I'm jus wanting to hold on n never let go... Jus one night to change the way I feel n it's not bcuz I'm alone... The piece of mind that it brings is a gift all in it's own... It's jus the luv that's never been given to me the way I've shared what it is I'm willing to show... It's gone unmatched as sit in silence without words to express my inner secret bcuz I'm scared to mention the details of my all... Seems everyone I encounter within relations eventually are only acceptable of their own flaws... N it makes it hard to wanna open up with a pain dying inside constantly climbing the walls... I jus wanna lean in to the warmth of luv for once without being mualed... It's crazy I havta hide behind closed doors so no one can see the true expressions upon my face... As I avoid the sound of voices chattering my very own name... I'm lost in solitude jus needing to come back to life before this is how I'll forever remain... Yet I don't feel like much of anything deserving of an escape... Digging holes for tears to fill puddles when they come like the rain drowning my heart... As it's even learned how to swim knowing I'm afraid of water for the fear of goin under left cruel marks... Why do people pretend to want someone in their lives by playing into parts.?. I don't understand the concept of the thought it takes to half step an other like it's a work of art... I would jus like for once for someone to mean more than what the tongue can spit into words... Simply one moment for me to crash into the sinking where it could never hurt... As the night lasts past the morning gathering a lil thing called like that's gone unheard... I'd luv to look into someone's eyes n see a bit more than a common flirt...
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