too much...

When u treat me like a feeling u don't want no more, that's when my emotion dies all over again... N I ain't lookin to go back to the darkness luv causes so it's gonna be that fuckin hard to get in to my heart... Let's jus say i don't wanna sensor out n shake from the vibe joltin my chest... Changin the way I relate to others who haven't done shit to me but level up n silence the alarms... I like it real n it's too fuckin much to get to know people with their gaurds up... N to free from some who go from one to the next talking about fuck everyone when it's self... Seeking an other to fix the missing pieces lost from shattered mirrors unable to see straight... Never owning ones own n taking some shit out on others who don't deserve the harm when felt... There's no way to get to me living mine unless i see without a doubt ur on some other shit... N even then time only tells so i haven't gotten it on me to wait around... Solo n rollin on my own prolly until the day I die n that's jus me... I've been burnt n like me too much to change for a temporary type that never tends to feel how my all truly pounds... I'll fuck ya head up on the pivot of laughter before i ever allow u to dig into my depths... On the loose n in no need of an attachment clingin on for empty comforts... Gimme gimme gimme ain't my style of expecting bcuz it's way too fuckin much for me to entertain... So ride or die with that frfr 100 bullshit most has done used 99% up of trying to get others to notice what's torn... N I can't even sling meat due to the pulse it spikes in the way I like mingling with the potential that turns me on... There's a fine line where umpfh n passion collide n I ain't nothing but honest... U can't twist me to a ring as I drip from fingers that were suppose to care enough... Jus to hate me when the ends that comes sooner than promises whisper claimin I'm the bomebest... I hear lies n I need no set backs bcuz my trust rely's on me making decisions that count on fingers of earnings gained for life to get better... I'd rather do me n configure thoughts that escape me most of the time... Triggering a lil interest if possible from a far of an image of who u truly are once I've licked u in my mind... I'm no whore nor someone ur used to as it's too fuckin much to speak on as lips move to me being all mine... I don't wanna tango with a enemy in the makings when I've opened up to bare myself... There's nothin u can do to surprise me even though ur smile is quite nice as it's something I don't wanna miss... It'll take more than cuteness to venture so freely within me for I know f the power u could posses... Been there n I jus ain't into the shallows captivating my life n what it is I'm doin... N yea, maybe I should give in eventually but there's things I'm jus not good with... As my truths will not fall short of purpose if u fail to deliver ur end of meeting in the middle of gettin to where I'm goin... That monster u hide that hasn't calmed the fuck down when it cannot get what it wants doesn't impress me... If I'm to dabble I'll need a more sensible setting that resurrects a reason to have u near me come mornings light... In a different kinda motion that is as foreign as I am to others lookin at me like some sorta answer in which I do not understand... Though I know I haven't met someone quite like the me I've become from the dark side...