Idk! I haven't a clue. I'm stuck. Puzzled. Laughin at self. Losin my mind. Hmmm. Only if I could tell ya. Then I'd know to. Wish I did. Wonder if I ever will. Lost. Speechless. Heads on swivel. Passin time. I think I thought about it. Yet got no reply. I got kicked outta my own damn mind. Pricless. UMPFH! Oh well. I guess.....

Name a limit. Somethin u will not deal with. Anything that strikes a nerve. What Is it or what things are to the point if no return? How much will u take before u draw the line crossed that is very evident? What brings u to the edge?  Changes ur demeanor. Outlook. Name that one thing that damages trust or friendship. What is it? Or shall I say, what r they? Everyone has one.

Tongues of tasteless flava... Yet what I can spit there's nothing that can save ya... As my lips are sealed listenin to the wind blow my name with the lies in the flow of the breeze... N jus think, at one time for ya I was on my knees...please... Leave me be...I put u back with the emptied dreams n rejoined reality.... Fr. Step!👣👣👣👣👣

It's the smell in which they carry... A presence of extraordinary proportions... The addiction in which makes for luve porn... The reason that chirp lives within their purpose... Thinkin im worthless... To use me as i allow the hole to be dug... Wtf is luv?

From up n under everything I know n eva knew that stepped its walk above where I went... I fought n stood back up to societies version of a man that will forever be irrelevant... Due to it wasn't me other than a choice I made on a personal level that I fell from the norm... N I found as I twisted my mind into a swiveling bend that the real me found a way to be reborn... Broke is not a metaphor in which the loss of my own took everything to climb from... Not once giving in or giving up on who it is i am that still stands intact no longer numb... Within my existing frame n in a different version of self I remain the same with a bit of life still to live filling trenches... As me, as the i dotted the point made to be correct in deliverance n relations that slipped n took all the materials that this shallow world considers riches... A man's worth will neva be with the wanted help put into place by a thought of comfort for they are not him n couldn't fathom who he is beneath the surface... I was told I was worthless bcuz I had a voice that refuses to bow to anything less than my very own happiess... Yeah, I made it home yesterday after a few yrs of Bs that consumed my time attempting to apologies on the release without action to prove a damn thing that'll neva hold a tone worth listening to as they've already been forgiven... For I know what I knew what I was doin as it was my choice to be as is with them as I was n as I am that took longer than expected with a key to unlock my efforts doors riding solo with only fam by my side after losin even the roof over my head, as it's now back to good livin... N I refuse to return to a life that refused to give back as I woke this morning to my kids faces with a new respect bcuz I came through on my word of trust... U wanna luv someone? Luv yaself n luv will surprise u on the truce within that makes the difference shiftin the heart as the minds the clutch... I made it home!!!   Home...

It's the consideration of a day in the life of a woman on why she avoids men. They claim to see her but can't get past the trophy she is in their minds. Seeing her sexuality as who she is as she's been let down due to the shallowness of their depths. On a personal level I can feel their unwillingness for I to can relate without bein conceited. When the eye catches the candy coating n falls in luv, it's rare it lasts bcuz we're suppose to be a certain way in societies system of categorization. It's an empty feeling to s woman as men consider them over emotional when in all honesty they jus want him to open up. Yet she has more than beauty n he's outta his league. N it works both ways. Woman. Man. There's to many pretending to wanna get with it but can't bcuz their lost in a visual attraction. As the boy n girl within jus can't grow up so a more mature individual can come out n play. So "women" like "men" jus live with the void. I know bcuz I feel it myself n I've been in their shoes leaking emotion that rearrange the mindset not many can relate to. It's a game of self recognition none of us wanna play bcuz if it drags out to long we get settled in to our own ways n are unable to change. N we all luv the sights of vanity. Thinking thoughts that linger. But it's not until u make luv to someone that's not in a sexual manner that u feel their worth. It's the breakin point of relations not many can cross for the underside doesn't make sense to them. Either they've never been there, been used or simply don't have it in them to live as what's considered locked down. Look past her shape n accept her from the inside out. Bcuz, believe me. She's worth it if she can possibly do the same thing for u. It's jus rare to find someone real anymore... An other on the same level... All bcuz they hide. Bcuz their tired of the deep bein unfilled even though the beaches are romantically fed to walk on. Can u see me? Bcuz I can see u!

I tell myself it's almost over. Storms about to clear. Yet everyday I'm tired of waking up felon the same ol way. Emptiness with an once of fear. So I've awakened shoving dreams outta my head this morning. To let em die here in reality. Seems I've gotta fed up for once n jus gave to the cave in. Cleaning up what's left of my sanity.

Time gave up as life's playin out to lifestyles that begged to differ expressed without sound... Opposing paths forked in different directions drifting with luv unsettled in the hearts as words lost the tone chewed in mouths... Take me back to when time gave a chance to hold that envy eyes took upon us... For only the memory lives with the emotion that gave the fuck up... As the heart became a capsule to open jus to know the hole dug is where u must lay... Lingering on past the end that came to soon u chose a lifestyle that rear-ended what would neva remain the same... For my walls came down in more ways ths one with s vow to release it all down two separate paths wantin more... Yeah, truths be told runnin to u after the said n done is I stood my ground watching u take a detour... It wasn't that luv didn't exist in between us vibin to our own rhythm of comin undone... Bcuz even in the middle of making luv to the touch we knew we were this worlds ultimate rush... Yet, somehow within ur mind u twisted the feel of my ache that lived to come to u no matter what... N the friendship was a one way street left goin the wrong way n leaving our passion utterly crushed... As we were one in the same from the same place understanding we could relate... I guess that was my downfall to underestimate the power of ur faze... Used on the comin n goin to of an addiction that bled me dry... As I couldn't even get the respect as husband n wife to ease the tension in my mind... U played so well n thought I didn't know that u called to the past for me hiding what remained of our vows... Seems u took me for a fool yet I stood on my word from then til now... Ss the silence thickened to heavy to carry alone in relations u threw into the wind... N we both be places since that we shoulda neva been... Remembering how it use to be back before the drugs took control of the woman I knew u didn't see within that wanted to live... N ur lips couldn't feel the expression when asked what we were with the dying of that tickle in the rib... Soon enough came to pass as we didn't make it to the promised land all due to u couldn't pull through... N life takes on a whole new mindset redirected as a solo artist that went to the edge n jumped for only u... Did u not stop n think that someone in this world had a use for ur luv out in the open for this world to see? For now I know even true luv isn't like it is in the movies as a kiss makes it hard to breathe... It's more mental situation that has reason upon the tongues choice of the kinda exposures it chooses to prove... N u, walked away in the making neva to return to what awaited with a noose... For the sole purpose of ride or die within the limits of what's been lost in my mind... Ur imprint only prepared me to be as I thank u for a moment shared that correct myself within ur lies... As lines of scrambled tolerance found letters in a form of  communication with the one that slipped to ur disregard... As I can now say I am free from the devotion once given to ur worth that played my part...

I know ur a grown azz woman n u have needs... Yet ur gonna havta understand , as a man, I jus wanna breathe... N those feelings ur willing to give won't last long so face the facts... I'm in the moment of now wantin today to be worth the time n effort making more than memories in my past... U see, there's a way a man thinks that's ain't half stepping his own worth... Relations isn't about giving to a female but an equal share at a friendship where acting claim words...

Jus behind the image seen is settled as someone else u jus dont know... In that secret place so dark twisted seems like a plaything thatll never show... Jus on the other side of whats seen is the reality of what make me me like u makes u true... Dont think ur the only one demented in ways u n life has a connectivity truce... Ill use that bitch the same way i will u if u come at me on some petty shit... We"re all hiding pieces of self so id suggest not to get shit bent... Its in the way u think... Connectin the links in between thoughts freed...

As she turned n asked softly... Why me? I replied with confidence in my tone... Bcuz i jus cant help myself... Damn that look that stared back... There wasnt anything more perfect... If she didnt know, now she did... Shes the one that is felt... N in that moment she seen me witness her as she stood still... Madly in luv n acceptin her as she was... For who she is can not be explained through words... She knows i can feel her without even bein touched... It was a moment of truth as she asked why do u look at me like that? I jus chuckled n said u should know by now... N the grin that rose was finer than sight could focus... Clean n crisp makin luv to my eyes goin to town... Luv, id rather peep u than any other... As an understandin in my words made it through... Yes, we were so much more than luv'rs... Friends til life sees fit... Connected no matter what comes along... Hmm, she knows she irreplaceable... N its that feelin alone is why luv exists as it could never go wrong...

As she turned n asked softly... Why me? I replied with confidence in my tone... Bcuz i jus cant help myself... Damn that look that stared back... There wasnt anything more perfect... If she didnt know, now she did... Shes the one that is felt... N in that moment she seen me witness her as she stood still... Madly in luv n acceptin her as she was... For who she is can not be explain through words... She knows i can feel her without even bein touched... It was a moment of truth as she asked why do u look at me like that? I jus chuckled n said u should know by now... N the grin that rose was finer than sight could focus... Clean n crisp makin luv to my eyes goin to town... Luv, id rather peep u than any other... As an understandin in my words made it through... Yes, we were so much more than luv'rs... Friends til life sees fit... Connected no matter what comes along... Hmm, she knows she irreplaceable... N its that feelin alone is why luv exists as it could never go wrong...

One of the saddest things is fallin in luv with the way the pain feels sad... Un willin to luv another... Itll drive u mad til ur sanity comes back around to knowin self isn't half bad...

Breath takin scenes...

Dont be surprised if a few pucs are taken jus bcuz its fun... Or find it odd when alone i jus wanna eat u in ways my moyth waters to explore... Im on it when im on my feet n im standin... But when i lay it down the cue in the pitch thrown at the tone to make luv to sound... Its fuckin amazin to hear such beauty in one moment as the visual of u slow fuckin my face upon ur back... Breath takin scenes in our movement that clings to the reality of trust... Ur down right up my alley like the girl next door type that enjoys life... So red flags n alarms aint needed to simply please u comin out to play... Jus ease back n feel yourself happenin to the way ur body craves to be tampered with... I wonder who would get more pleasure if u popped? N i couldnt breathe...  Let up to by climbed on slidin down wet willie so sensitive. Jus know when i go in its gotta be so slow u gush on the size of it pushin in to have u... Yeah... Its a must... i want me some of u at my fingertips so i get my fix... Mmm... N u cant even hear these words come from my lips... Comin at u focused on what we do as we do what we do... Lettin loose... As my hand finds ur throat... Oh its on... Lemme hear u open up n release to me every last desire in which u hide... Imma show u what u are... N u could be good at it... Bein u... Lol...

I see it turn

I can see it.
Deep in the centers of my eyes.
Disapearin into the mirror.
I see emotion walking away from the surface.
Beneath the shell.
Hidden from touch.
Its stepping backwards into my core.
Watching me.
With a spin to unlock its cage.
With its back against this world.
Trapping self into my own prison.
The feeling is not wanting to know me.
My one friend doesn't even trust me.
Yet I understand.
I to felt the knife that's gripped.
Untwisted from the heart.
Spilling out.
I hang my head for I am witness to my best friend walking away.
Shutting shit down on the inside.
I believe I failed me.
I am only human damn it!
All in the same.
I knew you'd turn when I needed u the most.
I know I'm a piece of work but I am real.
Facing what is to come.
N where r u.
Fading in the depths dying alive.
Not wanting to feel again.
I can't see u in the dark when I chase u in my dreams.
Gimme the key.
Stand with me in a stare.
Y do u let me live as the pain?
U fuckin coward.
Where's my reflections use?
Cuz the image has changed its expression.
Cuttin the ties to what I resembled in my mind.
Its all gone to hell.
Cuz I flipped out on self.
I hurt my precious feelings.
Gone n went numb.
Yeah its my fault.
I coulda stopped it.
But u wouldn't let me remember!
It was u that held on.
U the heart.
Not me in mind.
So run!
IDC anymore Cuz I stand as a man without u.
Peek in at u giving the fuck up.
Yeah I see it.
Lost in a blink as the head turns.
I get the cold shoulder.
Swelling the wells.
Dripping Cuz I lost me after alls said n done.
Im standing in silence as the passion is leaving me driftin n alone.
I see it turn.

When my eyes awaken in the mornings​ vision of u by my side... Life itself will open up n get at it with only u on my mind...

Jus don't run...

Lemme use the bed as a backboard as I fall into u... Rolling around ya rim... Dribbles thrown down... As I'm goin down inside of u... Jus slide ya panties to the right... Feel u some head game... Pickin up the roll of the tongues to slam it down... Hearin my name cheered with moans that bring the fame... Imma special kinda of pleasure... Laid out is the u of flava I seek... Ur taste... Ur treat... Served by a lyrical need... Cumin to life with the lip service felt... Get it... Get that shit... Lemme help... Bare the seasoning that drips on the loose... Applying skill to juice ur box... Together mixing it up with meat to put in ya oven... Jus don't run when u feel the bacock... Even wakin u before the rosters rise to the sun... I'm goin all in on the thrill of ya comin undone... Here for u to squeeze one off... Jus don't run...

Justifiable words without supervision... Awe shit, no limits by definition... Crawling from beneath the skins texture... How far will u venture with no need to retract... Comin from within what's under the hat... Level one complete... Magically walkin through walls n over buriers... Unbound by restraints... On the loose as freedom aligns with wisdoms worth that flirts... As one in the same is as open as air felt... Noddin away with the rhythm in which lived... A drifter lingerin to the moves groove... As words never spill yet leap from sensitive lips...

at some point u gotta come back from where youve been... u cant live in the dwell that has claimed ur grin... theres gonna come that moment u walk away from the feel of the struggle within... knowin what youve learned will only be how u allow it to bend...steppin up to life jus wantin to feel alive as luv wins... that special place u went to thats all yours only went temporarily dim... n that twist u felt truly helps u keep breathin again... but theres a time to rise from the ache that has suspended whats always been meant... n in the knowin of that was then n this is now will honestly be spent... in the earnin of a new understandin that untwists with intelligence... walkin away from the irrelevance buried behind the what was so deliberate... with a fresh way that has purpose meanin its deliverance...

Walking through the smoke blazed I'm goin somewhere mentally I don't fit in... With the basics raised above thoughts that has infected my friend... Trippin within the cloud as the tone of my own voice breaks the silence... Damn I feel like I'm the only one with it here in reality residin... Tokin up the fog that makes it harder to see as I puff standin still... Wrapped up in the ability to focus on other senses hopin to understand the thrills... Played out like the last thing that found its way past morality... It's kinda fucked up the twist releases the truth that lingers in the air of individuality... Ripped like a stoner spittin words no one can hear... Listenin ears don't register the effect of surroundin peers... Goin with the flow chained to a life of selfish imprisonment... So I take another hit as my lips kisses the tip of the ickys relevance... Blown away from the effect of curiosity that's corrupted a train of thought... Lost n getting right in a moment to pause... High as fuck jus droppin jibberish flung jus here myself out loud... For no one makes sense her in this crazy unstable place walkin so proud... The only way to cope is the flame that sparks the intentions to free the game... Displayed on pages written for the read of being untamed... Loose n spread like the weed jus before the roll... I inhale to gain a lil bit of some fuckin self control... Floatin through time back n forth smellin the grind... Imma spit what I know drawn up in green ink bcuz this is my life... Deep inside the correction of me I force myself to commit... No limits n no filter as my passion leaps like a ribbit...

Went mute in the reception of the crowd... Lost words linger through the mind dethroned by sound... Silenced bcuz distance is best... Let it rest... Sssh... Verbal communication break down in the middle of freedoms... free of the chaos came up in discussion

Tongue draping ur inner thigh... Tryin to find what's been on ur mind... Searching for the moan... Crawling upward earning the throne... Following the flava to tastebuds comin undone... ssh, feel the way I like to pay n have some fun...With swivelin strokes takin aim... As circular licks soft enough sensitise the clit react to ur body playin games... Twitchin... Feelin they drought release the pressure upon my face... Diggin in to the way u move well below the down low as u escape... Bracing for ur nut to cum as u wiggle me a ooh my g... Tieed to the bed unable to move being for my rod... Round two begins as the vibrations tickle the seduction taunted with ease... Watching ur curves move to the motion pulsating at ur need... As the flow of juices area a delicious texture falling from my chin... Comin up only to breathe it's a win win... From azz to navel, up to ur breasts... Hands grab ahold of ur neck aa u respond none the less... Kisses slide down ur side wantin u completely obedient so u loosen up... Open n willin to accept the thrust waiting it's turn to fuck u as us... Feel me insert my shaft within ur walls that cling to the soothe... Get it... Get it... Get it... Jus playin a game who's who...

Rolling up emotions red carpet jus bcuz the fun is about to begin... No drips of feelings need to become a stain unless it truly reaches in... The layin down of the water slide is more appropriate for the occasion to pop... Slip n ride oops she fell upward grinding on a moment's notice to throb... Pulsing with the event as losin light rounds the mornings bend... Tellin the crack of dawn it's too late due to time has already been spent... Smackin n flippin n rubbin n chokin n touchin n reactin to the way we be fuckin... Down beneath the shadows makin n tastin the fame thumpin... As I don't fuck with headboards jus bcuz they're fire wood waitin to go up in flames... I like when the bed moves into the middle of the room as I can hear my moaned name... So up with the runway beneath the feet that step on some fake advertisin bs... Imma lay down what cannot be spoken mentally n let it rip... R.I.P. to what u use to know of sexual experiences... U got a freak on ya hands that comes equipped with do much more than deliverance... Now talk dirty to me as I climb up in ya life... Makin sense of why we're doin what we do as intensions jus cannot hide... Come play on the outside of what u cannot admit... Commit to the feel of it as ur depths are penetrated bcuz I'm the shit... On the loose lookin to do u right... Shoot on through n get what you've lacked this far in life...

Woke up with a different state of mind... comin down to the final words of a chapter that's played out in its time... Life jus don't seem the same away from luvs games... When lips have the after taste of leftover names... The flava in which is an emotional madness released to be alone... The ol me with a twist awoke to this morning jus lookin for a lil mo jo... Claimin the throne as the lil red rocket attacks on command... Sit boo boo, sit, or I'll beat u with my hands... Yeah my own eyes opened to given less of a flying flunk then yesterday jus letting go... Oh no, I'm human n now everyone knows... Filtering only secrets not to be spun from the tongues leap... Risin I rose to whatever I wanna do bcuz I wanna breathe... There is no better half then there is with the one I found within... Locked in a time capsule aware of the meaning of friend... Freed by the torture of passions touch at last... Fallin back into insanities definition of having a blast... Shit, only if ears wanted to here the truths that settled the differences irreconcilable free will... N I'm OK with bein misunderstood as i am openly spilled...

So what is it that makes us luv someone? Why do we fall for different people saying this one here? Who is it we're looking for? When will the fiasco end my dear? Where inside of me is ur interest to be? Do u feel where it is in which angle I reside? Where is the true beginnings of goin deep? How are u in the comin of goin with a brief pause to talk n witness a face? Does luv exist here anymore? Why do legs spin on the slow walk pickin up pace? Some things jus make no sense... No one is truly in to no one... To into self n outta tune as time whips up a past... Holy shit I'm on point, imagine that... When nothin in this world is set up to last...

I ain't never touched a bottle to cope... But I've hung from the lies luv strung up with a rope... I felt it come n I've felt it go... N I still haven't as of yet made it home... Where it is I jus don't know from where I sit... I've only tasted fibs on every set of lips... Moments make time an attraction that'll fail n walk away... I jus know how to remain within the memories of staying the same... As the feel good of a new friend arrives to step to the plate... One day to be replaced by a different sounding name... So as for the liquor, it not once tilted upwards to drain me dry... I like the feel of em leaving bcuz I earn my stripes... A solo artist unfelt n untameable to tells on his their heart flows... As their fade simply tells it all as I let em go... Selfish n untrue to anyone but self... N I jus cannot get down with that kinda funk loosening up the belt... I jus can't reason with a substance to flush em out... That motion of gone is my life's past for me to remember what came from twisted mouths... So one by one they've been tucked away to slowly be forgotten... I don't fight the feeling that there is no stopping... Giving a lil space in between relations before I even try at it again... There's been one to many let downs that tripped on my third leg... Fell in n forgot who I was then blamed me for reacting to the luv hate fame... I guess one day someone will actually figure out the maturity of mental equivalence n wanna get it in... Till then it's one lil two lil the lil Indians gone in the wind...

Am I the only one who understands me... Where is it they think I'm comin from... Who is it they wanna believe I am... What kinda monster do they think it is I've become...

People say things n don't come through... On their own agenda changing moods... Tryin to convince another of a luv that could be if they had a chance... Candles would flicker in the night as shadows dance... Yet words go further than actions only goin so far... Seems a lil interest is the same shit as goin to war... Acceptance n rejection is held in the same hand as it's strangled for no reason... People only luv u before their heart changes seasons... The confusion of the way they fall short of delivering what they spit is unreal... What's to be shown when they​ fail as the real deal..? Some of us need more than to hear another speak of the way they feel for us... N damn near everyone we cross ain't got it in em to open the fuck up... Truth be told they only luv u if they get that close for a brief moment in time... U jus gotta choose who's gonna give u something before luv reaches the disappointment in the mind... Watch em come n take a peek in their eyes as they're staring u down... N watch how fast they turn away once they figure out ur on some real shit every fuckin day givin more than jus vocal sounds... Trip if u wanna fall in luv... Dive if u wanna crawl through the touch... But I guarantee u they'll give up on u first... N that's what hurts the most...

Down to the drip in a sensitive state of holding on... Hands gripping threads on the run as the door closes n the heart dives to the floor... The rush explodes in the reverse angle away from luv... Don't fight it... Jus remember if they luvd u they'd cling to the feel of touch... To believe in u is actions shown as if eyes choose to witness u reachin in... Deeper in the comin hopin not to walk straight through lips curved into that fuckin grin... Or gettin walked on as if time pulls the curtains shut to preserve a memory fallin away... Leakin on thoughts hauntin come mornin all over again... See it how u wanna take a peek but we've all felt that goody good that brought us to life... But when is it time to say goodbye... Friends don't let friends die alone... Who in the fuck doesn't wanna go home... In the emotional pit once it's back to this world u go... Gainin conceousness comin from beneath the weight of the throne... Watering eyes dry to the mental addict of passion jus wantin to be felt for once... Only if eyes could speak the way lips is backed by the mouth that says so much... Naked emotion Rollin finds a drought unless it's real... It all depends on the way u feel... Does it bring u to life... Or is it tearin u apart inside... Tender to the tickle huh... Jus smile n be the one u need as the one... It all comes back to self in is moment to reside... Comin full circle in the middle of life...

Hold me close to ur palms as ur fists grip me... Don't beat me with them hypothetically speaking... As long as u never let go, I'll never feel em hurt me... Be my dream living here with me in reality... Jus be...

rollin over n grabbin covers tryin to pull u close... wakin to the absence of the empty space u filled feelin alone... playin games with my mind as if ur still here... the darker the room better for i cant tell if u aint near... if i dont reach for ya i guess ill never know... n i can pretend ur still sleepin til the mornin comes hopin time spins ever so slow.... so i attemp to drift back to sleep tellin myself, try not to wake her... but i know ur gone as my thoughts are heard... rollin over to try n force myself to believe ur on ur way... as i imagine u walkin in sayin my name... n as quick as i think it reality kicks back in... layin here solo feelin lost again... so i try to avoid the void with one more trick up my sleeve... comin up with one more way to somehow breathe... as the rush of emotions win the moments to come... n the knowin of u bein gone is me comin undone... so i fluff the pillows as if they were u... get close enough to em to feel what i wanna believe is the truth... givin me a bit of comfort til u return... yet how long will this go on til i learn..? for i know u jus aint here snuggled up on my chest... leavin the luv i have left for dead...

weve all done it... if u havent u aint never been in luv n felt em leave... it aint no joke losin someone youd go over n beyond for... makin relations with others irrelevant... nights get lonely... time stands still... n the head games to make it through the nights jus aint right... but youd havta be in luv with em to know what it is im talkin about... lettin go is the hardest thing to do... that is if u can figure out a way to get over em, without replacin em, before it kills u emotionally...

I wish I could tell ya what my problem is... Why I write​ so much off the wall crazy shit... Diggin into life like I've lost my fuckin mind... Well I did around about that lil ol one time... I never got it back for it never returned if I wasn't to lie... As there's something I want that I consider mine... Yet I cannot express what drives me to become someone better... Bcuz I cannot touch what I crave the most in an other... If I could jus speak freely for once the way I use to... Open up n tell the world the truth... Simply go back to bein who it is I am comin back to life... You'd prolly understand my reasons of why... I ain't got a moment to spare on someone else's so called luv... Yet the honesty few know as the depths of it is built on trust... Hidin within me behind lines of a different kinda me... One where I cannot look into the mirror for I know I'd luv to live the dream... I'm caught up in my own world without a filter to be used... Only thing I won't touch verbally is somethin u need not know till time accepts the truth... So ears hear me not speak with a tongue that might seem like it cares... My silence has taken me away from this place n I do not care. For I know what it is n it's rounding the bend... Comin back full force bcuz i know the meaning of the word friend... So until that moment when I collide with reality in effect... Ssh, the mental aspect of my secret is the only thing takin affect... U need not want the emotion I do not intend to give... For who I am is jus a tickle in ya rib... Waitin for my own to tell on me... As the days a comin where I to am free...

Unfazed n sidesteppin a lil snatch jus bcuz theres somethin else playin out in the back of the state of minds estate... Full circle, waitin, as patience unwind with a guarantee explainin the great escapes return... Runnin with crazy legs slowin for the catchin of my calling of a more mature way to earn whats given... Livin bein on the horizon as lost mornings will fit the one in place needin presence to believe in... Homemade seems like such a fit if thought about jus right enough to mind... Acceptance made in between time restin for now as the claim is gonna gratify worth on the highest find... As mine opens up to share the build up of intent released as a calm azz mutha...  For it im a sucka, yet. jus for one that defines who it is i am far beyond a luva... Wantin my life in return for her life... Yeah, Lets ride...

Act act act act act right... Get some n play time will be unprecedented... We can hang as if a day apart would be too much... Hey miss independent woman! Real men are comin back for luv... Tickin hands by ya side as time will settle the scene... Ready to bank n live... Deeper than the heart allows... Then u can touch my rib... N that's from my mouth...

Be somewhere ur happiness is felt... N if ya have a lil help with ya bf sittin beside ya... Hell yeah!!! Do ur thing... Solo or wrapped up... The time is now to enjoy a variety of levels of luv... What u need is ya own will to actually live... Its what ya give.... Mmm... Thats the shit that'll make ya come undone... In luv with the one... Self jus knows... Fuckin around is no mo... Grounds are solid everywhere u go... Bcuz u care to refuse to go with the flow... Luv comes from within... Who cares where we've been???

I believe fb is filled with everyone's alternative egos... N not a one of em will turn around n point at the real individual behind the scenes... Bcuz they dont even know whos who... Did that jus sound mean? Good... Its all talk n display... No one is real here in a false state of reality... Hidin the facts that actions can not match words... Like, poke, lol, is all lies to me...

Its jus the curve u put on when u look at me... Ooh wee..! That lil thing u do makes my reality... Smile for me... Show what it is u feel... Tell me that it is real n ill make u a deal... Neva to wonder on the layers peeled... Signed n sealed... Delivered from my own emotion countin on ur worth... More than words written to ease the nerve... Bringin life from the blur... Comin from me fuck what u heard... With the mix of u n i stirred n crossin over givin this world the bird... Fallin in to stares as the mind gives leverage for passion to be felt... In total realization of that chuckle that helps... Playin whats delt... Allowin the heart to do more than melt... Its ur way in which has found me comin to life... Not once loosin sight... Yeah, it be nice to hold u jus right... Tellin u everynight. G'night...

If my heart was taken by ur hands neva to return to my chest... Jus given to u to do as u please... To play out ya intent on my emotions at ur will... In which way would i land upon my knees..? How would i serve ur minds direction of use...? If there was no return policy... Who would i be to only u..? Jus wantin u in my very own reality..!

With that said... Im game... As words n actions are lining up... Jus say my name... As reason allows the chance... Tones do more than talk... Trust simply owns the moment... N luv accepts all flaws... No games... No others are needed... Choices have been made... Its the good of that there of bein treated... Come, lets ride this circus monkey til the end... The wait has been for the records... Im down to get in where i fit... If its u i awaken to, theres no one  i want more...............

If u can feel it, ur on my level...
I got shit lined up n im steppin back...
Theres somethin i want...
N i will have it, thats a fact...

Theres this story of a man... One in which his heart clings to this one woman... No matter the test shes the one... She is home n the rest is all to come undone.... He knows it as the obvious is jus puttin in the work... Luv is luv as for her he accepts the course of time bcuz he knows her worth... As it is only she to realize his efforts for her own knowin comin full circle... Together as one through the good times n bad theres this story made for the shade of purple...

Back to using my head instead of allowin my heart to run away with those trip line emotions... Without givin in to or using my Peter built... Betta watch who it is u step to if ur lookin in my direction.... I jus might blow ur fuckin mind... Im not typical nor am i arrogant n/or conceited.. I jus know my worth... Ur either a friend a piece of azz or worth my time... Ill let u decide... So ur own thoughts come together... U know... So ur mindset can be seen... Watchin me sittin back unfazed by what u think u got what a man wants... In a show me faze... Yup... Back to bein Butchie B Butch... Me... For i aint on no bs... This shit is pure mental... This shit right here!!! Yeah... This is me... No rhyme needed on this one... Jus straight to the point... Feelings can fly a fuck away from me til time asks me to give a lil sum sum... We're adults right? Then be one...

Okey dokey.... I jus wrote this earlier.... I rewrote it again as a rhyme... Check em both out...

Back to using my head instead of allowin my heart to run away with those trip line emotions... There is no devotion..? Without givin in to or using my Peter built... Or even speakin to much mutha fuckin filth... Betta watch who it is u step to if ur lookin in my direction.... I dont live in my reflection... I jus might blow ur fuckin mind... With reason of why... Im not typical nor am i arrogant n/or conceited.. N me by u will neva be defeated... I jus know my worth... No itll neva hurt... Ur either a friend, a piece of azz or worth my time.. I only have one life.... Ill let u decide... Jus save the fuckin hype... So ur own thoughts come together... Wrappin ur mind around whats makes u better... U know... So i know u... So ur mindset can be seen... Dont blink... Watchin me sittin back unfazed by what u think u got what it is a man wants... Hmmm??? Was that to blunt??? In a show me faze... Yup... Back to bein Butchie B Butchie B Butch... Chasin no tush... Me... Free... For i aint on no bs... This shit is pure mental intelligence... This shit right here!!! My dear... Yeah... Hell yeah... This is me... I too breathe... No rhyme needed on this one... But i switched it up jus for fun... Jus straight to the point... Joint after joint... Feelings can fly a fuck away from me til time asks me to give a lil sum sum... Ok there hun??? We're adults right? Then be one... Dont fight the feelin to get u some... Muturity is the fuckin shit!!! Thats why i fuck with it...

Damn... There it goes again... How it jus creeps up outta nowhere... That tare... Feelin like a seams been plucked... Ol faithful still endurin whats fucked... Damn... The ticker jus ran through my minds wasteland... The feel... Some shits jus a lil to real... Too close to be without emotion... Here n there it whispers on a roll over where a body is absent to devotion... Damn... I hate to luv the way it lands... Comin up with the memory unable to sleep... Jus attemptin to drift in to my dreams... There goes my fuckin night... Theres no sense to even try to hide... Damn... Leave me if u can... Hands have no grip... Kisses dont find pressed lips... Its jus a moment n itll pass... But damn, how long this time will it last... Damn... Awol went the bam bam... The luv makin tussin under the covers... Chuckles that become luvrs... Layin here all alone... No no no....

Its how they catch ur eye jus doin what it is u do... Catchin yourself doin more than playin peekaboo within stares as the heart goes woohoo...

Jus wantin to come from within so i know u see me... Theres nothin here to hide to make u wind up leavin hehe... Patience is a technique mastered with time... N i can not get u outta my fuckin mind... No telepathy needed for im tellin u im comin out for u... As playtime is now in session if ur words are spoken as the truth... Mmm hmm, thoughts jus went through ur head... Wake up n witness me before we break in the bed... Time is only gettin away... That is if we're wantin to stay... N be the friendship unmatched by any other... Wanna come over..?

Lol.. Im straight to the point... Cant help but to be that way... Seems no one understands anything less... Is what it is... Jus watch em fade... Into the distance to fall into a microscopic display like poof, gone... Real is not real for some reason they have fear... Yet i stick to script playin hide n seek before my eyes... There isnt any way to please em if u can not make urself clear... Fuck the lies...

When ur luv touches me it settles down the dog... He rests at ur feet to protect n comfort ur flaws... He's a loyal hound who jus wants to be ur friend... Howlin at the nights moon when alone due to he'll luv u til the end...

I honestly dgaf what it is u have to say... Yup... Feelings mutual... One in the same... Yet different kinda individuals see two opposing ways... A duel set of minds within frames that are nowhere near the same... Livin in a virtual world as if it is a game... Lets agree to disagree train of thoughts are unreachable by anything less than whats attractable... N that welcomes in the emotional fade... But hey... One of us is delusional... N im not sayin no names... We're jus not on any level of mental stability fakin whats insecure n unable ... As the confusion in between us is the fame... Lets jus get this shit back ti bein truthful... Neither of us is to blame... N we can not use a word like useful...

I wanna know... Is it me u luv..? Or is it what im willin to do for u..? Jus so i know ur happy..? Bcuz the questions on my mind are unfuckin real... Dont step up unless ur ready..! Heal... But i aint waitin... If i gotta live without u to stay sane... Bye..! My heart obviously should belong to an other... N thats not what i want on my mind... So i wanna know... Tell me the truth..! Who am i to u..? Friend, foe or luv'rs..? We can be all three as long as we're together... But reality must be in play... Reason bein factor... N a friendship mastered...

U speak a different language than me... N im suppose to hate u... Bcuz ur skin does not look like mine... Why does that havta be the truth..? Who came up with the guidelines we all live by.. Divided... N racism takes the blame bcuz adults cant cant be mature... I can no longer hide this shit... As a whole... We have failed... Society is no longer of any use... We need to be shown... Luv that is not wanted... This place states loyalty is merely something to talk about... N the more real u get, the weirder this world calls u... Wow!!! Can u see it..? Bcuz my eyes are wide open as i squeeze in a squint my sight shut... Head shaking No... No... No... Ignorant is the act of not knowing... Yet all i hear is moaning... Wtf is goin on..? U acceot this as norm...

I jus wanna be me... But the struggle was simply felt... So now here i am... N im my only help... Things get clearer in the middle of goin under... Its jus how u come up that changes ya... I looked up but it wasnt to any false gods... I seen myself ponder collectin data as i thought to myself, what if im not the one whos odd... So birds flew as i came from within as self... Me... I... For take me or leave me... I wanted to live n breathe... So i did me..!

If someone were to take an interest, would u be alert enough to notice n take part in the interest given to figure out who u are? Some things are what time slides in n up n under what eventually plays out beneath n up top the covers showin its a moment to care... If they were jus lingerin, jus goin with the flow of life would u come outta the script u play to find in which whom they are if ur curiousity wanted to play? Its jus a notion of hey u that speaks n turns the direction of sight that is witness to how the head spins around to take notice in how it is u come as claimed...

Fallin outta words set out before eyes that read... Comin to life as if my own heart bleeds... Letters tuck in the message formin phrases that relate... Wantin to scream wtf is wrong with u for fucks sake... Twistin spellin as compound words are taken apart... On diplay i lay spread wide enough for u to climb in n find ur reason within me that u hate how ive been chard... Dritfin through life smearin the alphabet again n again in ways id luv to touch u... Yet my voices tone is muted with the read along goin from side to side in ur minds use... Im trippin on punctuations purposely placed to lure u in... Yet u sit there waitin on what to come n feel u grin..? As the ramblings continue to state to u that i am not a perfect person in my time of ridin this thing solo... But if u only knew what u do to me youd know i am not fo show...

As she turned n asked softly... Why me? I replied with confidence in my tone... Bcuz i jus cant help myself... Damn that look that stared back... There wasnt anything more perfect... If she didnt know, now she did... Shes the one that is felt... N in that moment she seen me witness her as she stood still... Madly in luv n acceptin her as she was... For who she is can not be explained through words... She knows i can feel her without even bein touched... It was a moment of truth as she asked why do u look at me like that? I jus chuckled n said "u should know by now"... N the grin that rose was finer than sight could focus... Clean n crisp makin luv to my eyes goin to town... Luv, id rather peep u than any other... As an understandin in my words made it through... Yes, we were so much more than luv'rs... Friends til life sees fit... Connected no matter what comes along... Hmm, she knows shes irreplaceable... N its that feelin alone as why luv exists as it could never go wrong...

Ive played every game known n then some. N if i choose to do so im damn good at gettin what i want. Yet! I laid the dog down for luv n this is what i found. When ur on some grown man shit... The art of playin games is the need not to play for u know what n who u are at all times. Character isnt in n outta emotions. N the mind settles in to knowin if she wants u to chase her, let her run. Encourage her to get it n let those legs take off like forest. For the simple fact. If ur on ur shit. U need not to be pressed bcuz thats when a real woman takes notice. Sit back n observe. Real men do real shit!

If he steps in to ur life he must understand ur kids are ur ultimate decision in which he will not be disrespected... Accepted... Accept it... As that shit works both ways... Unity is independence... Yet this world is defective... Everyone is playin detective on bs that catches to much interest... Its the simplest shit... Walk away if u havta clinch ur fists... Theres no sense in bein defensive on the flava of twisted lips that claim to luv the taste of ya kiss... Psst... Get a grip..!

If i were to say fuck it... Lets do this shit... I bet you'd hesitate even knowing im a good dude that jus wants to be happy! Bcuz u don't know what u want. Hmm. Someone slap me! I think i jus crossed the line... Go figure... But at least u know i know... So we know... Ya know? Come fuck wit me n see for yourself... But nah... Ur scared... Yet I've done nothing to u... I know u... U need help wit something ur suppose to do yourself... Before u can step... N ur not on my level when u can be... What the flim flam?

Come fuck with me... I dare u...

Can u be honest n say it... Could u tell me u didnt feel me til i was gone... Bcuz u really should speak on that shit... The truth would neva be wrong... Whisper if u must... If u jus dont want others to hear... Or if ya jus dont want em to know that now u feel my luv... Theres nothin to fear... We're grown as if we havent already spoken... It wasnt i was it..? But its cool for ur heart, i know what its holdin... U can actually feel that shit..! Why is ur silence so afraid..? Im me n ur u n shit went sideways... Idgaf what this world spits my way... Ive luvd in the fire lane... Got burnt n whistled like youve done no wrong... N u now know the depths ive attached to... For ive been there since day one waitin on that song... Im me n ur u n shit went sideways... Got burnt n still whistled ur name as if youve done no wrong... U now know the depths ive gone to tuck u away... N its no surprise... Whats real is the thought of me in ya head sayin nighty nighty.... As i jus can not spit a lie... Who i am is whove ive been to become as the same mo fo ive always been as the man in ur fuckin dreams tonight...

I got that stare in my eyes... I see it as its no surprise... Ive been there n i ill neva be the same... Losin touch with reality truly saved the game... Woof... He lives obedient servin on master... As the full package jus rose from the dead... Its a strange place to go bein alone in ur head... If u think ur crazy ur full if shit... Crazy people dont know theyre crazy n ive been it... Mind, gone... Drifted bcuz self was not first... But they neva got to ride along side me in a hurst...

Read this startin in a normal tone n slowly whisper lower n lower til the end.... Its how it was written....

Lets go hard n play a different kinda game... One where when u hear ur name bared u know the tone is the point taken as luvs fav... Say my name... Hey...

I will let go if u tell me to... If friends should not pursue any further use... Unless u jus havent a heart... For that bs im jus too fuckin smart...

If youve neva fell in luv with someone or simply jus luv the shit outta them... N being forced to watch them being taken away by an addiction knowing they luv the fuck outta u... Shut the fuck up n move on... Theyre helpless n theres nothing u can do... Thats my reality... N i doubled up... Yall jus didnt work out... Theres a difference... But we're all good... Life has some twists....

U ever wondered what it is about u that those that claim they luv u jus eventually becomes a ghost. Like theres somethin about u that they wont tell u that they run from n wind up wantin somethin else. As if ur jus not good enough for them for some reason. Knowin u are n have so much luv to give n no one to give it to... U ever felt like luv jus doesnt exist... Like its jus a game people play on u to get what they want... Yeah... I do......................... Why is it no matter how good u are to someone, standin correct with so much to offer they jus cant see u... N when u put them before yourself n try to truly make them happy u get downplayed as if a bitch... Like ur irrelevant... Is it people jus have no clue on what luv really is? Or know but cant handle it n get scared or even find it they can not actually be in relations for to long bcux they jus dont have it in them to truly luv an other person?

Here... Its the truths u need... Take it how u translate it... Yet feel n let it breathe... It doesnt lie... It has no reason to... Its who i am... Livin loose...

Eyes sideways lookin in a peeking squint... Toke toke hold that shit in... That linger that crawls through the air... Dancin. With the mind floatin inna stare... Now ease the smoke back into the atmosphere... As reality slows for the recognition from the clouds gracefulness as we walk low in this hemisphere... Puff puff give a lil piece u think to the budsmokers worldwide... Lift on the poof of a spark heatin up ya life... Hows it feel to free what u hide..? Slanted eyed n feelin the motion of thc in the air.. Exhale..! Now act like u care...

Ooooh weeee... The wait... Tick tick tock listenin to the clocks click as we clique back into it with life... To reality... Nice..!  I knew it wasnt a waste... Jus say my name... Hey... Its time... Luv is ready to walk the line... N ur mine as im a sucker for u... Hear my truths... I speak no lies... Ur my reasons of why..!

Dip wit me... Move in a sway... Pure movement... Wit a chuckle in the rib... Dig into ya hips... Let ya smile curve ya lips... Walk that azz backwards up on me... Then lean... Dancin wit the stars... Goin hard... Doin ur part... Lemme feel ya body heat embark... On a journey made for two... Lettin loose... Simply gettin it in... In our moment comin from within... With the language of bein touch perfectly synced... Bcuz u got what i need... Playin with the rotation of the imagination flowin about... Without a single word as eyes follow us as we clique in a round of now... I wanna feel u strip it down... As my jaw drops like an expression of wow..!

Engulfed by the flames rise to the simmering char... Putting bars on the heart with one key to lock away the charm... Time has a test to bring forth a new horizons motion... Dividing self into two as one has the choose between the mindsets within the imaginations will to make reality a devotion... To live beyond whats gone down in the depths to change a point of view... The sizzle crispins the edges of the minds release to open up to truths...

Lemme show u what faithful is... That is if u wanna see what a man is... If u wanna see him come from within jus bcuz he has u in his life... Takin titles like honey baby hubby n wifey...

Its like touchin them with ur eyes bcuz they have that look that drives u nuts but u ain't sayin shit bcuz u dont know if they're lame af or lazy af in bed... N u don't want to think of em like that... Lol... Like u jus wanna break theyre back n remodel some shit... Ijs... We all think it... N we all have a certain type that wed go ham on...

Puff puff... Pa... Azz... Oh shit, no one is here to take the hand off... So to me i pass it back... From the left hand to right fingertips... What a twisted flip..? Tiltin the head back to recreate where ive been in time... Its goin down in my own mind... N im still livin life... Tryin not to choke as i engulf my lungs with a cloud so pure... So thoughts stand alone as the smoke fills the air for sure... Its an easy process that slows me down... Puttin it to the lips as i inhale through my mouth... Thinkin, free me... As i breathe...

Idk... I'm jus going with the flow... U know... Going wherever I go... Laying low... Needing no thrones... As details are shown... Mind full blown... Opened on the go... Feeling the direction of the heart rowed... Slow... On the ease of whoa... Not afraid to say no... Waking daily to the show... Jus a lil mo... On hold... As knees fold... Kicked back n zoned... In juice mode... Grown... Coming from within the dome... In perfect tone... The tongue explodes... On the roam... It's OK to be alone... Looking at it like who's next to text my phone..?

What is it y'all are looking for? Bcuz it looks like y'all like the same ol lame azz dudes... Those kind that'll never give u what ur looking for... So wtf is it? Don't be afraid to say some shit... Bcuz I'm Not too impressed with the confusion of the mind set y'all have... Wtf is it that y'all see in these goofy mo fo's??? We're laughing at ya... Bcuz u look foolish... U say one thing n do another... Like, I wanna real man that luvs me but ya turn around n get with the same type of child like GIMP... Fr y'all... Wtf is with u females... Are y'all more shallow than dudes anymore???

I luv money more than women bcuz it gives me what I want as females ain't about it like they say they are... At least from my personal experience I have a voice to n its not all men that haven't a heart... That pointed finger bs needs a boomerang effect or a mirror to take a better look chicka... But hey I'm Butchie B Butch n it's nice to meet ya..! N we're jus suppose to accept u bcuz u got the cream between ya legs... Nah toots... I'm a lil differently made... See me... Free..!

I held that shit like it was air... That feeling that lingers without a care... Tasted passion explode from my very own lips... Yes, I've been the purpose in a truly deeply madly kiss... I rocked the fuck outta luv like it was who I am... N I don't think u know what to do with this kinda man... So imma jus flow... Comin to life from within a pose... Different n standing on my fuckin own... Alone...

Laying the beast away for a woman is irrelevant... For if she is a real woman, she'll play with ur beast jus to be deliberate... Bcuz she luvs it... With excitement... For princess is all grown up... Taking relations to the next level standing in luv... Closer than flush... Holding on to the beasts softest touch... For its growl is more like a purrrr... As ur manhood is heard... I'm talking of worth... Double clutching birds... Flung back at a world in which it does not approve... As for her, mentality she is awake to how it is the motion moves... In between the two of u living loose... Feeling the vibes that haven't a noose...

If it was written from my hand personally... Bled from the heart to match emotion before ur eyes... Comin in a sideways drift jus to boomerang back... Would u realize what i jus said..?  Huh... Jus bcuz we're good now don't mean I won't fall back... So what is luv..? Speak from ya fuckin mind... Keeping the heart in the background cussing a fuss... Yet hold the lines that lie... I'm telling ya I ain't in it unless it's til life runs out... With dried out mouths... yet, If my tongue tasted ur kiss... As my name drips from ya lips... Can ya see what's being told to the way u live..? Mutuality is a must... To give... Touch... Now it's ur turn... What from u do I need to learn..? Or is it ur here to stay..? Bcuz they say the same ol' thing... Yeah ur not like the rest... Yet in all honesty how many times... Hmmm... Did ya hear that shit yourself..? Darlin, I'm mine..! But we can get along... Jus enjoy what u can see n feel... N we'll never go wrong... Knowin what's real...

Psst... Come here like wow... It's u I want... SSH... Let the moment release the sound... Comin from a lil place chasin luv... Mmm... Imagine if we were together... Doin this thing called life... Hmm... So much more than luv'rs... Yeah, u n I with a presence of mind...

As the tongue needs not to speak... This one's for  self, for me to know... Opened to the leak... Here n now... Full blown...

So u need a day to feel like ur in luv... N to enjoy to be enjoyed by another's touch... That too me is absurd to say the least... Seems ur jus as shallow as ur own release... Comin across jus like everyone else... Jus goin with the flow of things... Not knowing what it means to be self... Emotion doesn't live for jus one day to live it's dream... Ur cheesy n needy n I can't fuck witcha... Following the lead of others that don't even know their way... Tryin an overnight transformation from a him n her situation to Mrs n mista... Which is a mistake pretty much that needs to be left on Valentine's day... There's 365 days to show affection to the truth that'll always remain the same........................... Mental AF...

I truly don't give a fuck what u think of me... U see, I have this lil thing I do called my life n I'm living it as I breathe... I can find two cents damn near anywhere so keep ur riches with ya own... My time can't be bought with words bcuz I don't live like u truth be known... Not a damn one of us have the same routine day in as night claims the skies... Literally witnessing our own version of this place takin up space in our memory banks within the mind... So the words u spit clearly have no effect on my decisions in which only I can make... I'm not the one to go with the code like u n place it fuckin safe... I live to feel n find myself wherever I jus may wind up... N one of the best movements I've been in was right dab smack in the middle of luv... As there's different levels n versions that lingers in the hearts sway drifting to the feel... Jus bcuz u wouldn't do as I do doesn't mean I shouldn't give my worth proof... There's no telling where I might wind up jus getting it in before I'm gone... That isolation from the thrill that temps one to come out n play jus ain't my style for I can never go wrong... Shit is what it is til the bitter end... Yet I see it as the sweetest thing to the fullest as with time I will bend... Half assing jus don't cut it for the way I visualize types restraining so many to their fear... I'm mind fucked bcuz I allow myself to open up as touch what becomes closer than a  mirror... Yeah, luv'n self tends to over play it's meaning as I cast stares on others to full of themselves as arrogant as they can be... Missing it's purpose thinking they're better being free... Yet free is jus being who u are if u break down it's concept to it's raw natural true beauty... As they try to guide me bcuz the train of thought they've acquired seems more reasonable so I won't get hurt... But with the giddiness comes the pain as they both need to run their course so the lesson isn't jus flipping birds... I cannot crawl inward n face myself as my own best friend by shoving others to the side with a stiff arm meant too reject... It's a bit selfish n deliberate when we all have to decide if right or left is a more subtle path than moving forward from where we've been... Then again I'm looked upon as a helpless romantic as I'm jus not understood due to only very few so to think outside of what society shoves in the faces of men n women... Decipher ur own bs that can only make sense to u... N I'll do the same as I live for me another chance to be able to move... Opinions are merely a reflection of who we are n I'm not like anyone I've ever known but one... Within the consideration of my offspring I've molded into fun luv'n, life living individuals who who doesn't give a fuck... They're who they are as well as I standing in my own lil spot getting it in... So whisper if ya must but know the same places we just haven't been... U can do u in ur own reality that walks simultaneously with mine... Yet I gotta do a lil something outside the box bcuz this is my fuckin life...

Total trust n act on commitment... Turning lust into luv that lusts on ur luv with excitement... Truth be told it's the opening in which u come n u go... Enticed by ur very own unique behavior as long as honesty is known... Roll with me bcuz u know ya luv ta be present together getting it the fuck in... Bcuz it's not from where we've been but what it feels like behind our grins...

Two like minds can open each other's hearts in ways time will never be enough to explore life together... The object is to wanna know what luv is, with a maturity that has its own chuckle enjoying a friend up under the covers...

I'm jus that type that lives outside the box throwing rocks in on ya walls so u can see blatant reality through the holes in ya minds daydream...

Let who it is I am pull u closer than air can breathe... I'm jus one man in a constant need of u... Come... For my luv has a use for a more complex state of mind wanting only proof... Daily interaction n jus not goin with the flow... Hold on to me not as if u weren't chilled by the cold hearted but bcuz it's me u jus havta know... I'm a different breed a lil more level minded who enjoys the touch of emotion comin undone... Simply to crave time within moments on the hush...

To me if a male walks around with his chest out thinking he's got something to prove... To me, he is not a man yet... But are any of us??? Have we done everything we can for our luv'd ones??? U see I've went around the center to the weaker side where my penitration found its way in n the stunts jus can't get into my head... I understand a different reality where I am free... To be me!!! As birds fly with smiles that release my passion, pain, pleasure as self is expressed... Fuck off n leave me be if u haven't set into ur own... For there is nothing I can do for u until ur ready to think for yourself in a home way that jus wants to live... Y'all are my people.. my family... We're alive... Here... One in the same with a finger that needs not point... Jus reflections that are happy with what they see... Breathe with me!!! We live at the same time... I won't settle for less... Even when I'd rather not be around certain things my hospitality can relate... Do ur thing in this world n never let go of those u luv... Butchie B Butch...

U see, fuckin ain't money... Ssh, listen lil honey... U can make it appear quick if u willing... Dolla Dolla billing.. N u can get what u want by giving it up... A lil paper spent can let a mo fo crush...  Yet not this way... I've always been in my lane... U can't get to me on that level wanting the thrill... In the depths of my pockets fill... My money n ya drip have no relations... What's free to me is the occasion... If u fuckin u enjoying n u better hope I don't make u pay me... Idgaf about being a gigolo living the dream... Lol... I'm on some other shit... n I won't bite my fuckin lip... But hey, that's all in the past now... N buried between ya legs I will not drown... Pressed I am not... step it out n stop... I finally got what i want brushing of my shoulders... Game over...

When u getting down to the nitty gritty... When bodies are pressed... Comin undone in the presence of touch... Completely undressed... Feel that shit crawl upon the bed... Diggin in to actions tasted on tender lips... Loosenin up... Wrapped up in the moments where boundaries do not exist... Feelin the fun...

Let's do it for the hell of it... For the smell of it... Breakin silence on the feel of it... For the hella it... Pressed to the lips... Bendin to get bent with twisted wrists... Blowin smoke kissin a mind more crisp... Exhalin a unique individuality to who listens... Roll n spit... Feelin the creativity on the tongues tip... Hit hit... Hold that shit... Blowin words like grits... Loosenin up the rib... Needin a doubled layered bib... Never releasin the moment of speakin fibs...

I'm not the only one comin from within a common mind... Knowin legal is a figment of the imagination that's come to life... Not a once standing on the side with the law... Keeping reality on the verge of a truth that's always been to raw... Looking like I'm mentally gone... N I've been this way for to long to switch up n fall from in which I've climbed my walls... Diggin in to the basics of Rights violated on the highest level... N those around me beef like we're the enemy carrying shovels... Peeping in n brushing my words off... This fuckin world is lost... Yet I haven't a chorus or a hook to get through... As I flow as I exist to come from within what's been finely tuned... On the loose n getting at ears that catch a phrase... As they're been confused n dazed... Taught monopoly as commerce runs everything around them... Even Wu-Tang said that shit with money that ruins men... I've just been comin out to pluck at ya fuckin head... With a lil insight of what's really going on like an annoying insect... One that refuses to leave u alone... Jus bcuz I know my mind is the only place I'll ever call home...

Comin away from the struggle is hard to do... Jus bcuz that's where u find yourself truth be known... It's a place where friends fade into the shadows of the darkness that's infiltrated ya mind... N the slowest thing around is the click of time... At the bottom of thoughts feeling what the heart truly wants... Tryin to convince it of a reality where self is a must... Ashes to ashes the transformation grabs control... Hoping life rearranges to something u can hold...

Judge not for u do not know what unravels in time... There are good people in this world fightin for their own ownership of their lost mind... Alone hatin the path taken that controls their very own will... Ease up bcuz words can kill...

Ur only as damaged as a choice u havta decide to make... Life is a funny thing as we're all subject to change... It's a mindset that's mental as fuck... As emotion dabbles in luv... Having complete control the bs can Neva get into ya head... Forever lasts as long as a lifetime as to what comes next... N it is self to choose how time is spent... What we allow will be in the end...

Solo dippin with the way I am drivin me away with crazy.
Bobbin n weavin rollin in between n around the obsticles dreams.
Huggin lines n the curves bend in a drift kickin gravel into the past.
Without a seat belt strapped n snapped out goin outta my minds laugh.
Careless n speedin off gigglin to my own hearts beat pushin the limits.
Gettin to nowhere quick jus out for the ride of a lifetime as i jus don't give a shit.

Lay it down n let it loose... It's the only way to see what they're gonna do... Face to face with one thing in mind... It's either now or never in its own waste of time...

U know that's the type of shit that'll make a man stop fuckin with u... Tryin to see what he's gonna do... That lil game u call seein what it really is as the truth... Tryin to hand his azz a mutha fuckin noose... Betta not play or u won't like the way ur name is released from his lips... That's some risky shit... n I havta admit... u on some bs.. I'm jus sayin... Time don't roll into the past while u playin... You'll find his azz escapin... while a woman ur imitatin... Step on up n do a lil somethin he ain't neva seen before... When he's standin eye to eye witcha reachin for a lil more... Bcuz that bs u be fuckin around with in ya head ain't cool... Not every man needs a test as he'll neva be ya fool...

zip it up n carry it away. luv has finally died here today. theres a free man walkin with his head up tonight. knowin he carried it without beggin for time. trippin n windin up back beneath the bottom of the heart. nah, he woke the fuck n burried the cards. no more games of wonder in the eyes that blinded his sight. not into another moment of doin time. on the run went that trust when he needed it the most. jus got sick of the same ol shit n wound up ghost. the zippers on the move. bagged as the toe tag is cut loose. no memory is best callin for a truce. seems a friend jus couldnt show up to prove truths.

Justifiable words without supervision... Awe shit, no limits by definition... Crawling from beneath the skins texture... How far will u venture with no need to retract... Comin from within what's under the hat... Level one complete... Magically walkin through walls n over buriers... Unbound by restraints... On the loose as freedom aligns with wisdoms worth that flirts with failures... As one in the same is as open as air felt... Noddin away with the rhythm in which lived... A drifter lingerin to the moves groove... As words never spill yet leap from sensitive lips...

We can luv to hate one another or hate to luv... Luv or jus hate having birds either way flying... Fuck what ya heard... Come outta hiding... N I'd rather have u in my life... Comin up from ur blind side when ya head turns as an extra Sri of eyes... I got ya covered, jus stand still in a figuratively speaking kinda way. Say my name... Taste the fame above the games where the flame if u n I writing the same story in our own way... Down to get it the fuck in... For as long as I'm alive, u have a friend... I see u... Trust the truth... Luv lives mental AF with a touch of emotion that lives in the rib... He he, n u stepped to me with luv to give... Feel what it is u do that will neva give up on u... Knowing who's who?

Flung back in the return sense without the ups n downs... Livin up to expectations makin more than butt naked sound... Neva half stepped as bare minimum has neva attached as a cling... Not once runnin across the mind as jus another fling... Either birds or mean words as a weirdo for no one's ever normal... Openin up n showin self not givin a fuck about bein formal... Aimed n directed at the knowin of who's who n why one cannot n does not wanna go without... With the connectivity of purpose allowin self to explore even the finest moans set free from the mouth... Tempted to show what one has to give within a willin gesture... From a chattin Convo to the caress applied to the texture... Pure passion speakin through touch comin undone... Rubbed n felt as the mind makes luv to the way the heart has won... Simply driven by truths of the company enjoyed n wantin to stay... Hands down the best intent boomeranged that makes one's comfort unafraid... Clickin on levels as friends before luv'rs that dance to the flickerin flame... As silhouettes take one shape after a long day held beneath bodies so close whisperin names... Looked after in the same thrill feelings flow with the thoughts... With flaws of difference that mean no harm wrapped up in a pause... It's a completion after the wait driftin along that settles the nerve... Findin self would be lost to lose the depths of an other heard... Jus wantin someone to listen as they hear that one person that jus fulfills their time... Realizin there are things about self with em one cannot hide... Free... Jus to be alive livin the dream... Where wants turn into needs... Claimin the lean... Restin easy in the nights call to lay next to the irreplaceable feel... From head to toe in luv with more than selfish praise is the real deal... Side by side as one bein together is the answer asked... Jus havin a blast bein intact... Mentally rounded as emotions are allowed to live as they want... Content n in tune with the rhythm of fallin madly in luv...

For the entertainment of the bow... With the after effects that affect shook grounds... Center stage under the lights for the world to see... Standing in the moment of the collapse before eyes that roll to the bleed... Jus tryin to live through the rounds within rings that battle back... Self assured that time hasta must last... As the enjoyment fails to respond to the waste goin on beneath the spot light... Opened for the kill shot to bang it's embedded thought of this is life... What comes must go with the hope of its return to prove a lil sum sum... Before it's too late to save a lil ol' thing called luv... As this world watches the highs of relations... N the grit of the bare that rearranges mindsets of lows so impatient... With an imprint seen from far n wide comin to catch the attractions fame... Playin the role within the game... Placed upon the mainstage to be judged n ridiculed by passerbys that point knowin they'll have their turn... As no one cares to hear what they think frustrated with worth... As the show must go on as a sight diggin in... Comin from within...

scared of luv. lost without it. wantin the touch. afraid of bein missed. wrapped up in emotions. leery of the feel. needin the devotion. hopeless to whats real. petrified of bein hurt. wantin to be held. holdin on to worth. to the meanin of bein felt. frightened of the past. comin back around. will life last? with names spoken as sound..........

its not always what u think it is... trust is a valuable thing... gettin lost in ur thoughts can complicate the mind... u gotta allow ur heart to sing... the pain of conclusions never have facts... danglin from a stretched rope... u can act irrationally to fast... as another in u loses hope...

knowin what it can do to u can build a wall... n when the two of u are scared of each other, out comes the flowin of flaws... be careful not to mistreat a luv always on the defense... it jus might be tryin to show u an alliance... even though u might not be able to see it through the bs in ur own mind... bein afraid jus might make luv real... slow the fuck down n take ur time... dont fuck up a good thing jus bcuz ur emotions overflow with a frightened feel...

fucked up like a screw up that jus did the playin of the jumpin of conclusions rushin touch that went to far standin in the middle of luv tryin for once to show what could never go numb...hmm... jus wantin to be number one...

its in the way u see it... how u witness it before u...  the way it lingers in ur mind...how thoughts puts it to use... what u think it is, is the way it will come from within... exactly the way it makes u feel... on point on ya own recollections... makin u out to be on either side of the real deal... if u go pure mental ur mind will play tricks on u... unable too see intentions before eyes that sigh... findin self in the mirror stuck like wtf... jus wantin one more crack at it in another time... if u cannot accept them as they come outside ya own crazy twist... theyll never be able to show u shit... locked within ya own dome n a false vision... let em be who they come to be standin in the reality of that tickle in ya rib... some of us dig too deep n that is the issue... sayin to much n not goin with the flow will run them off... always tryin to get em to give what u give in return... this i know for even ive forgotten how to open up n jus be raw... uncut n patient to the sway in which luv lives... u gotta jus trust someone at some point if ur on that level... if ya want em to truly luv u like no fuckin other... bcuz the stupid shit over thunk grips the dead feel of a shovel...

This was something I had sent... when? It doesn't matter... Once you've reached that level u have found it... Jus fuckin enjoy it...

It's like I'll wait... I'll be ur friend...
Maturity at its best...

The way u go about things is the way someone who's only worried about themself like they only look after themselves... I'm sorry everyone else had disappointed u... But I always have tired to give u something real... N I don't see it comin back at me n it's OK... I like earning what I get...

Happy with self for I left no one behind... I pulled more than my weight jus gettin at life... Roll with me or breeze like the blow of wind... Win win... I've tasted lips that felt where I've been... Kiss kiss... Luv came to life... Hand in hand as husband n wife... Best friend for life... Cut by the knife... Mine!!! Lost a step in the wrong direction drifting alone... Jus wantin to go home... Givin reason jus to help... The seed jus may bloom when the water is felt... Do ur thing... MJM... Time is still ticking...

Walking through the smoke blazed I'm goin somewhere mentally I don't fit in... With the basics raised above thoughts that has infected my friend... Trippin within the cloud as the tone of my own voice breaks the silence... Damn I feel like I'm the only one with it here in reality residin... Tokin up the fog that makes it harder to see as I puff standin still... Wrapped up in the ability to focus on other senses hopin to understand the thrills... Played out like the last thing that found its way past morality... It's kinda fucked up the twist releases the truth that lingers in the air of individuality... Ripped like a stoner spittin words no one can hear... Listenin ears don't register the effect of surroundin peers... Goin with the flow chained to a life of selfish imprisonment... So I take another hit as my lips kisses the tip of the ickys relevance... Blown away from the effect of curiosity that's corrupted a train of thought... Lost n getting right in a moment to pause... High as fuck jus droppin jibberish flung jus to hear myself out loud... For no one makes sense here in this crazy unstable place walkin so proud... The only way to cope is the flame that sparks the intentions to free the game... Displayed on pages written for the read of being untamed... Loose n spread like the weed jus before the roll... I inhale to gain a lil bit of some fuckin self control... Floatin through time back n forth smellin the grind... Imma spit what I know drawn up in green ink bcuz this is my life... Deep inside the correction of me I force myself to commit... No limits n no filter as my passion leaps like a ribbit...

I have things I do...

I can't fuck with u if u cannot communicate... Fuck that luv'rs rage bs... Relate... Talk to me like I exist... Friends first before I taste my name flowin with passion in a whisperin moan upon ur lips... I'm the real deal... Unfadaible n undeniably on point, jus remember, I am not the man of steel... Connect n u will find the intelligence of maturity wrappin itself around u in full affect... But u nor I ain't gonna havta take no tests... I'm that type u wonder about.. yeah, I'll turn u the fuck out... Come on out n play with me without the games of hide n seek... With one dirty knee... Rings! If that's what suites u... I'm more into the purpose shown that keeps comin into view... Dig in to me as I dig in to u to find what we are... In the middle of mutha fuckin life willin with an open mutha fuckin heart!!! Mutha fucka... If u wanna own my my worth, step the fuck up... Bcuz I only feel one type of luv... Never-endin... With memories that remember to tell a story of u n I together bendin... Yet will neva break under any conditions... i like fairytales to so is u fuckin with me or playin around..? I wanna hear it come outta yo mutha fuckin mouth...

Parental discretion advised... the dirty mind is at play tonight... n oh the things that caresses the hype... goes a lil something like... Put it this way... I wanna lick n kiss on u to see how many times I can get u to come undone... I wanna hear u moan... I wanna feel u come to life playin with my tongue... Mmm. Get it girl... U like the circles or the up n down sway kinda way..?

Fuck y'all... Lol...

Fittin in...

Out there where u refuse to go... What's the matter??? U jus wanna fit in? Don't make me die of laughter... no, no, no... I like being the misfit that knows how to live... How to be me... I can't hear that secluded bs in my rib... Imma stay this way bcuz I've always been doin shit bcuz it's fun... N I'm to far gone as I simply do not fit in... U ain't fuckin with me so what's it matter to u..? I'm jus the missin link...

Fittin in...

Out there where u refuse to go... What's the matter??? U jus wanna fit in? Don't make me die of laughter... no, no, no... I like being the misfit that knows how to live... How to be me... I can't hear that secluded bs in my rib... Imma stay this way bcuz I've always been doin shit bcuz it's fun... N I'm to far gone as I simply do not fit in... U ain't fuckin with me so what's it matter to u..? I'm jus the missin link...

Healed...

Raw n in rare form... trustin my twisted tongue to come out n have a lil fun... Fuck ur norm... This is mine... This is me... This is who I am... Free... Birds ain't shit to toss into a memory past its worth... Dueces fly to quick on some dumb shit... Lookin right past u in a world of hurt... I feel shit most fear behind closed doors without the lights on lit... Acceptin life comin by to blow up in my lonely eyes... I'm different bcuz i wanna relate n don't fuckin care why... I'm livin this shit on a daily basis... N I won't cry... U cannot luv me... U do not understand me... Therefore​ don't ever step into my dreams... Jus ignore my dingaling... My thingy thing... Uncut I am with scars if u can figure that shit out... Damn it feels good to be alive... The lost has been found...

She said ilu... As I slowly replied, I wish u did... I wouldn't be walkin away... That's when the beat of my heart dropped as I sucked it up... It was silent as she let me go... Jus watched me turn n leave without a word... That's when I knew... I'm on my own... Solo... Tryin to find my way... Losing another best friend... What is luv???

Bad enough to be good at what I do... Focused... Me within words upon paper I drew... I'm motion... Moving with the correction of the wall comin to life... Felt... Pulsin as the screen reaches to relate with the vibe... With scar whelps... Good at it jus bcuz that bad comes out to play... In check... On that life shit givin a touch of self back... Gaining respect... Roll of my tongue wit me n jus be yaself... Fr... Fuckin with the time served in relations... Friends care...  In da mix of a lifetime to grind... Hella hi... Imma silck fowl mouthed heathen willin to jus be... High... Livin in ur world bcuz I don't claim this shit... Above it... Ramblin from the more tender side n loose... I luv it...

It's jus a lil time... Not every second of the day... At some point ur heads gonna wanna lay still... After livin a lifes worth of luv n chills... No turning back... Attracted In ways eyes close to the beat of thumpidy thump thump... Jus getting it when it comes to touch... Roll... Play... It's jus a lil time... With every moment to free self through another's mindset set in eyes... Yay... Home is where blood rests... Passions passin own selfs tests... Neva to deep to go under the feel of mental paralization... Recovering luvoholic here jus in between the steel n the sweet spot using imagination... Alive... Right here in life... Awake n doin find... N it's jus a lil time... Spent through the day jus in aw... It's either claws or flaws...  The comin of goin switch that flips a click flickin the lift of lights up from a dim... After the bang thrusting with thirst for a lil trim... Sexual AF on another level of come play with me... I'll be ur freak...

Welcome to life n the offerings it has to use... Don't shy away from what it is u like n luv the most... The luv n dislikes are here n at ur fingertips to put to use... Jus be u... That's what the rest of us are tryin to do tell the truth... Be real, fr... Accept everything u can touch n make it happen for u... U get one shot at this paradise n then it's dueces... Live!!! N give a lil back as smiles reach from the rib... Loose...

U ever jus peeped at someone... I mean jus looked at someone n quietly said to yourself.... Mmm hmm... Bcuz u know if u had jus a moment of their time behind closed doors, the things you'd do for them n to them would be for the record books... Straight broke the fuck off... Jus bcuz u can... Bcuz you'd actually enjoy yourself doin so... Lol... It's a physical thing... A visual seduction jus wanting to play... Damn... Yeah... Lemme quit... Gonna go n get myself in trouble again... Be good Butchie B Butch be good...

When that feel comes across the mindset in a state of confusion... All it needs is to be and to depend on at least on person in this world as the resolution... The fade in how others drift is cold enough to chill the spine standing alone n waiting on the needy never givin a mutha fuckin thing... As the chuckle laughs at the deception when a friend is needed the most n they're retreatin back far enough to be able to think... It's that feel of totally solo as the wait has found self relyin on self to come through once again... It's when no body can cover ur 6 like the swivel that's loosened the neck for self to pay the fuck attention to life dreamin... Where are all the real individuals that ain't on this bs..? I here mumbles tryin not to sound like the next mo fo spittin the same ol' shit... Jus know what a friend is before my name flings from ya lips... Bcuz it needs not ur unreliable version of its twist...

Piece it together with me... A lil piece of mind... A friendship at peace...  In relations as friends relate til the end of time... Puttin in on the dig... Goin within so we know what we are to give... Gaining that tickle in ya rib... I jus wanna live...

The choice...

It's jus a lil tlc.... With a touch that'll blow ur mind... Why don't u try n blow mine n I'll stay in ya sights... As the imagination comes to life like we've been smokin a lil thc... Connectin on levels that seemed to far fetched til we landed in front of one another... Play fightin as luv'rs do gettin it in as there is no other... Grateful jus to say a lil somethin like thnx... Jus bcuz we've found a bond that hasn't a limit to answer to... Down n ready for whateva may be, speakin the truth... Tic tic... Like bein face to face as best friends that can play any game that fits the mood... Who's choosin u???

Open to honesty n ain't afraid to relate...

Opening eyes gone shut is only the beginning of knowin they don't need to be open to be able to see the truth... Yappin lips only tell ya what u need to know when words slip in to confuse actions seen by the movement put to use... No aggression needed in the reality leaning back to enjoy what'll never leave... So if u ain't comin correct, please... Psst... It ain't wrong for feelin in a way jus bcuz u cannot open the fuck up on the release of me standing willin n ready... Hearing anything less is jus a playdate n I'm cool with it for we all need someone to count on in different ways so jus keep it steady... Ears jus won't listen to what something is pretending to be on some gimme gimme bs feenin for something else... Fr... There is no help once I loosen up the belt to tame me with the gloves off jus wantin to be felt... Now smile for me...  N let's be...

So u think ur a man... hmmm... Have u ever gave to a woman unconditionally... Lemme pull back, that might be too deep for u... Have u connected with her mentally... Not physically or emotionally, but on that other level finding her to be ur best friend... Is that too much for u... Let's take another route... Have u ever lost everything tryin to show someone what luv is capable of... Or is this jus noise comin from my mouth... But u believe to be a man right... N what is that in ur mind... Bcuz u provide.... Lol, a real woman doesn't need that aspect over her head... Let's try somethin a lil more simple... Imma guess that it's how u feel for her is jus enough right... Maybe ur sex is good... Well my friend u ain't fixin a woman by puttin to much of ur overused thought process on the table... So what is a man... Would u go through any lengths to show her she means more to u than any other... Jus by the way u are with her... Not afraid to help her correct herself outside of bein luv'rs... Have u dug in to who she is... Flat out didn't care what anyone thinks or had thought... As her feelings will get hurt if it's too help her as an individual becomin free... Tell me what u think a man is in ur head... Bcuz real men don't shy away from a lil bs n that's what she needs...

Veering...

I need a change... At least that's what those closest to me say... As their syllables speak of me needin to break away from the same ol shit... N these are the words that escape from their very own lips... So there's no flippin a coin on this run I'm about to flex on... For my past has gotten me nowhere listening to friendly foes as an unwanted norm... If it ain't the fake azz females that never deliver it's been jus another ho... n that's fo sho... N with the numbers under my belt I cannot count... All those smiles ain't shit once they've turned upside down... Yeah y'all, u got through so this one's for u... Veering on a drift from what it was as how I know to now I know how to do what it is that has found a fresh way for how can now live loose... I caught a tug into a new direction n imma see what's the dilly yo. Jus bcuz imma listen for once n expect a lil mo... ... ... ... ... ...

Imagine if u will... Jus a consideration... Men fear the trippin n flippin woman throw in the mix... Deliberation... N females jus don't want be hurt by another male... Makin relations cling to being luv'rs... So they come n go... N it's truly irrelevant, the evil game we play on the topside of the covers...

Trippin... Stumbling when shit gets goin...
Flippin... Turning away from luv...

In a clarification... It's like I'll luv u til the day I die... The end... Who has time for that type of shit... Why is it u wanna live a lie...

I'm at the edge but I ain't leapin... I'm jus stationary looking for a good time... As if the message is like Crystals comin down like rain... N I've went the circled loop as I'm currently runnin outta lines...

Written on blank spaces in my minds run... Out to see where life will wind up... Times up, there goes the norm... Fuck...

Yet, Internally releasing lessons I can live with myself... Who knew the end wasn't till the death after all... Fr Run as if the wind blew u away... Who'll use ur emotions when u fall..?

I've been through a lot of shit... Excuse me if I've overstepped my boundaries... Ain't like u came back from the coocoo's nest ready to dig into life's chest... So scribblin I drift with the vocab as if a fuckin diary...

Moral of the story leaks within my minds confusion.... I thought luv resided to last till the end of a life... Yet mirrors don't speak in tongues that dribble false statements do they... I'm here standin on my own n I gotta say, I tried..!

.......... If y'all never felt it u don't know what ur looking for.........

Save the smoochies...

Don't speak unless I can believe the flip of ya tongues flick... Badoing goes the flava exposed callin out to a tender rib... Oh shit, I jus told u to shut the fuck up... That is if u can't deliver on ya own terms with good intensions that's to good to hush... Ssh... I can't hear the mumbo jumbo if u cannot listen off rip... Emotion is on lock til the unravel doesn't mean comin undone jus from the lips... So save the smoochies as friends need to be established openin up... There is no diggin in beneath the surface wantin passions attempt to fall in luv... I'm to rounded out to slip in the come up jus for the rush of me... Time tics no matter how drawn out the wait may be... N alters have no purpose for paper only expresses echos yet to come... Erasin memories ain't kickin it behind eyes that wanna see what's to be remembered as fun... Step outside yourself n take a long look at what it is u think is gonna stand still n quick enough to put in some work... Bcuz personally I don't feel anything until I'm certain it's more than a flirt... A fling wrappin legs even though I like to get down... N yeah u heard it right n it's comin outta my mouth... Playin with flaws in a tweak to rid the glitches that's haunted my mind... I'm to advanced to call shotgun on a dead end dream wonderin why u call me mine... Jus hold ya tongue fluent in the lingo of bs thrown when alls said n done... Let's jus be n find a moment to specify the definition of one... Words do have depths if u can read motion flowin like a turn on... Mature n in tune as I'm to far gone to be considered ur type of norm...

Dropping bombs straight from the bottom of the heart... Fuckin thing fell through tryin to do its part... Ol unreliable failed again bcuz it ran off before the head could think... Another one gone as if I blinked... N I'm jus sittin around sowin up the emotional tare...  Down goes the wall so truths taste the air... Damn fuckin straight it's relatable bcuz it's some real shit... N in luv, I believe it jus doesn't fit... Guess I hold my ground to close to the bottom of me feet... As spinnin legs can't catch up for a meet n greet... Comparin thoughts unfiltered before the ring of fire... Weights are dropped for the resistance is tired... Played out by hands that tend to forget the feel... As for some reason in a time prior to me they forgot to heal... Unknowingly of selfs capabilities collidin with intent... Honesty will reveal a moment spent... Back for the recollection to do its thing... Yup, it goes with the tide that pulls out as the weakest link... Strapped​ with stories that'll blow ya mind... I've been there n done it wastin time... I know the passage that can take me home... But I ain't never seen anything at the end of the tunnel that resembled a throne... Fallin back is that step jus seconds to short of believin in the stay... Where luv turns to hate... But imma lil different for I understand we all have a life... N there will never be another I call my wife... Jus bcuz I don't catch the concept of payin in to lose out on time periods of my own existence... So here's an f bomb foreshadowin what's​ to come with the empty deliverance... Fuck fuckin fucker fucked fuck it... As I'm laughin at the replay reel looking like the last promise that turned out to be bs... Tappin out for the keepin up jus couldn't be hacked... Hear how we all pour out again n again as if a grip was jacked... Tales from the darker side are as real as happy places that's ok to speak... So imma yap bcuz lusts n luv go hand in hand in between dreams n reality...

All outta ways to say it... I stand motionless without the words to spit... I gone n done drained my thoughts... The expression of luv has been lost... Heart got confused on the minds lingo pieceing together a way to understand... In the mix of tryin to be a man... All there is is jus rambles of different angles to relate that we're all the same pointing fingers... So away with the mental aspect read as overlooked bs that lingers...

I'm done... No more writing...

It's funny how we can fall into a funk n live in that mindset... Gettin trapped n fading away from who we were before all the goofiness... Knowing we're better than what we allow to pull us under... Jus gotta remember shit happens n we jus gotta be willing to live without the dragging of others that confuse or well being... We've only got one shot at this to find ourselves... Not in others but who we are so we can feel that tingle... Even though we need that heart ache at least once to clarify the do's n don'ts... It helps us define who it is that lingers to wanna come out n play... I personally pushed the limits so when I came back from that deep distance where we don't understand ourselves, to actually enjoy my time... It took longer than expected waiting for something to come about to find myself standing in true form saying i got this... U gotta want it... That happiness with self so other aspects can be put into place... U jus can't give up... We owe it to ourselves to find that tickle in our rib... That clarification of knowing every moment does matter... N yeah, we've all died inside n had to search for that person within we lost from a time before as we accepted how things twist... It will change u... But only if u let it... Life is what u make of it... No matter who comes n goes... Let no one dim ur shine bcuz if they do they ain't for who u are... Don't subject yourself to their silliness... Live n let live... U never know what's next... Jus enjoy it while it lasts n free yourself when the time comes... Everything is subject to change n as long as ur ready for it mentally, the emotion will understand that better times are around the corner... U can't get time back... Don't get sucked in to ur own spiral... Unwind that shit n get it... To the fullest... Jus smile... Life will correct itself trust me... Mine did n I'm happy without the weights we carry... N I'm ready to have some mutha fuckin fun again... N it's about fuckin time.. lmao... Weeee...

imma be that thought in ya mind u fall completely into... imma give u the goods... blood sweat n tears comin to life... hi... im the last thing youd ever expect to reach in for ur luv... bcuz i cant do without the rush... imma be the touch that creates ur soothe... im comin for u... if its the last thing i ever do... imma make u want me through n through... ur gonna see me for who i am... for what im willin to do bcuz i can... jus get ready to dance. imma be the only one that gets a chance... to save ur hearts callin... deeply fallin.. imma make u feel me comin to life... bringin u along for one hell of a ride... fell my sweet spot with ur name all over it... its gonna make u believe in the way i kiss... in the way i say ur fuckin name... n ur the one to blame... the way u drive me outtta my fuckin mind... into ur hands that awaits priceless time... showin u imma stay til this life runs its coarse... everyday needin u jus a lil bit more... feel me for im the one ur silhouettes wrestles with... imma take shape n come into focus as u taste my lips... stirin emotions u never thought were ever real.. imma be that comfort walkin with u that u can feel... no matter what imma walk straight into u open n ready for ur luv... feelin pulses jump with the connection of the way we touch... lost in ya eyes so u know im never goin anywhere without u by my side... imma stand in ya way so i know u see me diggin in to ur sighs... fallin harder than times that fell from beneath ur very own feet... deep into the emotional maturity u seek... goin hard jus to hold ur lil hand... standin in true form as a man... lookin further than the design of ur eyes can hide. right dead center in the middle of life... appreciative of the earning of ya smile.. imma make me worth ur while...havin more meanin than whats been felt... feel me melt.. like butter in ya heated hands tryin to be in ya life... til then, nighty night...