The endless cycle...

I lost my smile again today bcuz I don't know where I belong. I have a home but yet it's as empty as a heart pleading with every sad song. As the secret is mine in the making of awakening to each day with hope. Just to avoid other through details so self can remain a loaf. My thrill bottomed out once again. N it's hard to fight even there's nothing to ever begin. Time just keeps going as I feel misplaced so often. As everyday tends to be the same ol same creeping into my coffin. I'm losing me daily n idk why. Reincarnated by morning just to die by night. It's an endless cycle that trusts no one that leads the way. N I haven't felt alive since I wiped a half cocked grin from my face. It just seems pointless to pretend I'm ok. When I collapsed in the makings of being positive by midday. There's no purpose other than to live. N without some sorta thrill emotion had nada to give. Creating a bottomless funk that claims all thoughts. N there's no turning it off once the slip isn't caught. Down I go with the corners of my mouth. Sinking into solitude never to be found. But daybreak will come after I've slept it off. N then maybe I'll break the endless cycle n find a reason to pause...