Livin dead...

I often wonder what's wrong with me... Why I'm the only one who thinks the way I do... On the outside never to get back in... As if I wanted be different I'm the opposite of trimmed to suit... Unable to fit in with the crowd as limits has been reached... What is wrong with me..? Why do I feel lost looking for a friend... Thinkin the good times have passed me by as I'm jus driftin in the forgotten end... Am I a mental monster that defines truths in between the cracks of goin with the flow..? N is it a bad thing as I no longer want to be known..? Slippin away from hands that reach... I don't think there's anything left for me to believe... N I'm jus lookin to be me n do as I do... Jus bcuz luv'rs leave n life hangs loose... Feelin normally abnormal I know I ain't the same as u... I don't understand in which way u choose to move the way u do... All of u followin the same goofy azz bs year after year like some mindless program... Used against the resistance I've become growin into a man... Am I that far past what it is you've been taught..? Am I the one who's truly lost..? Seekin someone beneath the heads caught in the clouds... Jus wonderin around until they to are found... I sit n think bcuz spendin time with others that judge turns me off... Havin an open mind tends to identify flaws... Weak minded persons afraid to think for themselves... Am I the only one who feels the uniqueness of self..? Off to the side watchin the show reveal thoughtless behavior unmask clones... I feel alone without a home... Is it me..? Or is everyone livin dead in this elaborate dream..?