When the rain comes to flow.
Taking ova the fade eva so slow.
Walk with it n learn a lil sum sum.
Ya jus might feel a touch of self luv.
In the drizzle that eases the pain.
Stand subtle beneath the rain.
It's in the moment to be delivered.
Long enough to endure the shiver.
Every step catching drips falling down.
Washing away the war paint of a clown.
Time within the storm redirects the heart.
U jus gotta accept it to manage its part.
Coming out the other end of sanity.
Back from a distant relativity.
Free for once knowing a more mature state of mind.
It's a must to allow this thing called life.
To live from within n neva break stride.
No matter the depth of the so called hype...

It's raining wonders in my mind.
Pouring emotion is the endless slide.
Racing with gratitude of gravity pull puddle.
Filling holes leveling out where teardrops huddle.
As I whistle at the thought of one.
At one with the visual left here goin numb.
The downfall hides the leak on unsettled nerves.
Unjustified by any of the muted words.
Tasting pieces of my luv goin unused.
Madly losing touch with reality calling truce.
Falling in thought the drizzle leaks.
Here upon pages where words somehow breathe.
Listen to my truths invade ur sight as sound connects to syllables.
As this thing within is utterly unmanageable.
Getting lost with the memory spread out across thy's time.
Catching up to the now is a past life.
Rounding back around through the smoke taking me away.
Damn u, I don't think I'll ever be the same.

gotta go home

i'll take relations without the luv.
but i gotta do what i must.
im goin home n u can not follow.
visitations only til the heart doesnt like the hollow.
we can do what single grown ups do.
on a level of u n i without showin proofs.
ill take care of u, if u take care of me.
even i wanna feel someone closer than dreams.
but u gotta go home do what u do.
be u n live n my word is my truths.
yet anything further than the limits imma havta ease up.
bcuz theres one thing i dont trust n that is luv.
ur free to witness me as frequenty as possible.
jus remember i have a life im in thats acceptional.
to u, bein the one i can count of for comfort.
takin care of me is what ill be doin.
make sure ur good n come to the line til the early morn.
no jokes, no gimmicks, to confuse the motion.
two adults not havin to go without a lil commotion.
hold a cuddle n know u aint gotta play games.
either way for the sake of the fame.
try me.
i jus wanna breathe.

queen b

since all men are dogs, lets speak on ur bs for a minute.
take it back to when old wasnt considered vintage.
allow me to begin on ur inability to be yourself.
manipulative af from where ive been sittin n for what ive been dealt.
lets do this n call it what it is n not what it seems to be.
to the point of i am finally fuckin free.
u do not realize we are human too.
so into gettin what makes u tick to even acknowledge use.
n ya want us to open up to be rearranged?
honey luv butter cut, its to easy to return n exchange.
thats ur outlook tellin the world we aint shit.
tides have turned, but only for those that seal their lips.
as memory lane is a reality on a daily basis.
thrown into the wind soundin to tastless.
the QUEEN B..., faker than the face u apply.
so let a real man tell u, this is our reply.
go grow up n find ya minds click before u step up.
a slow hand has a steady touch.
n ur as shakey as the fallin of leaves on a breezeless day.
spoken is words with nothin left to say.

so u wanna what

peripheral witness to the explosion in ya eyes.
candy coated intentions locked within ur lovely sights.
flattered is the man within me affraid of luv.
unable to make contact with whats on hush.
peekin a gander i can not be seen from the outside lookin in.
touch is more than landin upon the skin.
sacred depths reserved is immune to flutters.
noticed at a far u are, yet i know emotion smothers.
walk in which stroll u move to n a glimpse i jus may see.
of wakin to u bringin reallity to dreams.
easy is a bit more complex to enter thy hearts patience.
saloon doors dont swing on hinges of timeless.
endless is a matter of opinions over thunk.
who am i to be who u want?
in the presence of figurin out lifestyles that may collide.
yes, it would be nice to have someone like u by my side.
its the fear of watchin my own tears of a friend long gone.
surrounded by new walls that claim to be a home.
different in ways u jus may realize im no fool.
luv i can do but luv has never given proof.
take that visual in ya mind n bury it with that silhouette u hold.
i am not what u envisioned settlin on nerves sold.
understand the intellect pieced together with precision.
to resurrect the passion is a moment of truths sensation.
level up without the games to move onward with the vibe.
feedin in to the reflection of us driftin with the hype.
reason is times shutters givin shade to the singe.
free thinkin individuals mimic what went dim.
flow in between the lines spoken to be heard.
live a lil beneath findin whom resides without words.
linin up retnas designs to be read close enough to know the pattern.
in a way what u seek is in me for i matter.
nothin given is somethin ridden from palms lettin go.
scared indeed is devotion on the rim of no.
stand as u were jus before i took space up in ya mind.
remember who u are then attempt to connect with me in the middle of life.
i dont fall to hands that cant apply the necessities for my cause.
tombstones erect to often to put me on pause.
as motions are followed right back atcha.
sittin back i silence the sound muttered as i watcha.
gettin in is the hardest thing to do while u enjoy daydreams.
losin yourself the way i must open to bein free.
proposals are a fine print in the past left on paper.
face to face comin in to focus is better now than later.
bare ya secret with no mask worn to manipulate my style.
dont make the dog fill a void bypassed due to ur silly denial.
details collect the spin of worlds sharin demensions.
its all in the way u consume what u seek n take in ya own definition.
who are u to slip to the stance of this man?
walk with me n tap in to the rollin of the thunder on the horizon again.
approachin wild game directed in an angle taken to live.
feel the twist cuddlin that comfort of what u intend to give.
worth is none the less more than expressin ya untolds.
peep the linings of stitches holdin together what unfolds.
roots run deep up n under what a glimpse may neva see.
n into me u wanna lean.
ready or not askin self is a must to question the proper answer.
tongues cannot taste a kiss that wasnt meant to be an enhancer.
kick it with the mental capabilities released on an others platform.
enter me stage left to play the part in character worn.
as stares zoom in on actions takin out the front lines.
movin aside the bs to stand before what thinks it can hide.
average is not what ur steppin to the plate of.
on a regular one shouldnt havta crave the luv.
i aint feelin that same ol type of here today goodbye tomorrow.
i insist u look me over to ensure there will be no sorrow.
no doubts of livin without me could end the way u are.
i have enough of those undeserved scars.
jus dont approach what ur not down to keep til air escapes.
not jus in between bodies flush touchin an everyday kinda fame.
flames sizzle at the end of wicks givin into the nights.
i dont need another so called meaningless flight.
tender as missin what u said u were.
puttin in the time to clear whats been blured.
whats time without me?
can u breathe?
sweet spots claim the honesty that doesnt reach the lips.
lines cant be stretched as far as to exist.
im not what u see in an everyday situation.
if it were u to hold a lifetime id have no other temptations.
wrap ya mind around a man playin with that twinklin stardust in ya eye.
so u can wipe away those fairytales n get at life.
makin fantasies envy the texture of this apparent crush.
yeah, i see ya but that doesnt say to much.
dirty glass only blocks what suppose to be seen through.
lenses cleaned in the way tryin to be seen so use can loosen the noose.
ive returned from the very place ur willin to go.
opened up jus to slow my role.
so what is it embedded in the pattern of thoughts comin out?
ill listen long enough to make that decision to believe ur mouth.
thread the way youd walts from sun up to sun down.
fake no attention seekin the feel by false thumpin pounds.
relations rely on the other half in stride.
that sensitivity isnt an illusion that jus may wanna cry.
fuck my mind up in a way i jus cant let u go.
without the pain, put on me in the main show.
do what it is u do.
dont insult me with immaturities clues.
my name isnt blue unable to speak.
i wanna know if im the missin link.
make that mirage of a single filed line mean nothin beyond ur ways.
bcuz its behind u sayin the same ol shit attached to my name...

mrs. b, the real queen

Stripping it down to the bare necessities.
Unique with fine details etched into reality.
Ur as rare as joy lingering on by that refuses to stop.
An individual sawt out to deliver common worth hitting the spot.
As precious as emotion could touch a man.
What ur willing to do has this one opened up to tender hands.
A woman who isn't into the spoiled faze in life.
Showing the human within wantin to share more than nights.
Few amongst u relate in a way where luv is mental.
Not afraid to feel for passion is no rental.
Typical is so far behind the way u think.
N the severity of it has me dripping a mature leak.
No tude of rude selfishness comes front n center.
Jus pure intentions of relations knowing spines don't splinter.
On top of ur game isn't playing but the business handled.
Finding time to spend a Lil tlc beneath the candles.
With pleasure u know how to maintain within the mood.
The Real Queen B, making everyday feel new.
Never skipping a beat so the heart won't flutter away.
N u get me everytime u say my name.
The correctness in ur voice is the proof softly spoken.
As I listen to ur movements slowly unfolding.
For the sex is on point n giving in a personal enjoyment.
There isn't a void behind closed doors as pores vent.
U got ur mind levelled as feet stand in ur word.
Spitting every ounce of worth as seconds r heard.
Clicking like a clocks spin giving life to an interested chuckle.
More than acceptional u dig in without a shovel to hover.
In daydreams drifting on the thoughts clinging to grown shit.
In the way u come across able to sustain a playful twist.
Ur ideal n difficult to find in thus day n age.
Mrs. B, the true Queen eased back letting it be what it is callin my name.
Whisper me a Lil sum sum so I can see ur lips move.
Bcuz the driving of crazy is rounding out my sanity due to u.
Damn, it doesn't seem words can express the depths in which u live.
So imma jus step n allow u to see the man in me blow back ur wig.
As characters flow upon the stage under the spotlights reversal done.
I could use someone like u to jus be n capture me as I roam.
Being so sophisticated yet down to earth with respect for self.
We'll rounded as a lady grinding with ur groove cutting loose what's felt.
I see u Queen B.
Can u feel me lean?
U see, I like watching u do what u do.
In a way as u do for self, for u I have a use.
With ur fun luv'n self.
Making heats melt.

underdog

U let the underdog mount up.
Back on top n all outta luv.
This monster has been waitin to shine.
Polished by emotions that weren't worth a dime.
The forsaken one is free.
Mr black sheep is escaped from the dreams.
Fed the fuck up n on the loose.
At peace with self's own truce.
Oh, shame on u for runnin up my head.
Thoughts flow betta now that those of u know who is dead.
Another headstone to the memories a drift.
Sailin comfortably, knowin you'll Neva reach my lips.
The one held by force rose on that azz huh?
N that's what y'all call luv!
Breakin down the immaturity behind our eyes for pleasure.
Secretly we the opposin gain a better sense of never.
A version that clicks with sounds so noise echoes in Ya loss.
Time flipped n landed in the mud hardenin from the sunkin soft.
Tender passion changed realizin I could be me again.
U fucked ova a really good man.
The ducklin who's beautify that was Neva seen beneath the surface.
The Lil guy doesn't feel so fuckin worthless.
Rollin over looking down at whom u have become.
As I'm off to reside in my home.
It's all a mental illness as devotion switches shit up.
The underdog is all outta luv...

since u wanna say men are dogs

U ain't gotta lie from behind the front in which shields thus world from the ugliness u hide til time uproots ur true depths... Lemme touch who u truly are waltzing around with that unattractive itch u think rounds out Ya queen b u need to inspect...
Ur vanity is tarnished n telling wise tales triggering the same ol effect blaming those who aren't willing to put up with ur bs.
Check Ya neck n break a piece off to analyze to Ya own visual while ya believe ur not like other females lucking their lips.
Ur only as cute as Ya tude rubbin off as rude af wanting to be more than u could Eva be n Ya know it's the fuckin truth.
Down low u know u can fuck with a real man stepping through the silhouette u avoid of Ya self claiming to be abused.
Yeah, we've been witness to ur outta control ways Putin Ya twat in the mix as if it's good enough to wipe Ya feet on us.
U get a chuckle from a single rib that'll Neva lower standards to fuck with Ya trifling azz perpetrating in the name of luv.
Put on blast cuz the reality u seek needs to find Ya sideways stepping mindless ignorance azz tripping like u the shit.
Shits been overdue to be spit a spoken fix as the honesty hurts Ya mean mug expressin the lack of maturity loosening it's grip.
Flowing within an explosion released to assure us ur as crazy as u wanting to be, suffering from being stuck on yourself.
In the moment wildin out after the build up of a warning given cuz Ya have an image to uphold due to ur inability to be u n for her there is no help... A Lil bit of that act right would look real good in Ya diet while Ya feeding on the hearts of individuals lowering expectation dealing with ur goofy no sense havin azz. But hey, those are the facts!!!

gettin deep

I'm with stupid!
Says the conscious that doesn't seem to work.
Laughin under breathes for trust is a fool.
As tears are heard.
Restless, it is the one never to blame.
Invisible til common sense shows up.
It's not til then WWIII jumps the gun.
Living with every goofy thing the mind Eva chose to run from.
Decision makin failed the heart bitterly cold.
N I can't remember luv's use.
When clicks are a memory left gone numb.
The subconscious knows the mirrors image jus as well.
Where lies hold no truths comin clean.
In the matter of seconds time opens eyes connected to tell.
Hidden secrets have tales that lead to the tail end of the mind.
N this shit is getting deep.
This is a reality I know too well.
Awakened from a zombiefied hypnosis the collision with self I'd appreciated.
A smidgen of a dose called worth.
Relates downstream testing emotions with a more tender touch.
Silence measures character here with life.
Rattlin nerves tremble to the thought carelessly questioned.
As the tongue craves its moment.

help

If all I ever needed wound up at ur ear whisperin ur the luv of my life... Would ur loyalty lay in my arms til the day I die??? It's the question I need not ask... Yet we're all recovering from a past... Solo is n will always be a betrayal of self... Help!!!

chased by the morning

I'm what the horizon looks at when it seems to be looking at u. Psst. I'm behind u at the edge of night fallin further outta distance while u think the sun can see u tuned in to its gift. Yet the turnnin around is irrelevant with such a beautiful sight to gaze eyes upon. Hey! Did the thought Eva cross ur mind that if you'd peek into a different direction u jus might find what doesn't believe it can be found? As it to feels lost. Similar feelings huh!Staring at the same display with u in the visual scene, seen as the missing piece of time that can not see me. Due to ur too busy with the finer things in life to realize I'm in ur blind side watching u ignore the fact that I day dream of the moments of u in the breeze carelessly drifting with my inner need. Blending in with the various colors that compliment the way u float as if ur one with the life u live. Without the additives of emotions that never goes right. Playing like a child u don't notice what's real as its close enough to give worth if you'd jus spin away from the skies curtain painted far n wide. Stopping in the peripherals limits of me jus outta reach is that wonder u side step for good reason. Face me n lemme speak my untamed mind of what I could do with u. I'm here. On the shady side of ur silhouette waiting on passion to sweep u from ur feet n connect within space invaded by what I hope is me. Ms. ... My curiosity is more than a linger of waves crashing at Ya itty bitties. Chased by the morning I'm the opposing tail end of every thought you've come to accept doesn't exist. Yet as solo as the night sneaking up on ur backside, I settle with the fade u have no interest in...

the permanent

U can hear the void in my voice but it'll Neva run down my cheek. Written for a song to feel it'll touch a nerve yet won't find me. Drifting with the mood that stepped aside as I stood simultaneously with the depths. It can be heard if one listens in the crackle of my minds thoughts left. Felt on the inside as if within a song speaking a spoken truth. Callin out to reason to explain to the confusion y I can not erupt nor let loose. Missed is a part of the gamble taken I knew would leave me holdin my own. Fadin from that secret place flowing along with a song spinnin on the roam. As character checks the motion of sound waves attackin emotional desires confronted by the tender torment. Smilin as I ride out on the notes unfazed to eyes that gaze through the permanent.

resenting luv

I may not seem to come across Ya distant mind. Or find myself with a playfulish tickle tucked behind a much needed sigh. Unknown, I'll Prolly go unnoticed as nothing more than a piece of candy to the eyes shallow stare from at a far. As what's not seen is in hands as air reachin for all the wrong same ol come n go over before the begginin even starts. For Ya hold ghosts as memories commit to someone like me neva getting the time of day. With a convo being the beginin of a combo unspoken bcuz I'm not what ur use to due to I'm jus not the same. Yet, claimin u should enjoy a man who can confide n accept the individual within who u are. Driftin gazes right on by as if I alone am as clear as that invisible silhouette playing Marko without a Polo to live up to its part. Or maybe it's we're on the same page ignorin the facts so fuckin obvious. Tellin on us beneath breathes of how afraid of four Lil ol letters we've come to avoid for they've all turned out to be lust. Where's Ya honesty while an other owns the key to the door locked within Ya chambers hollowness. Yeah, I go overlooked as life eases on by thinkin it'll take one good azz woman to redirect time's nothingness. Sounds a bit familiar huh? Reversin rolls as human as I am resemblin the image u face in the mirrors trust. Havin Ya own scares upon the back stitched up for ur story is unique as ur not the only one to get fucked over. As we pass what could be more than luv'rs. Easier to replace what neva was than somethin that's dug into the depths of us. Resentin luv...

drip

Candy strollin on by on a set of legs that could bring down a big fella quick. To the knees for a taste of pleasures leakin in between two sets of lips. The variety of secrets that could spill down my chin from a drip attackin the sit n spin known as my face. Loosenin every Lil inch of ur comfort losin control of vitals risin to speak my name. Say it! Use what hasn't been taken care of. Feel it! Now speak to me in a quiet hush.

thats it

N the length penetrates u like a porn in the mirror.
Now start at the tip n work on down.
Inches well talk to u n make u wonder how.
It's gonna fit within ur motion clingin to the feel.
Half way now, catch ur breathe n grab ur heals.
Big huh? N it's jus the watch like it.
Don't be shy, u were jus lickin ur lips.
Move ur hips n twist it in.
A Lil further, aah. Sit n spin.
Whenever ur ready commence to taking it all.
Lemme feel u drip on the goochie side of my balls.
Lift , spread n accept. Now do it again.
Oh. Does it hurt? U can do this bcuz I believe u can.
There u go. Work Ya hips into the emotion.
Devote yourself to becoming our explosions.
Fuck me like u ain't never lettin go.
Slow, fast to faster, boom! Slow.
Ease on into the after affect.
Play with it as I find my way to ur neck.
Keep goin, I jus wanna oh my.
My turn. Run now or even attempt to try.

go figure

It's a fairytale fed to Lil girls that I had gotten sucked in to as it called itself luv . Whod a thunk they truly have no fuckin idea of what they want.. I guess it wasn't so manly to pay the rent n one hand the groceries jus to make a single trip. N to top it off the emotion that carried every action musta made me look like a straight up bitch. Go figure. I jus might not be the answer claimed by tongues that have lied to squeezed triggers. Watching emotions die in mirrors visually reappears as me everytime. Seems a fella truly down for some grown azz shit isn't felt in life. Standin grounds n keepin it real musta jus been a bit to much. Jus willin to live n enjoy someone is a bitch called trust. As they all throw eyes my way unwillin to step to a man somewhat different. One willin to admit he's not innocent. For luv turned the tides in my mind as well. I've acted out to know keepin calm holds the key to an imaginary hell. At the bottom due to luv that chased away all that was good in my life. The creatures of the female gender has shown me how lonely the night skies are repeatin solo sighs. N all I want is for the shadows to throw me something new. As someone different steps from the silhouette that understands the simplicity of use. Wrapped in gold I've flung wadded papers away. Luv cannot be seen unless shown it can relate. As this is the reason y I'm in a single filed line up with those who fems say shall not be seek on out. Isn't that about the foulest shit sprung from a dried out mouth. So against not getting they're way I've become the enemy. N what they don't know is I'd do about anything not to leave...

idk shit

I don't know anything.
No ones ever showed me what luv is.
Even in the mix of expressin my own version.
Relations has Neva done right by me on times lips.
Left in a memorizin state of confusion.
Poured out upon the table I placed the dream.
All in with empty hands willin to pick up the scattered pieces.
N here I am, Mr. Clutch clinchin seams.
Attempting to hold me together.
Afraid I might like the single life as the dog is ready to play.
N IDK of the happily Eva after from what I've been through.
Seems I've heard I get with all the wrong ones so they claim.
Not once has luv ever put the thought of me first.
But u don't hear me confrontin the resistance with reason so I can sleep.
Unable to give a Lil something luv is flawed in its design.
A breath taken is in the way one breathes.
N yet, IDK shit.
I've Neva seen luv stand in my way.
Refuse to move.
I've Neva held my everlastin days...

not like this

I don't wanna be this way no more.
I jus don't fit in.
I wanna be like u.
With no one knowing where you've been.
As there's not much to tell.
As if life jus wasn't lived.
I need a Lil bit of normal.
Then again, I would Neva felt me rib.
Damn near break from the fun I've had.
Heart wouldn't have felt the luv to give.
Broken into pieces to learn something.
I'd be someone else comin across my lips.
N not to have experienced life for what irs worth.
I couldn't imagine the safe zone bubble.
Or how it feels to be scared of change.
Nah, gimme what I've earned n pour me a double...

down

Down... With no way up but a visual stare so deserving... Lost in life looking onward as others take for granted what use to be something like mine... How am I unworthy??? Down... Forced to fight for a smile that won't stay... Mind goin astray walkin out on the hard work that could never be enough... Choking on the pain... Down... Shivering chills wrap the backbones downward spiral fading from the norm... Held captive n imprisoned by the failed attempt to live a life... I don't want no more... Down... In the whole within tryin to fill that empty feel that jus refuses to quit... Y is it me that's hasn't time to enjoy what u do??? Damn this life I resent... Down... I go listening to the truths of this is jus the way it is... Fallin short with dirty hands that clinch with a cling to a better way... As so many have never earned what I have never been given a chance to live... Down... For the last time it hasta end... Gone into an invisible state of nevermore... As my only friend...

to end it

Some things don't seem like a bad thought anymore... As long as it's over. As long as it doesn't have to be this way. Watching with eyes that feels the pain. N to think it all could go away jus like that... Hmm. It couldn't be all that bad. Playing with the lingering images of how life simply fades. I'm sinking in here as of late losing my way. Witness to the never ending road dead end quick. Lost to words expressed upon remembering lips. Within a blink of an eye to vanish into thin air. Ooh. The sound of comfort only seems to care. The silence that ends the struggle is truly real. Guess superman really isn't made of steel...

hey glory

A so called woman will take n hold on to that Lil piece of a man n not let go for shit. Thinking that shit if fuckin cute, all the while he bites on his lip. Get ur unattractive azz outta here living in fantasy land wanting to be the bitch that no one wants to mess with. Lemme tell Ya Lil to bit twat it's gonna take more than what I've seen to spin my gears on even the thought of getting caught up in the mix. Ur fowl n reek of the same ol shit. That kind Ya put on display to $pend a Lil time on as it disgusts the reality in my minds ability to ignore the shits outta a false kiss. Miss tudeage, ur rude af when shit breaks down to the basics. Fallin away from ur ever dyin words as fake as the last lie to protect an image that's more of a thought process than needed to be fixed. Fr, u ain't as crisp n ur game that has been played some yrs back put to rest in my very own grip. U could Neva be somethin new when I've been through a dozen of u on the cometh of gone unable to uphold what life takes to get past Ya danglin clit. Seriously, take that shit on somewhere down the road to a mo fo who's pressed on diggin in to what u think is on the hit list. What Ya servin ain't worth the time if day squeezin juices that couldn't keep it wet enough to sit next to the main dish of depths clinched fists. On some real shit. Flip ur script. Spit at me with a Lil more intent to do more than gasp for air in the midnight's hr lustin for a listen of moans bit. Tisk tisk. Ur no more than a risk mumblin pist when all said n done... Ur heart knows nothing of home. Ur to far gone. Heads been filled to believe everything that isn't u fillin in the space standin in my way as u roam. Step aside n watch a grown man pass on Ya ignorant no good dramatised azz quicker than no ace no face folds. Toe tagged ur flat out exactly what u allow yourself to be. Entertainment getting more popular by the minutes released by the hands that woulda neva held Ya outside of dreams left as a fantasy. Truly urs, everything u claim to want. But ur to busy to even know it jus walked on by actin like a total fuckin cunt. Let Ya nerve settle on what u thought u were givin away as luv. Bcuz telling u no, is a must. Don't piss me off... There isn't a cost I haven't paid to get lost!

leave me please

Dream if u think.
I'd be happy on my knees.
As freezin leaves fall from trees.
N eyes leak from need.
Twisted by wants speechless fiend.
Clean hands holds no lying reek.
Of breaths stink callin what's freed.
Free me.
Believe I'm not sleeping on z's.
Swivel minded freak.
Bend for me.
Change directional scenes.
Leave me to my keep.
Grief is not my cup of tea.
I'm not wanting what's in Ya jeans.
Singin lean on someone who's not me.
Rusted links clink.
To Ya memory jus delete me.
Uprooted ur the weed plucked n seen.
Thrown to the curbs seat.
Go n flick Ya bean on someone else's meat.
Jus please, leave me the fuck be...

Creative as the tongue moves sound.
Bouncing syllables tucking in nouns.
The mind wants outcrop be known.
The war is won here as the kingdoms been over thrown.
Freeing self from spinning thoughts clearly corrupt.
Pushing society out to think jus before the expression of luv.
Time I am n have become.
At one with letters finding in whom I truly feel.
Within the unseen opened up n unafraid of what's reals.
Shooting line after line in rhythm of words dancing in the presence.
So eyes can make nookie to the curvage of courage to admit what's overly intense.
Callin out thoughts to reach from behind the tone.
Accepting the difference of me as I for I've found a way to return home.
Unleashing common sense with a level head.
Knowing I was to once one of the walkin dead.
Mixed up in a selfish world pointing fingers unknowingly at the mirrors limit.
Yet I managed a way to fix it.
Through the structure of my own existence life is here.
In my moment to enjoy what it is people are trained to fear.
Corrected words form to lend myself and an

homeless

Home went.... IDK.
It's over. Um.
Hmm. Where?
I think it's. Nope.
Maybe it moved n didn't tell me.
I don't know my way.
Every place looks the same.
Strangers that don't know my name.
I'm here. Somewhere.
Lost in the middle of nowhere.
Strugglin. For it simply misplaced me.
No call. No cares.
Somehow forgot what I bared.
Is it near. As far as it is away.
Unable to focus in life.
Drifting. Giving up on time.
With only thoughts to remember.
Memories that fade more n more every day.
Left without leaving a trace.
I try to recall it's whereabouts.
Yet, those places I've been jus wasn't real.
Everything's gone. Poof.
Down to what matters the most.
Caught in between me n nothingness.
Tell me again how it feels.
To lay in comfort holdin it's stay.
U see, I've never had one.
No house to call to.
Jus friendly foes that come n go.
Filterin through the chaos of whats allowed to remain in the dome.
A safe zone of loss is the only thing I know.
Stuck with no place to go.

time is at a waste

Let's not do this n accept what has surfaced for once.
There's no need in walkin around looking for someone we know isn't there.
For the wrong person to enjoy all the right reasons.
When we know with one another there's nothing to fear.
To go a lifetime without u.
Lemme try n find the words.
Within the loneliness of seeing ur face in my mind.
I'd be in a world of hurt.
How long will it be before ur in my arms.
Stepping from the shadows as mine at last.
Bcuz u alone would be appreciated beyond comprehension.
Valued by luv collecting images of us n what we have.
Holding on to a feel not quite the same as this shit.
When are we gonna turn around n face the only person worth everything to give.
Out here getting on like no one's business on hush.
Faking every smile on someone else as unarmed kisses were never aimed for their lips.
Tell me when it's time to witness true luv drop to its knees.
Emptying the mind of dreams becoming complete in reality.
Who am I in this sea of strangers u know so well.
When I'm nothing like any of them waiting on u to lean into me.
Time is at a waste goin unused in the proper way.
Lingering in n outta relations with the realization of what can be.
Getting lost from this hide n seek game of the comin n goin.
That is, if u actually knew of what I actually think.
Do we havta pretend theres a different life somewhere past the this moment?
We both know this is that feel of heat that candles burn.
To whom is u the final cut given to in sighs.
For these eyes drip believing in the tone of ur words...

first things first

Not on my occasion.
Jus bcuz I walked in the door.
Into ur life.
I don't wanna know the change.
Jus to watch u transform back in to who u were.
Jus before I entered ur life.
There's no need.
I came to see in whom u were.
Not witness the altercation of fame.
Pretending to be different.
The giveaway rests on dead emotions.
Don't go switching up intent.
Be u.
Ease on up n lemme see the truth.
All in the same who I am.
As real as jus vein self.
Anything other is a twisted end.
In the middle if connection.
The flip interprets false hopes.
Fallin in luv with the enemy.
Face to face as scars are premeditated.
As time spent is an illusion.
Worth no more than to be left alone.
There's no need in comin across as more.
The simplest shit sinks further.
Be down to express what it is as u.
Masks only give vanity purpose.
As worth resides within unused.
Constantly fillin the mind with gut checks.
Losing the battle as feelings turn away.
Findin someone else stand-in in ur shoes.
Kick em off n go bare footin.
I jus wanna see the tenderness in the way u walk.
First things first.
U don't havta be anything less for me.
If it isn't real.
We'll never see the beauty that's hidden.
Driven below the paint exploding in gestures.
Mimicking a clowns war paint to observe the endless grief.
Jus be.
It won't work if u ain't got it in u to breathe.

lone

The shepard of sheep drained to his knees sore from the cause. Lone the waltz strolled in n outta relations relentless walk. Disguised as a bad boy for fingertips to enjoy what's before eyes in scenes. Baffled beneath the texture leaking luv's emptiness as a fiend. Open n closed, shut with a door ajar. The underdog is too far gone to return without scars. Here nor there claims but for a little while to retain. Never to explain y the end rolls over like waves in the skies remains. The good one treated as raw as intentions have turned on the depths given prior to the pause. Gathering the smaller pieces to keep intact what's been installed. Mr luv'r, luv'r. Facin yet an other luv'r soon to uncover a conscious that'll last forever. Down goes the story of the never ending morning glory. Left jus past midnight listening in the dark to honesty pouring. Luv reached strays from tongues tasting names. Filed with a slit to remember the tuck that hides the memories fame. The lone wolf howls at the moon giving light to the proof. Not a one sits in the presence of use that's been wasted n buried in the hearts tomb.

sad enough to smile

n here we go again.
with this misinterpreted luv singin on.
goin down in flames.
jus like the last one that tore.
its me n my heart gettin on.
with the bag of emotions to throw away.
overloaded on lifes lil thing.
deletin the mental images of porn.
forward gone legs step into the drift.
lookin for a lift to help that feel.
tuggin on where ive went n jus been.
enjoyin the fadin moments til they heal.
jus to hold the aftermath of whats left.
once decipated life changes quick.
yet there goes yet another one.
swirvin lanes drink moistures lip.
at the ends of starvation.
bustin bubbles holdin memories pop.
acceptin the truths reloadin the game.
checkin clicks as roulette skipped a hop.
makin it through the other end.
leavin toe tracks on the tears that fall.
alone n fillin voids gone solo.
sad enough to smile in a pause.
havin my chance to know it wasnt me.
loosenin back up to the ways of countin lies.
watchin pete push repeat off the bench.
gettin the final cut to ease to ease the mind.
comin together before never comes a callin.
lingerin with the resistance of the wind.
a force that doesnt move quite so easily.
onward with me as my only friend.
n it isnt even in the wee hours past midnight.
as im fightin u off again.
makin myself believe im better off with out u.
fallin apart as a man.
as this u should never know.
to pull me apart in ways...
like youve done before jus bcuz u could.
as i fade.

back to u

feelin it here somewhere i dont know.
i think im on my way but i jus.
damn... i keep comin back to u.
lost in the middle with u claimin luv.
when will it ever end?
how will i ever forget.
runnin from one hotel to the next.
sleepin behind the wheel of intense.
im comin to u today as a thought.
wasted on the use of thinkin of dreams.
guess u touched somethin deep.
as i feel the emotion help me breathe.
somewhere gone it jus fell off.
lasted a few yrs with the pain that gotten over.
but who am i foolin.
u were the ultimate luv'r.
the one that opened me in ways i felt alive.
n i thought i left u where u wanted to be.
shuttin down on me.
but here i am lost once again with the leak.
underestimated i scrummage up the past.
seems u didnt realize what u were.
to someone like me.
gone completely unheard.
n its cool we drifted for now i can say im done.
ive been through u n walked away.
somehow i found me reinvented within my eyes.
as wherever u may me please stay.
i wasnt enough three times over.
even though i find myself with u on my mind.
rememberin what u did that helped me find myself.
as with u i leave the time of my life...

no way out

In it for life.... inside my own mind.... adjusting in a corner to the side.... fading from the blinding light.... losing track of precious time.... along for the inevitable ride.... caught in a bind.... alone I stand n fight.... trapped within mine.... it's the only place I can hide.... yet escaping I've tried.... I'm shackled here til I die.... lookin from the inside..... outward at the prize.... with lingering thoughts intertwined.... I become me behind my eyes....

the fear

I'm afraid. If luv mixed with passion. If what remains. If my own actions. Shook with a poison at the ends of bottoms up. It calls. N I'm scared of what's to come. Of this endless pause. From within my secrets once the empty is turned up. The potion petrifies the feel of comin into view. Let loose by the strength of luv. Before eyes leakin untold truths. With so much to say. N as much that has gone wrong. Astray jus keeps walkin n I don't know why. I can't drink for I jus might hear in my heart the feel of that one lone song. Not tonight. Nor like the time it's taken to come here. Facin my emotions pleadin to make it die. If i were to in some way resist these tears. If I could jus take a lil sip. If it were possible to taste the release without comin unglued. I'd raise my glass n cheer my life n press it to my lips. Yet, from behind the smiles lays a place I alone cannot bare to find a use. I live with the fear that one day imma be exposed. N all that watches will know what lingers when I close my eyes. Comin to life in my dreams as I jus wanna rest the rest if this so called life away ever so slow. It hurts to relive shit in my mind. The pain I must hide. One drop of the flavored twist on reality in thoughts would be it. I'd break before the expressions that lie. Snappin outta this world in which I know I cannot give. Into the pour that's been tucked behind barriers holdin me in. I'm frightened to live without what the heart reaches for. N it's the furthest thing from the comfort that can make this all go poof as I crack a rib. Gone as the juice whispers in the wind through family n friends for me to give in to my core. Come on, It'll do Ya azz some good. But they jus don't know what awaits beneath my own. Fighting to emerge from what should. To pull me below once again into the unknown. For what I've lost is jus unimaginable. I'm in no need of a liquefied potion to ease me on down to my swingin bones. This struggle is deeper than the deepest seas under the moons glow connectin at the reflection I somehow refuse to take a peek to enable. Romance has fled n all that was good left with it with the only place I've ever called home. It's jus me here skippin didllydoodas as I breathe. Roamin in times window losing myself to the battle if one. I'm horrified of the thought that be if I were to consume the alcohol waitin on me. It's not in me to fall to such weaknesses due to what's been put on hush. So Imma jus stay sober so it's not so intense. I can't afford to open the lock that imprisons me. I'm only a man in a singular form stuck in remembrance. Human in my ways to live alone. Wanting one thing. N that you'll never know. Booze free snugglin dreams...