It's the feel beneath the front jus behind the eyes... Somewhere lost dealin with the pain that eventually fades in time... Puttin on a show as if self is on display with strength peakin... Power walking through life like shit ain't got a chance to get through to emotions behind doors leakin.. It's there jus under the surface feelin alone n caught up with the thought from time to time wonderin wtf is wrong with me... Losin a sense of belief in ones own damn near believin we ain't good enough... Ridin solo n bottled up with no release bcuz this world is so fuckin judgemental... Seems we can't stand openly that a mutha fucka jus can't express what would be committed as delusional... Yet that crave lingers in between fingers tryin to catch a feel that jus don't seem to fulfill that need... N givin up jus comes along as the mindset shuts up in solitude jus wantin to breathe... Knowin it be so fuckin nice to make it home to the inner walls of another's heart willin n hoping for us to neva leave... As the silence hushes the mood to speak up n say here I am, if ur out there, I am jus me... On the other side of the external shell fakin the fuck outta funk turnin away... Scared to open up n relate that we're all down to get at it with jus one down azz individual in the middle of luv's fame... Tryin not to allow to much time alone to harden the softest texture of desire feenin too come out n play with the ripples comin alive... Makin waves to ride the shores of passion with the sunset givin into the nights vibe... Oblivious to acknowledge we all have the same fuckin truths layin in the holes dug within as hope is ready for burial... As the head shakes on a regular from the inside lookin out to who can do more than jus pay attention to the vanity askin questions to be retoricle... So fuckin tired of the shallowness is the mimic of happiness forcin a smile like we're good n don't need any comfort to free us all... Allowin or own worth to go unnoticed jus bcuz there is a such a thing to ease up n gather n correct flaws.. It's there, jus past what u cannot or jus refuse to see as we're unwillin to look weak... N the games we play with self is unreal to the point of not wantin to be hurt again as relations take a back seat... Turnin the cheek on strangers in the same fuckin situation like they wanna drift in lifes lil row boat with a hole away from reality... Stuck mentally in the exact frame of mind as friendships are passed on due to this worlds insanity... Unable to be self n honest bcuz we've lost faith in other's... Twistin the nugget on the shoulders lose like we have no clue to anyone wantin anything more than luv'rs.... Sad but true... Where's the use..?