I know the look...

I know you believe bcuz I can see it on your eyes. But i don't feel shit n i don't know why. I try. Maybe I've just cried one too many times. Or it could be that my heart actually gave up on me. Damn the feeling. The emptiness of lost grounds keeps feet stationary from what they can't seem to walk upon. I'm way too far gone. I've been alone so long. Heartbeats to me aren't the rhythm section of the heart playing songs. N i know I'd miss out on the gift you have to give. It would prolly be something worth the live. It's just i haven't it in me to rush to find a way. I got lost in depths n forgotten the feel that has escaped. I listen for it when u speak my name. This isn't a game. I watch how i light up ur face. You just don't know how bad i want a spark to ignite the flame so i have hope. I wanna go home. To land in arms n remain safe with luv shown. But it's like i trust no one n havta remain on my own. I can't shake it. Every time i find a tickle i break a rib. To remind me of the end that doesn't give a shit. Oh the potency of venomous lips. N yeah i know your intent is more mature. But pulling me from within i shouldn't be lured. Lemme naturally progress so my mental estate can understand my inner makings won't be torn. I know you want more. I know the look u share is a gesture for me to recognise. Yet words to me are nothing but lies. N this from you I'm not trying to hide. I'm not broken i just don't need a guide. Patience is life playing out. Real luv never hasta make a sound. Overnight isn't gonna happen to force a belief into the now. Can u see what it is you've found? It's the long haul where earned stays. Where emotion can never be fake. Flowing with an ease as something worth being gained. I'm just yet to remember what it's like to want before it's too late...