You don't wanna luv me... You're only interested in the thoughts that play with your dreams... Yet, if I could get you to see I'm not what you want... We could get past the hard times n you could can find that unfading trust... You see, I ain't no one to fall for... So you shouldn't go hanging your emotion on me as it pours... You'll only come to realize it's someone else you'd rather have... Jus believe me when I tell you I'm not the face you want lingering in your past... It sucks the interest will misplace what it is you think you feel for me... N I don't wanna hurt you searching your life away for the one you seek bu wasting the way you're willing to leak... I'm not heartless, it's jus, there's things you won't be able to give for long... N u may jus be saying I'm wrong... N that I'm afraid to be felt... As if I haven't myself overcome the feeling of being helpless... The truth of the matter is my face doesn't define who it is I am... My inner workings aren't for the misplacement of who I am as a man... You can say it's me that can't open up to the notion wanting to find you deep within... N I'll counter it with I know all to well that when shit breaks down I'm the one standing alone struggling to find my grin... I'm different n I don't mind being me... Unfazed by the cheap thrills roll reversals tend to need... So know my shallows are deeper than the beaches you've swam in up until now... N that once you go in over your head you'll walk on the waters to get away without a sound... Right in the middle of watching me come out to play in ways there's no turning back... It'll be my heart that drowns from the silence of a heart attack... The shit hurts to much to let jus anyone in... As the one thing I'd luv to do the most is simply live... knowing friends don't touch walls n feel they're way around inside as free to roam as they please jus to leave that empty ache... I'm tired of hearing different tones rambled through voices that change saying my fucking name... N I'm not comparing you to anyone but the fact that exists that no matter who, everyone takes off... It's jus the way it goes so I don't get attached to the moments caught in a pause... I won't kickstart someone who ain't gonna stick around long enough to feel some real shit coming to life... So I think you should do your thing n forget about what it is goin on in your head that will only complicate the purpose drifting away from the reason in your own mind... From one human to the next, I don't have the time to dismiss this loneliness jus to come back n apologize to myself... It's me I refuse to sell... To give up to a passerby who claims to know what it means to desire someone other than self... Unfamiliar with the mental compacity it takes to control the untamed wants in the way the heart melts... It's the end that isn't a redirection of the mind looking past me in wonder of what else is out there... My passion needs nor wants another useless tare... So feel free to do what it is you do... I'm more in luv with the truths taking part in an honest chance to be put to use...
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