Dumped inside I fell within as my shell was sealed.
Left to my rotten core tryin to escape its appeal.
Fightin all the chaos floatin within picked up in time.
I'm tryin to get away from the hell caused by the grind.
Since I was droped in this cell I've concored nothin.
At war with self I'm losin the battle of sufferin.
There's not a thing in here to give that's worth a fuck.
Everything seems twisted compaired to this world that sucks.
Most days I stagger in a strugglin point view that lacks.
Myself is wantin out before I peel at the openin cracks.
Breakin down deep in the depths I have no control.
Its jus a matter of time until I escape this sicknees untold.
"MY LITTLE PIECE OF .COM"
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Escape
Three word questions, n i jus wanna know
Are you there?
If so where?
Where'd you go?
When wind blows?
Why'd you leave?
Did you grieve?
Was it bad?
Who is sad?
Can you here?
Where's your fear?
Why's it hurt?
Was it dirt?
Are you covered?
Will you smother?
Where you at?
Has life lacked?
Have you cried?
Is it lies?
Who's missin who?
Why's it abuse?
What's your point?
When's it void?
Are you serious?
Who is curious?
Are you lost?
Where's you cause?
Can you feel?
Why's this real?
Do you know?
Who's fading slow?
Are we clueless?
When's it fluent?
Have you left?
Where's my help?
Can't you see?
Am I please?
Friday, June 29, 2012
Loosen up
Twisting the wrist counter clockwise. In a Popeye since of humor to grab the imaginations naked eye. Nothing more than an image coming alive. Based on words fulled with the explosiveness of the mind. Guiding an audience through the pow bang boom of batmans connection. Swung with motivation to move the unseens reaction. Face licked with a flavor of tasting the snout of scooby dooby doo. Trying to hold back that fiesty scrappy dappy doo. Feeling the flow of slobber drenching the sights of letters pushing out the reality that owns us all. Losening up the frames nuts and bolts to ease out of societies brawl.
Solitude
Taunted by the past where nothing was right.
Figthing for change with what one has in sight.
Emotions healed for the sake of chance not trial.
Patterns stitched with threads giving a new style.
Pressed flush against relations with a new angle.
Wrapped and lost in an intertwining tangle.
Holding the balance of the good over evil.
Finding within actions lifes coarse to mingle.
Times at ease stretching truth so gloriously wide.
Praying it won't repeat what used to be lies.
Then going on now the future depends on trust.
Pasing through the ticking believing with a slow rust.
Polishing ths shine for the core just can't quit.
Gripping the solitude of love tricling in the mist.
Pouring out emotions patching the hearts intensions.
Never wanting to return to the confusions conflictions.
Moving forth as feet step with purpose that matters.
Dreading the day if all is a waste as the mind can't control the heart that shatters.
Speaking eyes
Locked in the pupils with a resemblance. Watching how this world has effected balance. Noticing colors bending in a swirl like stream. Trying to manuver around obstacles taking the shapes I see. Twists of creativity formed in the retnas showing appeal. Reflection in the mirror is an image so real. Depth shows in character on thy face. Eyes speaking as the tongue lays still with patient grace. Loaded for a stare worth the imagination to wonder upon. Casting contact cannecting with me as one.........
Horns behind doors
You ever felt ya horns grow as lights are dimed. Feeling something about the nights grip. Mmmm, the behavior turning on realities control. Getting the most out of an other as you roll. Points on as eyes eat the moods will with a pleasure fill smirk. So excited trying everything not to burst. When the darkness surrounds the sound clinging to the passion. Coming out behind closed doors where no one can see the temptation. Oooooh the comfort of trust in between two giving self in full. In a game in which there is no restricting rules. Away from the days struggle just simply unwinding. Left opened pleased and sighing.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Caught in mid air
Plucking words released so loosley before sounds makes it way into thin air. Grabbing ahold of the silkish like strokes sliding through my finger tips as chosen vocabulary is shared. At the moment of contact as I listen to secrets tucked safely in my palms in which I cherish words so true. Reacting to the emotion in tone within each individual letter that possesses devotion that moves. Swiftly touching an easing nerve passing throughout what makes me believe. Satisfied by the tongues tasteful temptation of chosen speech expressed and freed.
You move me
Orchistrating a movement flowing from where you've landed in my depths. You move me with such passion as if I were a puppet at the mercy of your wills lips. Speaking in tongues of what it is I must do without sound breaking barriers. Controlled by eyes sliding jesters of my actions that satisfy your interior. No effort is used to demonstrate the compacity of power you posses over me. For my master I will obey your every desire for I am living my dream.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
AMEN
Jesus Christ, have mercy on me. Tell our Father I get it now. I appologise for I was wrong. I mean him nor you any harm. You arm my savior. My brother. I ask you, if you will speak to me after our history. I have questions without answers that needs only your guidence. I am here. Please fogive me. Amen!
Monday, June 25, 2012
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Far
Words cut quick and deep.
Hurting a lonely little weep.
Singling out unjustification.
Letters wrapped around immitation.
Meant to dent the hearts soft shell.
In lines spoken as their delt.
Directed at turning pleasures stealth.
Feeling bruised and left with no help.
Ripping tones pound at the ear.
Confusing the mind far from clear.
Uneasy with what's just been heard.
Not knowing ones true worth.
Screams whisper inside the head.
Conclusions unable to be met.
Eye to eye is missed in between.
And so far from even been seen.
Since wee bit high
I still can't believe it.
Is it you I'm with?
Fallen further everyday.
Needing you to stay.
We went back to the roots.
To a time of truth.
Changed we still feel it.
Pressed against the lips.
Its crazy to say the least.
Setting one an other at ease.
The comfort lavel is paradise.
Knowing its you by my side.
Is this really happening?
Emotions we're dabbling.
Finding we were made for each other.
So close and lovers.
This is the way it should of been.
With your love I want to live.
No one else could have this effect.
Digging deep as self I check.
Letting down our guards.
Realizing this love is not so hard.
The pleasure of honest relations.
Not lust immitating expectations.
Without a thing to change.
Accepted for our passion to range.
Could it be we're finally together?
Snuggled up in stormy weather.
Having the back of our best friend.
Its us breaking for the mend.
Reaching I know why I craved you.
Never getting lost in the memories use.
You stood out and lived for so long.
Now here where we belong.
I am stuck on the thought.
Of having you being the one I've been caught.
Every man bends for one woman in his life.
One like no other as husband and wife.
Your the one I was designed for.
Do you know that you live in my core.
Always have since wee bit high.
And all I can say is its about fucking time.
I've missed you and didn't even know it.
But now as a man I can unconditionally show it.
Your abscense was a void misunderstood.
Your purpose feels so good.
Seems time had other plans.
Now understanding I was destined to be you man.
Its you here in front of me.
Bringing life to my dreams.
Fallen I am madly in love with only you.
It tickles me to say you own will letting loose.
My one I am yours to experience.
Have fun in between finding me and leveling your lifes balance.
do or
Do u wanna exist?
Or once dead be dismissed?
Do u wanna live?
Or waste emotion that gives?
Do u wanna feel ur life?
Or walk numb until u die?
Do u wanna absorb reallity?
Or slowly be erased by insanity?
Do u wanna be in time?
Or fill ur lifetime with an empty mind?
Do u get the point of being alive?
Or are u sleep walkin as its shoved aside?
Do u enjoy the possiblities of happiness?
Or is it a dream that never awakens
Do u ever wanna be missed?
Or does the thought leave u embarressed?
Do u know what its like to attend actions?
Or did u forget how to react with a meaningful reaction?
Do u understand the gift of breathin?
Or does it matter we're all one day leavin?
Do u think of what it is u posses?
Or is there a lack of partakin interest?
Saturday, June 23, 2012
closed door locked
Baracated in our own.
Isolated n grown.
Its unexplainable.
Untamable.
Wildin out.
Moans n sounds.
Content inside.
Together we clime.
Climax gauranteed.
Teasin to please.
Closed door locked.
Touchin that spot.
Away from the world.
Toes bend n curl.
No one knows.
Orgasms slow.
Alone 2 becomes 1.
Hidin from the sun.
Jus as us.
Fuckin in love.
y hold out
I'm curious as fuck!
When does ur sexual tension give up?
Lettin loose at the seems.
Grab hold of ur nauthy dreams.
Y resist the explicit gift?
Let go of ur freaky cherry n accept ur fix.
Care about ur hormonic balance.
Share ur explosive deliverence.
Gab a tale of ur passion.
Detailed in ur own fashion.
Where's ur desire to enjoy?
In between a girl n a boy.
The satisfaction is becomming?
With movements so soothin n riviting.
How can u restrict the ability to be self?
Relax n dabble into intensions willin to help.
Stop fightin the crave fightin to get out.
Ease up n unlock ur depths of doubt.
Ur givin the ability to explore.
Release ur satisfaction within ur core.
Id neva tell a soul.
Fulfilling ur excitments i jus to know.
Friday, June 22, 2012
tuned
Walkin and touchin the vibe inside the walls of my heart.
In a stroll causin ripples the justify your mark.
On a peaceful journey playin with my love.
Teasin emotion with fingers that wind up in a rub.
Strokin the beat that pulsates to the comfort.
Makin love to the willingness of tuning chords.
Playin me as if I were an instrument untuned.
Happily pleasured by bein used by you.
Smilin in a sway all your own you glide.
Outlastin cupids arrow shot in a dead aimed line.
unseen yet noticed
Peekin out.
I see you.
Eyes in a dead stare.
Only if you knew.
Slicin airs grind.
Landin vision on love.
Pushin through space.
With an invisible touch.
Wide open for the sight.
Stuck.
Makin love to your presence.
I can't get enough.
Can you feel me in a daze?
Lost in your features.
Roundin the shape of your face.
Checkin for dimples.
Watchin the connection.
Unseen yet noticin.
Liftin lids in a pause.
Pupils are flirtin.
At one without a blur.
Lovin the connection.
Lost in the colors.
Surroubdin the retnas courage..........
forsaken boundaries
Welcome to my fantasy. Where anything is bound to happen. Don't think it or even speak it. For pleasue is far from lacking. Its a twisted place of joy and fetishes. Willing to concor the untamed. Ease on in and free yourself. Let's play a open minded game. My world is an unselfish piece of work. Just bring you bodies will. Give a little bit of self. And I guarantee you'll never be still. Boundaries here are forsaken. Only rule is to let intension fly. You can be as free as air. Money is declined. Its your gain if interested. Fun awaits where no one can see. Tempting hidden secrets unmentioned. I won't ask you into what could intimidate a dream. Nor will I lead you my way. Its on you to find your way past the shell in which you live. Only you know what you want. And what it is you're willing to give.....
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
getting use to the questions
Can one really get use to life when it constantly changes every time the wind blows?
Leaving so many to accept subject of the change as the heart folds.
Is the purpose to learn every time one turns around as if they haven't learned enough?
When's it time to teach an other that needs the guidence of being tough?
How close is to close before a blur of a memory is all that's left of happiness?
Forcing life to walk away with legs that want to stay stationary with feet planted in the soil of realness.
Is freedom something that's somewhere along the lines of worries being irrelevant to emotions speaking out?
Finding self once again trying to maintain as if reallity spoke of changes ripped loose from the mouth.
Where is the comfort suppose to live if tomorrow is never promissed?
Lingering with those that surround wonderimg the same thing of who's being honest?
When is it time to get use to the way its always going to be?
When today goes to sleep under a different night as we dream.
the change of yesterday
Looking down is a pair of eyes leaking as the head hangs.
With blurred visions of yesterday falling from the swells that change.
Hands swiping the insane thoughts of times that are different away.
Trying to keep a smile of what was as real as waking to a new day.
Lips quiver relentlessly with no regard to a situation so unneccessary.
Yet the end of a beginning is so overated and legendary.
With pouring emotions so clear tears can be seen through like crystals.
Free falling back to lifes unstoppable dream that circles.
Self is stuck making sense of the possition of a conforting kneel.
Leaving the flood to dry before the heart can attempt to heal.
battling inside is a war
Enduring love and pain simultaniously.
Mixed emotions from angles mystifying.
Confused on a smiles frawn so blank.
Falling away and giving everything is a strain.
The direction of the heart is speeding to a hault.
Knowing the twist is making me feel lost.
Battling inside is a war that can not be won.
Caught in the middle of a the abscent numb.
Taking all the dark sunshine can give.
I guess this is what its like to live.
Constantly defeated at ones best.
Colliding with what's left in the chest.
Hiding the fear of never giving in.
Showing a generous untamed grin.
Ends are frayed as happiness exists.
What in the hell is this crazy shit?
Holding on to the prayors to make a difference.
Waiting on times undividing moment of deliverence.
Emptiness and fulfillment all in one.
Faces having complete opposite expressions.
Tearing me apart is the saying you can't have it all.
I walk yet it seems that I crawl.
Breaking deep enough no one will ever know.
For the other is the dream that shows.
Fair hasn't a clue of what's going on.
Bared to the cores silence never heard and torn.
Strength worn and bravely excelling.
Winning and quietly failing.
All one can do is close the eyes and drift.
Thinking what if consistancy is a myth?
Monday, June 18, 2012
closing eyes
If my eyes were to close before tomorrow. Would they get the point of endless sorrow. Blinded by the depths of blank expressions. Unable to see their aimless reaction. Would I be felt in tears running from the pain unable to understanding the loss. If my eyes were to dry up and were as still as a pause. Does emotion finally sink in on the love I have. Leaving the pit of gone forever blame me for trying to be a dad. Eyes staring lifeless and in the distance. Becoming one with the erie silence. What would become of our relationship stranded in times way. Losing purpose day to day......
Sunday, June 17, 2012
is this it?
My chest aches. Affraid of emotion going to waste. Void is circulating. Hypnotising its strenghts synthosizing. Pain irritating smiles. While time sits back and clicks on a dial. It hurts to be. Please make since of tears that stream. Empty I'm drowning. Frawning and holding in the explicit pounding. Ticking like a nuke. Used with a misunderstood excuse. Visions getting blurry. Hurting in silent whispers blurting. Is this it? Fix this unwanted felling of b*llsh*t.
easing for a moment
Levitating the mind on idle.
Clearing the confusions denial.
Easing for a moment to relax.
Hoping it will surely last.
Taking a break from the stress.
Before I get back to the relentless test.
Silence has settled in softly.
Empty head is soothed genlty.
Reconnecting with a time to be.
Quielty ingoring even me.
Content to lay with satisfaction.
Without a souls interaction.
I am still feeling a simple breeze.
Happily int between my dreams.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
lil sumtin
I've never spit a lick. Yet I'm a quiet ryhmer. Unwindin in my time here. Lettin out the twisted break. I'm temptin my fate. Livin I a mind like I own. Spreadin thin on how I've grown.
jotting down the shape of will
Here laying in a re-arrangement of letters that intensify an ability. Playing with a vocabulary that expresses a unique sort of simplicity. Sits a lone mans words unlocking what it is within him that is real. Telling without a peep how life has effected his minds motion picture recorded on the memory reel. Lost in a world no one knows of here in space wasting away. Jotting down the shape of his wills satisfaction day to day. Emotion is felt through lines ryhming an angle untamed by others. Thoughts all his own he is with self on the battle to fill another page as the fingers hover. Clicking on trigger points the nerves ease as the release is fulfilling. Letting loose of the over flowing creativity that begs for the spilling. Form becomes shapeless to the minds vision unable to control the uninfluenced freedom. Written without a reader to give constructive critisism.
verbal interest
Ssssssh. Here the wind carrying the silence of a whisper trying to find you. Can you hear me calling out vibrations that form the letters of your name when connecting? Listen to my voice softly express through its tone on what you mean to me. It is rare for me to open up and allow myself to give so much meaning. Yet to say the things I say to you in this love I feel is a satisfaction gauranteed with an enjoyable taste. Quietly speaking sounds that land inside that place no one can reach within you. Can you tell the difference in my delivery than that of an other? Because I'm trying to verbally get through the thick of where you have been before you pass me by. It is the depth of communication breaking down before words are released from my tongue. To the point of no return I give emotion with every letter aimed and directed towards you. Just wait for the breeze to bring sweet truth and sit with the thaught. Then ask yourself, is it worth the while? I'm just me hoping to find that tender spot deep inside you as I can not help myself. When my mouth opens love pours out with intensions made for a lifetime. And all I could ever want from you is to respond the only way you know how. It is your choice to mute a man standing upright and willing in front of you. One that can withstand time with passion leaking from his hearts vocabulary. You decide what it is that stretches that smile you have in between lips shaping your reply.
Friday, June 15, 2012
invisible presence of love
Caught in the middle. In between man and woman. Stands love connecting duel hearts so passionate. The closer two get the further they become one. Living in the invisble presence of love. In the space where stares invading an other without a touch. Love lives naked and only seen in eyes baring the soul. Its there pasing time breifly for individuals to realize its worth. Unexplainable and a mystery to the mind its misunderstood at times. Yet for the better it will take you to a place all your own. Standing in the middle of love there's room for a missing piece to fill in the emptiness. Lost in a single first kiss.
comin up within my skin
This is who I am. Caught up becoming a man. Strivin to survive. Here and now I am alive. Beatin out my chest. Is a vibe that will not rest. Pleasure filled with pain. Crackin jokes out in the rain. My will it can not stop. My emotion will never rot. Comin up within my skin. Me u wish to pretend. Abscent homies like a junkie. Solo this world can't hold me. Breakin free without a doubt. With realness spilled from the mouth. No I will never bend. Me I have no choice but to give. With love that can not fade. Through the lord its the way I was made. Living out my dreams. In every fantasy. For I know where I do belong. Best foot forward I can't go wrong. Slippin on words that stands with meanin. Leavin this empty world feenin. I'm jus vibin to the truth. But speakin to u there is no use.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
reflection of a man
Damn. I noticed my face this evening n seen a man for the 1st time. Staring at my reflection in the spicket of the tub srubbing off the grim. I realized as the hair covering the outter me I have changed. Yet I feel the same as I always have n still maintain. Wow how I have grown into someone I can respect. In touch with me never to become suspect. I seen me for the first time no longer a child but a kid at heart. Constantly playing the hand I've been dealt as I lay my cards. I'm all in as I feel the day slip from the suns sights. Comfortably knowing to continue to live I have the right. Yet as I sit in the steam soothing my bones I think of thw age that doesn't really show. I'm aging well n I am thankful as I ease back slow.
if i were to
If I were to pour the most truest emotions without music to fulfill its purpose. Would the words plucked from my depths have any effect as if anyones feelings were to surface. In real talk giving an interested mind something to relate to. Would rhyming sylables connect somewhere in the hidden secrets never told or let loose. Allowing self to escape the chains binding them from openly expressing the reality of the word me. If I were to place stains in time upon the eyes willing to read. Would a difference be felt helping a lonely soul understand their not alone. Comfortable with the one within that can never be cloned.
diddlin in a dizzy state of mind
In my own weird way I am me. Living in my overflowing dreams. Revealing the I within I release the giggles. Jsut a happy little shit that can't help but to wiggle. Playful and confident I give this world something unique. Looked at with an eye made for mystery. If I'm not enjoyed by others it doesn't matter. Being me is fun and there's nothing id rather. I'm a simple soul filled with meaning and spunk. Accepted as me is all I want. Goofy and straight up is who I am. Life is grand. I dnot mind if I am misunderstood. Others as themselves wish they could. I am corky and it shows with the movement in me ways. It feels good to just be human at one with another day. He he I am me diddling in a dizzy state of mind. And its wide the fuck open with what's going on inside.
who?
Who's got who? Then again who knew? Who stands true? Over a shoulder behind the clues. Who's presence is there? Who is it that cares? And again whokeeps the playing feild fair? Always their. Who puts in the time? Who I ask is more than a find? For who to maintain their grind? I wanna know who equals out the faces shine.
a crack of passion
There's a lil crack under the door that allows the sounds to escape. Someones playing games as an other is a slave. Bein tamed n I bet one of em is trimed in lace. Invadin space in between eyes that gaze. I can hear hearts race, jus wish I could see their face. Doesn't sound like time is a waste. Splashin in waves. Wow the passion is expreesed the same. Flames flickerin shadows wildly in pain. To be on this side off the door I great. Wonder what's its like to be front n center with the visual of goin insane. I think someone needs saved. Mmmmm I wanna play.....
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
troops of pain
I never felt a tear fall with so much emotion as I tried to hold it in. Somehow I fought but it found its way out from within. Lonely it crept with patience as I endured it making its presence down my cheek. And I don't know how but Its sadness was something simular to defeat. Rolling in a slide, pausing long enough to explain how life changes its mind again and again. It hurt deep as confusion was as clear as the drop forming in a drip at my chin. It wasn't until it fell that I realized an army of pure need flooded my eyes and was pulled from inside. I was alone in my mind as my intensions broke and continued to try............. yet troops wash away a smile so wide nothong could ever repair. As if to release the pitty party I possess subcontiously without a care.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
home seems different
Up so high, feeling so low. Time marches on, and the things we learn to know. Caught in the middle, heart feels broken. Home seems different, painful emotion. Praying I cry, becoming distant to fast. Pulled and tugged,sliced cut and slashed. Fitting in only in my mind, no one understands. Fighting for air, lessened as a man. Giving so much, reaching for love and family. Holding my ground, losing drastictly. Finding no reasoning, this ican not be understood. Believe in me, if I could I would......
Monday, June 11, 2012
relations
Mind sets different in many ways. Relations very by comfortable circumstancial gain. Unique to those involved. For it's their world that revolves. Paradise to some enjoying the most. Heel to others affraid to stay close. Time changes the pasts forever after becoming individualized. Its for the ones putting in the work to realize. Keeping the emotion alive is rectifyable. Yet when enough is enough its undenyable. Attatched by will and driven by love. To some its hard as to others its easy to touch. Either running in or away from reality. Its selfs choice never to feel guilty. Hard times getting stronger. Good times lasting longer. Bad times breaking the mood. Needing something new. Truth is happiness is hard to find. Trust is earned in the heart and open mind.........
three jabs
Where to begin? Tears leaking out and pain sinking in. Confushion overload. Three jabs to the heart as it slows. Mind rewinding. Trying to find reason behind thoughts blinding. What just happened? I feel emotions sadened. Eyes are filled. Losing sight of the thrill. Where to go from here? After so many devoted years. What to do? I never thought I'd experience the strangle of the noose. Understand I do not. In termoil I sit and I rot. Contiplating absolutly nothing. Haven't anything to say to falling ceilings. Walls muted by expressions. I had pure and true intentions. Swallowing my lump. Words were so fucking blunte. Irrelevant to circumstances. And the torture inhances. What did I do? Living and doing the best that I could for you. Turning my stability. Left behind to insecurity. Selfishness speaking loud. As fear is pouring out. How can I smile. All that's left is buttons on the dial. I failed my own. Can't help them be grown. I am not okay. I don't even know what to say.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
landing clouds
When the clouds have landed and your walk has been eased by lighter footsteps following one another leaving the walk less pleasant behind. Don't be affraid for life has not ended, it has only begun as the skies have come to take you to heavens eternal happiness and wipe away your cries.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
distant and clinging
Who is this man I'm suppose to be? When I close my eyes I see me scream. And when I sleep I loose everything. I don't understand this thing. Seems my mind isn't done taking shit to extremes. Lingering thoughts making me mean. Who am I inside of me? Distant and clinging to lifes sting. Needing a drink or some of that green. Constantly begging please when I didn't do anything. Feeling like a lonely worn out breed. Floating in the bottom of a stream with snipped wings. What am I to a world that's doesn't want me? Some call me free. Yet I'm leaking out and without a team. No ones listening nor could I give a flying ringading. I'm me standing straight up within me. And that's all I'll ever be as on an other I can not lean.
behind the eyes
Cries held in so the pain doesn't show. Leaking out the torture is known. Hidden behind the eyes is a flood of unreason. Uncontrolled emotions are fleeing. Over flowing the hearts drowning with no gain. Minds over worked and dreadfully drained. Sounds held to a mute. Never allowed to be used. Forced down deeper than secrets forgotten. Hating the taste of the rotten.
only if u knew i could
Speakin in tongues a sailors mouth would wanna hush. Drivin u insane with it lappin touch. Content is explicit as words flow on what I can do to ur clit. Afterwards shovin u full of my dick. Wantin u bad I express how I wanna make u mad. Then fuck ya til u realize great sex is bad. Out spoken cuz I see what it is I wanna begin choken. In other words I wanna get to pokin. Raw images flood my thoughts n are released as they should. Only if u knew I could. How else would u know I can get u more than in the mood. On my level is where you'd scream n id proove. Sexual sounds burstin in ya ear as in u I wanna pound. Backside n u bent over as I mount. Diggin harder n deeper than you've eva felt a man gettin u weter. You'll neva find an other willin to do u better. It may be fowl but on u I'd go to town. I want u in the worst way as u get that devilish frawn. Take it or leave it. Its ur loss as ur body will twist. I may seem outta line n possibly a feen. But I wanna become ur unspoken dream. Playin ur hormones as u beg n moan. With 8.5 n width is my bone. Gettin u off id neva pause. Tweakin ur imperfect experiences n correctin the unfelt flaws. Rude to the point of purposely fulfillin ur void. Me I know you'd enjoy. Freakin u out of ur shells hidden shouts. I promise ur intensions will sprout. Givin meanin to the realness of fantasies dreamin. I wanna hear u in tune singin..............
I wanna watch u go down on her. Juicing splashin as ur vision is blurred. Ass in the air as she grabs ur hair. Showin ur skill of pleasure. Tastin her orgasmic treasure. Lickin as the tongue enjoys how soft. Listenin to u get her off. To see u enjoy ur sexuallity. Really gets to the inner me. Kissin n touchin with ease. Cravin to tease n be pleased. one explotion after an other. I wanna watch u unfold he
making love to the cores surface
Runway lading. Fingers sliding in a touch. Nerves twitching. Feeling the rush. Softly gliding along. Like a brush of air. Teasing the facts of need. Close enough to tickle the hairs. Contact as tips soothes the skin. Makin love the cores surface. Accepting the deisres to be filled. Alone with so much purpose. Dancing pleasure stealing the moment. Felt and feeling the emotion. Rising from the inner passion. Enjoying time spent to devotion. Carelessly allowing self to be taunted. Caressed because one is able. Every inch tamed by example. As hormones are no longer stable. Floating just above the surface. Hands linger wanting to play. Tempting movement to settle down. Enjoying the game. Slowly pressing with meaning. Firm yet gentle. Caring strokes finding their joy. More than being mental. Vibing to the beat of nails digging a scratch. Heart speeds with a pulsating trust. Opened to finally being wanted. Wrapped around the love.
gripping seconds slipping away
Made to be. Escaping as we breathe. Fulfilling dreams. Changing with a cling. Lost in between breaths. Felt in the chest. Deep in its nest. Releasing selfs best. At ease with knowing. Constantly showing. Feeling and growing. Emotions flowing. Happening while lifes on the move. Letting loose. With words put to use. Completed and choosing you. Opened and filled. Happy with will. Laying content and still. Alone when we chill. Gripping seconds slipping away. In love here today. Honest and brave. With an uncotrolable crave. Just being in our moments glimps. A once in a life time experience. Moving in the suspense. In perfect sequence. Trying to hold it. The flames been lit. With kisses upon the lips. I have to admit inside I'm whipped.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
clingin to love
Slow moods lit by the flames of candles. Causin shadows to dance to the nights handle. Lovers as one for the dark can not tell them apart. Just a intertwined movement lost without time tickin away on who they are. Music playin with the emotinal comfort of bein close to one an other. Even the cool breeze tries to cool them yet could never come in between true lovers. Clingin to love mates feelin the thrill of bein touched just right. As dawn approaches and is told by dusk they never gave up on the fight. Together forever as nothing between them can come. With passionate noises released and air pused from their lungs. Holdin on til the last of what's left of two as one in a of moment comin undone. Explodin n outlastin the fire that gave vision to so much fun.
stolen as me
I jus didn't do it cuz I was a horn dog. I wanted to see how far they'd go. Helpin em be true to self. Three strikes was my rule, leavin em wantin mo. I did I cuz I could. Cuz I had the skills to get under the skin. Bringin out their desires acted out. Then disapearin as they were breakin. Untamed lust sexually satisfied. I was good at what I did. In it to explore what an other was willin to do. I'm ashamed to admit. Playin games n stealin hearts. The fun it was to know I could do as I please. Their bodies were my playground as I taunted them curious. Givin one hell of a sigh of releif. Yet there is only one I stoped n I was so turned on by. The one that stole me from me as I was allowed to be me. The only one I can't get enough of. My one that has tamed the untamable beast n set me free. With her I am a true gent.... what we do no one will ever know. Dreams n passions are met without hesitance. N that's all that'll ever be told....
meeting in time
If my time and ur time met while gettin hung up in a tree waiting on a breeze. Would ur time find the time to get to know me before time ran out for us to leave. Blown away saying bye with not enough time to sigh and find comfort in a piece of mind. For time is all one has to shine in a moment to claim mine...............
Sunday, June 3, 2012
simplicity of love
If love makes life easier, why is it no one is witness to its liesures. Is it selfisihness in what humanity has become. Looking after number one. Blinded in ways no one can reach us. Unwilling to find the simplicity of love. Or is it people are so into self no one matters as if no one exists. Never feeling the meaning in a kiss on the lips. Everyone always wants to be catered to yet can't find the time to truly know someone. Willing for it to be over and done. Is it that easy to walk away from the best thing ever. Who's says their's greener grass on the other side of stormy weather. Life is what you make of it, is it not? Theirs no connection left in this worlds path. Treating all as if their scabs. Picking at them until there's nothing left. Never giving their own best. Yet wanting others to please them. Why is it everyone is suppose to bend. Character is abscent and behind the futures eyes is lost in a black hole swallowed. Man kind is so relentlessly hallow. There are few that even get the point of loves purpose and having a best friend. Guess that's the way it will be until the end......
Saturday, June 2, 2012
high as the deepest love
As high as the minds cloud nine floating with smoke like clouds in the sky. As deep as the ocean filled heart with feet planted in the sands dreams. Like tear drops flowing in a happy rain stoped by your hands sweet spot. My love for my one is as true as the sun that sizzles the heat in between making life so much fun.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
a sigh of relief
Smooth skin drifting along the under touch of finger tips. Soft tastes of love out stretched and meeting in the middle of a kiss. Touch soothing emotions tangled in a weave caressed by a warm breath. Floating in a flow sinking into the hearts tender interest. Movement crawling on the feeling in the middle of the nights passion. Need filling the rooms desired explosions interacting with the relentless reaction. Uncontrolled connection between bodies flushing with a gentle hover. Lost in the moments will to live with the embrace of the perfect lover. Mingling hormones reaching with limbs feeling a sigh of relief. Finally knowing what completion means as actions are truly believed.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
all in
I gotta best friend. One beside me til the end. For this one I will bend. Always I shall defend. I could never charge rent. For the heart is in mends. Popping out its pushed in dents. Never again will I pretend. Opened n lent. My love I send. There it goes as it went. Landing n listening to her vent. Living in our course of ever afters event. Over stepping the invisible limits. Outside a dream as its spent. Without dollars n cents. The way it was meant. Trying as I attempt. Always as a gent. Emotions openly blend. Closer than my own ken. Written in irreversable ink blotted pen. Happy with a grin. Lost in blisses intent. Comfortably content. Blessed with cupids suspense. With no reguard to defense. All in. Spread so thin. Me her n ten. Its our everyday under our circus tent. No over dominance. Jus happy n filled behind loves picket fence.
Sliding down the misplaced side of the minds unmentioned time. Landing and rolling away from self as the stray is ever so craved. Hiding behind thin air with a pair of itnesions that does not care. Daring the tamed thoughts to break free that were caught and unreleased by the pause. Hoping a crack will peek lights splat to show the way out before they go down with
Sunday, May 27, 2012
trust issues
Stepped aside. Ignored for no reason. Fates presence abscent. For it's not loves season. Manuvered so swift. Never felt. Shuffling feet. Everyones always into self. No time for quality. All is the same. In and out with no regrets. Playing an endless game. No one wins. Alone they stand emotionless. Pretending to be happy. Swallowed by their emptiness. Feeling others are out to get them. Trust issues. Yet more than reasonable. For love is abused. Worlds went a stray. Turning on the possibilities. Without knowing who can make the difference. And relations has no responsibilities.
Saturday, May 26, 2012
clingning to the souls limits
I got a symphony floating on music notes in my hearts image. Taking me away I ride 5 line staffs that cling to the souls limits. Mirror mirror I can see my pupils bouncing in loves rythmatic chords. Connected with a brace and leaving me only wanting more. Content in between the bars I move to a unique kind of beat. Vibing I sway from inner harmony tapping through the toes at the end of my feet. Blocked and broken mingling happiness with slurs marching with ease. A melody so natural phrases flow as they please.
Friday, May 25, 2012
devoted
Holding back will get you no where. Open up and make loves play ground fair. Bottled up is no way to be. All I'm trying to do is become more than a dream. Listen to your heart plead. For were meant to tap into our emotions. You have my full devotion. Pretending not to care I just silly. Allow me to feel your will and I'm yours willingly. Crack a smile in my direction and see how it makes a difference. in you I have great interest. Two as one breaking down a simple little thing called love. I don't mean to be a bug. I just see someones true worth. And I have fallen deep with a side of flirt. So what do you say if we do this the right way. Because baby I'm here to stay....
together
Snatched out of time. Pausing as we climb. Fighting off those against us. As a team we live in love. Finding seconds stretched into hours. Together we have the power. Making our own way in comfort. And that means something that could never be a bore.
Thursday, May 24, 2012
dragging out the details
Let me be the best time you've ever had. I'll show you my good side then bad. Just because we're married doesn't mean I've won. Let's spend some time and live out our time together in love. As your husband I can keep the thrill alive. For we've just begun to co-inside. I want to know how it feels to live in your heart for a lifetime that'll never end. Enjoying individual moments standing strong in memory with the greatest friend. Let me motivate your willingness to losen up and unwind in my arms. I could never cause you any kind of harm. Let's slow down and drag out the details of our emotions as they get the point. Find all we can in one an others souls bending joints. Live like we've never had a true friend before in a world missing trust. With faith and guidence in the lord above. Let's settle down and make the most of the blessing we've been given. As slow as possible pausing time and simply keep living. Bring out the best within for it's uncontrolably escaping to be touched. Knowing intensions will be noticed and always be loved. Let me shake the ground you walk on with ripples vibing an easing quake. In rythm with the pulse pounding in loves sake. All I want is to be what you accept me to be. My love, with a single kiss you make it hard to breathe.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
fallin into rythm
U have my eyes spinnin round n round. Rollin backwards tryin to get a better view of you spring cleanin in my mind n I've gone down. Sneakin peeks when ur not lookin I smile in ur presence. With feelings roamin within that have my emotions that need u at their best. Fallin into rythm with ur irreplacable beauty leakin from ur kind unselfish heart. I am in love with how you've captured my unconditional will from the start. U my love are the piece I've missed for ooh so long. I stare knowin our life together is the greatest joy in which I belong. So to my wife on a day like so many others with only one purpose I have to say I am madly in love with woman you've become. In my heart your free to run. Proud to stand next to u I am complete. Baby u have swept me completely off my feet.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
duel bosses
When standing in the eye of the storm, take notice in how everything around you is at ruines and there's nothing but hurt. When it feels like you're speaking from the grave and you can't be heard, as if muted ears can not make out spoken words. When everything around you is beyond repair and silenced for communication has been lost. You both should have none better than a relationship having a boss.....
closer
Closer than a shadow circling away from the sun. A friend like no other giving feeling to the numb. Locked in rings of wedding bells chiming. Comes along someone as perfect as timing. Hearing the hearts ripples vibe in a voice when speaking. A true passion sharing air in between a kiss as we're breathing. Motionless in stares soaking into the nights patience. Opened with a moments untamed hesitance. Closer than a lover clinging to the comfort of touch. Falling into arms holding ground in love. I am enjoying the greatest feeling in life. Every since the moment you became my wife.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
down goes
Down goes emotions purity for the world to see. Spilling from behind the eyes out of a dream. Losening the tension caused by the awakenings passing. Dripping feelings splash and tell the silence flashing. Falling from the tips my fingers rub passion. Painting a picture from words expressing loves fashion. On the edges of surpressed desire waiting. Comes forth true intensions pacing. Down goes what's been missed with letters joined. Linked together by an abscence of your void.
softened
Softened for a real chance. Opened to the never ending dance. Quietly I hold my stance. Motions glide as we prance. Feelings are inhanced. Shaken out of my pants. Lost in the moment of a glance.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
b4 u!
In a time before you. I never wanted to be loved. No one could find me. And I could care less to find comfort in their touch. Back when I was a ligering drift. Set out to float in the wind. Landing long enough to rest. I wouldn't bend. I was lost in a pre state of happiness. Breaking down all. Unwilling to give self. Disecting their flaws. When I was without you in my life. Times were hard to be say the least. Always another game to play. Somehow winning for only I knew the truth. Never to stay. I wore a face that smiles with laughter. A mask hiding my intensions. Behind my eyes was a hunger. Controlling my direction. A while ago when your presense was not felt. When all that mattered was I. I found myself alone and in wonder. Never wanting to try. In it for the moment. Making sure I was good. Becoming me I gave it up. Something I never thought I would.
comfort in your palms
Handing over my heart. Two hands opened as it leaks. Pumping and slowly losing rythm. Needing to be tweaked. Thumping to a hault. A revived beat is a must. So I give it to you. Knowing its in the hands of love. Feel it cling to your warmth. Finding comfort in you palms. Hold it tight. Heal what's gone wrong. Show it you care. The only it needs is a little tlc. It's yours if you want it. For it use to belong to me........
all
U have what's left. All that's never been used. The me attempting to be a friend. Wanting to be a lover that will never abuse. U get the me I was meant to be. Loving my moment to get next to u. Blessed with a gift I am able to share. And it's long over due. U are the effect I ever so needed. Bringing forth the good I possess. All the misguided lies have faded. True to lips that press. U get the last that's worth the time. For it's all I have within me. Used up I found my piece of mind. And it's all for thee.....
bouncing as i sigh
You are in the corner of my eye. Pulling my mind side to side as you dance and glide. Bouncing as I sigh you temp time to slow down and fight. I love your sway as you refuse to hide the piece of you no one can seem to find. It makes me shed a tear and cry as I temperarily go blind. And the movement of your feet slide with the ripples you cause in my emotional rhyme. Toying with lyrical lines you express how much you are mine. Opening my bind you turn pages to see what you can find. Prancing along as you dip and grind on a craving mans high. Stopping long enough to pry apart my hearts leaking seemless wine.
under the skins texture
Love inserted smoothly only the way you know how. Flowing upstream from the fingertips as I throw in the towel. Opening to an emotion with complete devotion. Swimming straight for the hearts motion your touch is like an explosion. Bursting my bubble within as I release me spread thin. Making it easier for you to reach your destination as we meet. Floating in and out as you're pumped in a pulsating sound. Inside of me you've found me hidding with a fraun. Incouraged by intenions to take over with reinvention. You are perfection at its finest as you have created what I've forgotten to mention. We are forever crawling under the skins texture. Living beneath the weather trying to wash away the happily ever........ after giving a moments drifting. Able to locate with a winning prescence of mind blowing.
Monday, May 14, 2012
fading with my gift
Pages ripped. How many there's been I don't know. Scribbles of me unread. Lost the old me as I continue to grow. Blank stares at the horror of pasts irritations. Findin me. Writting something more than what I can possibly become. Didlling small story dreams. Planted in times way. Unpublished fasinations. Falling aprt to be rebuilt with every letter. Accepting satisfaction. Lose leaf tear. Zipper lick sounds flood. One two three there on the run. Getting a shoulder shrug. Stacked n piled away. Stored for someone else to deal with. I'm at ruins living within puntuations. Fading with my gift.
close
So close like a thorn on a rose. Still in the breeze we grow. Fighting off anyone trying to pluck you. In a garden of loves image of truth. To eliments we're bared. As this world can't help but to stare. Blooming we're petals blossoming. Under the sunshine and happening. Standing graceous to the naked eye. A symbolism of loves test of time.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
somethin
Needin a new angle that flows. Somethin leavin me spread out on the floor so low. I'm diggin deep n pourin me out. Quietly I am without sound. Followin the direction of the cracks in my mind. Dancin with words leapin with time. Leakin I drip colorless rainbows. Makin dreams n livin so bold. Grippin reality as it reshapes to truths. Showin what's the use. Searchin for somethin fresh. Givin my altimate best. Somethin never said before. As the dark smudges within my thoughts open doors. Verbally abusin a situation. With no limits on the imaginations hesitation. I need a conversational piece. One that will be remembered when I'm deciest. Sinkin into the black hole in my head. Where the nutshell lays to bed. Maybe that's where I'll find my off the wall master piece that I crave. One where I don't know how to behave. My tongue needs a new texture to marinade. Bustin tastbuds as words are re-arranged. Somethin thick n juicy I can create. Somethin that can not wait. Blind sided by my own escape. Outlinin it in white tape. Settin this never endin syllable war fancy free. Released as I attempt to breathe.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
its my turn
Way past due. N I'm lookikn at u. Its u I want. Adiment n blunte. Whata ya say 2 a lifetime? As I tell u ur on my mind. Hands shakin with twitchin nerves. Luv words a blurt. Its u I need. Heart poundin with a beep beep. Its my turn. To make u yearn. I have what it takes. Perfect mates. Yeah I'm the one. Helpin ur smile have fun. Listen n watch. My actions r ove the top. Here I am babe. Ur heart I wanna invade. Let me show u how a man can love. Feel me touch. Sneakin in to ur soul is my dream. Put ya guard down n on me lean. I can be more than a friend. Help make the rent. I'm at ur mercy. Faith that you'll never hurt me. Compatable with a irreplacable connection. We're one steppin in the direction. Hear my passion speak ur name with choice. Released by the sound of my voice. I am urs 2 own. With a mature mind in grown. At ur wills every desire. Buildin our empire. A home make of happiness. For u I am relentless. I gotta have u in my life. As ours sayin mine would be so nice. I can be that shilouette come alive. Standin only by ur side. Give me one shot at the title. I jus wanna walk down the isle.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
natures lessons
Rain drops never fall simultaniously. Like smoke that breaks free and disapears. Even land seperates itself from the closest thing it knows in itself. Change is good standing in between memories letting go. Feeling alone from tine to time like the flood falling from the skies. In their own moment on their individual journey to meet with a greater purpose. So when the smoke clears and sight is as crystal as the passion of the heart your time is at hand. Don't fall when the ground shakes and its hard to stand for even the quake settles on a view more pleasant than before.
Sunday, May 6, 2012
ur smiles reversal
I can feel ur pain as emotion runs down ur face. Pausin in between beats everytime a breath takes place. Its written by expressions controllin ur smiles reversal. N there is no way to prepare nor have time for rehersal. Its is real the torture placed deep in your heart leakin out. As moans ease unwillin from ur mouth. I wish the stress I can steal n replace it with happiness. Healin n help the never endin empty nerve inside ur sadness. To see u break down n I can only watch u weep shakes me. Only if in the mornin all is well after a good nights dream..............
it is
Its the movement in ur grind. The sway loosenin our time. Lost in the moments that makes us stronger. Outlasting the length of wonder. Its the fact of the matter of knowing. The way u simply don't mind showing. Sharing a love not of this world. Pleasinghow I call u my girl. Its how we're felt in a kiss. The breaths that escape the lips. Staring and stuck in ur eyes. I see my one and she's so alive. Its passion that grabs ahold of the heart. The way emotion plays its unconditional part. Wrapping and clinging to what we've always wanted. Baby you are truly something. Its the way you've claimed me as yours. The way I thank the lord. Thankful to have you in our life. More than willing to take your hand as my wife. Its the truth in openly accepting one another. The way we'rs more than lovers. Falling further everytime I even imagine your face. You must be an angel traching me the meaning of grace. Its the way its us in precious memories made. The way the man in me has been saved. My love you are what a woman was meant to be. The absolute perfect deign in which has broken me free. I. F.U.C.K.I.N.G. L.O.V.E. Y.O.U.
Friday, May 4, 2012
scrubbin away old stains
Peelin away the years. There are no more tears here. Fallin from a profile earnin trust. So far away from lust. Free from my cacoon I'm finally free. Learnin so much findin me. Callin out with a tongue that can not lie. N all I do is try. A new man has risen to the occation. Ready for relations. Minds cleared n demons have been exorsised. I never thought id see the day in my time. Scrubbin away the old stains. Reborn a gentle giant more tame. Able to feel emotion outside my dreams. Grabbin hold for I've become someones sun beem.
silenced
Silence by thy own tongue. Eatin words wantin to run. Holdin in sights n sounds. Fallin out dead n motionless on the ground. Quietly they hide behind the teeth peeking. Waiting for their moment for me to get to tweaking. Still n clinging to tastebuds the flavor has become sour. I need to release to power of now. Lingering thoughts filling my mouth. Damn near choking they sit n pout. Eager to slip from the lips to get their point across. Flung n wildly tossed. Patiently building emotion with clear thoughts. Never to be bought. Rotten n burried in my cavities letters break. Peeling enamel n becoming one with the plack unable to escape. I'm muted upon def ears so what's the use os speaking out loud. Something as if I wasn't aloud.....
Thursday, May 3, 2012
in the middle
U ever met in the middle of a kiss? Entertwined with a twist. No top lip dominance. No need for the need in a wors of provacative. No bottom lip bein subdude. Findin meanin in its use. Reachin for the feel n the taste. Knowin its never a moments waste. Lips aligned perfectly. Sparked by luvs electricity. Top to top n bottom to bottom. Pressed as they soften on the run. Have u ever paused before this kiss? Checkin off another 1 from the perfect list. For a moment to see who it is that shares the emotion. In the middle of devotion. Closer than luv could ever speak. When luv begins to leak. Releasin the passion the heart has waited for. Needin it in ur core. Have u ever after becomin more than a kiss sighed so sweetly? Feelin connected, completely.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
runnin out the west with my dream
Eastbound. Easin into the night. Settlin in arms n felt. Findin home. No longer on the run. Back against the west where dreams r yet to be filled. With legs kickin. Tired n tryin to make it. Facin east. Watchin the midnight hours click into daylight. Up to enjoy my world. Before those roamin westbound can peek a wink. Always lookin for somethin new. More powerful than they've felt. I sit comfortably content. Layed out in love. Touched in an eastern way. With dreams my own western times can relate. Its the direction of the heart. Livin opened as one.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
structural rebuilding
Strip me down. Peel me free. Bare minimum. Out of a dream. Show me love. Give me will. Filled so full. Live in happyville. Shed with me. Break free. Turn from stone. Sharing rings. Be yourself. Stay true. Live like you love. Through and through. Make no promises. Actions speak. Words become mute. Always think. Stand with me. Hand in hand. Fight with me. Not against your man. Polish my surface. Cleans me whole. Become one. Let the heart unfold. Pull me down. Build me up. Redirect my intensions. Filled with love. Chip me away. Make me fall. Fix my face. And only you will ever have my all.
18 years gone
Tiny toes growin old. Watchin how they bend n fold. Ticklin a touch full of luv. Lotioned n rubbed. Itty bitty little witsies. Wonderin if they'll ever miss me. So small as they crawl. Learnin to walk as they fall. Runnin around makin sounds. Head aches as it pounds. Pitter pattar little ones scatter. Knowin what truly matters. Playin with a laughter n the smiles r big. Into the chest they dig. Time spinnin as the heart is driven. Livin so deeply within. Watchin little me's fiddle. Drawin as they diddle. Talkin tongues speakin daughters n sons. Callin dad n moms. Agin before the eyes they explore. Never a dull moment nor a bore. Young men n women as their sent. Walkin how they we're meant. 18 years gone causin tears. Emotions tryin to shake bein left alone in fear. Free to live their lives n unwind. With a kind heart n open mind. Hopin all has been taught as the only thing left is pictures on the walls. Frames filled with photos so small. Memories float as they leave grown hopin they can cope. Wantin them to find their hearts home. From marchin legs to a stand makin their chargin. Eagarness starvin. All one can do is keep from goin numb. So much patience has been spent with luv. For so long all ones known is teachin right from wrong. Singin n laughin in between songs. Leadin troops into battle with this worlds goofs. Its their turn to choose. Now sittin back forced to rlax n willin. With not much to do n chillin.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
a lost species
In an angle oposite of a 90 degree corner I stand fighting off this worlds ways. Sruggling to maintain with swiveled head confused by the humanity from which we've strayed. A lost species due to the misplaced sevens sins in todays society. All in which are ignored repeatidly showing the lack of interest in the human race to co-exist with individuality. Self absorbed selfish proposters ingraving our history and mutalating our futures well being. Its an ignorant act when manors and respect is not taught or cared for in this lifes breif window fleeing. Its sad to say the least when materials and anything free or cheep runs through the veins uncontrolably. Missing the point of what it is we can become with the acceptance in our very own differences that allow us to live happily. We are a unique form with mind and emotion conflicting without learning there true potentials purpose. We as the majority of this great planet have in the balance its distruction hurting not only us. Yet all living creatures not of our battle to rule for the power no single soul will ever aquire. Making their walk irrelavant to the meaning of life before it retires.
Friday, April 27, 2012
i no longer
I no longer walk alone standin in the rain that blends in with my tears. I stepped to the plate n became a man with only 1 individual lonely fear. 1 in which I need not to worry in this life time for I've been completed. Needed I have beocme more than forever wanted. I no longer sit alone wonderin what it is I havta do. My mind was cleared n I can see the truth in paradises never to start overs use. Opened up n givin the best of me as me cuz I found what I was lookin for. I no longer drift into empty nights callin out to self from my inner core. Yet stand as the man I was meant to be n I found the me I lost long ago. I'm back n I owe the thanx to my best friend as she fills me whole. I got nothin but luv in me n passion that lingers at it own will. I no longer feel the anger in pains unwanted so called thrill. Lifted by a sinlge kiss n touched in a way I've craved as long as I can remember. N I can't hear the sounds of my twisted whimper. Loyal to a peice of me that connects only the way she can. Fittin in to the puzzle of my hearts desired unconditional plan. Naturally I feel deep enough for my wife is my 1. Its as simple as I no longer havta look another wink for luv..........
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
to unwind time
Watching minutes tick I can't chase down. Rushing times untouched mystery that can't be unwound. Listening to the clicks spin ever so slowly. Feeling my existance control me. The heart can't seem to unwind time. Doin it all over is not an optionas it plays out in my mind. The past is where its forgotten. In a time spoiled n rotten. Only if this chapter in my life would have come sooner. I would of still true to her. Years pass and ways of the wise settle in. No more tears filling the eyes nor blocking the vision to dim. Yet escaping was happiness almost to late. There's no other explanation for how she is my fate.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
red rain
Cold blade. Inserted and slicing. Stabbed in the back. Freinds are foes deciding. In and out without a care. Turning a slit. Flesh punctured for fun. Life is a trip. Hole opened. Bleeding tears of pain. Dripping friendship. Red rain. Foes with memories. Walking alone. Hated enemies. As the roam. Tossed like blood. Slung from the knife. Selfishness residing. Full of pride. Trust misplaced. Bond broken. Face rearranged. Cold steal soaking. Marinating a stain. Loyalty is dead. Maintaining a smile. The past haw fled.
Friday, April 20, 2012
am i?
Saturday, April 14, 2012
its me in your eyes
I can see me in ur eyes and I'm different. From the start you were never hesitant. Lookin through mirrors is a clearity and a vision. One without words that always seems to mention. Its the stare aimed towards I as it never lies. Speakin what's on your mind. Gazin out hazel windows molded by love. I notice how you get stuck and can't get enough. How is it possible to find this kind of happiness. Zoned in to a glare needin a witness. Tears form in the corners and overflow. Pushed out by the joy that has no control. With an interest in peekin between blinks. I know who I am to you as I kiss a sippin drink.
directed at what matters
Tickin timebomb. A man shovin it deep inside. Emplodin n easin on the outside. Along for the ride. Fightin within he fears the worst. In the real world givin his best. Eyes rollin behind the lids. Hidin the pain fit. Thoughts stabbin at his will. Heart beats still. Pausin in moments skippin rythm. Numbin his system. Takin the blunt load of confusion. Bobbin a weave with his intensions. Always the outsider comin up short. Mouths muted as words are aboard. Ready to leap. Tastes foul n cheap. Once again not of importance. Weighin out the circumstances. Bottled for the good. Life as he knows it is lost in the middle of moods. Roamin he sits blank. Shuttin down feelins because he can't. How much more? Spoilin his core. Contiplatin if life were to change. Losin the callin of his name. In here lookin out he tears up. Showin how tough. A man is breakin n chippin away. So fuckin affraid. Lettin no one know his weakness. Clingin to his happiness. Slobberin on conversation that make no difference. Clinchin his fists. Behind closed doors he opens to god. Findin his place n his spot. Wantin nothin but to be loved. To be molded by a touch. Crushed by breif instance spoken to hurt. Tongues seem to always blurt. The heart ache squeezes emotion. Tuggin on his willin devotion. Faith in the lord gettin hin by. Always on his mind. Never wantin to waste a moments worth. Unwillin to start this ride over before the fallin dirt. Peices crumble n settle. Landin never so gentle. Expressions are meant to shatter. Aimed n directed at what matters.
just to let u know
Lovin me for so long for I was unlovable. Until I met u I couldn't find a feelin pleasurable. My walk is as different as nights gave way. Empty no longer I found reason that fills my days. I jus wanted u to know how much I luv u as my heart has grown n now so huge. Seems like forever I was self absorbed. Within other so very bored. Somewhere livin different lives periodically with strangers I never loved. Yet it took one conversation n I started fallen so completely in love. From times where I didn't care to share that special peice of me. To an oppertunity of a life time I can not pass that is free. Just to let u know I am in love with you. The complete package of love is u.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
rubbin the tastebuds
self hypnosis
like to love life
Life makes love hard for the way it spins in this day and age. Yet love makes life so much more enjoyable for that's the desing for how it was made. Like, gives a chance for love to exist in the heart. Yet loves power over shadows the need of like in which it got its start.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
lack of interset
U eva felt urself talk n ears couldn't hear u? Muted from the sound surrounding u. Speaking load enough to be hear. Down to every last individual word. Losing interest in conversation because its about u. Wondering why ur silence n what's the use. Becoming lost in translations tongue that tastes it own. Spoken syllables that r grown. Neva onsce raising ue tone. Somethin like lack of interest n ur minds been blown. Findin yourself studderin letters missing their target. I tell ya that's the hardest. When chokin in the middle on a sentence cut short. Forced to abort. Attention swung in another direction. N lets not forget to mention. The hearts emotion being swallowed. All because one decided not to follow.
know
When u hold ur faith in ur hands as their cupped n beads leak like water flowin through them, getting away one drip at a time. When it feels as if hope is easing away n pouring out of control as if u haven't a tear left to fill yourself, know u always have prayer for a lifetime. When true intensions seem to fade without a cause for this world is so difficult to bare, and your strength is softening fast. When dreams are replaced with a reality not fit for gods eyes that can see all, know angels are amung us helping our fates task.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
all by myself
Here on this blog all by myself attacking lifes ways. Hoping someone will take notice of a man before hesa grey. Just as a reader with some kind of ibterest in words gathered. As if to someone letter expressed mattered. This is me beating on my brains uncontrolled releantlessness. Placed here in form so an other can partake and feel this. I'm craving for a response that would show me I am the least bit interesting. For the me in me is confessing. I'm strung across every diddle I can imagine to exhale. This shit is far from for sale. Free to the eye to scope a new angle. As the tongue can't keep up with what's being tangled. I am here speaking as a ghost in the dark that can't be seen. Dripping from thoughts outside my day dreams.
thats what it is
Its the pursuing of interest. One finding in self an others emotions spent. Following up on the intent to truly know someone. So they won't feel so alone. Left in the blind side because no one took the time to feel them. With feelings more than lent. Its one taking the initiative to go the extra mile to take part. From start. Time is at hand to put giving aside. Crawwl iside someone and simply live side by side. Knowing all there is to know because it is of interest. For if they weren't here you as self will be missed. Its the way one feels an others gain. As the heart can only attempt to be tamed. With love bringing out their best. Living within that one chest. Its being a irreplacable peice of mind. Never to shy. Allowing self to be exposed. Becoming more than close. Its laughing with happiness with thought. Because you've been caught. Yet free to be. For you are an others dream. Its a simple thing without a game controlling curiousity. Leaving thoughts clinging to the possitivity. That's what it is. For its the shit.
an angle in diguise
U look so lovely n ooh I like. Please don't tell me ur an angel in disguise. I could tkae losing u in the mornings light. U have my attention so whatcha got in mind? Cuz all I have is u in my sight. Heaven mustve thought I needed a blessing so right. So if ur here in the mornings light. I'll give u my best fight. Just don't tell me ur gonna take flight. Back to the golden gates at the end of this rhyme. Out for a night. Blowing in the wind like a kite. Hell, who knows we just might climb to eternity n live loves hype. So if ur here to claim me that's alright. Own me til u can't get enough of ur find...........
you
I have the time if you do. My mind has the space to think of you. How's your heart feel? Because mine is feeling real. You see, I got notions in mind. And you're just my kind.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
finding home
I haven't been home in years. Forgot what it felt like due to the tears. Left with wings spread and clipped. Slowly losing self and my grip. Struggled to find warmth in lifes gain. Time beat me down as I was drained. Pounding in the brain I turned inward. Wondering when was it going to be my turn. I couldn't seem to gather self hurting. But I was constantly learning. The emptiness filled me whole. Leaving a void and claiming my soul. God was a story told to comfort. A dream of some sort. Oh how I walked a lonely road. Somehow I wound up all alone. Never to love for I couldn't feel an other. Why in the hell should I bother? No one was worth the time putting in to a lifetime. Always starting over doing me as my smile faked a shine. I never knew a womans touch that explain home. As I carelessly ran as I roamed. Faithfully didn't exsist to a man unwilling. It appeared to be so fucking silly. Yet there I was opened up once upon a time. And home came to me and she claimed me as mine. I drifted for so long and became well rounded searching for my one. Thing is I wasn't looking past a single days fun. I found home in a stranger I've known for so long. Seperated and grown we sung the same song. I just wish life would've given it a chance before waisting moments. Memories unwanted and folding with poets. I'm home at last with someone I dreamed of. Living a life I absolutely love.....
divide the facts
Add it up. Take notes. Do your research. Don't lose hope. Study. Wrap your mind. Accept reality. Don't cry. Learn your surroundings. Do the math. Realize the situation. Life you must grab. Divide the facts. Don't multiply emotions. Find the clues. Pay attention. Recycle your thoughts. Think of the out come. Make a choice. Decide and don't run.
rambling
Without a topic. In the zone. Rambling for no reason. Not even alone. So if this makes no sense. It wasn't meant to. I'm jus floating around talking about nothing at all. Just because I do what I do. Breaking the silence of pleasing self. For I know the way I like it. Scrambling within psuhing out the cure. Flowing in a rythm all my own. And that's for sure. Read it or not I'm taking my space. Who's going to stop me? He he ha ha ha. I'm alive and speaking without sound as I dream. It feels good to just blurt out whatever comes to mind. With a delivery so clear. On point as if my fingers were my heart. In control of the minds fear. I just am in this piece. Nothing more nothing less. A man diddling about. Here on earth as a guest.
speaking in my sleep
I had a dream last night that was intense. Speaking in my sleep I was on the defense. Begging and pleading turned into accepting a lovers wishes. Forced to walk away I did not want to tried to calm her imtensions. My heart stopped as I did nothing wrong. Our love was no longer strong. For some reason I was unsure of she wanted me gone immediately. Losing my best friend I also lost my best dream. Time seemed to go one forever as I tried to convince her I didn't want to go. Yet she insisted and told me in so many words no. Leave and don't back back, I don't want you mother fucker. Words cut me deep as I awakened to her sleeping in her own as a dreamer. Its funny because this wasn't the first time. Actions seem to haunt me in my mind. All was clear on why I dream of her leaving me again and again. She's told me in reallity I'm not a man. Shaken I am scared of her leaving me alone with a love in my heart no one else can fill. She own my will......
whens the last time?
When's the last time you've taken notice and someone you've enjoyed? Stepped outside of what it is you want and seen what fills an others void. Who is it that makes you want to be a witness to witnessing you? Can you put self aside and give some attention that would mean the world to someone? Paying attention for just breif moments in a day for its not onle about you. So when's the last time selfishness was abscent and you took part in an others happiness of what makes them tick? Becoming stronger with interest because you love in whom they are. Doing something they would like to do. When? When did you come from within and live within another through time spent their way? Just being and knowing they do the same for you. When have you simplified a situation and cared enough to take part in both of your lives? Making a whole out of halfs.
in the end?
In the end who is it that will be standing next to you? When life has passed you by who's face will still remain the same? At the end of the road you've traveled whom is considered a friend? Deep in life as the skin has wrinkled what individual will still have the same effect through a simple thing called touch? Loved like you mean something to them who is it that is still there? When time is about expire will they care to sit with you? When a friend is more than needed creeping up on remembering a life and clinging will you be alone? Who's past will resemble you own when its all said and done? Sharing moments to be forgotten what is the outcome of leaving them to themselve without you? How can we make it a ride this one will be by your side with the heartache of letting go? In the end is there a place for you in the heart of an other that will last forever? On times line of years experiencing the path you've chosen is love still felt like the day you've found it? With the tears sheltered from the pain can you watch the emotion fall from their face as you slip away? When ends up and the calling comes can they remain strong enough until you meet again in heaven? When you've given all you can possible drain from self for the gain of an other will it be the same as they carry on? Will love become a one way street when you've taken your last breath and they do nothing but morn? In the end will a lifetime of happiness help them maintain to survive in you're memory? When they walk solo in a world meant for two will you have made an impression like no other? What makes one stand the test of time and see you through lifes tugging pull in the end?
Friday, April 6, 2012
freezing
Its cold out. Face is frosted. Bitten by the chilled air. Moisture in my pores is frozen. Cheeks are hard. Red from the brutal wind. I feel my body shivering. Goosebumps standing up. Its to much for even me to take. Snot is flowing. Falling down upon my lips where it pauses. Dripping slowly as if to cicle. My skin burns from the fridget breeze pounding its will relentlessly against me. I tighten and ball up to avoid freezing. But my bones ache. Muscles are solid. I can't move. Sucking in cooler air. Breaths are hard to take. There's nothing I can do. Sitting in the fetal position waiting on the warmth that isn't about to return. Thoughts spread like photo albums in my mind. Moments collapsing inward of everything I love. Not long now. The pain is setting in. It hurts something fierce. My hearts slows. I can't feel it beat. All I wanna do is sleep............
figment
I'm just a figment of a daydreams imagination. No one is paying attention. No one seems to take interest on what makes me tick. Or even what makes my will click on like a light switch. I'm always giving and finding interest in others so they feel needed and enjoyed. Filling a void. Yet I feel as if I were not in my shoes, someone else would come along and I would be forgotten. Heart stopping. My phone doesn't ring. Texts are limited in variety. Faces are strangers regularly. I'm just one of those individuals that doesn't seem to matter. And all I ever hear is peoples teeth chatter. Freinds are abscent and family is foes. All I have is a woman who loves and kids wishing they were grown. I don't feel much like a man. Yet I walk the walk as I stand. I just haven't any reason to anyone. I am the lack of meaning. My face is aging and those I once knew won't even recognized me after a while. Killing my smile. Why is it I am the way I am and no one cares? Guess from here on out all I need is my lady that is rare.
doing all for an other, the way it's suppose to be
A man isn't suppose to ask a woman for anything. His intensions is to spoil her and make her heart sing. And its all good when a man knows how it works. Relying on her to hint on a flirt. A man is willing when a woman is jsut as unconditional as he. Over all that's the way true love is suppose to be. When she wants something she is to get it as soon as possible. And he loves when her smile tickles. If one or the other holds out in any department its considered a lack of interest. As this thing lingers on the enjoyment being missed. Everyone wants someone to do for them as they would do for self. Not everyone will find this, going through lifve with no help. Its the overall picture that needs to be seen. Lacking in one department makes one or the other drift and dream. Unfulfilled by one unwilling to please an others wants and desires. As the mind and heart sizzles a hoping fire. Love, freindship, trust, faith, financial, mantal, physical and sexual. When two have each other on lock life as they know it sensual. Slipping one will get frustrated and intension can confuse any one of us. Leaving one slowly feeling of unwanted due to an other missing the point as emotions are crushed. We are human and by nature so we want someone to show us we are indeed that special piece of their heart through actions. Doing all and the above if asked with a positive reaction. Yet a man isn't suppose to ask. So how's a woman suppose to know how to make it last. She allows man to figure things out and find her as well. Willingly drawn from their shells. So what is it one can do if something they would like is not fulfilled? Even when asked and it dents their will. True love, real love, forever spoken is exactly that. Anything the other wants because one is willing to do for them as an other would them. How far for your one will you be willilng to bend? To show them they need to look for an other ant further. For you have them covered as a friend, partner and a lover.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
FAMILY
As family its not about picking sides. More so, tightening up one an others flaws. Prepairing each other for the world that could care less. Without communication not a one will witness their own accomplishments. Contructive critisism is a key factor to helping loved ones who are willing or unwilling. Listen to family that doesn't wanna cause problems for they have learned something and are willing to pass it on to you. We are all surrounded and molded by family because they know us best. That is if we're fortunate to have one worth the time put in. Yes everyone changes but the one you were born with inside of you will remain until the end. F.a.m.I.l.y. those who have your best interest if raised correctly. F.a.m.I.l.y. Those who will stand next to you if one does indeed do more than act like they care. Pointing out an others wrong or mishap is not an selfish act. Its a way of showing one cares with interest that they can bring about how one can sharpen their game sort of speak. Becoming self and knowing who self is by learning and not being so stuborn. But it all starts with the parents. If they are not willing to teach and guide in a manor that will raise respestable individuals that can fend for themselves if all else fails. They have not only failed themself as a parent but has failed in the state of mind that they did not do all they can to ready their own blood. Family is rare in this day in age. There's always something going on that pulls and pushes on the bond like the devil on ones faith. No one is obligated by blood to deal with those whom take advantage or cause or is a constant issue. We are human. If relations are not right, then a connection is lost that will never return. Nothing will ever be the same for re occuring events in moments that hurt and frustrate the will being of the definition of the integrity of the word family. Accepting someone as member is with an ubderstanding is vital. Any member can choose whom they love and is not for self to decide that another can be with them. It is their life outside the boundaries of the immediate family that they live. It's not a seperation kind of thing, yet a combination of growing up and adding to the well being of the happiness as those around you are happy for you. And as you join forces with an other that has a family already and accepts you, for you are good to a piece of their family as well. Its simple logic. Blood runs thicker than water. Yet water quinches the thirst. Balance is more than neccesary to having an unbreakable love shared by true family.........
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
tell me!
Tell me if you've read this. Respond or something. You see, I've been spreading myself thin. Stretched from end to end. Filling space captured by the alphabet. Yet they seem waisted without a reader. I do this for me hoping someone will take interest. Stop and feel something. Maybe chit chat about different topics. Mostly I do this blog because I can't keep it in. I can't stop. I am addicted to allowing letters form in the shape of my emotion and so much more. So if you will, take a moment and actually look at me through words expressed. Tell me you've been here so I know who actually gives a............
u r b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.
U r my world. My dream. My chance. My everything freed. U r my smile. My will. My passion. My uncontrolled thrill. U r my love. My life. My only. Husband n wife. U r my patience. My emotion. My swag. Me in slow motion. U r my mornin. My noon. My night. My unspoken truth. U r everything. My fulfillment. My best friend. U r my movement.
bitter
Six men walking with a floating casket. Arms stretched out and hands gripping its attatchments. Lifting the load of a fallen loved one that will be missed. Step for step carrying the hovering lonesomes dying wish. Weight shifting in stride to its resting place in total darkkness. Set alone as the muscle eases back with the bitter taste of emotional sadness. One more down as the dirt covers and swallows an other lost solo soul. That's the way the end comes around the bend and shows us the meaning of a bitter world that will always remain so cold.
Monday, April 2, 2012
i remeber
I've neva made ya cry. Not once. Always, ur on my mind. Even in the hardest of times. I remember. Who it is I have in my life. Tears that have fallen. Were learnin. Halfway done n stallen. My hearts still callin. Whole with u. Always n foreva wantin. Yet there hasn't been a single moment. I neva hurt u. Groovin with ur movement. Even through hard times that faded. Its been u n I. Baby we've made it. With memories the will last foreva. I've opened up. Willin to admit a luv shared together. I don't know what id do without u. U own me. Neva to be used. Our time has come to make us mean somethin. We are here. Finally after a hollow nothin. Abscent n lost without each other. Fallen further daily. Havin one an other as more than luv'rs. I'm willin to do what's needed. Give self. I've begged n pleaded. Showin self interest in a real woman. N u see me. Lookin out for our love zoomin. Soarin as high as we can. Partners. Hand in hand.















