Betrayal of trust...

U thought it wasn't ok after knowing my past... Like I wouldn't notice u nodding off as if my emotions wouldn't retract... Do u think it was ok to fuck with my heart.?. I feel betrayed looking at u to wake up from a trans that cut new scars... Knowing I havta walk outta here tomorrow n loose a friend in the making that reminds me of the others... Jus another broken individual that turned out to be no more than a luv'r... N it's gonna be sad inside when I wake up to the last day I'll ever see ur face... U obviously don't realize how hard it is to find someone that adjusts to the sound of ur own name... I had to witness with my own eyes a different version of u not taken into consideration of who I am... As I opened up to show u a unique kinda man... Damn u for not telling me you'd rather hide issues I cannot allow in my life... N as u sleep like u have in n outta consciousness since I've been here I slowly lost feeling of the fight... I can't go on with u here catering to this thing that means nothing to u... I say that bcuz u failed me waiting patiently for u to come to... With a tongue so conceiving the fool in me thought u were real... It hurts to speak this way yet I don't need another complication claiming nothing more than sex appeal... Ur usage in plain sight shut down any future we were to share... All bcuz u personally had no reason to care... U lied like the rest that tore my world apart... N even though we became close at the moment our worlds are so far... Thinking I don't even know where ur goin when I go home... Truthfully it's not on me to feed in to it due to u left me feeling alone... As I asked u before I came if everything was ok... U seemed to change over the phone a couple days prior to believing I'm ignorant to the game... Distant luv that ended exactly one month the day we met... U have no idea what I had in store for u as I remove u from my chest... No addicts, no substances was the one thing I told u would tell u no... N u went behind me n did the unthinkable as I never again for u will ever answer my phone... U were a fresh breath of air I needed in my life... A touch that crawled through me that means nothing in my mind... I wish u well n I hope you'll be ok... But whatever ur on, is not my battle to fight so I'll be in my way...