frustrated n yellinn in the midnight hr.
Jus to feel normals radiance.
Can ya endure the pain.
Rippin loose n unstable.
Deep inside comin fourth.
R u able?
Under the chests cavity.
For a chance to calm the nerve.
Smilin n disturbed.
Emptyin the hurt.
Ragin from ur secrets within.
Angered by the restless b.s.
Twisted cuz no one cares.
Findin piece in uselessness.
R u as fucked as I am?
Mentally unchangeable.
Releasin the furies pleasure.
Yeah! Jus so fuckin intolerable.
Have u faced reality?
As the mirror looks away.
Hahahahahahahaha.
Can u face the insane?
Comin outta ur humanity.
Locked in ur own vault.
Screamin for a way.
Acceptin its not ur fault..........
If all hell would break loose.
If time wasnt on Ur side.
N the calapse fell thru.
Blinded by the hate.
Opened to the crumble.
R u able to stand?
N be more than humble.
Hidin in the shadows.
Lingerin in the dark.
Dancin in the misunderstood.
Could u feel ur heart?
Pumpin n fightin for survival.
Losin ground with impatience.
Frustrated n yellinn in the midnight hr.
Jus to feel normals radiance.
Can ya endure the pain.
Rippin loose n unstable.
Deep inside comin fourth.
R u able?
Under the chests cavity.
For a chance to calm the nerve.
Smilin n disturbed.
Emptyin the hurt.
Ragin from ur secrets within.
Angered by the restless b.s.
Twisted cuz no one cares.
Findin piece in uselessness.
R u as fucked as I am?
Mentally unchangeable.
Releasin the furies pleasure.
Yeah! Jus so fuckin intolerable.
Have u faced reality?
As the mirror looks away.
Hahahahahahahaha.
Can u face the insane?
Comin outta ur humanity.
Locked in ur own vault.
Screamin for a way.
Acceptin its not ur fault..........
jus an individual
Its not that im tryin to be different.
Nor do I need the pain n struggle to be a memories want.
I dont wanna lose any more friends.
The kind that hang around til the end.
Im not bein me jus to be invisible.
Yet I dont wanna stand out n be invincible.
Havin my world fall down around me is enough.
Findin answers in the rubble of dust.
Lookin up n no gods present to hear me cry.
Im not the type to cave but im not tryin to hide.
Im thinkin fuck it n im wastin time.
But if I dont care, what's gonna happen to mine?
N who isnt tired of the way this world works?
Name one that's happy by bein a tasteless burp.
No, im not somethin youve never seen.
Jus an individual that actually speaks.
Nor do I need the pain n struggle to be a memories want.
I dont wanna lose any more friends.
The kind that hang around til the end.
Im not bein me jus to be invisible.
Yet I dont wanna stand out n be invincible.
Havin my world fall down around me is enough.
Findin answers in the rubble of dust.
Lookin up n no gods present to hear me cry.
Im not the type to cave but im not tryin to hide.
Im thinkin fuck it n im wastin time.
But if I dont care, what's gonna happen to mine?
N who isnt tired of the way this world works?
Name one that's happy by bein a tasteless burp.
No, im not somethin youve never seen.
Jus an individual that actually speaks.
Monday, March 10, 2014
change of pace
All out n spread, I haveny got anything new left to say.
Bout that time to under go a change of pace.
Redirect the chais n ease back outta my own ways.
Im dine diggin for I know whom it is I am unafraid.
Ive been pushin me out for so long I cant remember anything else.
I belive its time to relocate my mind in the presence with self.
Im opened enough to know me n I get the point.
For the words released I feel movin my joints.
So heres to me sesrchin a different aspect to gain my sanity back.
But ill be back cuz this is not a thing if the past...
Bout that time to under go a change of pace.
Redirect the chais n ease back outta my own ways.
Im dine diggin for I know whom it is I am unafraid.
Ive been pushin me out for so long I cant remember anything else.
I belive its time to relocate my mind in the presence with self.
Im opened enough to know me n I get the point.
For the words released I feel movin my joints.
So heres to me sesrchin a different aspect to gain my sanity back.
But ill be back cuz this is not a thing if the past...
closer than contact
Lets blind one an other by closin the door n turnin off the lights.
Feelin our way around beneath the sheets n under the night.
Jus express thru movement of truth comin out to play.
Droppin whispers in the ear so soft nerves ease as theyre tamed.
Gettin closer than contact meetin passions surface comin to life.
Givin proof of y I became ur husband n u my wife.
Leanin into the cofort of what is shared in between only us.
Pressin air to the side until we r completely flush.
Feelin to be felt as touch crawls thru our deservin hearts.
Undermindin the guidlines n fallin into one an other n truly apart.
Definin the design in which friends were meant to be.
Side by side, front to back n live as one so freed.
With a knowin of a single graze sets us apart in our moment together.
Makin damn sure its u n I thatll last forever.
So intament innocence reaches in a need to cling.
Enjoyin the presence of the in which we share a ring.
Feelin our way around beneath the sheets n under the night.
Jus express thru movement of truth comin out to play.
Droppin whispers in the ear so soft nerves ease as theyre tamed.
Gettin closer than contact meetin passions surface comin to life.
Givin proof of y I became ur husband n u my wife.
Leanin into the cofort of what is shared in between only us.
Pressin air to the side until we r completely flush.
Feelin to be felt as touch crawls thru our deservin hearts.
Undermindin the guidlines n fallin into one an other n truly apart.
Definin the design in which friends were meant to be.
Side by side, front to back n live as one so freed.
With a knowin of a single graze sets us apart in our moment together.
Makin damn sure its u n I thatll last forever.
So intament innocence reaches in a need to cling.
Enjoyin the presence of the in which we share a ring.
shapin lifes desires
Stickin to the mud as if a child playin in the rain.
Keepin that truth alive n tryin to maintain.
Like a new born doe out frolickin free.
Lookin at the horizon chasin dreams.
Temptin time to set aside a moment to live.
Hopin I never lose that innocent mind width.
Shapin lifes desires to that of my very own.
Day in day out feelin what it is to be known.
Walkin in puddles n splashin in good fun.
Every step with purpose of how I to can luv.
With a smile that can not break for it is mine.
Laughin cuz its not so serious is how I reside.
Doin me like I always have for its who I am.
Growin to be one day a respectable man.
Keepin that truth alive n tryin to maintain.
Like a new born doe out frolickin free.
Lookin at the horizon chasin dreams.
Temptin time to set aside a moment to live.
Hopin I never lose that innocent mind width.
Shapin lifes desires to that of my very own.
Day in day out feelin what it is to be known.
Walkin in puddles n splashin in good fun.
Every step with purpose of how I to can luv.
With a smile that can not break for it is mine.
Laughin cuz its not so serious is how I reside.
Doin me like I always have for its who I am.
Growin to be one day a respectable man.
Sunday, March 9, 2014
playin stop
Playin with my heart n messin with my mind.
Stop twistin me inside n fuckin up my life.
Where I stood is no where near where I stand.
Imma give it to u straight n ill be damned .
Ticklin my emotions n runnin away?
Kissin me softly n turnin ur cheek as if its ok.
Quit comin n goin lookin out for self.
Cuz ive been there for u n will I can not help.
U forced the hand that lent a heart to step.
Cuz for u in my life I fell as u slept.
As pure as luv could crawl from within.
Yeah, I can finally smell ur stench.
Rotten n rollin with a grin u clown.
Yet we both know the truths u play down.
Flippin script out for selfs interest.
Who you have become I can not miss.
Jus a figment fragmented in a dreams to waste.
Time is to precious to buy into ur ways.
I'm this way do go to ur own distant world.
I'm here in reality n for once ur not my girl.
Ur playground is the only thing u understand.
Do go, playin stop isn't for this man.
Down to the nitty gritty I walked the line.
N now it's time for me to again do mine.
How u did me was want right by far.
So face the very presence as hearts r chard.
Bye bye now, if luv to believe it was nice.
But on the thought I will never think twice.
Worth the time I wish I woulda never gave.
Cuz it was Butchie by Mandy that never once stayed.
Stop twistin me inside n fuckin up my life.
Where I stood is no where near where I stand.
Imma give it to u straight n ill be damned .
Ticklin my emotions n runnin away?
Kissin me softly n turnin ur cheek as if its ok.
Quit comin n goin lookin out for self.
Cuz ive been there for u n will I can not help.
U forced the hand that lent a heart to step.
Cuz for u in my life I fell as u slept.
As pure as luv could crawl from within.
Yeah, I can finally smell ur stench.
Rotten n rollin with a grin u clown.
Yet we both know the truths u play down.
Flippin script out for selfs interest.
Who you have become I can not miss.
Jus a figment fragmented in a dreams to waste.
Time is to precious to buy into ur ways.
I'm this way do go to ur own distant world.
I'm here in reality n for once ur not my girl.
Ur playground is the only thing u understand.
Do go, playin stop isn't for this man.
Down to the nitty gritty I walked the line.
N now it's time for me to again do mine.
How u did me was want right by far.
So face the very presence as hearts r chard.
Bye bye now, if luv to believe it was nice.
But on the thought I will never think twice.
Worth the time I wish I woulda never gave.
Cuz it was Butchie by Mandy that never once stayed.
u got it in ya
Run with this n dont get scared.
Fuck bein careful or even bein prepared.
Jus do ur thang n find where it leads.
Break me of n do as u please.
Get with it n show ur ass.
Urself n jus lemme grab dat gap.
Feel urself n come the fuck to life
Lemme witness ur best before my eyes.
Loose n with it playin a foolish game.
Windin up wherever we land dinr be affraid
Careless n wreckless livin alive.
True self niw, dont u dare hide.
Undercover blown n showin out.
Come on now n show me what ur about.
Where u at n can u handle bein free?
Cuz im jus doin what I do bein me.
With a smile n a grin chirpy as hell.
Damn, damn, damn, well, well, well.
I know u got it in ya to do it right.
So stop half steppin n get at life.
Fuck bein careful or even bein prepared.
Jus do ur thang n find where it leads.
Break me of n do as u please.
Get with it n show ur ass.
Urself n jus lemme grab dat gap.
Feel urself n come the fuck to life
Lemme witness ur best before my eyes.
Loose n with it playin a foolish game.
Windin up wherever we land dinr be affraid
Careless n wreckless livin alive.
True self niw, dont u dare hide.
Undercover blown n showin out.
Come on now n show me what ur about.
Where u at n can u handle bein free?
Cuz im jus doin what I do bein me.
With a smile n a grin chirpy as hell.
Damn, damn, damn, well, well, well.
I know u got it in ya to do it right.
So stop half steppin n get at life.
play me
Grind me down n work me over.
Move with temptations as a luvr.
Play me into ur seductive ways.
Arousin my anatomys wiith ur game.
With bedroom eyes that tease.
Make my taste tester wanna please.
Allow ur curves to sway before my eyes.
N become the only thing on my mind.
Display ur vulgar attempt to get to me.
Like the freak u wanna release so free.
Get to ur sexuality n open up.
With a movement so erotic I need the touch.
Raise ur bar of willingness to turn me on.
Doin things u hide within deep in ur core.
Grabbin my attention n shape ur image.
Climb inside my mind n stimulate the gain.
Pasionately swayin as u awaken my hormones.
Dyin to witness the truths u control.
Actin out ur dirty lil secrets u crave to be.
N watch how u bring out the real man in me.
Move with temptations as a luvr.
Play me into ur seductive ways.
Arousin my anatomys wiith ur game.
With bedroom eyes that tease.
Make my taste tester wanna please.
Allow ur curves to sway before my eyes.
N become the only thing on my mind.
Display ur vulgar attempt to get to me.
Like the freak u wanna release so free.
Get to ur sexuality n open up.
With a movement so erotic I need the touch.
Raise ur bar of willingness to turn me on.
Doin things u hide within deep in ur core.
Grabbin my attention n shape ur image.
Climb inside my mind n stimulate the gain.
Pasionately swayin as u awaken my hormones.
Dyin to witness the truths u control.
Actin out ur dirty lil secrets u crave to be.
N watch how u bring out the real man in me.
Saturday, March 8, 2014
what u dont know
Drippin as u stand reachin for me neck.
Fully clothed reachin for my belts best.
Unbuckled n touchin my crazy ways.
Tryin to get me to come inglued n play.
Gurl what u dont know is ur my sanity.
The way u pull me from within, tamin me.
U got that groove my playful side needs.
N quietly spoken ur my fantasies dream.
Bitin ur lip n comin on strong the way u do.
Has the man in me loosinen up to ur groove.
Smilin with horns this is one of those lifes.
Jus gettin it n goin where only we can test time.
But what u dont know is how u do it for me.
U drive me into the nights selfish need.
Cuz I crave to bring ur misbehavin to use.
So as u please, roll with me n get loose.
As sexy as u can being fourth ur wants.
Imma fulfill ur desires callin beneath luv.
Showin its face in ur eyes with that stare.
Makin me fall forward into u so bared.
N what u dont know is how u do what u do.
Awakens the life in me jus wantin to touch u.
Alone n in the dark hldin nothin back.
Jus givin my own for as long as I can last.
Fully clothed reachin for my belts best.
Unbuckled n touchin my crazy ways.
Tryin to get me to come inglued n play.
Gurl what u dont know is ur my sanity.
The way u pull me from within, tamin me.
U got that groove my playful side needs.
N quietly spoken ur my fantasies dream.
Bitin ur lip n comin on strong the way u do.
Has the man in me loosinen up to ur groove.
Smilin with horns this is one of those lifes.
Jus gettin it n goin where only we can test time.
But what u dont know is how u do it for me.
U drive me into the nights selfish need.
Cuz I crave to bring ur misbehavin to use.
So as u please, roll with me n get loose.
As sexy as u can being fourth ur wants.
Imma fulfill ur desires callin beneath luv.
Showin its face in ur eyes with that stare.
Makin me fall forward into u so bared.
N what u dont know is how u do what u do.
Awakens the life in me jus wantin to touch u.
Alone n in the dark hldin nothin back.
Jus givin my own for as long as I can last.
holdin u
I never knew I was lost til I found u.
Reappearin n completin that empty blue.
Jus holdin u shit became so clear.
As the man in me rose without fear.
Side by side that comfort is irreplaceable.
To reach to be able to touch u is remarkable.
All the questions I had disintegrated instantly.
As everything I longed for had possibilities.
Ur lips co in synced wit mine so perfect.
My dreams cane true as I knew u were worth it.
From the past u came n gave me luv.
A truth that never lied as we became flush.
Its u my heart calls for in the middle of the night.
Opened n acceptin willingly ur hand in mine.
From the start n as long as ive known u I was urs.
N after holdin u, u own my luv that needs u more.
As words can never express the depth of how I feel for u.
Jus know til the end of time, my emotion will never go mute.
Reappearin n completin that empty blue.
Jus holdin u shit became so clear.
As the man in me rose without fear.
Side by side that comfort is irreplaceable.
To reach to be able to touch u is remarkable.
All the questions I had disintegrated instantly.
As everything I longed for had possibilities.
Ur lips co in synced wit mine so perfect.
My dreams cane true as I knew u were worth it.
From the past u came n gave me luv.
A truth that never lied as we became flush.
Its u my heart calls for in the middle of the night.
Opened n acceptin willingly ur hand in mine.
From the start n as long as ive known u I was urs.
N after holdin u, u own my luv that needs u more.
As words can never express the depth of how I feel for u.
Jus know til the end of time, my emotion will never go mute.
do me in slowly
If u feel the need to cut me.
Do me in slowly.
Take ur time so we both can enjoy the pain.
As emotions drip like rain.
Ease the twist n make it last.
Remind be of what it was I had.
Before the end of lettin go stands still.
All im askin is dont live in gilt.
Jus do it n have patience in ur decision.
Take my will n force ur incision.
Find ur pleasure in breakin me down.
Cuz once broken, for this luv the heart wont pound.
Do me in slowly.
Take ur time so we both can enjoy the pain.
As emotions drip like rain.
Ease the twist n make it last.
Remind be of what it was I had.
Before the end of lettin go stands still.
All im askin is dont live in gilt.
Jus do it n have patience in ur decision.
Take my will n force ur incision.
Find ur pleasure in breakin me down.
Cuz once broken, for this luv the heart wont pound.
r u
As an individual, r u enough for an other to find worth.
Is whom it is u truly r gonna be what theyre lookin for.
When the dimee drops n u appear before their eys as u r.
Is ur all youve become gonna stand alone as hearts pour?
At the mement of impact where the realization is known.
Is it self that u have opened up n willingly shown?
R u that one life dorsnt seem right without once time jas taken its toll?
Givin proof to relations that home is earned n will never grow cold.
If emotions unwound n u were left in a calm stare.
Will eyes speak in a way purpose is felt as ur bared?
Can the skin feel touch in a sense of comfort lettin loose?
Freein n submittin self to a cause to luv thatll never die with use.
Dip into ur mind n seek if actions that tell u, u r wanted.
To someone else as u r, r more than somethin.
Is whom it is u truly r gonna be what theyre lookin for.
When the dimee drops n u appear before their eys as u r.
Is ur all youve become gonna stand alone as hearts pour?
At the mement of impact where the realization is known.
Is it self that u have opened up n willingly shown?
R u that one life dorsnt seem right without once time jas taken its toll?
Givin proof to relations that home is earned n will never grow cold.
If emotions unwound n u were left in a calm stare.
Will eyes speak in a way purpose is felt as ur bared?
Can the skin feel touch in a sense of comfort lettin loose?
Freein n submittin self to a cause to luv thatll never die with use.
Dip into ur mind n seek if actions that tell u, u r wanted.
To someone else as u r, r more than somethin.
Thursday, March 6, 2014
strange
Wouldnt u wanna be strange.
Touch a lil strange.
Feel a bit of strange.
Wouldnt u wanna rearrange life.
N cut its strings.
Release the puppet from the strain.
Jus Act strange.
Reinvent ur own name.
Become u n realize what it is to be sane.
Break away from the same.
Dabble into the strange.
As u as self is claimed.
Opened up n untamed.
Feelin strange.
As the new u is gained.
Knowin ur own range.
Bein known as self tamed.
By self inside ur own brain.
Doesnt it feel nice to be strange.
As an individual needin change.
Touch a lil strange.
Feel a bit of strange.
Wouldnt u wanna rearrange life.
N cut its strings.
Release the puppet from the strain.
Jus Act strange.
Reinvent ur own name.
Become u n realize what it is to be sane.
Break away from the same.
Dabble into the strange.
As u as self is claimed.
Opened up n untamed.
Feelin strange.
As the new u is gained.
Knowin ur own range.
Bein known as self tamed.
By self inside ur own brain.
Doesnt it feel nice to be strange.
As an individual needin change.
beneath the level
Under the radar away from suns shadow hidin from noticability.
Where every movement is a collusion with lifes invisibility.
Beneath the level of crucial inflictions intertwined n playin their part.
Im amongst the lowest of life peekin a shut eye stealin whats been chard.
Its back to the bottom where it all began decades ago.
Damn I shoulda known my own enemy lived within I shoulda sold.
The struggle down here behind these concrete walls never relaxes.
This place is so close the end nearin round givin a flyin fuck facts ass.
So heres to ur happy lives goin so perfectly insane n hypocritical.
Some forced down into the gutters jus dont belong, but in ur world would that be hypothetical?
Where every movement is a collusion with lifes invisibility.
Beneath the level of crucial inflictions intertwined n playin their part.
Im amongst the lowest of life peekin a shut eye stealin whats been chard.
Its back to the bottom where it all began decades ago.
Damn I shoulda known my own enemy lived within I shoulda sold.
The struggle down here behind these concrete walls never relaxes.
This place is so close the end nearin round givin a flyin fuck facts ass.
So heres to ur happy lives goin so perfectly insane n hypocritical.
Some forced down into the gutters jus dont belong, but in ur world would that be hypothetical?
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
the crack that broke me
As private as it gets to be unsaid round bout now.
Theres pieces if me shattered about.
The crack that broke me wasnt so quiet.
I imploded in the not so gentle hands of silence.
As self fell apart without a care chasin a dream.
Chips bounced into a million itty bitties of me's.
All starin back for answers that screamed.
Like as if in a smashed mirror n they didnt recognize me.
As simple as it sounds im jus an image that failed.
Not all of the puzzle is even here so I cant be repaired.
Ive lost key microscopic elements to my own design.
Empty is what I am inside anymore as tears r invisible to the eye.
Rounded edges r more sharper than I remember.
Bleedin ducts drip within n im drownin alive all together.
On emotions I cant bare to explain any longer.
I jus dont know how to put me back together.
I cant look at my reflection long enough to figure it out.
A snap exploded inside me as I crumbled with a frown.
A trigger to my own character comin undone.
The wind mustve blown away the connection gone numb.
The one between me n my happiness escapin.
I feel the rottin of who I was deterioratin.
That man with purpose that gave his all on the line.
N of the fragments that were left behind.
They were plucked from my luv while still alive.
Pulled from my heart like teeth from the mouths gritted grind.
Makin sound adjust to the ear so damn confusin.
Mumbles n moans of gibberish went unheard causin delusions.
I dropped my shell n was taken out by the hunt.
Shot down by what appeared to be a 50 cal. From cupids very own gun.
Takin the life I knew away from whom I was deep in my core.
N to be honest I jus dont wanna live this way no more.
As quiet as its kept on the hush side of secrets.
Ive lost my will n if u find it u can keep it.
Theres pieces if me shattered about.
The crack that broke me wasnt so quiet.
I imploded in the not so gentle hands of silence.
As self fell apart without a care chasin a dream.
Chips bounced into a million itty bitties of me's.
All starin back for answers that screamed.
Like as if in a smashed mirror n they didnt recognize me.
As simple as it sounds im jus an image that failed.
Not all of the puzzle is even here so I cant be repaired.
Ive lost key microscopic elements to my own design.
Empty is what I am inside anymore as tears r invisible to the eye.
Rounded edges r more sharper than I remember.
Bleedin ducts drip within n im drownin alive all together.
On emotions I cant bare to explain any longer.
I jus dont know how to put me back together.
I cant look at my reflection long enough to figure it out.
A snap exploded inside me as I crumbled with a frown.
A trigger to my own character comin undone.
The wind mustve blown away the connection gone numb.
The one between me n my happiness escapin.
I feel the rottin of who I was deterioratin.
That man with purpose that gave his all on the line.
N of the fragments that were left behind.
They were plucked from my luv while still alive.
Pulled from my heart like teeth from the mouths gritted grind.
Makin sound adjust to the ear so damn confusin.
Mumbles n moans of gibberish went unheard causin delusions.
I dropped my shell n was taken out by the hunt.
Shot down by what appeared to be a 50 cal. From cupids very own gun.
Takin the life I knew away from whom I was deep in my core.
N to be honest I jus dont wanna live this way no more.
As quiet as its kept on the hush side of secrets.
Ive lost my will n if u find it u can keep it.
if i
If I believed I could show an angel how it to could cry at the mercy of whats been felt.
Even if, yet I do not participate in such evils on the edge in which I fell.
The expression to clip the wings is a form of suicide for the way home is gone.
Then maybe the disbelief will be taken n notes of how a human feels lost.
From beginnin to end fillin voids n losin ground with time fallin behind the legs.
With a subconscious in which speaks a piece of the minds understandin as if awake.
As I am unable to turn on self n give self away to a fairytale imagined by fear.
Yet if I could touch the flight of an angel it be with a bullet for all my undeserved tears.
Even if, yet I do not participate in such evils on the edge in which I fell.
The expression to clip the wings is a form of suicide for the way home is gone.
Then maybe the disbelief will be taken n notes of how a human feels lost.
From beginnin to end fillin voids n losin ground with time fallin behind the legs.
With a subconscious in which speaks a piece of the minds understandin as if awake.
As I am unable to turn on self n give self away to a fairytale imagined by fear.
Yet if I could touch the flight of an angel it be with a bullet for all my undeserved tears.
simply reason
It must be everything I thought it ever was n will ever n for forever be.
My all is still on the line, willin to prove what type of emotion needs freed.
Diggin deeper jus to touch that feelin that sinks into the skins comfort.
It must be real luv lastin thru the strugglin heart playin friends in chords.
Past the point of no return it lives n reaches to survive til the end of time.
Pleedin quietly n silence never heard n breakin down as its so felt wooven in a ryhme.
Its truth settlin on the tongue to be shared with the only one thatll ever do.
Livin in patience n waitin to simply reason with a luv that can be more than put to use....
My all is still on the line, willin to prove what type of emotion needs freed.
Diggin deeper jus to touch that feelin that sinks into the skins comfort.
It must be real luv lastin thru the strugglin heart playin friends in chords.
Past the point of no return it lives n reaches to survive til the end of time.
Pleedin quietly n silence never heard n breakin down as its so felt wooven in a ryhme.
Its truth settlin on the tongue to be shared with the only one thatll ever do.
Livin in patience n waitin to simply reason with a luv that can be more than put to use....
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
hooked
Hooked in the heart that becomes live bait.
Pumpin to a pulse pulled grom the dirt.
Like a worm that never had a chance.
Plucked from the mud flushed out by the rain.
Punctured n bleedin pains truth of fear.
With no help comin soon before the dip.
Sinkin under the splash down to the fishies.
To a sea of hungry mouths bitin a nibblin pinch.
Swimmin n waitin for the moment to see u swirm.
Chomp,chomp, rippin the nerve of life away.
As the fight within drowns beneath airs gasp.
Done n comin undone as the rest of whats left fades.
Pumpin to a pulse pulled grom the dirt.
Like a worm that never had a chance.
Plucked from the mud flushed out by the rain.
Punctured n bleedin pains truth of fear.
With no help comin soon before the dip.
Sinkin under the splash down to the fishies.
To a sea of hungry mouths bitin a nibblin pinch.
Swimmin n waitin for the moment to see u swirm.
Chomp,chomp, rippin the nerve of life away.
As the fight within drowns beneath airs gasp.
Done n comin undone as the rest of whats left fades.
is it real?
If luv doesnt hurt, it isnt real.
Its like emotions that cant seem to feel.
Passion without a kiss in a pause.
Someone exceptin u n all ur flaws.
In the same as truths held on the tongue.
Words gone unheard n to the heart, unsung.
Its to hold the hand of ur best friend.
Yeah, its a connection from beginnin to end.
Without them, nothins seems right in life.
Two as one side by side til the end of time.
So if whats shared isnt felt no matter what.
Jus walk away cuz it surely isnt true luv.
Wastin time in the face for personal gain.
As if expressions used is nothin more than a game.
Its gotta have depth of purpose felt deep.
Or its jus not anything od what it appears or seems.
Is it real or r u movin in motion?
Toyin with an others will n devotion.
Its like emotions that cant seem to feel.
Passion without a kiss in a pause.
Someone exceptin u n all ur flaws.
In the same as truths held on the tongue.
Words gone unheard n to the heart, unsung.
Its to hold the hand of ur best friend.
Yeah, its a connection from beginnin to end.
Without them, nothins seems right in life.
Two as one side by side til the end of time.
So if whats shared isnt felt no matter what.
Jus walk away cuz it surely isnt true luv.
Wastin time in the face for personal gain.
As if expressions used is nothin more than a game.
Its gotta have depth of purpose felt deep.
Or its jus not anything od what it appears or seems.
Is it real or r u movin in motion?
Toyin with an others will n devotion.
Monday, March 3, 2014
beggin for truce
Its a struggle to find self.
Its me I can no longer help.
Idk how to be me anymore.
Who am I behind the gore.
The face of a man is confused.
Beggin for a truce.
His heart swims in sorrow.
Not lookin forward to tomorrow.
Its an empty feelin wantin it to end.
Ive lost my fuckin head.
The tossin n turnin is to much.
Coverin up luv with an others touch.
Somethin jus aint right.
I have no will in my fight.
The one I use to be is gone.
Somethin is seriously wrong.
Anger riddles my thoughts.
Pain Consumes what was fault.
The stance I rise to jus doesnt care.
Jus goin with the flow unprepared.
N its me that is to blame.
I failed n now feelbthe strain.
The weakness I never knew I had.
N its drivin a sane man mad.
Touch jus doesnt feel the same.
Everything is nothin more than a game.
N its the way I miss my life.
How I jus wanna feel my wife.
Life fell apart n idk what im doin.
N its as if idk where im goin....
Its me I can no longer help.
Idk how to be me anymore.
Who am I behind the gore.
The face of a man is confused.
Beggin for a truce.
His heart swims in sorrow.
Not lookin forward to tomorrow.
Its an empty feelin wantin it to end.
Ive lost my fuckin head.
The tossin n turnin is to much.
Coverin up luv with an others touch.
Somethin jus aint right.
I have no will in my fight.
The one I use to be is gone.
Somethin is seriously wrong.
Anger riddles my thoughts.
Pain Consumes what was fault.
The stance I rise to jus doesnt care.
Jus goin with the flow unprepared.
N its me that is to blame.
I failed n now feelbthe strain.
The weakness I never knew I had.
N its drivin a sane man mad.
Touch jus doesnt feel the same.
Everything is nothin more than a game.
N its the way I miss my life.
How I jus wanna feel my wife.
Life fell apart n idk what im doin.
N its as if idk where im goin....
I thought
I thought I was hurt by words.
The pain we served.
I must've went over shit a million times.
The hate we pretended to side
I believed it wasnt me u wanted for sure.
Lost n lookin for a cure.
N after alls said n done.
Im left knowin y I grunt.
Its cuz ur not by my side.
Mandy, ur the reason for the happiness in my life.....
The pain we served.
I must've went over shit a million times.
The hate we pretended to side
I believed it wasnt me u wanted for sure.
Lost n lookin for a cure.
N after alls said n done.
Im left knowin y I grunt.
Its cuz ur not by my side.
Mandy, ur the reason for the happiness in my life.....
wanna go home ( im numb)
Im done. I jus wanna go home.
The fun n games r over. Blown cover.
Im jus a simple man. Listenin to my heart.
I want a real luv. Givin life to the numb.
Its the only thing ive ever needed. Wanted.
Fir someone to be there. Simply care.
Fuck the dumb. Im tired of goin numb.
I dont wanna live without. I'll show u how.
My all is urs to hold. Dont let me grow cold.
Alone n makin due. Be my truth.
Change what lifes become. Ur man comin undone.
It could be us in our time. Best friends within a piece of mind.
Own me! Make me who I use to be.
Cuz im lost. Life somehow stalled.
Will is abscent. Its fucked up n tragic.
Seems ive died n walkin dead. Be the one in my head.
Bring me back. Help me make it last.
Its jus me. Reachin Im numb n free.
Jus hold our luv. Feel its touch.
Cuz ive never felt anything like it. Without the b.s.
Walk with me til the end of time. Me as urs n u as mine.
No matter what. Side by side n fallin deeper in luv.
More n more everyday. Snuggled at night as we lay.
Im lonely without a friend. For me bend.
Cuz I'll break for u. Cuz I know ur use.
Be the one that makes me, me. Dont leave me with a dream.
Close the space in between. Come find me.
Im waitin n ready to come home, I'm numb. Cuz with u I wanna fall madly in luv!
The fun n games r over. Blown cover.
Im jus a simple man. Listenin to my heart.
I want a real luv. Givin life to the numb.
Its the only thing ive ever needed. Wanted.
Fir someone to be there. Simply care.
Fuck the dumb. Im tired of goin numb.
I dont wanna live without. I'll show u how.
My all is urs to hold. Dont let me grow cold.
Alone n makin due. Be my truth.
Change what lifes become. Ur man comin undone.
It could be us in our time. Best friends within a piece of mind.
Own me! Make me who I use to be.
Cuz im lost. Life somehow stalled.
Will is abscent. Its fucked up n tragic.
Seems ive died n walkin dead. Be the one in my head.
Bring me back. Help me make it last.
Its jus me. Reachin Im numb n free.
Jus hold our luv. Feel its touch.
Cuz ive never felt anything like it. Without the b.s.
Walk with me til the end of time. Me as urs n u as mine.
No matter what. Side by side n fallin deeper in luv.
More n more everyday. Snuggled at night as we lay.
Im lonely without a friend. For me bend.
Cuz I'll break for u. Cuz I know ur use.
Be the one that makes me, me. Dont leave me with a dream.
Close the space in between. Come find me.
Im waitin n ready to come home, I'm numb. Cuz with u I wanna fall madly in luv!
Saturday, March 1, 2014
its the way u left me standin as a man
Its how u left me standin as a man. Aline n make back against this cold world wantin n in need of my friend. I seems u didnt understand where I stood when I was next to u. Loyal n honest in proof I found myself mistreated n played as if an instrement of ur confusion. I was there til the day came space gave u the power to shove me away as if I never meant anything to u. But it wasnt the first time. We use ti say friends fir life, no matter what. That lasted as ling as u foynd others n we werent face to face n u held the cards. N ooh u played them n used tbe queen of hearts to cut me down with her sharp edges. Funny! I took every blow. Every hateful bit if torcher I didnt deserve. It wasnt easy n til this day I struggle in life knowin what I thought I had u say is real. What u say I will recieve with 100% n full of luv. Yet ur there as an other doesn't allow s to speak. N if I come thru the door ur homeless. Sad! U were suppose to stand by my side like I did urs thru all the pain n hardship that u caused. N now that ive found comfort in someone who needs me as I do her to give life to a smile that doesnt seem to work, u say I crushed u. Nice! N now that u know how it feels which wasnt my intent, u feel me n luv me now. But y now? Cuz ur treated like shit? Cuz now u realize I spoiled ur worth n make life? Cuz u had time to think n come away with how good u had it with the gentlest hand u ever felt? U forced me to step. N jus between u n I, I dont wanna lose ve without u. Yet my hands r tied to fear of what u can do to me at any given moment. U alone r a piece of work I can handle. Its the way u left me standin as a man I cant shake. The way I had ti dig to pull myself from a place I never knew existed. Somewhere after feelin ur touch, ur skin, I never thought id ever walk thru. Yet u forgot bout me. Butchie! The one person in this world whi was there for u cuz I cared. Cuz there was purpose for u in my life. But u turned on me for what reasons. We were great together when u wasnt lookin after yourself. When actually expressed ur luv. Its jus the way u left me standin as a man time n time again when ur fury landed in me heart, head n my skin as the connection slowly destroyed me so what was I to do after u said I dont know what id ever do without u. Cuz ive seen what youd do n it pains me in the deepest place ive ever felt. N yet more luv v for u will never die. Im jus not healed n scared shitless of only u in this world. All I wanna do is come home. I s to hold u n feel the luv that never ended within me. But someone needs me for ive gained a trust that u never cared to see. Shes been my go to, my comfort n my friend I can count on. So to leave her to the wolves will never happen. Jus know someone is there for me. A human that simply needed someone like I did when tore me apart. I stand beside n behind her cuz I have found a luv fir her like I have u. Its not easy knowin I can come runnin to u. Its not fair now that youd want me to. I fought for luv. N u ran to a kidestyle that ripped our life apart. Pretendin to be someone else cuz it was so fuckin fun to do as u wanted. To lose all ten of us as a family. I was the only one that gave my all n took the abuse to show u what luv could do. Ilu1! N I always will. Jus please understand now is not the time for me to give u what u want cuz ur done learnin ur lesson as an other controls ur life when by my side u were free to be u. Mandy n Butchie for life right? Then be patient cuz theres somethin I have to do in life. If u can do that, it show youve changed n understand cuz the luv we share is true. Ur my one. My only. Endless luv. AILOWY1! Its jus the way u left me standin as a man. Real!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)