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this is my life. this is the way i'm headed. saying these things i express open hearted. falling on restless ears. to bad there my own. i wish i could have had that one thing we all crave. i would have loved it forever. but my one thing has me becoming more than i could have ever wanted to be. tapping out my insides long enough to read them to self from time to time so i do not forget where i have been. because i do not want to return. this is what my world consists of. me and those whom surround me. the company i keep. new faces. old stories. all telling my version of life in the way i have seen it. what i have learned. things i have endured on my journey. the pain and the tears that make feeling something as simple as a touch feel so damn important before my time will come to pass. we all wish on someone every now and then. some more than others. some other than lovers. but all and all, we all just want the same thing. happiness. we just have different outlooks on what it is. and thats when people become assholes and bitches. honestly, we are all trying to live before we die. as time gets closer to running out and life seems to be slipping away. we change from someone we always thought we would be. into someone that can not stand who we were. it is strange how time can force its ways upon us ever so slowly. helping some of us find our ways and others find themselves lost forever. but these are my words of dying as i am living he best i can. finding me. finding my way. learning what this world has to offer. never under estimating that my time can come today. just wish someone would listen other than me. i have figured who i am and what life is. and i am ready to just live. this is my page in time to give back the appreciation valued within me. i will never come fake. always true to me. and yes i miss some people in my life. wish others would go away. and then some, i wish a little more for, for my own personal gain. but that is life. what are we to do when you have the facts before you. but just that. keeping it moving because life is to damn short. if you blink you just might miss the very thing that could have made the difference like no other. yet we categorize ourselves and others. labels. groups and it's a shame how we can turn our heads without finding out who someone is. allowing one person to set your mind for you. all because they did you wrong. now u have to take it out on others in an unaware way of silence. not everyone is a bad thing. but hey! what do i know. this world knows everything anyway. unable to accept honesty when someone speaks the truth. like it can not learn. i am not the same person i was when i was a kid. nor 4 years ago. i have become a true man. someone i can look in the mirror at. someone my kids can look up to. and i got names and numbers of those who could tell you the same. as i would of them. man or woman. and as i ramble i can not seem to say enough. but i am done with saying this. i am just me and i just want to live as n my time, my window, my chance ...................dot@aol.com