Something different...

I've been a sexual beast all my life... Able to make smiles awaken n eyes cry... N all I've ever wanted is to hide my face... To be seen beneath the touch of rain... I'd luv to meet someone in the pitch of nothing darkened beyond sight... In an empty room without the attraction I carry that never carries true luv's sighs... I don't wanna be handsome no more... N to be hung isn't worth picking my heart up off the floor... The shit hurts when they find out I ain't for the fuckery that plays shallow games... It only causes their fake presence to fade... Add in reason with a level head n the pain damn near falls in love with my name... Gathering memories that need not to be carried by the hate... I jus wanna be seen before I fuck someone senseless as truths come clean... Finding a friendship that becomes irreplaceable with a balance of being wanted by need... Only if we were blind I could show who it is I am... From the depths that ache within me as a once defeated man... Labeled as eye candy until they've had their feel... As it always winds up that I'm the one who ain't shit due to I catch on to who isn't real... It sucks in ways I refuse the facial features that lie every time... N a whore I don't wanna be slinging meat as the find... There's a difference in how I'm treated n how I'd enjoy being felt... As sexual intent should be second nature as a gasture to help... For it's me I wish was taken in to consideration for once... Even though I luv to go down n make a meal outta someone for the feel of the munch... I jus don't want to find myself back in this position all bcuz someone else jus wants to be fucked... I'd rather be alone than to waste moments I cannot erase that become a crutch... It's a loss like words that claim emotions on the rise... I'm worth so much more than a personal hype... Letting go of my heart after it gets attached... I don't wanna be the clown the jokes on as they laugh...