in btween the days light

once in a while i sleep on the edge of my mind in bed.
waitin n ready 2 do in the day b4 i lose my head.
grabbin @ dreams n beatin em down.
i have no time 4 la la land, playin like a clown.
i need reality 2 keep my smile from fadin.
something i can touch as i do everything i can 2 aid it.
every now n again i slip up n let the mind wonder away.
rollin down hill thinkin of things that could damper my day.
y is this thing we live ever have to end as we're repo'd?
y do i feel this way every time im left alone?
i get lost sometimes as i tend 2 give up cuz i dont feel so alive.
on the drop of a dime like its a waste of time.
n im so in love with life, i never want 2 part as it fills my smile.
n its as if im goin crazy n i dont know how 2 keep it on speed dail.
as the days do jus that as their gettin away.
hurryin up 2 spill out my inner core in every way.
late nights r way 2 long ever so often.
bringin me to my knees awakin b4 my coffin.
nightmares as i lie wide awake.
without a peek of light 2 fade me in2 a break.
i gusse thats what i get 4 figurin it out.
pressin 4 the reasons of this thing in my lungs n what its all about.
i understand its full potential n its final callin.
standin side by side n individually fallin.
cuz in btween the days light i lose myself here n there in fear.
n it jus makes me wanna jus b able 2 live n feel somethin, even if its a tear.