do we fit.?.

ride for yourself so i can see how you are on your own...
i wanna know if there's any worth in the way you have grown...
then take that life n add a lil of me periodically until you get attached...
as you can decide if i'm every bit of what it is you wanna match...
long term through a bit of a short process needed to avoid the daze...
movement is a choice in who is to get close enough to remember the details that create your face...
do you the way you do n life won't havta be so different if we find a presence...
similarities will reach for the joy welcomed into the heart n mind without playing defense...
lemme watch from a distance to verify you are good for me as well as i for you...
without judgement so comfort can accept there's a friendship in the makings on the move...
think n set emotion to the side for it will be enjoyed more by allowing characters come out...
in true form walking the same path n able to share the chosen lifestyle as everyday counts...
how focused on the bigger pictures by the details of jus getting along is the key...
honestly wanting to further the find of what could be the dream settling the crave of needs...
protecting the statement of combining days to share the result of luv coming home...
where's your thoughts gonna run if i ain't around.?.
it's that kinda shit that activates my curiosity as desires feel as real as being found...
yet, i jus wanna hear you say it when the time comes to be the moment of truth...
is it me as i look back at you with that knowing in the eye that can only go one way properly used.?.
live your life n figure me in as a side piece of what you believe me to be...
or tell me now if there's no reason to speak...

dwelling...

no one truly gives a fuck or even cares... they jus want someone to notice them... all in their feelings as eyes carry tears... thinking they're some kinda magical gem... lonely n caught up in emotional malfunctions... pointing fingers at others as if they never had a choice to decide how life was to go... being their own dysfunctional distraction... acting like no other can tell they've allowed themselves to become broken as life without them flows... wanting a pity party bcuz shit didn't turn out the way they'd hoped... looking back at the world with discomfort in a stare... attempting to hide the pain of better times that went up in smoke... pretending everything is ok when they know damn well it starts with self gaining control of the heads lair... yet it's easier to live in torture hanging on to old flames that will never be again.. judging others for not being like the greater side of partners they simply cannot live up to... no longer wanting to believe life will round out as they get stuck in a mindset killing the vibe of the hearts stance... lost n going to waste by chance of moving on not coming along due to the refusal of living loose... faking the feel of worth in the mirror creating confusion they cannot sidestep... but as long as it's behind closed doors where the can lie to themselves it's ok... as it is a process to regain the corrupted indulgence in self inflicted nonsense... n some even feel the need to gain sympathy in the situation to enjoy the fame...

living with comfort...

knowing what's good to the well being n what's not... from old friends to new ones trying to get in... as luv'rs round every corner with a decision to move forward with or without them... all having an after effect on the grin... jobs that claim time run through the mind as is it worth the life goin to waste stuck beneath self worth... or setting self up for a better life in contentment settled in the mind... family grows n dies off with different characters playing roles... some coming into view n others changing towards the end as they always do... to feel to gain within is to know self with acceptance that we're all individually needing the honesty of home... earned n kept is the greatest treasure to be given to the mind on the loose... for the comfort of knowing who's who can redefine a bond or break what was thought to be the truth goin astray... jus trying to live is a battle at each stage it takes to lose the inevitable war... enjoying what is that surrounds what's the best case scenario everyday... use with luv bcuz like shoes those in return the joy one has with them around... willing to live side by side the true meaning of trust worthy friends... allowing the ease of the heart to open to what shall never hurt... knowing we all change from time to time as eye to eye isn't always seen as no harm is ever meant...

who is the real u.?.

lets say i drifted from a few things i know i do not do well with...

would u accept that i wasn't feeling the mood to deal with weaknesses once again.?.

if i were to wonder off bcuz i felt there's a different atmosphere calling for me...

i'd never intentionally wanna free myself from ur arms in which i land...

i jus know things change n truths surface from the thinking of not wanting to be known...

giving a twist to the attachment as a false state of connection to have someone close...

so by chance i wake up n redirect my mind elsewhere, could u see why if i told u.?.

relate to the reaction of true self in time to come jus wanting to go home...

there's situation some do not do well with if u can relate to honesty giving to use...

 types n kinds that link up don't always follow through to the noticing of a rare face...

uncovered to be seen in the sights of luv awakening to realize if it is even real...

it's possible to remain as self n live long enough so the end carries friends as a single name...

yet, who's to say the tide that floods won't pull from the shores due to the facts displayed.?.

showing dreams the reality concept of truly molding self into a raw individual wanting to live...

at no expense to any other but refusing to hold back for a change that could be the purpose walked...

as if it wouldn't hurt to step away on a decision to enjoy moments it takes to become of wits...

if one day i turned n told u i gotta go for i no longer feel at home...

do u think you'd pause n rethink the way u approach someone like me with a secured mind.?.

life isn't to be wasted on half hearts filling voids to have jus anyone...

nor force the issue of being someone we're not so the loss lingers as long as time can enjoy the ride...

coming into focus in the distance of days that have not occured as of yet...

if the friendship had a need to go looking for an other that fits to groove...

finding it unsettling to vibe the way relations must be able to go with the never ending flow...

will u stand as self so the choice is as clear as worth shown to the eyes as we move.?.

creating a visual to go on beneath the expression that at times can literally lie...

as tongues tend to repeat the same ol wordplay to accuse the other of not wanting the thrill gone...

we all have limits to survive in the best case scenario we can come up with until we get it right...

n i don't want something i cannot feel on a daily hearing the old familiar tunes that can't endure the loss...

in question is the answers of true intent if we weren't to be truthful..

making it so easily to release what forms with emotions touching their way through the nights craving to be alone...

carried as if a burden until sound is to speak up for it's not an option by ant means...

if we havta pretend to be as hidden away there's no exception to the rules that will forever be broke...

masks off...

appearing as truths rush the scene... signs fill the eyes of what is to come of life... lil pieces in plain sight show how far down the digging should uncover the need... witnessing the realism come from what an other hides... wanting to be someone else they haven't figure out how to be... the face is seen for what it is with a bit of patience to see the turn... attached to the feel of a use let go of due to the wait lingered on to waste times read... afraid of the way it hurts all over again jus watching the under layers approach what was meant in a twist of a failing luv... corrupted by the hidden terms attempted to bury in the past what can never go unnoticed... belief refuses to entertain the movement to come forth n prove the mindsets inability to go along with what it cannot have around...  running circles isn't a wonder thought wants to drift with for the stream turns shallow losing focus... it's to hear or stop words in the long run from creating what can't leave the mouth... mature to the bone of knowing how disasters find their way into the emptied heart... as there's a reason for it to be as vacant as undisturbed as it can remain... 

allowed to recognize the space in between the ears come to life as if it were really from the start... giving to the intolerable phase turning for the worst jus before the end can be claimed... in the opposing direction trying to feed in to what one thinks an other finds attractive... faking briefly so self can feel the hype wanna transform into something it has no business ever being displayed before naked eyes... captive is the emotion felt by a trick to force a wedge to be its own incentive... willing to steal the pressure point of walking away bcuz no one wants to cause pain saying i tried... peekaboo best describes the fantasy of collecting images until the memory doesn't havta be erased... once the falsely accused intent can look further than the moment can relate to... with sights swiveling to notice every preview of what hasn't happened as of yet be faced... cleansed with the lathering of soap twiddled by the fingers on the move... free to stand grounds n step up to express the differences that will never give a chance to live... truthful to the core for the motions within cannot lie if happiness if to affected by the changing of a friend... there's only so many ribs to tickle before the wear is worn out after the initial findings that give... looking at the overall deeps of the mind able to shut down characters wanting to fill in to a place beside touch only lent...

in moments alone...

comfort in moments alone... back to the one behind closed doors that understands the never ending existence... free for the mind to roam... unchained by binds bound to luv'rs who wish to change details without resistance... 

feeling sheltered truths coming to life... hidden secrets allowed to be... falling back into self to live in true form in it's rare need... solo beneath the nights fall settling crazed dreams... self being the one who defines every n anything moving through distance laying in moments alone... thinking in a drifting mind where the untamed creations speak... with no one near to insinuate or determine the outcome of who it is that resides behind these unseen eyes happy to simple be alive to breathe... hoping for clarity to remain on the other side when crossing over to add to memories to come... yet ok with the skin to go untouched for there is no single person who can give anymore than an other... as to debate the fact is to entertain the selfishness of luv's blinded ways in which i too even run from... in moments alone there's a satisfaction of doin whatever the fuck silence can give to the balance goin from luv'rs that wanna hover... digging beneath the kiss slipping in between the lips... as wants turn the head of a more subtle approach to live... 

like holds the master key copied by most that are outta control... so it's the click n twist to lock out the world who cannot see the resistance... happy to have the opportunity to not desire false truths of anyone i shall ever try to convince self to somehow being unable to live without their hold... knowing things never remain the same as the redirection returns to the one place no one is ever allowed to go... living with no reason for the heart to believe it possesses the power to decide what it to stand in the way of happiness' worth ... reminding the passerbyers in moments of whispers that there is no place called home... in no disrespect of the over emotionalized characteristics they carry that confuse the thought process with silly lil words... i;m fins with me until the day i die... 

so to move in motion with anyone will need to enjoy the feel as if they were not around... of this o could never lie... once the comfort is shook there's a link broken in the muted vibe that creates sound... loosening to the walls witness to the solitude of another version of free most cannot comprehend... as truthful remarks distinguish the affect of never in need as the want to be felt is what's truly heard... as is is the honest reply when the seeking claims to be told they are what life cannot go on without as a friend... tongues know the lie all to well when the healing takes its chance not wanting to be hurt... 

redefined as the stray...

goin to far in to remember how good life truly is... somehow it's self that is forgotten in the mix... stirred like a potion to simmer on bubbling thoughts comin to the surface... reminded of the boilin in the hearts rhythmic remains... only to realize the anticipation of hope was misdirected so the release sheds weight quick... as the unrecognized figure starin back transforms with a smile taking control of the lips... happy in a solo mindset to correct what's been endured through a healing pleasure havin purpose... unable to reveal to the world a true loss has taken kindly to the beauty of luv... misplaced is friends with enclosing walls that never move to shakin eyes... believin too much into the feel of the immaturity within the hype... gone... mentally strung out on the illness known as emotion... 

the weakness tenders to give a sting that irritates passion desired all along... on a repeat cycle spinning around in a loop slowly losing devotion... as self takes blow after swung impact simply strong enough to stand up n accept choices resolve the tips of the upside of the frowns arch... peeping the effect others are allowed to reap upon the features that have disrupted remarks... negatively disgruntle with signs of resentment hidden knowing it's ok to be alone to get to back to what's best... dismissing the individual from the situation that lingers on as long as comfort is kept... hanging on until life wakens up after that one time way back when reason was thought to be a friendly gesture... recalling who resides becomes a factor on levels for the mind to fester... evacuation.!. goin under reevaluation.!. growin disconnected with the plan beneath the pulse... aiming stares at the reflections to reclaim a moment to pause... sssh... we all get lost... 

Roots leave seeds...

Deeply rooted thoughts... Tucked snug into the position of motion... Waiting to react to the twist... On guard as if patient to the turn of emotion... Drying the surface of a kiss... Fading with the flavor of luv... Mind fucked by inner visions... Triggering the after effects not needed to relate... Come up to the edge to be forced below leading devotion... Unsafe intermissions straggle to come up with worth... Peeling layers back to show the show erosion... Finding the weeds within dug up as the soil contains the seeds left behind... 

Needing jus one curiosity to break open the shell n watch everything it is to be explode from the rotation... Swimming in to moisture it takes to grow misguided feelings... Caught in the crossfire of an over active minds damnation... Losing smiles that sit with the horizons change... Snapped by the whip giving the heart new abrasions... False gatherings felt deep enough to cut a wound... Having to evade yet another invasion... Soaking up the purity of luv's use... Hand plucking the life from the plow with fingers to detail the situation...

Kissed by the warning of imaginative thoughts...

Can u accept it for what it is.?. With no need to fetch thoughts outta a state of mind where u once lived... To jus be... Is it possible to move on with someone new with a heart that doesn't conspire to rot away from within the years of loving free.?. Questions arise as tongues find a rhythm to flow with... Causing the secrets held in emotion left over from a prior relations one allowed to fling from the lips... How is it u tend to go about the difference of an other that could very well inspire desires to want a more unique type of luv.?. I'm all for the friend but my eyes needs to know of who u are on another level if we were to truly give in n trust... Most do not comprehend actions demanding gimme now for the blindness somehow covers the blank face after face with scars gathered up as lusts... Not ready to participate in life's lil game of knowing who's who... Some reach in to far for the answers in others n find self failing to relate to a friendship that claims no assumptions carried by a truce... People change goin in as they merge to become one as the distance between will eventually separate bodies due to an incorrect mind... Slipping beneath the imagination that plays tricks in the heads lost time... Creating a played out scenerio of followed attempts to test the willingness of like falling short of interests turning to wanting no more... Forced is the passion crippled by instability squeezing the heart torn... Feeling expressions switching up to confusion that must not take part in the joy possessed... As very few are willing to confess they haven't crossed over past a rebound to heal what's left... Dragging unfamiliarities down the halls of sacred torment that echo inside... Spewing from the deepest hidden gestures one at a time as if picking at the moments shared to unwind... Mentally incapable of peace... As trembles at some point will be, please stop, knowing it was self that wedged a thorn into life becoming of a dream...

like...

ready without the lingering of luv'rs left... in from the light with a burn that doesn't effect the rest... walking on the move of sitting still to enjoy the relaxation for life isn't allowed to fade... listening to the way voices sound out familiar names... friends in confidence of trust never to sway without the movement of bodies wrapped the fuck up... heard as the motion eyes cannot hear... nor the tongue see what exists of flavored tears... forever to luv the one in the mirror most... as real as limits aren't roles to ware a host... self reflective is silence knows best... having a friendship coming in from the a brief recess... holding on to enjoy the beckon giving the light... life, it is the ultimate reason why... paired by the inability to resist the other's face... captured to laugh at the good ol days... ending the drought of worth in it's easier to free the birds... raised doubled up for the shits n giggles that become a blur...

not a one...

if i were to delete one... i don't know what piece of me i wanna not remember... honestly, stories are told as they are lived... figured out as chances some times goes way too far...

written in a form to relate as others know the feel... allowing luv to show up... my version of the thought process i keep...  tapping on the eyes like my heartbeat vibing with the iris's flux...

life dances uncontrolled to enjoy what creates scribbles laid out in plain sight... correction has found a literature display meeting expectations on a human level of minds... alive n making it happen so self can go home... where the heart resides...

as today is the day... n where i'm standing is in the middle of my existence... doing me the way others realize the types they are can or cannot agree to disagree... twisting shit as a hobby while flipping silence from the tongues resistance...

watching it land in true form without sound other than the voice that reads the bs... freed is what has happened as i am jus me... fowl mouthed n respectably never judge mental... each one has a uniqueness of characters to moments at one point in life to live outside of dreams...

is there one to erase as if it's any better than the next claiming the ongoing side attraction day or night.?. but if i were to, it be all or nothing.. touching...  boundaries heard on mute... fingers hovering... felt on the trigger of curiosities reach... one day it'll read, "i am alive"... i breathe!!! i have no reason to hide...

The image that moves...

In the heart is where the eyes in the mirrors are felt... Through the image that cannot lie of truths in stares as feelings melt... Reminded of luv'rs gone astray that held tongues with lingering words jus the same as the sound filling rooms... The mind remains humble in it's reality of sighs as expressions rearrange the faces mood... From one reflection to the next like luv'd ones that change shapes n sizes as their curve is replaced by a new found friend... Living a different lifestyle with fresh attachments that seen to be willing the survival past the tenderness of the met that attends... Knowing there is no jus one that can or will ever do anymore than the other looking to achieve luv from the lines of trust... As choice is gained to reason with as the best case scenario to be smiles created by happinesses dream to live as well with lusts... Bonded is self to the replica of self looking back at what remains as the seeker of what shall become of life... Facing decisions made with opened thoughts of realism never to be again cut by a pretenders figurative knife... For the glad doesn't shatter the way emotions feel their so called death jus to heal n stand before the same misplacement of the inner makings that resume... Chasing movements to mimic the one within as existence moves...

the unfamiliar...

after being down for so long the reaction to life is uplifting n weird... seems falling into a hole within forgot the feeling it never knew of an other other than in a mirror... strange to say the least is words that flirt with truths for they've never been truly known... so coming from within to witness the intent staring back is odd to hear the makings of an actual home... it's unfamiliar n foreign to the ways as far as time has gotten to move move until the opening gathers a true friend... damn near not having an reaction that makes sense due to every other moment that passed went without what was forced to defend... from the depths of the minds thoughts that seem to once correct the misfortune by a single face that emerges from outta the crowd... transforming emotion into something more meaningful to the hearts now... as in finally there's some hope so desires aren't given to jus another passerby...  falling beneath the feeling of hopelessness yet again with the torture of letting go of a reason of why... when dreams awaken to be in rare form of relations that get a rise outta what the repeat of a waste of time getting away... living in the moment to be shaved for far longer than the remembrance of solitude landing  in the loneliness of becoming afraid... comfort finds a hand reaching for the rope that has hung all passions on the string of threads dangling for the past to concur n obtain for all time... reviving the belief in luv to be misplaced in someone else's turning away of rolling eyes... 

will u.?.

will u be my peace.?. my reason i believe in luv... the comfort here in life... words coming to life that has been hushed... sanity in the makings of social mind... with the ability to feel again... as ur face being the irreplaceable image in my thoughts... cherish in my presence in which u stand... will u never leave my side.?. to remain as is in the change we are to move together... i for u as u are for i... talking with tongues that express it is u i luv... knowing a lifetime is all we have as a never ending forever... will u find me as is.?. wanting who u see to be who i am willing to come to life before u... in the delivery of a non materialistic lifestyle... having for u the intent of honest truths... will u partake in my existence as a friend that could never let go.?. to have as ur own for as long as i live... capturing moments in the memories we can look back on... sharing what we create that one day will be a legacy of luv's bliss... will u be as real as not once to sugar coating my feelings.?. showing me who lays beside me can be trusted for i am not lied to... so we can be free from the discomforts the led us here today... allowing a friendship to blossom before sights as we bloom... will u understand i am jus one individual wanting to be that one in ur own life.?. digging into the thrills of ur hearts rhythm... finding that i too can give the way you've longed to be be held... assembling our own ways that shed light on a more unique kinda system... will u be able to continue to remain in luv the way u cherish me at this very moment for all time.?. forcing this world to envy the connection we keep between u n i... as there's nothing that cannot be enjoyed prior to the day we fall lifeless in our own... jus by hearing me wave hi...

the dream of truths...

to die in luv is luv's way to live forever...
to last for all time as claimed by an other...
truly defining the everlasting truth of being held in ones heart...
never to end before eyes that possess the design of a work of art...
feeling the moment of beginnings through with no end...
having the magic soak in to the texture of the touch creating a life long friend...
to be who no other will ever come to replace...
as one in a pair of individuals having to need of wants met witness to expressions displayed upon the face...
long live is the thrill of emotion wanting to reason with passion so vibrantly distinguished...
knowing there's no walking away for infinity is the comfort in the imagination so the depths shared will not once be missed...
dripping from eyes isn't an option until the fatal day of separation takes away the physical contact...
for a chance to respond n act out words meant on other levels of desires calling to state the facts...
together in ways there is no other to fill the void that comes in time of one or the other will find fate first...
holding on to the one person that gives everything so much more purpose in the middle of worth...
feeling the upmost respect to simply caal a truce...
the dream of truths...

the ultimate thrill...

slipping beneath the irresistible feel of the sensation of desires touch...

willing to be felt yet wanting it to last loner than the rush...

tired of restarting life that never truly gets to going...

tempting the heart to open the valves for emotions pouring...

afraid to witness the face of another luv'r fade into the memory with the tears that's to be cried...

knowing an enemy made isn't what the mind needs...

unwilling to admit the end of relations ruined the truths within that grips the hold of self in true form...

looking into a new found friends eyes staring back with the exact expression that crawls to the tips of smiles craving a different kinda norm...

ready for once to have the wait leaning into arms once unknown as the wrap sets life free...

believing in words as actions follow motion from within the lost thoughts that cling to untold dreams...

reasoning with luv to come from like sitting still with patience to find out who's who...

swaying along the side of use to prove the movement to be the definition to live loose...

unbroken is the bond is wanted listening to depths linger to the surface of lips licking the flavor a names with no regret...

changing to gather the best version of self coming out never to be hurt or dish the twist of pain as time is not the force of neglect...

falling on the rise of what has been is the roaming mind bouncing with the wonder of the walls holding empty space to be filled...

with dry cheeks until the inevitable releases life's joy becoming the ultimate thrill...

From one to the next...

Covering the pain from yesterday cannot be hidden eyes... Becoming the rebound allowed to cut loose in an others mind... Finding truths of a prior life so existing as emotions hasn't stopped to give true worth... Knowing by the end of relations it's gone fuckin hurt... Having to decide what's best in the long run not so far down the road... There's no sense in wanting time one cannot get back jus needing to go home... Being that next to touch the flesh that pulls the presence beneath the texture groped... Truly needing to step back so lies don't find the edge of kisses feeling so alone... Having being told everything is easy self is to worths floating in the clouds... As reason falls short on the falling in of luv'n unable to restrain emotion out loud... A longing of what's never been had emerges with the rush... Sending pulses through the veins reaching for fingertips to land on the surfs must... To live with the leftovers that refuse to admit ready isn't in the hands of trusts fate... Words speak to level with the battered remains the cripple the affect that jus have been as if yet contained... Healed is in the actions taken a more mature way around getting to know the inner makings of memories bout are not to be misplaced in the broken enslaved... As interest is given thanks...

Down goes luv...

Losing trust causes the resurrection of the hearts lean... Falling away from truths or in the open more than seen... Cushions the conception of the mind triggered by luv... There's things that fail to be real enough as fingers retract from the touch... Felt n fading on a collision course ends... Goin inward once again due the obligation of self being the one true friend... Giving a chance shows intent ass eyes follow actions wanting believe... Motion sickness lingers in the winds of change ready to be released... Turning away from one face after another that can only claim words of the honesty they hide... Digging deep into the bowls of the list mind... Never to return to be the same for representation of use failed to remain... Loosening the tongue from expressions shared so it to cannot lie about created pain... Unnecessary to the passion waiting to be explored... Realizing devotion is nothing more than a ripple of a selfish tsunami taking away the sunsets shore... Damn near drowning as moisture drips from the eye that speaks of a new way to live... Most aren't what's seems to be the tickling chuckle that never lasts the ribs...

Jus thinking again...

Things change as life goes on... Decisions choose what it to become of one's time... Patience is spent as age grows old... Friends come n go to the memory digging holes... Thank enjoyments find pain n transform emotions jus like that... Before one knows it they're someone else looking at the facts... No one stays the same no matter what they say... Chance gives moments to seize what's never been tamed... As belief is to be seen with eyes that soak up the visual that never lies... Having to accept here n there being alone is ok to connect with self away from the hype... Motion causes sickness if the head isn't in swivel which is sad to tell tales of list ones that couldn't pull through... To meet in some different situation a face yet to be true... Paper chased seems more important than getting along with the competition teaching for their share... Snipping the threads sown into a weave to escape the tare... Expressions rotate back n forth as the alteration switches truths shown... Finding there's no one place but the heart to be the true existence of home... Trust isn't given without being earned unless the gullible haven't learned a lesson or to... Reasoning with open wounds that leak so the mind can make room for something new... Using materials for shallow pleasure to isn't always a critical thing... As self is n will always be the most important link... Believing in the crucial end is the thought to live before life is no more... Fighting for space in a cold legal world that had no remorse in it's selfish greed like some sort of whore... Yet, it all comes back to the basics once yrs pass... Sitting back wishing you was still in the grasp...

The direction of happiness...

The feel of wanting to turn around shakes the heart with tremors made to awaken truths... The further on the move distance grows as use empties emotions in the loose... Falling down the cheek like the rain deep in the nights drive back to a different place before luv found it's friend... Drifting with the memory that stopped in the making of a lifetime spent... Forced to step away from the tide swallowed the sure ever witnessing the sunset the most beautiful see of eyes... Life happens in the blink of an eye on the spin of hands that claim age not knowing where the wind up in time... It aches from the thought of the release to free limits reached that have gone far... Meaning words unable to be upheld due to actions failing to stand n smooth out scars... There's a loss in the depths that triggers the gain of what's to come on both ends of decisions surfacing for results... As goin without that one person isn't worth dying alone n leaving them to rot in silences lonely moans... So to enjoy the find whips the direction of happiness around heading back home... To arms that fling open dropping the tears gathered that would've drowned passions finest moment gone untouched... To finish the story of luv held with more meaning if it truly describes the desire to become that one thing that is irreplaceably the need of all wants...

Betrayal of trust...

U thought it wasn't ok after knowing my past... Like I wouldn't notice u nodding off as if my emotions wouldn't retract... Do u think it was ok to fuck with my heart.?. I feel betrayed looking at u to wake up from a trans that cut new scars... Knowing I havta walk outta here tomorrow n loose a friend in the making that reminds me of the others... Jus another broken individual that turned out to be no more than a luv'r... N it's gonna be sad inside when I wake up to the last day I'll ever see ur face... U obviously don't realize how hard it is to find someone that adjusts to the sound of ur own name... I had to witness with my own eyes a different version of u not taken into consideration of who I am... As I opened up to show u a unique kinda man... Damn u for not telling me you'd rather hide issues I cannot allow in my life... N as u sleep like u have in n outta consciousness since I've been here I slowly lost feeling of the fight... I can't go on with u here catering to this thing that means nothing to u... I say that bcuz u failed me waiting patiently for u to come to... With a tongue so conceiving the fool in me thought u were real... It hurts to speak this way yet I don't need another complication claiming nothing more than sex appeal... Ur usage in plain sight shut down any future we were to share... All bcuz u personally had no reason to care... U lied like the rest that tore my world apart... N even though we became close at the moment our worlds are so far... Thinking I don't even know where ur goin when I go home... Truthfully it's not on me to feed in to it due to u left me feeling alone... As I asked u before I came if everything was ok... U seemed to change over the phone a couple days prior to believing I'm ignorant to the game... Distant luv that ended exactly one month the day we met... U have no idea what I had in store for u as I remove u from my chest... No addicts, no substances was the one thing I told u would tell u no... N u went behind me n did the unthinkable as I never again for u will ever answer my phone... U were a fresh breath of air I needed in my life... A touch that crawled through me that means nothing in my mind... I wish u well n I hope you'll be ok... But whatever ur on, is not my battle to fight so I'll be in my way...

Left in the past...

It's having to remember them as the are... Forced to decide against a life with them knowing they remain in the heart... The few that fail to live up to the trust given away... As intent slowly comes out to show its selfish ways... Living with their face implanted in the mind... Believing if it wasn't the pain, they had what it took... To bring forth the best we have to offer that felt the blow of fingertips rewriting our own book... N the ways they will be missed jus isn't fair... But to go on living with them as enough jus isn't cared... It's a lost cause to make game of memories to be forgotten... There's no sense in the mind goin rotten... Feeling emotions hurt isn't self applying the pressure to nerves... N it damn sure isn't them that isn't being heard... For keeping it real from the start seems be a lil tad bit to much for them to relate... Hiding secrets within their own that fall like rain... Touching every inch of passion shared as daggers dig in... Once held so close becomes a thought we cannot shake from within... For the attachment drifts as loose as time will forever remain... N there jus isn't any point in placing blame... Jus living as the voided friend we believed came along... Thinking, wow, we were so fucking wrong... Due to true friends not have it in them to lie of things that will break the bond... No matter the topic is as if self is robbed... Replacing the joy that once felt them roam so free... To the refusal of allowing them to continue to be that need... Ties must be cut as they remain to gather choices to be made... Creating results of a past without ever again saying their name...Chattering fuck it than to relive daily of  how they caused the endings of grief... As we must go on without what was supposed to be...

Motion in the move...

Acknowledging life after the fact of time moving on some time later... Somewhere else doin good with the joy of comfort settled in to the hearts remarkable way of being worth's creator... Having luv for self no other can come close enough to match... Living n getting along jus fine knowing time moves to fucking fast... No longer at war with emotional characters playing parts... As silence has replaced the sounds of alarms... So smooth n soothing is the feel of a true piece of mind of not needing anyone after all... Knowing it's a want of all things that comes to life every so often that turns to the loss... Having patience for the real necessities here are not material of those that come one at a time to disappear into the crowd... As harsh as it sounds it's the comfort understood of what was is no longer now... In a better atmosphere with self as the one who must face situations as they appear... Meeting decisions head on with what's good not once side stepping fear... For everything changes the rides that fill eyes... As the fool withing believes in promises that linger into lies... Building a memory of a lifetime of moments enjoyed instead of hating others for not fulfilling their own word... Intact in a corrected self is the only one gets to live a lifetime with n without luv'rs that give a luv that hurts... Accepting it's gonna happen in the ends as it's vital to live... Motion in the move getting on with days that will eventually run out of tickled ribs... Finding smiles in the now of reason awakened to get on with it bcuz one can... It's all in the way in which way the mindset stands...

Tears no longer fall...

In the eyes that dilate is when the heart fades... Shatters n falls into the bottom of the chest as emotions escapes... Lies having words reloaded n cocked only to be released by pains wrath... Knowing it's goodbye looking them in the face when the turn gives them back to another gained past... Nothing more than a luv'r come from relations no matter the time spent... Becoming or again hollow n distant to the believe in others unable to vent... Disappointed in the makings of trust losing the thrill of truths coming out... Lips forever the use in an instant after the deceit concurs what the mind thoughts it found... As dreams remove the spirit in thoughts of a lifetime redirected away from someone wanting to be the one... Sitting with self as the only friend that's every stepped up without a substance to claim the end of luv... Chalking the memories as a loss exposed like the overwhelming feeling of the single life revived... Waking to a new morning move on with another fucked up memory made letting go of what was said to me mine... As the stranger reappears to tell it like it is for the blinded feel too far into the gathering of hope... Headed to a different place the direction leads to done please else called home... Watching them drift within sights before it ever came to close... Trying to shake the way intimate moments pleasured their every moan... Along the others that bright the same hardship to the footsteps of life... There's no difference other than a face steals the imaginations creativity within every sigh... Gone prior to the mentioning of what is allowed n what shall not partake smiles climbing walls... Having the reality of how others fail to touch honesty without rubbing it raw...

What do u want.?.

If u want it as bad as i do, this will never end... N through it all your gonna find a friend... Ready to accept life n what it brings... Standing beside u is jus one of those things... As u say u feel the same way I do... Saying ditto as the equality calls a truce... Able to set aside the picking a apart we've done to ask the others... Unable to resist the likings of us becoming luv'rs... There's no other in my eyes when I look at u... N when u aren't around my thoughts tend to move... Always thinking of ur face n the way u accept who it is I am... It's kinda like mentioning a lil weird like daaaaamn... N I hear u tell me that ur so happy it's me... To be the one who helps u feel free to simply be... Bcuz who u are is who I fell for... N everyday since I've done nothing but want to much more... This thing we share is mutual with emotion attached to fingers wanting to touch... To enjoy the way we play with the nerves buried in our skins trust... Knowing this will not hurt one fucking bit... There was a truth in our eyes when we first met... Longing in the word used to describe the wait... To hold what most certainly cannot find still up for debate... Ur the focus of my desires claiming luv... As our private life is ours on the hush... In no need to break down the one who stands before us smiling like a child... Driving thoughts completely in the motion of wild... N I listen to u speak of how I'm that one person u don't havta hide from... Opening up n allowing me the way I do u, to never go numb... There will forever be a place called home in my heart for u... As ur word of infinite draws my attention to ur honest use... Wanting no other than me in the flesh... As the only thing I'd ask u for is ur heart at it's best... To show me what I've been missing all these yrs... Like u I've spent time alone n lost so many undeserving tears... Jus watching u get closer asi walked into ur life was unreal... N to kiss u felt so right that passion u never had to try n steal... For it came to life before u n everything since got better with true intent... Yeah I've waited on someone unlike others to step up n not worry about where we went... For it's here where we find happiness hiding on in the middle of the night... Being there reason the crave needs each other to complete all the reasons of why... Giving the answers to unasked question never to be mentioned for there is no need... True luv had come to stay in moments that will never leave... That is if u want me... The way i jus wanna heart u breathe...

worded...

free thoughts noted in waves... splashing the pages filled with curved shapes... telling tales of the way the mind sits n wanders... of past times to the presence of living with the wonders... to make sense of life n the ways of a place that seems never to move... as the mind drifts to different places on the loose... never to be tamed by any one in particular anything... yet, able to be inspired by everything... jotting down words that flow so stories can be told... from angles in which differ from the same view that make the heart turn cold... out comes the creativity to unleash what cannot be held in... reaching for fresh air by climbing the ribs... silently visible by eyes that care to read... some are a piece of me n others are jus plucked from daydreams... written for self by self to say hey, i was here... giving my own version of letters back to this world with nothing to fear... finding a voice in heads that enjoy the realness in every line... n to those, i say hi... as the gathering of wtf"s come to this lil space all mine... unable to outlast time...

believing in the one...

it's hard to believe at times when ones been let down by so many others... swearing to be the one as words n actions collide in the middle of luv'rs... as the belief wants the need of falling into emotions that never havta stand trial... not once caught in the presence of deceit shaking loose the smile... there's nothing worse than calling out to a friend that isn't interested in self drifting away... making it difficult to explain why there's a hesitation on certain levels creating the sane... overthinking the movement of someone new having that irresistible look... knowing the heart for them is so easily hooked... giving the trust in consideration that it relations go both ways jus hoping to become more than life itself... if the heartache doesn't crush the will to enjoy what comes along by choice of who clicks with being felt... the inevitable returns for the severity of the impossible swinging as if saloon doors... easy to see yet not so much to witness the mentality of a mature individual standing before the eyes looking for more... the find takes from the feel if not careful to adjust to not everyone is the same... jus like the changing of names that land of the visual of an others face...  it's not until the meeting of so much time alone awakens to inner untying of the cores twist that reality kicks in... realizing there's one that'll step up n claim the thrill that redefines the activity of everyday life with a grin... digging further to stay as roots grow beneath the texture so many halt at to lust for... making the worth of opening up a delivery straight to the desire to give passion its reason to explore... forgetting everything prior to them as the situation is nothing similar to what stands face to face waiting to be introduced... as silly lil thoughts are removed from the memory banks due to0 the freedom to be releases the woo's... in true form is where the devotion walks with loyalty through the meaning of no matter what... having purpose to listen to expressions that float like air jus to be touched... helping the mind to accept it is real... believing in depths with no pause bcuz two in the same came to the same place for an ever after the be healed... no longer distant to the talk of mine... closer to gather how ligaments intertwine wit the comfort so far past the initial hype...

it's u...

i seen it in ur eyes... n i couldn't resist u... it was immediately timeless... as still as the stare that followed me through... the movement of ur excitement carried me to ur lips... watching me come into view... feeling me open up... as a look only luv could create within sights proof... focused without the daze that confuses the hype... i witnessed life bloom... walking me closer to ur smile that began to exist... telling it was ok to intrude... invade... as movement stuck like glue... i felt u before our bodies met... i knew we were put to use... luv'd unconditionally... in to the falling of a friendly truce... there i was... n u enjoying the way the heart moved... eyes spoke of a lifetime at first glance... drawing it the the need to know of who... but it's already be established without a word... i remember the moment that took place as we improved... jus knowing the truth found a way to bring dreams into play... as the crave was shown as a woo... the one appeared n we ain't been the same since... i need u bcuz i know it's u...

Loosening the mood...

How far will u bring to life ur dreams.?. Loosening the mood... Will u stop me.?. When left naked with me in a room... Touching n tasting... Playing with ur secrets exposed... When the night gets to fading... Will it go without me getting to know ur hormones.?. Unable to dig in to ur own crave... Am I what u want..?. Feeling my way around ur moans calling me names... I'm taktalk about the dirtiest of lusts... When felt upon the surface... Will u hold them in.?. Hide the motion within ur embrace... Biting the sexiness ur lip... Can I get behind the wall.?. Keeping me from the emotions the feed... Hovering over ur body as I crawl... Sucking n kidding n licking desires need... To be taken... Do u think you'd cum again n again for me.?. In the moment of making... Will u slow me to affect the way u breathe.?. Tongue wrestling with heated pants... Coming undone... How close could I get to to legs spread to the land.?. Deep in the diving of luv... Is the feel an adjustment to use.?. Being a lil bigger... If u knew... Would it make a difference the the need to fuck triggered.?. Who's pussy are u afraid to be claimed.?. Wrapped around something juicy... Getting the fix u desire before mornings escape... With plenty of nudity... Will length be more than my size.?. Going the distance... Cumming overnight... With no signs of resistance... I jus wanna know if we can go all the way is all... Groped n touched with a tease... Giving the climatic finish a round of applause... To catch breaths as weight is lifted from the knees... Are u willing to actually enjoy whatever takes place.?. As creativity moves the room... As stationary only exists if ur restrained... Loosening to the mood...  Giving ur skill level a chance to be felt... Will daylight come to so.?. Are u enough to not need anyone else.?. If u were all i need as u moan... Taking the moment to the tips of the slide... Landing on the sounds that comes from within ur void... Simultaneously sucking on lips that glide... Is an honest answer what i'd receive if i were to ask if i can take a dip so i can hear u make noise.?. Wanting it to last... When if ever can u come around... Listening to the way ur suctions makes me gasps... Tied to the headboard for ur own pleasure to be found... Goin both ways... Emptying the endless core... Watching how bodies shake... Simply jus having a lil fun before we can't go no more... Falling into passion as distant luv'rs... In between the dawn the falls... N the dusk that is witness to removal of covers... Parting  after giving a display to the way our vibes clings to the walls...

Expired...

Exhausted by luv... Giving beyond ones capability to trust... Goin in too far to come away emptied out... Dragging the hearts bottom as there's nothing found... Done time to move on... Using every once of will as emotions become torn... Useless to the mindset retracting self... Passion gone unfelt... Another friend rethinking life... Given back to a world so unsatisfied... Over excursion gives up... Needs turn on wants... Dreams shatter reflections ready to be forgotten... Truth rambling of the rotten... Missed briefly as the attachment fades... Knowing most live for the phase... Comin to terms with fingers exposed... Unrolled n moving in alone... Looking forward the leaving... Shutting down the pleading... In the ends of relations turning away... After existing in moments unafraid... Watching comfort change before opened eyes... Resurrecting a new course of life... Finding work in self... Once the betrayal is dealt... Unable to feel anything... Laughing at the funniest of things... How the trusted always claims the mind... Consuming desires as a waste of time... Over compensating to cover an others part... Making trying so fucking hard... Learning how to let go of lusts... Transformed by the lack of luv... Taking in s fresh start... Having reason in raising the guard... Hung the world to poke... On display in a ropes chokehold... Held against the will of free... Taken for granted is always the case of endless dreams... Paradise changing coordinance... Creating distance... Losing pieces of self lost... Gaining the mental strength in true form n raw... Seeing through the silliness so done... Drifting with intent on the run... As there's no returning to the truths trapped in memories... Use cannot partake in enemies... Hidden in plain sight... As discussions realize all the pretty lil lies... Waking away at last... Throwing faces to the past... Feeling the hurt lose its grip... Encouraging the tragedy to smile as birds are flipped... Gaining self respect... Knowing depths... As fairytales do not exist... Thinking it's ok to step away n unclench fists... To live for another day to be happy... Telling the chuckle the ribs laughing... On to a new place in time... Where slow motion is defined...

Leave me be...

If we're not in luv come morning, please don't wake me up... Leave me be... To my peace still in the mood holding on to luv... Don't speak...

There's no point in forcing me back... Let me go... Jus lemme get lost as it's my dreams I wanna catch... I'm home...

No I'm not into living here without ur touch... I'll be jus fine... Sleeping will be the one place where ur still there n the end doesn't make a fuss... There's not lying...

For u are in my arms in a distant place... Comforted by us... It's great to see ur face... Never to be a once was...

In lala land doin everything we'll never do again... I don't wanna return... I ask u for a  lil time to remain ur biggest fan... I don't wanna hurt...

So if we fell from the one thing we share with no other... Forever as a trusted thought... Having sacred moments where secrets act out as luv'rs... Living in an endless pause...

I feel no need in crossing over if you're not coming with... Alone isn't what we said... I wanna be together like promises were meant to be kept as a gift... Giving consciousness rest...

In a way of life that gives more than it could ever take... I have no interest in awakening to the change... So don't pinch me, I plead not to be erased... I'll take my chances beneath the drift where U n I dance with the flickering of flames...

And to say ur name everyday for the tone to create a smile on my face... Shaping my lips for u... It's the only place I'll ever be sane... Listen to my truths...

On the other side where we are one in the same... Unchanged by the walking away... Leave me be for I to need to enjoy what comforts the stay... If i can help it were not goin to waste...

As a friend, jus do what u havta do... Go silently in the middle of the night... I'll be alright right here going under with no intention on resurfacing if we're through... Living with ur presence in my mind...

the craziest thing...

i am hers as she is mine...
there's nothing other than the bottom line...
my friend...
my mends...
my heart...
without hesitance...
my go to every fucking day...
home is not a residence...
one in the same...
she is for me as there's no question of who's happier knowing of our existence...
life time status...
making it happen...
doing everything together...
never forced to remember the luv that lives as a pair, so much better...
free from being fenced in...
trusted with emotion as spirits kiss...
mine!!!
hers!!!
about damn time...
worth...
loyal as faith in desires n lil secrets dug into is on the hush...
besties in true form as we touch...
doing what we do...
grooving to the motion as if glued...
no lies..
no restraints...
no limits...
as boundaries are in consideration of truths being shown real faces to remain the same...
she is me a i am her...
her is me as she is my equal worth...

In a strangers eyes...

On the passing of strangers eyes slow to a halt... Damn near amazed at the creativity lingering in a pause... Friends to be feeling the crave of dawn chasing early dusk... To awaken more than what's be hidden in depths falling in luv... Visualizing the rest of touch that could be felt from across the room... One look n the heart caters the endless mood... Knowing at first sight there's something in a stare that is accustom to the one showing self... Unleashing thoughts to freely to unwrap the visual of life in the mind... As inward through the design of the eyes patterns dance with the way reason understands why... Unable to bypass the feeling of who emotion clings to as the hope... Without a doubt giving to a luv'r to believe in going home... Witness to the innocence playing carelessly through motion accepting the invitation of aware... Smiling unselfishly for the wait shapes the face as expressions are bared...

Once time steps aside...

Your luv would feel so much better upon my skin... Going with the flow, sinking in....

I like u that much true emotion exists... With the motion of ur lips finding flava on the tips of lips... Beneath the touch where we become the rush... It's so much better when opened to the needs of wants... You'd do me better if you were on me until life runs out... Giving a comfort unlike I've ever felt followed by your unforgettable sounds... So close I can enjoy the way your breath tickles the hairs on my ears... Getting into my head where desires have nothing to fear... Flush thoughts catering to the truth that sets us free... Able to be who we are face to face as a long lost dream... One that's come to complete the caress that makes it's way the heart... Never to be done again n forever bringing life to the images that create the passions take part... We'd be more than what we could imagine as the best thing ever claimed... If we were to bare details of self n user tongues to twiddle one an others name... So perfect, so beautiful n a sight the dark seen through movement behind to play... Whispering dirty lil secrets for the knowing to be saved... Given to so life can finally be lived they say interest wishes it to be filled... Fondled n groped as the greatest fucking interest that drives the thrill... Only if space would move from in between the distance that keeps us apart... Allowing depths to plunge as the leap falls so fucking hard... Feeling the wetness floor does your inner thighs... Showing hormones are truly n unmistakably alive... You n I should be what we've craved onon time steps aside... To but outta our affairs relations can take flight... Flying as high as the climaxes that fire off with each n every push that shoves deeper than sex can reach... The bottom of the heart to the tips of fingers that flow as we meet...

i'm jus me...

i'm not tryin to tell u what u want to hear...
i too am human if u haven't noticed i have no relations to fear...
i'm jus tryin to let u know how i feel...
n i could go on for days until u realize i am real...
yet, there's something else i'm interested in if u care to listen to what i give u for free...
but i'm not attempting to convince u to believe in me...
i don't want that kinda attention...
past ur own needless mentions...
i found me some time ago on my own n all alone...
walking away from being afraid n emotionally broke...
jus so u know i didn't feel the need to continue to dwell...
as i'm here before u with nothing to sell...
i don't want what i can't have...
there's no forcing u to look into me if u don't witness my feedback...
do as u wish for i'm not the type to convert ur mind...
see me or don't bcuz it's not a loss to say hi...
hoping to catch more than ur eye taking a peek...
straight to the matters at hand of my hearts one need...
to be the one in someones life they cannot go without...
as second glances aren't at first sights found...
i jus wanna be me n figure out, like u, who fits..
that is if u can hear the truth sitting upon my lips...
waiting for a response if u have one to give...
loosening my patience before i to, turn n go live...

at the ends of luv that never lets go...

luv is sad... it will eventually hurt even if one has a lifetime with the an other by their side... there's nothing like goin mad... at the ends of the road as time catches the ages n takes that one friend away other than in the memories that cannot hide... they don't wanna leave but someone hasta go... n it's a fucked up ordeal that breaks a bond... as there is no telling when the bed will find an empty space... left to live alone as emotion slowly deteriorates as they rot... remembering who they were when they look in eyes staring back so in luv happiness attaches itself to the face... so why even try.?. when the release exits arms to lay motionless like the heart once did before the life changing meet... it'll only cause so many tears to be cried... aching inside without their luv to comfort the rest of time wanting to touch them as if they never went on unable to breathe... it's madness down on knees... begging for one more day to hold the one person that made a difference like no other... as their body waits for their other half to join them six feet beneath the reason of life's need... emptied without peace within for it ran outta the silence in having them as long as one could possibly keep hand held together...

was to am...

i wonder who i would've become if luv could've found me way back when... in a prior mindset before the disbelief in others took affect... seems there's times i don't feel like the same person staring off into the distance where nothing really exists... jus thoughts trapped in my head that confuse who i've become as there is no reset... i wander through life thinking of who i coulda been if i woulda waited until something real was to touch me first... then again those who've reached for me had their mark for so long on my heart i had to go in n remove them from my worth... long live the inner makings corrected other than who came of the stipulations of the change... damn life went astray on an emotional level n took the rest of everything about me down to the bitter ends so i knew my limits of pain... only if to go back i could resurrect my old self n hold on to the freedom i once lived with mentally... things didn't turn out the way i envisioned before the taken took me on a ride causing a rippling tide that swallowed me eventually... as i sit n look around n there's no one close enough after exerting passion the length of wants that surpassed the ends of me... yet, i have grown n matured so i guess a piece of mind rounded me out in  a special kinda way so i can truly be independently free...

here i am...

how'd u learn to luv the way u do.?.

so easily to believe in an other with no proof...

coming away from the pain that crippled ur emotions n dreams...

n how can i get to feel that u wanna give it to me.?.

i know u don't know me from nothing...

but i'd really like to be to u, something...

i've been down that road of excursion myself...

n i've also dreamt of who will appreciate my own luv felt...

as my time has lead me to land my sights on u...

standing with a smile unaffected by life n in ur own grove...

ur so beautiful as i cannot remove my eyes from looking ur way...

i could use someone like u to jus say my name...

it make a world of differences in which i know u could relate...

so can u sit with me n talk before this night escapes.?.

i've waited so long to find someone like u...

n i don't wanna pass u without showing u i'm not jus another goof...

there's nothing i'd want more than to create life...

to become a friend neither of us has found to ease our minds...

as it's what i see as a witness to who come from within...

ur pure n real n i'd luv to get close enough so we can begin...

for the way i see it is, why not me.?.

i got the goods u seek..

the fire that still burns in the lonely nights...

waiting on morning like a kid on christmas morning with life in my eyes...

wanting the chance to express what i haven't as of yet...

try me on n open up to what awaits in the chest...

needing to live in the arms of more than a luv'r gone astray...

i'm talking the whole package given to be enjoyed here today...

damn, the way u find it so easy to luv others unworthy of ur trust...

i too know the feeling of the loss within the moment of the rush...

don't allow me to turn n keep my feet on their merry way...

i'm here in the presence of what i've waited to have as the gain...

in the flesh i ask, am i not what ur heart craves to hold.?.

if not i won't bother u n i'll be on my way without the feel of u as my home...