no where to be found

sittin round pokin fun @ myself cuz im bored as hell.
aint got shit 2 do but feel on me n no1 can tell.
i need sumtin 2 do b4 i lose my cool.
i feel like an empty soul n a lonely fool.
sumtin aint right half the time.
seems im lookin 4 sumtin dat cant fit me rhymes.
postin like an addict i feel me wearin away.
constantly feenin 4 sum1 2 look my way.
not jus any1 by far, im not desperate.
but by sum1 dat can stop it.
cuz my fingers r tired of my minds way of thinkin.
they jus wanna bottle so we can get 2 drinkin.
u dont kno how it feels or maybe u do.
2 jus want sum1 to get lost in u.
n yet their no where 2 b found.
like as if they left without a sound.
leavin dreams untouched b4 enjoyed the way they should.
passed by n ova looked bcuz of a category 1 fits fuckin up his mood.
sux azz is wat i say on a daily.
but jus maybe, its all in da way i find my baby.
feelin torchered for other mens ways of how theyve done their thing.
set on da back burner cuz i look like i jus wanna fling.
but time will give in n give me mine.
it's jus a matter of time.