On my solo shit...

Awakening to a friend every morning as it's me I see... Looking into mirrors at the image I am that cannot lie on the matters of living the dream is a fucked up reality... Eyes always on the move with the reflection watching my own fucking back... Listening to otherss claim their luv is the realest thing closest the facts...

Calling bs as I keep it moving bcuz i trust no one who can talk a good game... In no need of the lies that go around rearranging expression suck to a face... From dusk til Dawn n waitin through the night I haven't lost sleep in some time worrying about who it is that had my in mind... I took the initiative n gather myself n been doin damn good without the misinterpretations of relations that run n hide... Banking my own stacks due to no one is with building even the imaginary empires like they're actually kings n Queens... I shook off the mindset that had my trapped within waiting for someone else to save me from wants overriding needs... Self efficient yet never cocky enough to doesn't an other getting theirs in... I'm jus doin my own shit n staying in my own lane bcuz I like the feel of my very own grin... One man up against the odds in a challenge accepted for I have the will to take part in my own life...

Unable to cater to others on that emotional goofiness where the mental aspect of consciousness does not comply... On my solo shit digging in on a crowd where so many others understand the concept of who's who's best fuckin friend... Yeah, iI go me like no other until the very fuckin end!!!

Touch of a feather...

Blindfolded without sight to play a game... Wasting a bit of time with the flick of a flame... Tickled with a single feather strapped to the bed... Slowly the movement embraces what's next... Gliding across the skin touching nerves awakening to the feel... Every inch teased so they know the affection is real... As toes curl from the tenderness of the brush... Jerking the body as if it would rather be touched... From the soles n along the sides of the foot with the tips of the feather to find the ankles making way for the legs... Listening to the moans sigh with the slide up to the thigh mid beg... Hearing please whispered from ya lips as I move from the outter hip to the inner grind... Causing the sway in the rotation tryin to work with hormones taking flight...

Softly stroking the muted texture up n around the navel back down the other side... Leaping from one knee to the other jus playing with ur mind... Caressing ur lower lips so gentle ur eyes roll... Smoothly fluctuating the sweet spot jus long enough to put the crave on hold... Flowing upward to the stomach where butterfly's float... Tryin to catch at least one before the continuance of the roam... Finding the nips exposed upon the breasts as a smile forms wanting more... Making the chest a focal point until the sides crack a rib as laughter pours... Drifting with the shape that lays helplessly involved... Creeping up the arm jus to bypass the neck n down to ur fingers attempting to stay calm... As the lift of the tingle is removed from contact to intensify the wait of where I'll go next... Applying my lil feather the tip of ur nose where the shaking of there head cannot rest... Falling to ur cheek so lightly as it's felt reaching beyond the flesh... Raising the chin for the throat to stretch... Taming the beast as the breeze claims the gathering of sound... Left for seconds for u to wonder where in the fuck I'll put my mouth... Anticipating the connection of me tasting ur raw beauty... Laying still in a moment of nudity... Hearing ur patience end with a plead to be touched... Breathing with the enticement of lusts... Damn near twtiching as the feather rubs ur slit.... N I simultaneously kiss u upon ur lips...

There's no need...

There's no need in twistin emotions... There's no need in second guessing devotion.. There's no need in becoming enemies if it is real... They're no need to claim the heart is healed...  There's no need in defying the odds... There's no need not agreeing with luv as the head nods... There's no need to preform when the heart speaks... There's no need in thinking negative thoughts jus to grieve... There's no need to change someone... There's no need if ur gonna run... There's no need in believing in what cannot be shown... There's no need to misplace home... There's no need in irritations with a friend... There's no need in relations if it's me I havta defend... There's no need in the immaturities that end the feeling of hope... There's no need to hang me from a rope... There's no need in talking if words are not believed... There's no need greater than to be relieved... There's no need in contact if it's an every now n again thing... There's no need in tryin to fix what should come as natural as the way we breathe... There's no need for slander if adults can remain intact... There's no need to come at mm if trust isn't in the facts... There's no need to point blame n argue like it's fun to do... There's no need in having no use... There's no need to give a complex to make yourself feel better... There's no need in rationalizing with the idiocy of chaos jus to get wetter... There's no need when time doesn't give a second chance... There's no need in partaking in hate enhanced... There's no need to crave the need to cheat if u wanna go.... There's no need in the sounds of my moans... There's no need in tellin u this... There's no need if I do not exist!!!

I get to thinking...

Walking n wondering n wanting to know... The mind is unsettled as the body lays alone... Thinking n drifting on thoughts open for suggestions... Passion gets ansi on the matters of confessions... Feeling n moving n raising the bar... Touch isn't the only thing to cater to when friendships have gone to far... Living n willing n defying the odds... Life moves in with or without desires that jus won't stop... Fixing n resisting is needing a fucking in the nude... Smelling the surface of textures as egos are removed... Attracting n laughing n admiring the feel... Lips to fingertips applied to something real... Moving n improving n occupying empty space... Staring into eyes remembering a face... Goofing n playing or whatever comes to mind... Entertained by presence withstanding time... Liking n loving the irresistable taste... Making luv in the depths of rain...

The catch n release...

Unwritten silence tucked under the tongue... Sacred moments of a time i fell in luv... Memories that shake the mind until reality gets lost... Knowing in the middle of the attempt I was more than a flaw... Umatched by the tenderness that ran away... N I was a damn good man before the chaos came... Fear of emotion settled in behind eyes that trimbled with a bounce... The incision dug deep lookin for the remains that found a drought... N if I could express the feel before the satisfaction was cut from my hearts intent... The intensity dropped the ball in a familiar voice as I was forced to take defense... Ooooh the things I felt as she drove the wedge had me caving in... Though I seen it coming, I can honestly say I didn't think she'd turn the way she did... True friends torn by childishness that spoke to me unwilling to listen to the facts... Passion dove in n couldn't seem to return the laugh... As chances were given to show ones true face... I was put on display as a joke when I heard my name... Yet, the beat of my luv was never once missed in the letting go of one piece at a time... N somewhere in the mix I had to revaluate the loss of my own mind... Done in by the one person I thought would've wanted to see me old n gray... I opened up to the wrong one n felt the trenches overflow with pain... Jus to become a stranger once again as I learned a few things of self... Knowing what to allow if desires were ever to melt... Finding me alive n well I'm the aftermath of relations cutting the edge from the leap in which I lunged into her... Realizing I to have worth...

Out in the open...

Identifying self... Able to be felt... To be seen... To live free... In the real... Wanting to feel... On the outside looking in... Touching ribs... Inside coming out... Use put to a moment of wow... Time telling the truths... Use follows suit... Character walking with the quality of individuals... Eager to mingle... Watching expressions n body movement as a language all their own... Reason shown... Holding tongues due to the need not of confusion... From within comes the honesty of motion... Diggin in to depths... Met... Cores... Craving more... Finding rhythm in sync with chords of the heart... Ready for lyrics to complete a work of art... Finely tuned... Feeling how passion moves... Willing to collaborate on emotion waiting on a friend...

Gathering memories to invest with the need of no end... Minds linger in wonder as the drift appreciates the closing of curiousities often dismiss... Focusing on wits... Exposing true intent... Not once missing a beat that could tarnish the like that forms luv... Admitting what could never be hushed... Finding the gates on hinges that swing without locks... Ignoring the hands that clocks... Without a rhyme to entertain what needs not the confusion... Unable hearoutsude sources best illusions... Clarity seeks worth... Resting two birds... Names remembered by lips shaping syllables on the verge of sound... Toning the volume down... Relatable vibes in presence of being who one is... Accepting what other had give... Life grasped in a merge to begin... Jus wanting to live... Fluent in the details that truly exist... Without babbling the jibs...

The disbelief in us men...

She asked me to describe what part of the candle I was... N the best fit would be the singe when the flame goes out on luv... Surprised at me response she couldn't believe my words... Stating u seen to be with it n willing... N I think it sent her mind on a journey of what kinda monster was within my own chillings... So I saved her the time n let her in to my world... Lil lady, one had every truly wanted to be my girl... Females tend to be more selfish than that if what they speak of n it's a fact... N no it's not me they don't like, it's the way I react... I don't play all the immaturities for what they are n leave someone to die crawling away from relations... I give until there's nothing left n I've seen nothing but cheesy attempts clinging to humiliation... I believe she the lights came in in her head when she spoke up n replied, u sound like every other man that's done no wrong... As I chuckled I whispered, woman, I need not ain't sad songs... They've been playing in me imagination for yrs n I can't find the button to turn them off... U see, it wasn't then neither other than the substances they chose that got me lost... There's no blame when free choice is the culprit... As she was unaware of the thing I would admit... Her silence broke sounds waves with a verbal tone n replied, so ur either broken or full of yourself.!. Lil did she know neither was I nor hateful towards anyone that's done nothing to me that never once was felt... As the conversation turned on me as the communication reversed the angle in which questions wanted make me out to be like every other man... Seems women cannot about there's a few good ones that chosen the opposing genders twisted stance... So without diggin for glory I simply stated not everyone is the same... As her remarks gathered upon her lips to say, ur physical presence makes me believe ur nothing but games... N I laughed bcuz of the profile that does not define who it is she cannot see... Like most self absorbed primates an animal I am not other than behind the bedroom door... It was this I had to explain in detail for get comprehension want following my words truths that I've released only bcuz she wanted to know more... I don't talk badly of ex's that failed to deliver the full package as it was I that waited to see n water time doin so that hurt the most... Watching their faces clown like children thinking they're some kinda desire as if all men wanna be a part of the show... As she came back with a smirk n chattered outta defence the way women do... Taking to heart my decisions fell short of the delivery that somehow stalled on the middle of the groove... U ain't telling the whole story so u I refuse to hear anymore... Finding that giglles once again for to get denial that real men don't need the point system to score... Looking at the developed in her eyes I stood up stepped away from an another foe made before getting to know someone ever had a chance to be... Listening to my feet gain space in between her n I add my ears heard her dismiss me like I wasn't shit... Shaking my head as if it was I that created her own monster that cannot seem to get a grip... Blabbering the whole time of how men like so fucking much... Yet, only if she knew, this man doesn't hate the motion of luv... As I've never held my tongue to try to reason with pasts that plague us all... Jus try to attempt to bring down the walls...

On the other side...

Knowing how to treat someone for the certainty of relations goin the same way... Unforced n diggin in beneath the flawed to whom an other plays... No matter the obstacles to maneuver through that make or break depths... Giving to one like tomorrow isn't promised as our real home grown luv they accept... Doin the lol things laughter grips the tenderness of chuckles I'm the ribs... Opened the fuck up for the clothes to touch the feel of a luv'r awakened to an image in the flesh calling dibs... Hands on with fingerprints reaching for the moans set free by the willingness to move... Trusting there's nothing within the obvious limits that will never turn a cheek on a friend... In total comfort as characters could never play rolls nor pretend... A clarification that loosens the heart to the sensitivities taken in to consideration... Wrapped up in the a morning not doin a damn thing but allowing the body to be craved beyond admiration... Twisting mind straight from all the past attempts of bad judgement that leads a more narrow road... Finding expressions trigger the voice box deep in the throat... Therapy for the emotion to concur the mystery of who it'll take to receive what's been hidden behind the eyes... Living n breathing between kisses that hold breaths to slide the lips the reminder of life... As one n in tuned with the syncing of flows in which fall into arms that show what truths can become... No longer n never again to be on the run...

You should jus go...

You don't wanna luv me... You're only interested in the thoughts that play with your dreams... Yet, if I could get you to see I'm not what you want... We could get past the hard times n you could can find that unfading trust... You see, I ain't no one to fall for... So you shouldn't go hanging your emotion on me as it pours... You'll only come to realize it's someone else you'd rather have... Jus believe me when I tell you I'm not the face you want lingering in your past... It sucks the interest will misplace what it is you think you feel for me... N I don't wanna hurt you searching your life away for the one you seek bu wasting the way you're willing to leak... I'm not heartless, it's jus, there's things you won't be able to give for long... N u may jus be saying I'm wrong... N that I'm afraid to be felt... As if I haven't myself overcome the feeling of being helpless... The truth of the matter is my face doesn't define who it is I am... My inner workings aren't for the misplacement of who I am as a man... You can say it's me that can't open up to the notion wanting to find you deep within... N I'll counter it with I know all to well that when shit breaks down I'm the one standing alone struggling to find my grin... I'm different n I don't mind being me... Unfazed by the cheap thrills roll reversals tend to need... So know my shallows are deeper than the beaches you've swam in up until now... N that once you go in over your head you'll walk on the waters to get away without a sound... Right in the middle of watching me come out to play in ways there's no turning back... It'll be my heart that drowns from the silence of a heart attack... The shit hurts to much to let jus anyone in... As the one thing I'd luv to do the most is simply live... knowing friends don't touch walls n feel they're way around inside as free to roam as they please jus to leave that empty ache... I'm tired of hearing different tones rambled through voices that change saying my fucking name... N I'm not comparing you to anyone but the fact that exists that no matter who, everyone takes off... It's jus the way it goes so I don't get attached to the moments caught in a pause... I won't kickstart someone who ain't gonna stick around long enough to feel some real shit coming to life... So I think you should do your thing n forget about what it is goin on in your head that will only complicate the purpose drifting away from the reason in your own mind... From one human to the next, I don't have the time to dismiss this loneliness jus to come back n apologize to myself... It's me I refuse to sell... To give up to a passerby who claims to know what it means to desire someone other than self... Unfamiliar with the mental compacity it takes to control the untamed wants in the way the heart melts... It's the end that isn't a redirection of the mind looking past me in wonder of what else is out there... My passion needs nor wants another useless tare... So feel free to do what it is you do... I'm more in luv with the truths taking part in an honest chance to be put to use...

The Hyde of Jekyll...

Not matter the situation were all different in one way or another when in relations... There's no point in denying the facts that we alter ourselves to the likings of an other without hesitations... Life seems to take in a while new feel when laying next to someone in the absence of light... N it's somewhere in the darkness we realize were not alone that eases our minds... Doin that's come morning the single life craves to have... Changing the mindset from selfish thoughts that cater to no one to enjoying the facts that have a blast... Settling in n opening up to the comfort we wonder off... Falling a lil further into the feel we say we fight off accepting the luv...

It's like the Jekyll n Hyde affect that contradicts words n actions goin separate ways... Having someone to pull us from the boredom we claim doesn't bother us n knowing it restrains our face... Laid up with a body so close it can be felt breathing as time gives to the memory one more image to keep... We all have two sides that coexist as there's also a double meaning your the term free...

Knowing...

What if whispers crawled across the pillow in which we shared laying face to face... That I'm in for yrs to play it to sit with u old asf n in present content that u still say my name... N how about the time put into memories that fulfill a lifetime shared... If things were to open up n be honest n say it's u the one in which I'd play fair...

N who's who steps up to give bcuz I jus can't help myself... Set for life with u more than in the mind as the comfort helps... Friends til next the end that never comes to soon as to go poof the wind... In it through the thick n thin knowing human nature alters if pinched... Good til the last drop... Aging together as I jus will not stop...

Moving simultaneously at times as life continues to be free to do as we please... What if my wants convinced my needs to breathe.?. Jus u n me with the mentality to accept luv on the highest level of trust... As a must have no other could ever replace as the ultimate rush...

So far in on a mature passion that slides into desires as they dance every single night... They for u before the drop even releases the dime... If u knew there was no doubt bcuz u believed in me... As threads pulls us together at the seems... Giggling on the thought alone that it's u n I... Let's say I fell for u bcuz you've allowed me to get close enough to dine...

If I hid nothing n was right with u I ways there were no insecurities to motivate crooked thoughts... Caressing the heart that beats in sync with the motion within my own chest that neva be a loss... Defying the silence on why we've waited to come back to life... Reasoning the answers that no longer question the reasons of why...

I haven't a clue...

Truth be told I think of u more often than not... Yet it's ur face I cannot invision as the details in ur features are nothin but a blurred spot... I try to maneuver around the smear that's seemed to cover ur smile... Even though the thought of u still drives me wild... So I attempt to see u in others that connect with my sights... N I believe I've misplaced u deep in their eyes... For I do not feel the way I do as I watch u walk across my mind... Yet I'm hoping ove day it's u I find... Doin more than wanting to imagine me stuck in a stare... Willing to open up n jus play fair... Although there's no telling what ur expression look like... I haven't a clue to visualize how you'd come alive... Jus know the depth of ur heart racing to catch up with luv... As I stand awaiting with a tongue neva to be hushed... I can't see the shape of u as if a silhouette dancing without sound... As there's no other like u within the crowd... For it's time I guess that will reveal u to have n to hold... Bringing to life the build up of all the patient woo's...

The open road...

Staring down a road with no end in sight... Not knowing what's to take place for there's no signs... Jus winding curves long straight aways that lead into the unknown...

N it's havta keep on route even thought I'mma feel so utterly alone... As I've begun a change of course for the freedom Benadryl my feet to catch a grip... I'm in no hurry taking in the scenery as I live...

With time to spare I travel without company to keep me entertained... It is makes it easier to stay in my own lane... Stopping periodically to rest yet never for to long....

I don't wanna be caught the fading images in my rearview in which I do not belong... It's jus me looking for the turn that takes me home... Off lost in the distance as I roam...

Wondering where is it I could spend some valuable time... N sit back with that ease that clears the mind... As I drift n cut through the wind in between the trees...

Somewhere in a paved road going to fulfill my dreams... I took off a while back n left the chaos behind me not knowing where is wind up... N I ain't gonna slow down until I crash into luv...

Maybe it's on a shoreline or in the thick of some woods... I jus know it's not without the city limits where females are up to no good... So I drive with no direction bcuz I seek a new feel... N as long as I have fuel my wheels will spin the only thing that's real... As the beat of my heart agrees with the tread groping the open road... Goin with the flow of fun being provoked...

The first to believe, the last to let go...

Neva be the one to walk away... It'll leave ur heart pounding n inflamed... Shocked that an other would lie of luv's gentle touch... Alone with the thoughts of unforgettable woos... The last one to eva break the cycle of hope... Keeping a friend closer than the feeling of home... Lost in a room hiding the flow of pain... Hinges will rust before the letting go allows them to escape... At the one that speaks the truth remains in solitude... From the heart where the greatest thing felt becomes mute... Being the only one that'll turn on the luv'n behind closed doors... Watching luv'rs claim emotions scorn... Unable to set what's real loose to live free... Opening a hole in the depths that rearrange dreams... Holding precious memories closer than hands could ever caress... Forced to empty the thrills leftovers from the chest... Be who it is u say u are... In no need to replace the comfort as you've come so far... To be afraid of the tears that strike a nerve... Reasoning with the motion that lurks... Tell it the way u feel it of leave it the fuck alone... Time rests for no one aching in moans... Stand for what life makes passion not wanna go without... Listening to the  patience that creates sound... Long after the pleasure moves on... Know the difference between the luv n the hate shown... Hearing tones excite the free will come alive... Even if the darkness at times shapes the mind... Finding the desires in the pitch of night spark a fire... Learning there's things in this world that are retire... Knowing s loss when it comes from someone who should've neva left... All the while the wonder cleans up the mess... Tapping into the resistance not wanting to remove the knives... Flames burn higher when sacred truths expose what others have to hide... Tongues swivel with change as remains cling to characters played... Trying everything to simply forget a certain face... Finding the image that mimics movement in the mirror tell the tale... Reflecting on who's who as the drip completes how relations failed... Twisting nothing but two fingers that uncurl... Drifting all bcuz someone actually promised the world... Be unwilling to be the first one to give up on something so pure... Refusing to die in a lifetime waiting for the cure... Believe for the mindset is what it takes... Not everyone is same...

Feeling the need...

I'm jus wanting to hold on n never let go... Jus one night to change the way I feel n it's not bcuz I'm alone... The piece of mind that it brings is a gift all in it's own... It's jus the luv that's never been given to me the way I've shared what it is I'm willing to show... It's gone unmatched as sit in silence without words to express my inner secret bcuz I'm scared to mention the details of my all... Seems everyone I encounter within relations eventually are only acceptable of their own flaws... N it makes it hard to wanna open up with a pain dying inside constantly climbing the walls... I jus wanna lean in to the warmth of luv for once without being mualed... It's crazy I havta hide behind closed doors so no one can see the true expressions upon my face... As I avoid the sound of voices chattering my very own name... I'm lost in solitude jus needing to come back to life before this is how I'll forever remain... Yet I don't feel like much of anything deserving of an escape... Digging holes for tears to fill puddles when they come like the rain drowning my heart... As it's even learned how to swim knowing I'm afraid of water for the fear of goin under left cruel marks... Why do people pretend to want someone in their lives by playing into parts.?. I don't understand the concept of the thought it takes to half step an other like it's a work of art... I would jus like for once for someone to mean more than what the tongue can spit into words... Simply one moment for me to crash into the sinking where it could never hurt... As the night lasts past the morning gathering a lil thing called like that's gone unheard... I'd luv to look into someone's eyes n see a bit more than a common flirt...

Something different...

I've been a sexual beast all my life... Able to make smiles awaken n eyes cry... N all I've ever wanted is to hide my face... To be seen beneath the touch of rain... I'd luv to meet someone in the pitch of nothing darkened beyond sight... In an empty room without the attraction I carry that never carries true luv's sighs... I don't wanna be handsome no more... N to be hung isn't worth picking my heart up off the floor... The shit hurts when they find out I ain't for the fuckery that plays shallow games... It only causes their fake presence to fade... Add in reason with a level head n the pain damn near falls in love with my name... Gathering memories that need not to be carried by the hate... I jus wanna be seen before I fuck someone senseless as truths come clean... Finding a friendship that becomes irreplaceable with a balance of being wanted by need... Only if we were blind I could show who it is I am... From the depths that ache within me as a once defeated man... Labeled as eye candy until they've had their feel... As it always winds up that I'm the one who ain't shit due to I catch on to who isn't real... It sucks in ways I refuse the facial features that lie every time... N a whore I don't wanna be slinging meat as the find... There's a difference in how I'm treated n how I'd enjoy being felt... As sexual intent should be second nature as a gasture to help... For it's me I wish was taken in to consideration for once... Even though I luv to go down n make a meal outta someone for the feel of the munch... I jus don't want to find myself back in this position all bcuz someone else jus wants to be fucked... I'd rather be alone than to waste moments I cannot erase that become a crutch... It's a loss like words that claim emotions on the rise... I'm worth so much more than a personal hype... Letting go of my heart after it gets attached... I don't wanna be the clown the jokes on as they laugh...

Restrained...

Chasing paper as days rotate... Watching life get away in the expressions upon the face... N time never stands still to get ahead of the game... One wrong step n behind we go becoming too late... In a world made if greed n fame... The struggle forces one to wanna escape... Riding solo goin on about our way... Seems running down notes isn't jus a song written so great... Talking about being caught up in the system unwilling to be tamed... As there's only one thing that makes the pain go away...

Lining the pockets to know everything gonna be ok... Locked in to a financial circus tryin not to go insane... N the sad things is friends are fuckin hard to be made... Lookin at classifications that sperated mindsets that blame a racial hate... Unable to understand legal lifestyles for hard work truly pays... Even though it's never enough to enjoy the claim... Legal matters force a divide here using labels n calling names... Entities pretend to be in the flesh as minds remain in vain... Lost on how to adapt to contracts bring up the talk of imaginary gates... N to use what's been put in place many don't know how to step away from being afraid... Working in an enslaved way of life trapped n tamed... Civilized animals in a concrete jungle playing on another level of shame... Humanity has fallen to the dollar as even emotion has been raped... Raising the bar to be cut throat for nothings free worth having beneath the rain... Pouring from eyes at the bottom looking up as eyes are rinsed bit never free of the restrictions of chains... Knowing the mentality of cruelty isn't right as selfish needs to survive place blame... All in the act of a fed dream where the riches are everything to live a lil better taking the bait...

I've believed...

I've cried tears no one knows of... Fell from within myself as I dripped from trust... As there's places in dark corners that will forever remember my face... As the silence in them alone changed my name... Pain was attracted to me long before I ever knew it's motive... N forgot who I was once I found out I was noticed... As I've collapsed in emotions solitude hidden away in rooms... Froze in a garage unable to move... N I've screamed at the top of my lungs with my will crossin the line... N there was no one to listen to me release the confusion inside... Alone I drifted with nowhere to go... As my life was at ruins as I couldn't cope... I fell to a friendly foe that hid disguise lead to believe luv was alive... N my thoughts process of the ordeal is, it was jus my time...

The remains...

No one's ever felt for me what I've felt them... N it makes it hard to believe that anyone would fight to have me again n again... Day in day out as their proclaimed luv keeps coming as it's unable to stop... Finding life in the feel of emotion from the bottom to the top... I loosened to the lost in ways I've never seem to encountsr for myself to be wanted... N my mind of the memories that remains is haunted... Running from the party that touched me in ways I cannot explain... Jus to be release back into this world as a stranger that I'll forever remain... After once devoting time I spent on those that went through the motions like lusts on fire... Pretending to feel the passion behind the secrets of their own desires... Not a one felt the pain left installed in my heart when it was all said n done... N one in particular had me all in as I had believed I found home... As I was soon reminded that everything changes before the eyes can close... Capturing free will to remove themselves from the grasp that unfolds... Like palms opening to miss the catch... Slipping through the fingers bcuz they don't have it in them to remain intact...

The end of too soon...

They never seem to remember u as the end comes to soon... Well before lips give way to the tongue that expresses the never-ending mood... Promises fall short as the change of mind redirects luv that was supposed to be as true as life itself...

Leaving confusion to shake the heart as the betrayal felt... Lost in emotion entering relations the loss grips tighter than strength can let go... Left with a memory upon a face that wasn't meant to be as friendly to the hold... The feeling fades leaving the features exposed for a lifetime luv'n someone else...

Wondering when the mind will release the thought of how the passion felt... In the middle of the hype that brought life to the core... We watch them slip from our hands as they walk out the door... On to what yhey say is a better place to go get it while it's good... Remembering from time to time of how our own world they shook...

Thoughts so alive...

Days goin on with the rotation of the sun... Life's gettin behind age left untouched... Thoughts roam on past times where luv found joy... Opened to the need wants that filled a void... Lips shaping kisses pressed lost the motion of more... Away in to lonely nights without the maddening affect removed the core... Better times await in the distance of an others eyes... As light comes of the darkness in the mornings shine...

Capturing a new feel that listens to moods that have an easy tone... Tuned in to the depths callin out names to be heard from moans... Passion in the mix of seasons that change... Rearrange in the hearts exchange... Tangled in the shallows digging beneath the flow that rushes through moments held close... Emotion transfers from one chest to the next fallin in luv with hope... Loosening to the sense of making worth a thing to recon with... So full of life in a single stare met as smiles lift...

Fuck it...

I never thought it be like this... Shit... Not this way... Feeling the pits of luv wanting to escape... Fuck... What I'd do to be touched... Beneath a moment of a decent conversation comin to life... One that lasts all night... Yet, here I am... Rebuilding home checking who I am as a man... Hiding the facts that a good woman is wanted... One to make me feel like I'm something... Knowing I've been let down in the past... As it wasn't my fault I want matched... But fuck it ya know... What's one to do sitting night after night alone.?. N it's not fear that shelters the heart... It's the absence of an other willing to play their cards... Laying around or finding something to do... Jus having someone around for the comfort that moves... Repositioning... Responding...

N I'm here doin nothin at all... Watching movies wondering wtf... Keeping these words hushed... How could I have lost my way... Then again, I don't havta relieve old days... It's jus the nights that creep up from beneath the creases of the mind... Remembering how it felt to hold on to a body so tight... N my curiosity drifts on the whereabouts of who don't know they're thinking of me... Wanting to get outta the house n breathe... It's a damn shame to have something worth a fuck to give n have to hold it in... It's bullshit but it's worth the live... So I say make myself feel better than I did moments ago... As if it works to lie to myself that I'd rather be a hoe... Like that's any better to have meaningless intercourse... Fuck it, I'll jus watch porn...

The snip...

I knew there was a time is start cutting mutha fuckas off... Once I went down that road of truths n got lost... Watching others point n talk n not know the details that confined me... Seems the tone about circled back to snip a few leaves... Allowing them to blow with the wind like chatter whispered behind backs... Knowing not a damn one them had clarification of the facts... As judgement reigned down even from so called family that spoiled in my mind... Realigning alliances that created a perfect picture of this who that could never lie... At the lowest point where the return needed a friend... Seems tendencies couldn't help themselves to turn a cheek when eyes looked away unable to take defense... N the deadline came when the upward climb showed work put in settled lips babbling like bafoons... Knowing if the lights were go out in a quiet room the vibe alone would move... Foes smiled no matter how close they pretend to exchange hidden disrespects... As the woodwork opens for em one at a time to come out like some infestation of insects... Resenting the luv once held on the twist as knives are slowly removed from the back... I am in Sunday with one thing n that is fuckin facts... Removing the serpents that caused a tear of their own... No matter who it be that downplayed me at the bottom when I felt I had no one looking up at imaginary thrones... 

Only if I knew...

Not knowing what the feeling of what it's like to have someone crave me in return... It leaves an emptiness that goes unmentioned an interest never lurks... The void forces emotion to ache on the stillness the tongue... Goin without the one feeling that had never been seen as luv... Though there is no pity to calm the nerve as it's always back to the basics... Jus a ventilation system of words gathered express the truths of what I hold so sacred... Within the loneliness that I've learned to accept as the only way... Defeat tried to claim me n trap me beneath the pain... Tellin me in the longest nights that never seen to want fuckin end... That I'll forever be the only one I can count on bcuz there's nothing worse than bitter friends... As faces have drifted in to my life as I watched them leave... Each one proclaiming I was everything they've longer to have n then they were gone the wind... I don't know what it's like to be luv'd due to those I've encountered have lied... Changing the thoughts I had if them behind my eyes... Sometimes it hurts n others I don't mind the solitude... Yet all I every wanted was to come across someone who didn't damn me with an attitude so rude... N I've had dinner good moments that I've had to try n erase... I even pretend not to hear them speak to me from memories of my very own name... Leaving the wonder of is it me that tournament then inside out... As I retract the thought bcuz it wasn't I that switched shit up like, wow.!. The disbelief clings to the hollowness as if the heart is homeless to often... Unable to show one after another that I'm worth the willingness softened... I'm a loner but it's not by the choice I've been bestowed upon... It's jus to protect myself from the masks others wear that cannot seem to respawn... From a prior time before me where I simply did not exist... They taste my lips n great the worst n flip... No, I have no clue of what it's like to enjoy the comfort that always winds goin missing... Listening to others is like hearing a snake hissing... As sad as it sounds I am not broken by far... I'm jus not waiting around to see who can slit me open jus to bleed me from new scars...

When they leave...

Feeling pain the lowest level of betrayal... Watching a friend lose the feel of emotions goin stale... Wondering why someone would let u into their life... Then change the mind on the loose as if they've never meant the hype... Rolling in depths alone n fearing interest the heart tends to sink... Turn from the feeling of luv makes it hard to breathe... As it's the goin without the one person that made life so fuckin perfect... Jus to realize there word in worthless... Plaguing the thought process that shelters passion from getting hurt... Tryin not to speak badly if an other that simply lit selfless desires to burn... Like a memory that wasn't able to live beyond the the games that came n gone... Drifting with the music playing once everything drops sound for the lyrics finding comfort in the pain of songs... Trying to hold shit together knowing not many mean what the say... Hiding in the shadows that never give light the mirrors images until we can render our name...

Friends for life.!.

It's the conversation without even saying a word... N how to bodies lean towards one another are heard... Within the silence that breaks barriers of comfort that release dreams... It's the motion that lays as still as flush that reminds one the definition of free... Jus to be close knowin someone is there... Digging in to the feels of real emotion that is so rare... Realizing smiles come to life with the the simplest thoughts... As it's ok to open up n trust someone else's flaws... It's the level of friendship without expectation that tells a story unlike any other that could be lived... Choosing a lifestyle that farther the goochies in the ribs... With the will that syncs to thrill of never to be alone... Having a great that can enjoy the feel of a lil place called home... Looking in to a set of eyes that'll never turn away... As moisten lips cater to the affections hushing names... N there's a display upon the face that could never lie about what's goin on inside... Letting someone else in other than self so devine... Whispering on the topside of pillows even on the rainy days that tends to pour... Aching for luv to be touched in every way wanting more... Wrapped up n held to being chased around a room... Doin things that a lovely person never do... As the skin becomes tenderized to fingerprints applied to ease a moment to live... Slowing down time thinking what wouldn't we give... To have them for a lifetime so the sensitivities are never harmed... So deep in luv with the honestly their charm...

The deeper the feel...

Willing to wait in the sex to be felt... Wantin relations to step from the chest... As matters the heart mean more than feeling a moan... Shallow lusts only leave one alone... Bodies flush with the intent to be luv'd... Minds open to a friendship craving to be touched... Tongue flipping convo from the tip of the flip... Allowing passion to speak from silenced lips... Holding off on the sexual tension that confuse the mindset tryin figure shit out... With the thought of being told of fetishes n fantasies as nudity reaches for sound... Lookin for someone to mean more than a roll over n done... Desires wanna be ravished in a place called home... Loosening the grasp so free will can show depths waiting to be freed... Bringing to life all the hidden secrets that drift into dreams... As fingers move with the texture skin feeling their way along the curves... Falling further in luv with the tenderness of worth... No longer jus killing time in an attempt to find out who rest will cuddle up with... Able to unclinch the past that holds the single life in balled up fists... Jus to awaken to a friend that never turn away... Living in that peace we all prefer that simply n quietly says our names...

I'm different...

I wanna be normal but I don't know how... Seems everyone keeps calling me crazy every time I turn around... So I drift further from what I've ever been on a daily as time goes on... Looking back at this world stuck in a concept from the time they're born... N I'm the one that is different n looked at as if I'm gone to far... Even turning away the immaturities of man made gods that plague the heart... N all I ever did was think for myself n look at things the way I was supposed to... As I've been the outsider all my life knowing how others are that have no clue... Or they jus don't care to reason with facts as they go along with the idiocy of societies empty fills... Materialistic bs that consumes them with the mindset of cheap thrills... Everyone seems to be chasing something other than the basics of life n I jus don't get it... Things jus ain't for me as it's they shun me away n all I wanna do is get along outside of my own wits... Not that I'm any better, it's jus I don't think or act or feel like everyone else... People like me aren't easy to find bcuz I see everyone doin the same ol shit the next are n I'm the one not being felt... It tends to play on my own emotion as the thoughts come n go... Guess I'll feel this way for as long as I sit alone wondering where my friend is to ask my home... No one else out here steps back to pay attention to the details that makes us all individually unique... As I sit by myself wondering why others feel the way they do about me... 

Stick around...

If u wanna luv me today, don't leave me tomorrow... I'm tired of losing friends that claim their luv isn't borrowed... My heart ain't for the chain of commands that gives u control... N there's no reason to categorize me with every other man you've held within a home... If u don't have it in u to ease the fuck up n live n let live... I'll straight up tell u that there's nothing from me you'd want that I could possibly give... Like me, don't luv me n show that u actually care... I don't need to step into resentment again with someone who doesn't play fair... Of all people I'm not the one to cater to the silliness of the coming n goin... N I don't feel the need to follow u around tryin to figure out what ur doin... If ur here in my life ur gonna havta stand ur ground... Grab ahold of my worth n ride it like a merry go round... Enjoying the feel of being together as one movement coming undone... Jus don't ever think I'll allow u to abuse my luv... Trusting the lusts as much as fingers touching a blush... U cannot run when times turn to the opposing end of fun... I'mma need u to remain as is n so much more... Plucking roses free from all their pointed pricking thorns... So jus gather the concept displayed before ur eyes... U claim to want someone who's with it for once in ur life... An individual willing to open up n retrain ur mind of what men are... N all I'm asking for is an honest chance at ur very own heart... That is if ur coming at me like I'm the only one that will every do... Bcuz I to, yeah, I'll never leave u...

The whip.!.

Whipped topping covering the naked nips.... Tasted on the tip of the tongue licking lips... Feeling on the tastebuds that cater to the flava of luv... Finding the sensitivity of hormones begging to be touched... Goin the creative route as the banana to be in ur split cums with nuts... Sucked clean with one gulp needing the feel of the suction with moans hush... Mmmm, goes the craving of sexual enactments played out... Finger food becomes of the slit u open for the mouth... Lapped clean of the smooth texture applied for the eating... In a circular motion wanting the cherry that needs a relieving... Flipping positions for the feast of graps as body slide... Sticky to the movement as hidden thoughts come to mind... Down the throat goes the girth on the rise rushing up from ur chest... Spinning into a 69 spreading ur legs double dipping giving head... More the whip that makes the entanglement so much fucking fun... Making a mess of the need as patience upon three nerves begin to run... Flowing with the secreations that come from within... Oral pleasure at its finest as limits give... Digging in to the feel of orgasms exploding the gush... Rolling u over jus snack ur lovely lil tush...

The few that turn away...

Settling the nerves to show we can maintain... Giving truth to that it wasn't us that ended us up single... Having someone to believe in us away from the crowd all claiming the same ol shit... On our own never to accept jus anyone who wants to mingle... Knowing a certain type will only do if the heart will ever open back up... Loosening to the waltz that strolls hand in hand... There's a depiction within the imagination that refuses to let go of the notion of luv... Finding the attention upon the skin a mere lie to what resides beneath the level of demands... Of who hides in the creases of what it is self craves to know... Getting to the movement of sharing spare unused emotions... Needing the guarantee to accept the motion of touch shown... Due to there's no chance to reset the mindset of events groping devotion... It's one time that fails to deliver the goods of interest second guessing the serving size... As eyes are the gateway to the inner beauty goin to waste... Getting lost in the course of actions playing out in ones own mind... Without an other to lay n be still long enough with to gather a comfort in getting to know a face... One that's been mistreated n lied to by others in disbelief... Somewhat tarnished n trying to relate... Realizing it's hard when so many cry wolf knowing they don't know how to act when retrieved... Forming a bond that shoves luv away for the feel of hate... Some are genuine n correct the mistakes dealing with those that have no remorse... Jumping from here to there with the heart collapsing every damn time... Blaming others for not using the thought process that encounters misdirection wanting more... As the extending of fingers categorize everyone in a blown out mind... Shifting to be like those who simply don't want no part of the chaos awaiting the pain... Hiding in the patterns are the few that turn away... Taking in to consideration that not everyone is willing to open the gates... Playing it safe for it was truly an other that changed the expression upon their face... Reconstructing depths that become a pitstop for the shallow attempting to tap the line... Like leeches ruining it for the likeliness of stability to thrive... Within A friendship without the have n the played out lies... As eyes break free from the closing n no longer blind... Able to witness the fake ones that come along... Drifting along n keeping close to those who want no part of blame... Stepping to the side for lusts to ramble on tongues that can only perform for so long... There's no need in shame...

In the makings...

Touched... In the lack of contact... Clinging to the connection... In on the way smiles interact... Faces... Coming to life... Expressions turn out... Dining in to the memory of the mind... Emotions... Gathering comforts need... Felt as the one thing that free... Making it easier to breathe... Gorgeous... Settling sights on life... Unwinding in it's own... Opening to the texture the reasons the question of why... Pausing... Riding the rivets that flow... Waiting n willing to see the facts... Played out to the knowing grows... Lips... Pressed into thoughts released... Sliding from the corners the neck... Looking to be pleased... Pleasure... The selfish want to feel allowed... Tempting the nerves to live... Slowly the side contains if sound... Fear... Sidestepping the same ol for the cure... Falling under the fingerprints reaching... More than being lured... Nights... Playing the fantasies... Loosening up to the rush of real... Thinking it's been long enough for something so maddening... Crawling... Knees follow the lead... Explored off the edge the bed... Tasting the delicious treat... Depths... Accepting the affection... Adored beyond common friends... Giving to the limits of attention... Stars... Never moving for eyes to remain focused on us... Consumed by the intent insane to refuse the truce... Drifting away from the crowd comes forth as trust... Known... Showin the moves takes to be... Shaping words cuddling the heart... Dipping in to the fetishes captured by dreams... More... As never enough feeds the thrill... Digging in to the most sacred space... Warming the texture if the skin chilled... Dirty... Talk rolls from the tongue... In the nude io desires stepping up... Well beyond the cherished crush... Held... Enjoyed within the grasp... Tripping in to well deserved arms... Finally, at last...

The ones I like...

Losing feel of a woman's touch... Unable to find the words to say as much... Life seems to be at ease without a female around... There's no one here to make a sound... The silence chills the nerve at times I do admit... N I believe my heart's waiting on someone i can't resist... Conversations take place as relations isn't the issue... Yet, I can't find it in me to feel the term I miss u... Idk if it's jus I'm over all the fuckery that tore me down... Or the fact that the screening procees makes it awkward that sensual pound... My dick doesn't seem interested n playing unless it gets it's type... As I don't have the patience to comb through another's life... Craving a petite female so tight I cum on her command... Knowing that isn't what makes me her man... I jus can't seem to get out to encounter the physical nature in the middle of the way she could enjoy me as is... When I seriously jus wanna press my lips into her kiss... Dealing with the thought of don't let the wrong one in for I've even been thrown away... Waiting n listening the way she speaks my name... I don't wanna live in fear of what could happen if I were to lose another friend... It's jus why put the effort n wait on the inevitable end... Damn to feel someone worth the lay snuggled up beside me that awakens my hormones... Erecting more than my cock as she feels like home... N honestly I'm scared of the changing of faces once the initial newness wares off... So I hide behind my eyes that express the feel of her fingertips so soft... Becoming too get what I'd luv to be in her heart... I jus can't close the distance rain with my desires wanting to play their part... Call me picky if one must n label me the way they do... I'm not gonna open up until I feel the irresistable passion flow in truths... I ache for the moment to collapse in her arms... Found from wondering around coming face to face with her unique kinda charm... Pulling my in for she knows what it is she wants... As I sleep alone trying not think about luv... N it's the ones I like that tends to want someone else... Guess others feel about me the way I do my ultimate sensation to be felt...

The wonder of luv...

How close can I get u to u if my fingerprints were to touch u the first time.?. If it was in the contract that told u I'm different as it's u I could use in my life... Speaking with the flow moving in the caress in ur skin... Closing ur eyes to feel me goin  the curves ur body that never end... Falling beneath the texture that settles the mind goin insane... What's it gonna be like if u can't seem to get enough of my face.?. The wonder continues its void when the emotion comes to u... Every time giving the attention to the thought that creates the space in between us go poof... As discussions sold find the tongue rolling in my mouth and if ready to please... How would u respond if it were me looking up at u on my knees.?. Twisting u free from where you've been with something real to play with... As me catering to the chatter that becomes known as bliss... I'm tired of thinking of what things could be... It would be nice if I knew what if be doin within your own dreams...

Wanting to get close...

Would you mislead me if I was sincere.?. Or would you make certain that I'd have nothing to fear.?. I haven't a clue if your capabilities even if you were to guess... So I'd rather not take a good thing if it's real n create a mess... Only if I knew for sure you'd have the time it takes to get it right... N allow true intent to actually come to life... Could you get past and a moment to awaken the notion of me wanting to close.?. Closer to the bond than comfort is willing to allow us to hope... I'm asking bcuz I don't wanna expect anything less than what you tell me... All I need to know is where it is I for in to the need... That aching crave want that settles the nerve of getting ur fix... Am I to be felt from here on out as a motion upon your lips.?. That reason luv lives in depths n insists on coming out to play... Are the expression displayed on your face for me to believe I am your taste.?. There's things of the knowing that is a must to so we can break free from the single ways of lust... As it's in the matter of maturity giving trust...

I'm weak...

The depths in the details in which the design of ur eyes flow... They have me weak to the point of I find myself wanting to be shown... As I follow the display that captivates my attention unable to look away... I wonder how it would be possible for you n I do come face to face... In a stare to last a lifetime worth the luv given to own... Yet without saying a damn thing the colors that give life to your face I'll neva know... As lost I'd be as I'd spend my life breathless in a pause... Forever home knowing for you my heart would neva stall... Witness the shape that opens sights that have no words... If I eva fell in I wouldn't be able to resist you as I'd flirt... As there'd be no such thing as goin without... Bcuz if I had you, you'd see a different kinda man come unwound... Cutting the edges loose from the fear that lead me to you... N all I'd eva want is all of you're truths... So I know when I'm staring you down, my friend is who I truly luv... With you i feel the trust as it's looking back at me as a fuckin must.!. Attracted from beneath the twinkle of life... In a new sense of I've imagined you in my mind... Attached to the visual of knowing who you are... Doing things I was refusing to feel awakening in my heart... Peek-a-boo, I see you... 

If the chance arose...

What is it you are wanting me to be... You say you're not like others that have shuffled me in n outta their dreams... So I sit n listen to words rattle my mind... Given my curiosity a split second to think of what I could find... Beneath the tones that speak with honesty so it seems... I don't mean to be rude but I've heard the promises so many times before as they sting... So tell me in a way I haven't been able to believe that it's me you wanna get to know... Bcuz I'm jus living life away from the chaos that always gets the better of me shown... N I'm not saying you're not who you say you are... I'm jus for once jus tryin to protect my the feel of my heart... For when I fall, luv has no limits to what I'll do... I havta be careful due to there's so many others that ain't for the right thing constantly wanting something new... It's not you n it ain't me, it's jus we're gonna havta be able to relate... On some real shit unlike anything we've seen that's called out our names... I don't want no half hearted bs entering my joy to tare me down... As I to have preferrences that I refuse to let loose from the mouth... So exposed yourself if it is me that's caught the attention you try to hide... We only have so long before it all comes to an end as we attempt to claim the reasons of why... I wanna know what makes you think I'm not like anyone you've ever been with... What makes me different wanting to reach for me with your lips.?. Interest is more than a thought that caters emotion ready to leap... N without knowing the truths relations will evaporate with the sexual display as desires leave... I'm not one for opening up if you cling to your past... There's things in this world I can do without restraining me as if you're mad... I don't wanna hurt n I don't feel the need to give in if we cannot be friends... It's not me that I wanna continuously defend... So who is it you believe me to be.?. I'd luv to know so I to can ease back n remain free... You see, I've been where I don't ever wanna go back to... Yet I await the feeling of a body willing to move... To get with the motion it takes to conquer the moment n cut loose... I jus don't wanna havta eva let go all bcuz someone would rather hang me from a noose... Yeah, my differences can be seen n I don't even try to be... I jus stay in my lane n do whatever makes me, me... As I ask one more time of the thoughts that gathered in your very own head... What would you do if the chance arose to bare tongues dripping with letters so wet.?. Aroused by the fact that the images you play with are before you n ready to live... What is it in the return that are you willing to give.?.

Diggin ouuta the friend zone...

Fucked right outta the friend zone giving chase... Run n take it as I get closer to u wantin me around so u can get used to seeing my face... Yeah, jus to touch ur freak cummin to life from the bed to the fuckin floor... Straight up doin u in ways jus friends could never be an option always wantin more... Making u step up once I cross the line that divides us as associated lusts... With hands on my interest is to make u fall the fuck in luv... As deep as passion touches the flesh in which u hide... Feeling my tongue down in between the tenderness of ur thighs... Loosening the comfort level up to let me in past the wall that shuts everyone else out... Ur gonna befriend me into a luv'r on a daily basis once I get to hearing u moan for me the most beautiful sounds... Talking about fuck the friend zone, watching doin with the rest of ur life.?. Needed to witness for self what else comes with a skills movement goin deep inside... Beyond the sexual pleasure that confides in who it is I am to come out n play with u in such a way... As the sweat drips like hormones felt with the nerves that squeeze off round after round tasting the shape of names... I'mma fuck u on the dirty side of thoughts breaking free to enjoy the surrender to me... Yeah, I to wanna watch u gasp as u try to breathe... Panting in the darkness so I can relate to the desires of craving the bond built through the flirtation of nasty sex... Destroying the friend zone u wish to reside in as my heart will come to life with every motion to identify ur worth as I continue to give u head... Unwilling to stop bcuz it's my enjoyment to conquer the mental understanding of who we can become... N all u havta do is show me who truly hides beneath the texture I feel of who it is through fingertips that causes such a fuckin rush... Opened up n lettin me into ur zone retrieviy the friend in which you'll find I do not belong... Ripping u from the notion as I forcefully remove ur panties laced thong... Filling u as a pause for I to realize I ain't no joke... Gripping a feel of my own as my hands get a grip around ur throat... Pounding ur pussy until ur will collapses on my cock... It's thick n it's long n as u cream u can feel it throb... As I lick ur eyes outta there back of ur head... N help u back up on to the naked bed... Proving I'm willing to do what it takes to see u cheese... Aiming for the sweet spot bangs ur knees shut being me please...

In the next phase.!.

Where is home.?. When the kids are all grown... Gone as the feeling of alone grows... Where is it you'll be known.?. When the solitude awakens the lonely nights of wonder... Listening the solo pounds thunder... Sitting around as the body doesn't get any thinner... What are u gonna do with those long cold azz fuckin winters.?. As the family you've been with for how many yrs leaves the nest... Jus the feeling of ur heart as it gets hidden within the chest... Playing your mind with thoughts of curiousities emotionally fed... Without the comfort of a body willing to spend some time as a friend... Who is it you will become on your own terms n conditions.?. Taking individuality on a ride of a lifetime claiming self doesn't want directions... Finding it to be the only lie up n under the tongue tucked bcuz there is no such thing as perfections... Jus others peeping with unknown intensions... Once the lil ones become if she n are doin what it is they do... Which life is it you will choose.?. N for how long will it take to recognize if it's for you... One day you'll wake up as reality has changed as it seems everyone went poof.!.

Hidden away...

Curling up within myself, alone and in the nude... Hidden away from the touch of others that only tend to ruin the mood... Laying flush on my cores lowest depth I rest night after night... Afraid of feeling something worthwhile n it being in luv the overrated continuous fight... Unable to trust an other that's fine nothing wrong as I'd havta pay for their ex's choices... Let alone theirs that wound them up on the hint to replace the same ol patterns chattering useless noises... So I sink in when the lights go out so I don't havta fear who it is i sleep with... Bcuz even I have chose a few other faces that weren't worth the expressions that existed that puckered lips... As every morning there's a void to awaken to as the lone feeling gets it goin... Content without the hatred luv claims not have in which comes around when expectations does get what they want or want done as in doin... I slip beneath the texture to stay clear from the warning signs the even give a lil poke at the emotion that's to focus easy to hurt... In my silence where time commits to moving on with or without meaningful yet shallow azz words... N the piece of mind is different unwilling to take part in the chaos of relations that has no mindset ready to join forces... Only thing I never want to do is have to walk away from another so called friend looking after self as the scenery changes yet again during in porches...

Attention to detail...

As still as the body lays to be... Laying motionless with needs... Muscles ache of strains that take a toll... Out from the inner walls of a robe... Naked n bared to felt... Needing a lil help... That to with jus the right amount of attention to feel me out... Searching to release the tension as sighs slip from thy mouth... Oiled n ready to fingers to slide across the skin... As not one single out stress is missed... Hands on with a bit of flirtation to set me free... As the tenderness of the texture is rubbed to eat the way I breathe... Gripped n gropped for the freedom of the void to be filled... Making luv to the touch of the thrill... Feeling motion go from one section the next... Thankful from a special place within the chest... From the ferr to the legs n up to the butt... Flipped for the front to be entertained the pattern of fingerprints stroking the flesh n then back over before the arousal of lusts... Finding the spine with thumbs circulating as they dig... Up the sides n reaching for the neck from the ribs... Consumed by patience of time has no rush... Slowly untwusting a days work into a relaxed state of slush... As arms even like the lathering that is pleased with the pressure alone... As the movement settles on a lil extra detail on the lower back as skill roams... Rub me as if u were can relate to the relief... Applying that sensual connection to the way u care for me...

Fiddling with life...

Singular thoughts living life in a way it's the piece of mind that brings joy... In the solitude of the heart where the functions knows there's a void... Awakening to new horizons showing there's a reason to enjoy the visual treat... Slowing the pulse so there's a moment to relax n jus breathe... Rollin solo n goin with the imagination of who's gonna come along... Walking across the mind as the breeze changes faces until to gift causes a pause... Single n singling out the pros n cons of judgements to better life for self to open up to luv... As a calm eases the terms n conditions of needs n wants... Drifting alone n noticed eyes wonder if what's beneath the skin... Curiousities drive passions away if not mature enough to relate with an unforced grin... Playing peek-a-boo one minute n hide n seek the next... As the overall interest is jus someone who can give the crave of our own best... Changing the course of motion to feel the temptation wanting the texture flush... As near as the air is felt when the wind blows the rush.... To be felt as is so truths are seen off rip... Listening to the chattering with the boncing of lips... Trading in status's to add the good times in a welcoming fashion to the display that evolves from desires that wanna live... N it's jus me myself n I doin whatever comes up until then...

A night to remember...

I'd love to to touch u in places that would drive u wild, but not tonight... I jus need u near me so i can feel ur presence comfort my life... To know I have a hold of u for a lil while as ur skin is my escape... Fallin in to depths sink pulls me beneath a world that's gone insane... Laying as still as emotion can great the notion of who it is I'm able to accompany... As thoughts think highly of the woman I seek in u so neither of us are lonely... Watching the sun drift outta sight as the skies are taken over by a more mood filled time... I'd light some candles so the natural light gives the perfect dim to ur shine... Finding corky smiles crack open the raw intent of passion felt in the core... With sighs that chuckle life comin back from a place that's wanted no more... Together we can eat back n relax n feel something we've damn near forgotten about... Talk with a  chatter n listen the voice that's been submerged in the moisture the of mouth... Waiting to find a level mind to relate to in a moment to let loose... I jus wanna be n adjust to ur body when u move... Jus two individuals taking a night to dismiss the single life n slow fingers to roam free... It can be a memory that could last longer than all the unfulfilled dreams... Moving all the bs aside to trigger the after effect that holds no limits to what may occur... Yet we'd need the connection wanting to live to step up n farther the pieces to firm peace jus beyond spitting words...