You're gonna be beautiful...

I could never be there on the happiest day of your life. Bcuz it isn't me you'd be looking at so let's talk about life. And how your smile is the one thing I'll never see at it's greatest interaction. Bcuz I'm gonna be somewhere else when you feel it stretch across your face with satisfaction. Raw truths n real content of how I just went witness that look in your eyes. Bcuz it wasn't meant for me to see your with hair tears as you cry. With an overwhelming emotion that captures your breath. Damn, you're gonna be beautiful when you share the moment with someone else instead. Bcuz your priceless devotion isn't mine to have. As I just couldn't steal away the thrill of a lifetime from you tender grasp. And even as a friend I don't believe it's something I wanna take. Bcuz it should've been me in do time that shakes your grin. So no I won't take part in your special day. Bcuz I'll have an afterlife to deal with as you forget my name. As I imagine you standing in the middle of life shinning from ear to ear. Knowing the reality of it is coming near. With every second I waste hiding myself from your touch. I must apologize for allowing another to create for you a trust. I'm just not to be the sigh just after a kiss. Like life you must go on as you'll never know how much I truly wanted to be your wish. To see the passion in your expressions put to use. Soon enough I'll be absent and you'll be consumed. Giving all that you are to a different stranger you yet might not know. No, I won't be present as your heart tends to grow. I'll be tucked behind locked doors safe from every hurting you for a first time. Savoring the thought of us so fuckin alive. As you establish a reason to open up and adjust to another that isn't me. Bcuz I couldn't see myself being hated at the end of the dream. After seeing you at the peak of the flame falling in luv. I don't wanna watch you burn bcuz I'm simply not enough. So when you're feeling like nothing in this life good ever get any more amplified.  I'll be your biggest fan who's aching in your every heartbeat rectified...