broken cracked n shattered

Yeah, i didn't even get to see the velvet sky.
 Jus my reflection in the glass of bloodshot eyes.
 Blended in as if camouflaged in between the clouds.
 Watchin the glossy glaze take it's shape without a sound.
 Broken there wasn't a crack of the shatter within.
 Only a smile faked to assure me I'm not human again.
 Standin close enough to my image lookin back as i turned away.
 As the raindrops rolled down the outside of the windows chase.
 Reachin for the invisible emotion still connected to the lose.
 I didn't witness the color change the skies texture in my pause.
 Jus motionless me ashamed to go eye to eye with myself.
 As if the storm found a leak in my home n landed on my face felt.
 All i remember is i appeared to have lost who i thought i was.
 N the pain that scared the visual left by a selfish kinda luv.
 My head hung on a gelatin swingin in disbelief.
 Tryin to catch up wth my mind runnin circles after somethin to believe.
 I stood opened n bare for the downpour to cleanse me free.
 Behind a locked door imprisonin what use to be me.
 Afraid to let go of what was left behind for me to save.
 As still as the dead my heart i knew was claimed.
 Consumed by a fatal blow that never touched like the graze of the wind.
 Yet slit me deeper than passion acknowledgin feelings spread thin.
 Shattered i broke behind the peep holes that cracked n gave a visual to the hidden twist.
 As i sucked it up n found the resistance grew into a better me not so pist...