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Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Thursday, October 22, 2015

engaged

Eventually jus ain't came a crawlin my way.
 Then again i wouldn't know what it would look like if it appeared n spoke my name.
 The break seems to not be interested in someone like me.
 Guess this weight i carry is to heavy for it to complete my dreams.
 Hysterically i chuckle cuz i don't need the pity.
 I'm jus lookin for the ends that connect to compliment my dignity.
 Solo as i ride on the backbone of lifes endless torment.
 I creep untouched by the false presence that wants me to be the moment.
 From the top down I've climbed the walls that quake in my mind so unattached.
 N not once nor will i ever plead for help to come rescue what can not be had.
 On a stroll in the middle of life the ground gained is that of my own that's earned.
 N my words i could care less if their ever heard.
 I give no fucks if i every make it to the top jus to fall to another blow.
 It's me n mine as i am him that needs only air to strive after touchin the depths of low.
 A new disappointment with an assignment in their heart to take what they can get.
 It's jus not permitted in the my norm cuz i rid the games from self for they jus don't fit.
 Fools chase n that i am not, i jus don't have the time for half steppin arrogance.
 N i don't have it in me to play in the drama with a self imprisonment line of defense.
 I'm good on the B.s., I'll do this shit on my own n stand proud.
 Never to be as shady as those that can't walk the line when it curves upon the ground.
 Cuz I'll break left as they go right justifyin the way i luv n live my life.
 I felt the blades edge carve names in my backs display i can never hide.
 In a struggle that's lasted too damn long, i accept what it is i have do.
 I'm not the type to do tricks n jump through invisible hoops.
 Blazed with the fire that lit the candle that flickers lies dancin upon the wall.
 I'm done waitin on the calvary to show up n release the tension in a single pause.
 I'm way to different for anyone to relate to cuz they jus can't keep up.
 N I'm tired of feelin like I'm the only one, time n time again i always wind up gettin fucked.
 I'm engaged as the troops surroundin my glory have fallen in defeat.
 Singled out n starin at the victory in the distance unwillin to back down n retreat.
 A pawn disposable in their life I am a one man army protectin who out is I am.
 In the flesh representin a reasonable sense of security for me to ease back n land.
 Comfortably alert n alive I'm engaged with the piece of mind that's come to be.
 As the soldiers layin about behind me had failed to fight to honestly be free.
 Unable to come from within in my presence to live n a connected sense.
 N my own image is my own line of defense.
 The reflection reminds me of who it is that can not only see behind who it is as me.
 For the terms have changed to collide with another in heat.

excited over the shoulder

Turnin around cuz i heard somethin sneakin up on me from the backside.
 Must've been my imagination playin games within the walls of my mind.
 Was it u standing in the rain in the distance or was it a figment of my imagination.
 Reminiscing to look over my shoulder quietly kept from my conscious emotion.
 Footsteps were empty standin in place exactly where they were left to stay.
 Seems u don't jus follow me when i close my eyes everytime i get so afraid.
 Behind me in the distance toe prints have vanished in front of the soles imprint.
 Another sign that makes me believe they've stopped for reasons untold intent.
 Ur memory pulls me back to recall what couldn't make it to the now of gone.
 It's saddenin searchin for what it was that escaped u n I never goin wrong.
 Lost, ur not behind me to get me through the twists of bein alone.
 Ur jus tucked away in the creases that protects what remains of u in the dome.
 Unable to accept the pain, strength riddles in rhymes within the new edition of me.
 Changin what u remember of whom it was i appeared to wanna be.
 Though I'm nothin like who it was that stood before u with a different lean.
 N my back hasn't felt the comfort u gave in some time now since u were freed.
 As the sound of ur laughter spins me around to see ur face so alive.
 Breakin my stride for that moment to capture the cure that escaped my life.
 Let down by the silence that's replaced the joy u brought to unconditionally.
 My grin hangs upside down knowin ur simply not there simultaneously.
 Walkin up on my blindside to correct the misdirection in which I've roamed.
 Watchin u dancin in the reflection in my eyes in between blinks rememberin home.
 The mirror lies to my image takin shape to ur presence that no longer exists.
 Guess i jus haven't come to terms with losin my best friend i do indeed miss.
 N I'm constantly thinkin if i look over my shoulder ur gonna appear.
 As i hold back the drip released by the fact that ur jus not here.
 Holdin me up when i fall the way u said without tellin me you'd always would.
 I've fallen n have become somethin u wouldn't recognize as the same under the hood.
 For seem reason i thought it was everlastin in a different sense without proof.
 Maybe it's jus the want of never lettin go of the luv that wasn't done with u.
 I feel u still as I collect myself for you've expired due to what has inevitable.
 N yet it was ur existence in my world sort of speak that molded an intellectual.
 Havin u for a brief second meant everything in so many irresistible ways.
 Ur irreplaceable as not even time will ever allow u to eventually fade.
 Livin in my minds heart attack since the day u had to parish from my sights.
 As somehow I've managed to cope with the emptiness never to be filled nor hide.
 The hole within grasps every chance to want ur return to awaken me from this dream.
 But the realization is u had to turn in ur gloves u fought with to be that need.
 U escaped without a warnin n couldn't tell me u were leavin.
 I wasn't prepared for the loss I faced runnin solo into the future grievin.
 Never to say goodbye, not once has it crossed my endless mind caught up back then.
 N you'll never know u live in the way I luv curved to be able to bend.
 I am this cuz u were back when everything made sense.
 As noises pause my every movement to stand still long enough to pretend.

broken links that fit

Once upon a time ago i could feel the luv i had to give rushin through my heart.
 Got lost within the throne i wore standin as a man n collapsed doin my part.
 Yet my head took over n i don't think anyone can possibly read my mind.
 On a different level facts remain on the table as what exists is a bribe.
 A confession to win over luvs desire to explore the way fittin in explains the proof.
 N hangin at the door is the threads of another lonely in time to use of an unused noose.
 I live in a sick sense of reality it seems only i can understand n relate to.
 Straight to the point from get go i jus don't stop cuz i don't half heart use.
 The expected deceleration always tends to slow beneath the spotlights hype.
 N everytime i find myself unappreciated n side stepped buildin unwanted emotions behind my eyes.
 Witness to the routine relationship fallin short of true worth forbiddin me to smile.
 I come full circle within n realize they will come n there they will go in exile.
 I've been handled by the greatest feelin known to man n it's not a womans touch.
 Cuz moments come along n time spent passes them by inside to accept the rush.
 Havin a time bomb beatin for a heart, b.s. is only as short as it's wick.
 Lit with poisons fire to obtain the distance that never holds truth to a kiss.
 In an imaginary world a lifetime greets a face on a daily basis with comforts will.
 N I've yet to visualize the reality of dreams comin true as honesty can't help but to spill.
 Restrictions is the attempt to mend a broken chain of anothers connection to step up.
 Seems they're anyways gettin dragged from behind the curtain to take the stage in luv.
 Growin into to a mindset of what civilization thinks a man should pretend to be.
 Knowin the conception of the thought is the misinformed madness that snaps the link.
 How unfortunate the rotation of players that start to wind up on the bench to watch.
 I'll never pay the price of losin the only on i have to gain as me that doesn't plot.
 Dancin in the rain screamin at the pour that washes away tears used to feel the pain.
 Soaked n motionless acceptin the chill each drop rinses free the me I wish to remain.
 Rustin reach individual link one at a time to weaken the strength bound together.
 There jus isn't a reality where two bonded in a life to live will remain as a so called forever.

the x of passage

Sittin at the crossroads wondering where home is on the roam. Not knowin which way to go the calm of the overlapped paths aren't alone. Met in the middle of nowhere givin comfort to a single place. Together n misplaced with limited visitation n fadin traces that seem to relate to who's come n gone as of yesterday. Left to right forwards doesn't resemble the image in the rearview so unstable. Rough terrain jus eased into this moment subtle enough to relax the nerves unable to enable the unseasonable stay unstable. Set a drift on a dirt road windin in undyin time rollin into runnin outta pavements gravel broken down beyond the rubbles passin.
 Blowin by is the breezes push refusin to be motionless wantin to be free with the basic needs. As peaceful as dreams captured by the visual effect of life haltin to see it itself breathe upon the movement of the trees leaves. In the middle of nowhere with dirt beneath the feet seconds slow yet never to spare a moment of fresh air. Watching self's own life story front and center torn to the tare at the x of passage sitting without a care and trampled on as it's back is bared. Which way to go isn't a question needed to be asked as the answer is wherever one is is the task of finding use without the past. In mid stance alive and beside what life has to offer that's been stashed beneath the thoughts that are overlooked for the cast playing the part is merely a blade in the grass.

lets take a walk

I shot the sheep tryin to put me to sleep with the wool it tried to cover my eyes with. Butch be done clickin reality one round at a time losin moments that crack the mind that can not hear lying lips. One step ahead of self in thoughts that drag the best of me into the come the fuck on. Deuces be gone on the backside seen steppin along side of life happy to have me back in stride with the norm. Tapped out n facin the truths smilin the way i use to in the mirrors image that tells me it's about damn time. Hmm, there's two ends of free clingin to the tug to pull me through so i can land on a dime. The barrel blew my dreams to smitherings smokin in a driftin cloud as I'm surfacin from the thick of its fog. Reinvented in a sense of resurrection I'm cuttin myself loose from the weight of where i have went wrong. Fed up n unveiling true form crawlin from within to rise again. My moment is in the reflection of my eyes peeking a boo of lettin go as a man. Pushin off without a pivot to turn me back around n wind up where I've already been. I'm peelin the layers of the struggle that is not of my own away to get goin with the shape of my own grin. Solo with my mind intact n the heart understandin what has to happen before to late becomes to soon. Without another moment to waste it's apparent this paradise jus lost its appeal beneath the moon. N I haven't a worry for this isn't a lonely road less traveled cuz I have self n the sun will pop up over the horizon to show me the way. Gettin on with my roots showin the depth of a seed planted within jus needin a bit of water or a single drop of rain. My backside is to tender to sustain another slit due to the bullshit brought forth by an others face pretendin to be a friend. So imma creep as i leave with a piece of mind at peace to breathe at the beginning of the end.

silence

Unspoken words never need to be deliberately said.
 Hushin a ssh for letters haven't a reason to be bred.
 For the importance of silence was meant to go unheard.
 As whispers hide in the winds whip of worth.
 Caressin the facts of self without syllables.
 Tamin the tongues alternative variables.
 The choice of character is a voice of purpose.
 Mutin tone for the eyes to witness the close of curtains.
 Not once to spat with distasteful remarks.
 Composin the will to eat out their hearts.
 In stride listenin to the correction from within.
 Speakin within the walls of the mind to create a grin.
 With pride in hand the gibberish can not be heard.
 For they are free to unload a world of hurt.
 Testin the patience attempt to stay intact.
 It is not hate that clings to ur ear infected by the trash.
 It is the refusal of bs cuz u are true in the mirror.
 Never in fear of the alphabets curve to strike as a spear.
 Knowin who resides behind the face.
 Is an accomplishment no one can ever take.
 As breathes of a mime is the only thing tryin to make a sound.
 Ignorin the emotion dyin upon the face out loud.
 Steppin in time without a vocabulary made of noise.
 The blunt arrogance will never fill the void.
 A loss is a loss no matter the decimals it takes.
 As a soundproof mind is it's own able to relate.
 Emotions are allowed to live for thought gives it life.
 Own yourself n selective hearin will translate the lies.
 For as the end nears resentful statements is only rejections immaturity.
 Callin out to be seen as better than that of selfs inability.
 To remain as who was before the chaos ever took place.
 Keep calm in good memories in the makin on lifes main stage.
 We are what falls with the dirt settled by the tears rain.
 Spoken retaliation is only another set of lips in need to be restrained.
 For every letter crammed into hate is the beginnin of done!
 If u can comprehend the meanin of one.

more ways than one

Lemme feel u up.
 Oh, my bad.
 That came out wrong.
 Allow me to rephrase that.
 Lemme fill u up.
 That doesn't sound any better.
 Excuse me.
 I'm jus tryin to caress ur desires.
 No wait!
 Shit.
 Over look me.
 My tongue is in luv with u.
 My apologies.
 Still sounds dirty huh?
 I'm not tryin to be that way.
 I truly jus wanna touch u there.
 No, a lil higher than what ur thinkin.
 I wasn't goin that route.
 Bare with me.
 Can I jus plug in?
 Hold on.
 Lemme gather my thoughts.
 This sounds sexual af.
 Cuz its ur mind i wanna get to know.
 As u twist on this.
 I didn't mean it that way.
 Honestly, I was talkin bout this moment.
 Please pay me no mind.
 Jus wrap yourself around it.
 Oh damn.
 U prolly think I'm wantin ur goods.
 N yeah, i do.
 The ones that count the most.
 But not ur private parts.
 I wanna linger in ur untold thoughts.
 in between ur secrets.
 Where we get it on.
 In life!
 I'm sorry.
 Everything I'm sayin isn't like that.
 I'm seriously tryin to relate.
 I'm not reachin for lust.
 I jus wanna know what it be like if u pulled my lever.
 N turned me on.
 Fuck.
 Don't listen to that.
 It's outta context.
 Wait a sec.
 Imma restart.
 I jus want the pleasure of u.
 Wtf?
 Have a bit more patience.
 Imma get it out eventually.
 It's hard.
 I mean the words to express this crave.
 Can u feel me?
 With ur hands to yourself.
 Oh no.
 Forget I said that.
 I jus believe I know what u want.
 Open up.
 Argh!
 Seriously.
 Don't the me wrong.
 The words.
 They're not listenin to my thoughts.
 Jus ease back n relax.
 Cuz I'd luv to dig in.
 Into who u are.
 For real.
 I'm not playin.
 I could do u right.
 .......
 Hmm...
 Fuck it.
 I wanna spend a night with u.
 Jus to enjoy u.
 I mean conversation wise.
 To see if we might be what it is in my head.
 As names are known.
 Like the comfort they give touchin the lips.
 Before the kiss.
 Trust me.
 There's no hidden intentions.
 Not as of yet.
 Did I say they out loud?
 I'm not tryin to jump right in.
 We haven't gotten that far yet.
 No no no.
 I wasn't implyin anything.
 Jus stayin ahead of myself.
 Whoa.
 That's not my angle.
 I'm not attemptin to smoothe talk u.
 Nor pull a fast one on u.
 I'm jus thinkin what needs to be said.
 My deliverance is jus misunderstood.
 Even though the image is breathe takin.
 I jus want in.
 Time out.
 I'm screwing this up.
 Behind ur eyes to be seen.
 That's where I wanna be.
 Fillin u full.
 From top to bottom.
 Truthfully, I'm not fuckin with u.
 I'd luv to bust loose.
 Wow.
 Jus hear me out.
 Imagine us in a mental sense.
 Doin our thing.
 Makin waves.
 I'm jus gonna shut up.
 I've said to much.
 U won't hear another moan.
 Ah.
 Alrighty then.
 I did it again.
 Guess I want u in more ways than one.

come mornin

Come mornin the blues won't feel a thing.
 The song will have faded jus before the daybreaks dream.
 Leavin the night behind the pitch of black runnin wild.
 Trapped in the emotion tucked beneath the moon for miles.
 Spillin the bucket of blood used to drain this poor bastards heart.
 Sinkin within the baseboards to stain the memories war.
 Jus after i awaken from the game of bein tamed.
 Unchaninin me from the absence of colors gain.
 A new round about way awaits the torments end.
 Cuz imma rise come early birds chirp through the window sent.
 I'm out this bitch n I'm leavin all this pain to die alone.
 I ain't got no time to live in an empty home.
 Dig it or not the pass jus clicked past midnights stroke.
 N I'm only waitin til this ache to sleep n I'm hittin the road.
 Cuz its been to long since I've felt greener grass between my toes.
 Damn ol thing called home jus doesn't feel the same no mo.
 So come the sight of vision through this dark.
 I gotta tell ya, I'm gone n no longer will i play this part.
 It's been a long time creepin up on what's fucked up in my happiness.
 Yeah, i gotta go n leave this horrific place.
 When the shades can not hold out the light.
 That's my cue to break this connection n let it die.
 For it will not drag me outta my lonely mind.
 Sigh, sigh, sigh. What a life.
 Imma go get me one of those pieces of mind.
 One lil bit at a time.
 Jus on the other side of this drawn out stall of emptiness.
 I'm done once my feet hit the floors cold run of forgetfulness.
 Yet I'll never forget what these blues showed me how.
 I'm jus listenin to the ticks tap a tune within this silence of sound.

the blues told me to

U know i went n did it.
 Gave u all i ever had to give.
 Now i ain't got a damn thing.
 I've forgotten how to live.
 It's a shame i went n gone to waste.
 Waitin on u to come around.
 Woman, I'm somewhere broken.
 With a case of blues that I've found.
 I knew it be u to take me down.
 U came along n done somethin so sad.
 Ya threw away the best thing I've ever known.
 Took this good man n drive him mad.
 I wanted u somethin serious luv.
 Dropped my pride at ur feet jus to lose my touch.
 But anymore i can't even taste ur name.
 Guess it was about that time to lose so much.
 I got to get to movin on away from ur memory.
 So I'm leavin it here to rest in peace.
 Jus the way u left me holdin on.
 Cuz I'm finally in the mood to simply breathe.
 Without u i haven't nothin to lose.
 But that's jus the way i knew it be.
 As i stand corrected n accused.
 The day my dreams were put to ease.
 It was real nice knowin u.
 Til the blues told me u were no good.
 N that moment has come to pass.
 N thankful ol me jus finished this book.
 U lied to me, n lied on me to.
 To protect our own.
 Play times over n flushed out u are.
 You've earned ur crooked throne.

the sweetest thing

Is it u don't know what ur doin baby?
 Or have u lost ur mind before u got with me?
 Cuz i can't tell the difference darlin.
 The way u play my mind, against my heart.
 Oh, the sweetest thing, was findin u girl.
 But I know now woman, u came along n fucked up my world.
 I know i played my part.
 But we both know lady, ur luv is jus to damn harsh.
 So i gotsta prove to myself now my luv.
 I'm no longer a fool, for ur touch.
 Cuz u have me by a string.
 N only frayed threads seem to remain.
 Ur to cold for me to keep on rollin with u.
 I'd be a silly kinda goofy, if u think imma ignore the truth.
 Cuz u gone n forgot who it was, that i was to u.
 N that's alright by me, I'm more than what u put to use.
 Ooh, the sweetest thing, was me ever findin u.
 Jus to wind up singin, these uncomfortin blues.
 Now listen for once, while I tell my side.
 I'm tired n sick of all the backstabbin lies.
 You've become, someone I don't wanna know.
 So for the record, I'm the one who hasta go.
 Farewell mama, this house is ur home now.
 I won't be back, nor release ur name from my mouth.
 U see, I've realized, the sweetest thing is walkin away from u.
 So go on n do what it is u do.

catch my drift

If ur comin, lets get this thing goin.
 Cuz i ain't about to follow u off the deep end, oh no.
 U gotta give this man somethin to believe in.
 N I've been patient all my life beneath this grin.
 I'm not about to give into hollow promises.
 As one more surrenderin fool of helplessness.
 U gotsta step in a lively fashion.
 Have a lil understandin within ur passion.
 We all walk where our feet will take us.
 If ya wanna walk with me, well, u gotta shake off the dust.
 It ain't got a damn thing to do with touch alone.
 If i told u once, it should be enough to know.
 I'm not into playin parts, so deliver me some reason.
 Cuz this world changes four times a year with it's conditional seasons.
 Don't go actin like u know what u have, if u can't watch my back.
 It'll only lead u to a place, i call my past.
 Come on, lets go.
 Side steppin this thing, won't define a home.
 What u see in me is who i am.
 Don't go tryin to change me into another man.
 Match my patience n caress my luv.
 That's the way i live, not the way i crush.
 Can u hear me talkin?
 Do u listen to these footprints a walkin?
 If a woman is what u are, bring it on.
 Cuz I've been waitin all my life, to pluck a chord.
 Settin free the rest of me, in a moment of truth.
 Woman, i got me n can find a use for u.
 It's not what u think, it's what u know.
 N u get what u give, if the cold wind blows.
 So say what u will, jus back it up.
 N i jus may allow myself to fall in luv.
 Now I'm not tellin u I'm perfect n all.
 But i know enough, not to get involved.
 Take off that fake up, that make up of a mask.
 Show yourself, so what's real can last.
 If ur wantin to rise in the mornin next to me.
 Then stop livin in ur own selfish dreams.
 This man of purpose is in luv with life.
 N do about anything for a down to earth wife.
 But I'm not lookin on the curbside for a floozy.
 I ain't lookin at all, for someone to lose me.
 Cuz they couldn't stand their ground, n catch my drift.
 I'm good with livin my life, if she's the typical slit.
 I don't want no problems, n won't give u mine.
 But if u care to walk with me, i believe i can find some quality time.
 Jus don't go gettin any big ideas up in ya head.
 Imaginin ur any better than me, cuz I'll consider my options instead.
 U be u n I'll be what i know is me.
 As these feet we have, will stomp a beat.
 For half steppin a friend is jus down right wrong.
 Ya better come with it, or I'll farewell ya a goodbye n a happy so long.
 I won't be a witness to the chains, weighin down my heart.
 But I'll luv u til the end, til this luv is scared.
 Girl, if u knew what i know, you'd come around.
 I ain't plannin on time tellin me the ticks are to damn loud.
 Wastin breathes n comin undone.
 No that ain't me, i am not the one.
 To go chasin what should already be, in luv with me.
 I don't have it in me, n won't turn on my sensitivities.
 If ur gonna be like those freeloadin women, along for the ride.
 Realize I'm a rare breed, n i own my mind.
 As real as it gets, i talk no lies of thieves.
 So where's ur mind at woman, is it comin with me?
 Cuz u have a life to live, n i got mine that's worn.
 Written upon my face, where ur presence can dance forever more.
 U know i like u darlin, but luv will havta wait.
 I jus wanna see who u are, before my emotions escape.
 A man ain't built for the luv of war.
 Not with a woman, who's madly in luv with the feelin of bein torn.
 When i met u woman, my whole world looked up.
 But I'm not what ur thinkin, I am not corrupt.
 I'm as free as the wind blowin that chill up ya spine.
 N I've gotsta let u know, I'm down if u can appreciate my unconditional sighs.
 I know ur not perfect, no, neither am i.
 But if u can catch my drift, I'll do the time.
 To show u where I'm comin from.
 Either u can play catch up, or teach me somethin i haven't done.
 The choice is urs woman, don't let me down.
 Cuz if u do, I'll be leavin, n i won't make a sound.
 I'm on some grown shit woman, so watcha wanna do?
 If my actions were more than words, searchin for proof.
 U see when i found u woman, i felt that desire inside.
 But it can not live with u, if u can't catch my drift floatin on with my life.

one way or the other

Wanted in eyes that write lies on expressions.
 The need is words over thought by emotions presence.
 Calm the nerve ridin the stability of the mind.
 Truth lays on times wait hidden behind unspoken lines.
 Loose lips reel contact to press the issue.
 Jus to believe in someone who would actually miss u.
 Watchin the end come before it's expectancy.
 Callin on game to land the shallows irrelevancy.
 Play time opposed to realities version of real.
 Stallin, cuz game is not havin game in mid deal.
 Tossin cards in a gamble of worth figurin direction.
 Lookin for a trump to secure a lil protection.
 A surgeon's slit beneath the scalpels carve.
 Is jus another scar of honesty if it fucks around with the heart.
 Kickin up to turn out on the other side of midnight.
 Shit only lasts as long as proof standin in plain sight.
 A certified player sittin the dog down to confirm a situation.
 One way or the other gettin it in all begins with flirtation.
 Runnin across the finish line or walkin the walk depends on depth.
 Backs covered flips bein played over to a truce in the makin of what's left.
 Once what's been seen as the typical bs is outta the way.
 The good shit can begin only when tone catches a name.
 Diggin in reflects a friend met in the middle of bills.
 Carefully comin with it keeps the doggies crave filled.
 If two as one are individualized in a prior sense of knowin.
 Turnin the cheek on first intentions out the gates of hoein.
 Is luv willin to take that chance to be felt as if no other.
 Buildin blocks for a foundations for a fresh luv'r.
 Thinkin it could be more if they do more than step to n help.
 Otherwise it's jus a point made n one more notch on the belt.
 Feelin no loss in a nut squeezed in the moments cling to flee.
 Wrapped up n meaningless cuz the connection didn't reach.
 Lingerin is the difference of the outcome awaitin a memory made.
 Either way it may drift into the mornings relativity of to stay or escape.

what's my name?

Lemme hear u say it.
 Say my name.
 Lemme listen to the tone.
 In which ur tongues plays.
 With it's syllables tasted.
 I wanna become one with the pitch.
 Tell me my name.
 So i can believe how u spit.
 Help me realize how long I'll last.
 Before i die without a word.
 Bounce me of ur taste buds.
 So my name never goes unheard.
 Released from ur passion.
 Don't play with my heart.
 Give it to me straight.
 So i can realize my part.
 One time in the callin.
 Speak to me awaitin the arrival.
 As it falls out ya mouth.
 Rippin through the texture of survival.
 Bring forth the use.
 Deliver me a home.
 Burstin to feel me live.
 Let the truth be known.
 Now shh.
 Lemme taste my name.
 Trimmed in ur golden lips.
 Releasin the luv u jus gave.

pinkin

I luv it, the color of pink.
 There's jus somethin bout what u think ur doin. Yet I'll go along with the display.
 Cuz i enjoy a show as u lead me on.
 Lustful wishes blown from ur lips.
 Mmmm, the way they move.
 I really dig the way they release my name.
 Playin with ya tongue in a groove.
 I see u comin n have through the scope.
 I watch my perimeters edge carefully.
 But put it on me n maybe I'll believe.
 I have a lil time for some therapy.
 Pullin me outta my reality to kick it up.
 Yeah, I'm down for a moment to see what u got.
 Cuz it's the same angle i once took.
 On others that had no clue til i hit the spot.
 Thing is, they never saw me comin.
 I'm to good at the game if i choose to play it.
 I jus wanna know what it is in ur head.
 That's singled me out to be the fix.
 There's depths here u may not know exist.
 Step at ur own risk for i like the challenge.
 No, I'm nothin that appears to be what u know.
 Jus come at me n I'll show u talent.
 Cuz that's what it is smilin the way u do.
 I've been in ur shoes n I've walked on hearts.
 Dug myself a grave n back to life i came.
 Both sides of luv interest me with their charm.
 It's all good for i know the rules.
 I've mastered the art of story tellin to a tee.
 Stood in relations that peeled me away.
 So do what u do n I'll respond jus bein me.
 But don't go gettin mad if i beat u to the punch.
 My peripheral is locked, cocked n ready.
 As the dome is on swivel n armed.
 Shieldin what u seek n either way it's deadly.
 I got my end n i know what i am.
 Call me a lil to dangerous for my own good if u must.
 Cuz my monster doesn't play fair havin the upper hand.
 On step ahead of ur temptation on the hush.
 So please, lemme see what u hide n don't want me to know.
 I bet u I've concord my mind as I'm in full control.
 If u can get to me, u have ur cut out for ya.
 Yet I'm bold enough to guarantee u, u may not make it past ur own tongues roll.
 Confidence don't got shit to do with this.
 I'm jus a masterpiece still gatherin the pieces.
 N i can't be had in this lifetimes click.
 One way or the other you'll wind up speechless.
 Cuz i have skills no matter what side u wish to reside.
 It's me before u in luv n wars corrupt attempt.
 That is if ur not real out the gate holdin ur own.
 Poof, gone, that way i woulda went.
 Before ur eyes blinded to my untold secrets.
 Loosening the reigns to teach ya how it's done.
 Watch ya step cuz I'm bout my shit.
 Up for the bs, nah, I'm not the one.

as if art

There's a thought of luv to hold.
 . I'd luv to simply go home.
 . I'm done n I've known for so long.
 The owner of this heart here could never go wrong.
 . She's only famous in my mind.
 Driftin in between the thoughts of thy mind.
 Floatin for the image behind my eyes is real.
 . All i ever needed was a feel.
 YES! I'm comin home!
 . U need not ask for ur meanin in my life.
 I'll stand next to my wife!
 . On some shit that has settled within.
 . I am ready to feel u as my grin.
 . We are guaranteed for a lifetimes ride.
 . My luv for u i would never hide.
 Jus a memory is what we are.
 . Always in thought is what makes it hard.
 I'll not once ever be with anyone the way i am with u.
 Still to this day i speak the truth.
 . AILOWY1!
 n no ones suppose to know?
 . Do they care about what makes me happy?
 . The way u fulfill my dreams.
 . I stepped to u n unloaded the arsenal.
 We're 3 rounds in n I'm still fightin.
 . Ding, ding, lets get this shit n live or lives then.
 It's u n I til the day i haven't a breath to take.
 . For u I am tamed.
 . Damn mutha fuckin straight!
 . U I could never hate.
 I'm so jealous of u it hurts.
 The way u do what u do to me with pure luv.
 I know what we are.
 . N imma comin to ease ur heart.
 I will feel u in my arms before i die.
 . Til then it's a thought I'm forced to hide.
 Our peace has been said.
 . I am the man u thought I'd be without u still Wed.
 . luv me the way u intended to from the start.
 Play with me in luv as if we're art.
 . fuck what this world thinks!
 . luv til (U) have nothin left to give.

the silence of sad

Feel it.
 It's cool, go ahead grip a grab.
 It's depressing isn't it?
 Reachin for the wonder u can't have.
 Bein able to see it in the distance.
 Yet it's jus not urs.
 Can u feel it?
 As an eye sore.
 It hurts like hell huh?
 Knowin what you'd do to have it.
 What you'd give to touch it.
 Jus to stop all the bullshit.
 N stand in it's way.
 To be seen.
 Ohh, the moment of truth.
 To hold what may never be.
 Livin without what's right there.
 Fuck, shit, damn, shapes the lips.
 Shakin the screws loose from the thoughts.
 Clingin to the taste of a kiss.
 One that'll last a lifetime.
 Only if u could hold it.
 If it jus walked ur way.
 Would ur world twist?
 To please that empty space.
 Forcin space in between.
 Feel the way it tilts ur heart.
 Leanin in to ur daydreams.
 Over flowin into ur coma like sleep.
 Jus to awaken alone in wonder.
 With fresh unmade memories in a drift.
 As emotions feel the storms thunder.
 Unable to be there for them.
 Watchin em turn now into then.
 Wantin it bad.
 In the silence of sad.

try me on

I can see u livin in the middle of luv.
 With me as ur expression.
 Stretchin ur smile from point to point.
 Within the moments i can't mention.
 For it would be those memories.
 The realization of me in ur life.
 That would sit so pretty in ur stare.
 I bet you'd like the way emotion could never hide.
 With my own willingness standin in motion.
 In the way my face moves.
 Within its happiness reachin for only u.
 Knowin the feelin u could never lose.
 Can u feel the letters in ur name shift?
 Clinging to the sound of becomin one.
 Cuz u of all, would look so beautiful.
 Lost with me within the ring of luv.
 Try me on, see if I fit.
 Landin upon the way ur witnessed.
 As u wake, n as u slip into my arms at night.
 Pressed against an ilu as we kiss.
 I bet u, you'd be breathtakin to say the least.
 Bringin a big fella like myself to his knees.
 Jus think for a second of what it be like.
 If I were to wear u in the middle of a cheese.
 As the thought of u in return fulfilled my day.
 Openin up my loneliness to be touched.
 Can u visualize the level of comfort?
 Shown without bein asked to simply luv.
 Ooh how I'd look changin ur expressions.
 Comin from within a place no ones ever been.
 Feel me through more than a thought.
 Spillin what it is i am to u to be seen.

post wanted

An after thought once the release of touch.
 Within the droughts drip consumin the lust of luv.
 The return conflicts with never bein enough.
 Reemergin back around the way to be flush.
 Left n gone as witness watched em go.
 From the woodwork one by one I'm known.
 Realizin what was tossed away as home.
 A man stood gainin what's needed to be shown.
 The cometh fled the scene for a peek.
 New faces stayed momentarily to seek.
 Strangers became friends to foes as all have felt thy leak.
 Interested in the aftermath of poetic knees.
 The cure that can't be found in others.
 Breakin down true intentions within luv'rs.
 Closer than blood of a sister mother or brother.
 Embedded is the thought of me that hovers.
 How one could let go to resurface to think.
 Who it is forced to step without a single drink.
 As the moment passed as if a timeless blink.
 They all look behind what was as i sit with this ink.
 Spread like truths claimin space for use.
 Codin a legible piece decrypted as a truce.
 Seen through eyes in form set a mute.
 In the middle of relations retreats the used.
 Unguided in a drift for only so long.
 The past comes forth to replay that song.
 Knowin where the heart truly belongs.
 I'm jus my own after effect as a prior pawn.
 Silent years become wasted memories.
 Beyond the recognition of the honest intensity.
 Planted in emotions is a mold of the hand that dreams.
 I am post wanted as the rebound of me.
 Never wanted long enough to simply enjoy.
 I've never seen a face that didn't think I was a toy.
 Played like as if I was jus a lil boy.
 Not til they've come to realize I've become the void.
 Missed in a way I shake my head in disbelief.
 Y is it in the middle of relations I'm jus not believed?
 Tangled in the torcher of losin a luv as it seems.
 Wastin time on others who r the same as in the strangest weeps...

contagious to the motion

Over the pavement u went into the distance of touch.
 Left is me with this luv abandoned utterly crushed.
 As the mind travels with spinnin thoughts round for round.
 Outta reach in the middle of never bein done i claim new grounds.
 Roulette at it's best shootin down memories resurrected.
 Contagious to the emotion waitin on the return of truth contested.
 Not knowin in the feel of the heal that'll ever walk in reverse.
 Back to the point of departure before solo stood in the depths of hurt.
 Voices mimic the soothe heard that escaped by echoes in my chest.
 Trippin within the canyon tryin to last past the sound of footsteps.
 Of the pitter patter of the poetry that fled the vibes bounce.
 Fallin short of the now ended in a time of gone standin proud.
 A fantasy dreams were forced to evade was u turnin to the run.
 Leavin the overflow override the prize mid tide swallowed by the numb.

hangin gloves

Maybe its u jus don't know how to fight.
 Only knowin how to cry.
 Or maybe its me.
 Fightin for that linger deep in the nights.
 Maybe its u jus do u.
 More worried bout ur own use.
 Or maybe it's the way I luv.
 That scares ur emotion to a truce.
 Maybe u haven't a clue of what luv is.
 Reachin for u to land upon my lips.
 Or maybe I'm jus a fool.
 Still lost in that first kiss.
 Maybe there's somethin about me u despise.
 Like i did somethin along the way in time.
 Yet maybe I'm jus what u need.
 A lil to much on ur mind.
 Or maybe ur heart jus doesn't have any room for me.
 Cuz i can't stop givin to the way u breathe.
 The again, i could be lost in a dream.
 Wantin to much to feel ur lean.
 Maybe i thought it was me in ur eyes.
 That star dust sprinkled gone blind.
 Maybe it was all jus a lil ol lie.
 When we claimed me as urs n u as mine.
 Maybe we jus had or moment set still.
 N ran through it as we spilled.
 Or maybe that shit was actual real.
 Cuz I'm still feelin u within my grill.
 Maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe.
 The truth has been muted like a wink.
 Or maybe it's buried in the sink.
 I'm jus askin, what is it u think?

til nothin remains

As the pages cry like blood from the pain in red ink.
 Imma release this shit til nothin remains in me.
 Sheet after sheet fillin another reality full.
 From my world to the endured splatter of stool.
 From the bowels of my pen emptied to the drought.
 I will never resist the urge to relieve muted sounds.
 Spit like a mime under surveillance on the hush.
 As the ballpoint reaches to connect with the touch.
 I'm no poet in the design of the letters curve.
 I'm jus tryin to rid self of the fucked up shit inside of me where it hurts.
 Cuz where I live in my mind is forced by the situation.
 Not of my doings but by the choice of half steppin relations.
 Diggin in to a rhythm without a flow.
 Jus words on display slidin down the tongues taste on a roll.
 As the crisis in mind is breakin the silence of intentions.
 Cripplin what eyes can not see beneath my expressions.
 I'm runnin in the smoke mentally thru the fire.
 N it's the only damn strategy I have as the legs have been spinnin for miles.
 To reemerge with the blueprint of me in hand.
 Is all the same as havin a footprint to where I've been as a man.
 Sketched within this wordplay as detailed as I am real.
 Yes, I need a way out, n yes, a lil to much, I feel!
 Yet not once have eyes ever looked away.
 The mirrors image is with me as my bff n keeps me tamed.
 I'll shatter the glass when the ink runs outta my minds thoughts.
 N I'm truly done payin the fuckin cost!

ghost like sidekick

Followin the shadows lead i chase the disfigured shapes.
Watchin em disappear in the drizzle of pourin rain.
As silhouettes beneath the feet run from the sun.
Away to the other side like, what the fuck?
N the nights claim the facts that will forever remain.
Into the dark i go layin with the acquired pain.
They all appear to resemble the unconditional need of luv.
N there's only been one that reached for the texture of touch.
Oh that shady figure tryin to keep up has me wonderin lost.
I'm a goner seekin the feel put on a muted pause.
Halted by the storms dribble hidin the truth.
Descendin with the pieces of the moisturized clues.
Invisible to the clouds hoverin up n under the fire.
The resemblance fades with the echoes of liars.
Unable to step in time on their own follower clingin to their soles.
Walkin on my memory of what i thought was truly untold.
Shift changers that could never be the comfort of the pass.
No matter what visual similarities connect the now to the past.
Their ghost like sidekick doesn't feel quite the same.
Unable to go with the hand that lands on my face.
The dance at the toe tips moves somewhat differently.
As the music hasn't the relevant meanin on the emotional indents intent to lean.
Escapin the surface of the feet lays the prisoner I've retrieved.
Cuz it reminds me of what i havta replace as the one thing i did believe.
An image without a face to lie of a luv I'll never receive toeing the line.
Blackened by the shade unable to feel the warmth of light.
Somehow attached as if a second way of comin will ever do.
To attempt my fall n merge unrecognizable to the blues.
I can't pretend to be amused by the abuse of a friend that's not mine.
The display is only a tease circlin the body as it sometimes hides.

the last to ever leave ur side

Out front in the open standin to be seen.
 One step ahead n closer to u i lean.
 The first one there if u ever were to fall.
 Comin til flush with any desired beckoned call.
 More than worth the deepest pain if given.
 Alone in ur presence i would rise from the hidden.
 Camouflaged in movement like no other to be seen.
 Wantin nothin more than to simply live outside my dreams.
 Frontline runnin to emotions design in full detail.
 Before an army of many that'll never for u turn pale.
 Spendin time on the visual as one walkin in rhythm.
 The march is a thump of a drum beatin within my system.
 Connected to the distance shortenin in between the reach.
 There's much untold to be seen in the mind that could be pleased.
 Tell me not upon arrival what it is i mean to u.
 The gaps fadin with the silence listenin to the anxiety accused.
 Attemptin to get lost within the reason of ur luv.
 I lead the pack most interested in the makings of u us.

the smoke

Under the bridge where the fiasco doesn't know it can't float.
 Strikin a match to watch the smoke signals to the old me return to home.
 Flame on! Down goes the wrong turn that curbed me here.
 Blazin thoughts to burn the memory jus to keep it real.
 Driftin beneath the wood stacks that carries the burden lifted.
 Witness to the weight crumble to it's ash, i must be gifted.
 For who I've become swings on a noose up under its path.
 Ooh the relief tickles my freedom in the visual crash.
 Set a sail blowin my own wind downstream to rest my head.
 Done, with a piece of minds peace alone settlin the nerves thread.
 It's time to bounce with the rivets pushin the feel of the reconnection of me.
 Thinkin, what comes must go as if it's as irrelevant as a dream.
 Engulfed in the smoke the burden is no longer mine to hold.
 Not wantin to find either side of the over path that crosses me sold.
 Downstream i go witness to the display light up the night.
 Farewell n goodbye.

possibly, perhaps, then again, it could be, jus maybe...

 Maybe it's I'm dead inside.
 Maybe it's ur fault, or maybe it's mine.
 Maybe it's jus cuz I don't give a fuck.
 Maybe it's cuz I fell in then from luv.
 Maybe maybe maybe.
 Maybe i fell in luv with the way I breathe.
 Maybe its jus the way it goes.
 Maybe, if I could find a rhythm, who knows?
 Jus maybe.....
 Life ain't nothin but a dream!
 Maybe I'm finally fuckin free.
 Yet that's a maybe dipped in the horizon unseen.
 In the dark perhaps my silhouette disappeared.
 Maybe took the disguise hidden from the tears.
 Lets say maybe words found their way.
 With the echoes vibes to the break of day.
 Or maybe time passed me the fuck on by.
 I'm jus sayin, maybe i don't know my own mind.
 I'm probably gone wonderin is the maybe.
 N it could be u to blame for hatin me.
 Cuz maybe i didn't give a reason to ur madness.
 Or maybe i did cuz i felt ur sadness.
 There's so many maybe's that go unsettled.
 But maybe one will tell the tale of fallin petels.
 Maybe findin the disappointment in these lines.
 Ooh, the maybe beyond the hype.
 Of maybe one day to realize it was jus my turn.
 Or maybe I'll jus never learn.
 Maybe its me.
 Then again, maybe jus maybe, it's the need.
 Of maybe it bein u i believed in.
 Shall i say maybe the curiosities growin thin.
 Maybe it's us n the way we are.
 Or, possibly, perhaps, then again, it could be, jus maybe we freed each other's heart....

I'm no superhero

Maybe its u jus don't know how to fight.
 Only knowin how to cry.
 Or maybe its me.
 Fightin for that linger deep in the nights.
 Maybe its u jus do u.
 More worried bout ur own use.
 Or maybe it's the way I luv.
 That scares ur emotion to a truce.
 Maybe u haven't a clue of what luv is.
 Reachin for u to land upon my lips.
 Or maybe I'm jus a fool.
 Still lost in that first kiss.
 Maybe there's somethin about me u despise.
 Like i did somethin along the way in time.
 Yet maybe I'm jus what u need.
 A lil to much on ur mind.
 Or maybe ur heart jus doesn't have any room for me.
 Cuz i can't stop givin to the way u breathe.
 The again, i could be lost in a dream.
 Wantin to much to feel ur lean.
 Maybe i thought it was me in ur eyes.
 That star dust sprinkled gone blind.
 Maybe it was all jus a lil ol lie.
 When we claimed me as urs n u as mine.
 Maybe we jus had or moment set still.
 N ran through it as we spilled.
 Or maybe that shit was actual real.
 Cuz I'm still feelin u within my grill.
 Maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe.
 The truth has been muted like a wink.
 Or maybe it's buried in the sink.
 I'm jus askin, what is it u think?
 Cuz maybe i jus wasn't ur superman.
 Swingin as i dangled before u as a man.
 Is it possible I've done all i can?
 Kneelin with the emotion, maybe again I'll stand.

the length before the end

How many ticker tocks u gonna waste this run?
 So i know what kinda time I'm spendin on a lil fun.
 I'm jus sayin, be honesty cuz i can't be broke.
 I've been there n walked away from the only place I'll ever consider home.
 Listen if u will to the selected words comin outta my chatterbox.
 Even the most tender songs couldn't hear comin out the speaker box.
 I'm unfazed by the connection u don't realize will be gone before long enough.
 Yet I'm willin to display how i feel for u collidin in the middle of the feelin of touch.
 So tell me, are u gonna stick around for a bit so u can lose yet another friend?
 Allowin me to get close so u can confuse me with the end.
 U jus gotta trim ya mind of thinkin we're all the same when it only takes one.
 To show this world not all men settle for any ol kinda luv.
 Do u see yourself come tomorrow in timeout cuz u couldn't come with it?
 It's real n it's gonna happen whether u like it or not on some real shit.
 Cuz we look like we're gettin it now but shit will change.
 N i can guarantee ur character will point out ur maturities age.
 I don't have a problem tellin u the truth in this lifetime losin the hands that spin.
 Jus like u one day will get away from me n go back to the life u say u miss with a grin.
 I know what's inevitable but I'm still tryin to spend a moment to place u in my memory.
 To remember u like the others weighed out on the level of enjoyment that claimed me.
 My thing of the soon to be past come on n go with me n live a lil til everything turns around.
 Cuz i can feel u if u allow me to express a bit of interest goin down.
 This is me livin in reality lookin in ur direction as u stand clueless to the message i spit.
 Nothin is promised yet promoted it finds words released upon the lips.
 Funny how that goes without the facts blinded by emotion as the mind can't see.
 U see, it's a mental thing to know someone n their reason in which the way they lean.
 So witness the purpose of the situation n come to terms with yourself.
 Cuz I'm right here to get to know somethin bout u no one else felt.
 Even if you'll be gone come done once the passion fades.
 N it jus doesn't feel the same to even say my name.
 In the length before the end I'll give what ur worth to wind up alone.
 Jus understand that it's not how I want it to be, it's jus real talk cuz I'm not ur ex's clone.
 I will fall in luv with u prior to u leavin jus for the feel.
 N yes I'm good with it cuz i get to hold u for as long as it is real.
 Thornless like a lavender rose i don't wanna poke at ur pain that never learns.
 Nor lie to the romance waitin on a forever to be given without bein earned.
 Refreshed by ur happy tears cuz u live in the hurt life in luv with every new feel.
 U can't make me believe you'll be here long so jus enjoy the appeal...


broken cracked n shattered

Yeah, i didn't even get to see the velvet sky.
 Jus my reflection in the glass of bloodshot eyes.
 Blended in as if camouflaged in between the clouds.
 Watchin the glossy glaze take it's shape without a sound.
 Broken there wasn't a crack of the shatter within.
 Only a smile faked to assure me I'm not human again.
 Standin close enough to my image lookin back as i turned away.
 As the raindrops rolled down the outside of the windows chase.
 Reachin for the invisible emotion still connected to the lose.
 I didn't witness the color change the skies texture in my pause.
 Jus motionless me ashamed to go eye to eye with myself.
 As if the storm found a leak in my home n landed on my face felt.
 All i remember is i appeared to have lost who i thought i was.
 N the pain that scared the visual left by a selfish kinda luv.
 My head hung on a gelatin swingin in disbelief.
 Tryin to catch up wth my mind runnin circles after somethin to believe.
 I stood opened n bare for the downpour to cleanse me free.
 Behind a locked door imprisonin what use to be me.
 Afraid to let go of what was left behind for me to save.
 As still as the dead my heart i knew was claimed.
 Consumed by a fatal blow that never touched like the graze of the wind.
 Yet slit me deeper than passion acknowledgin feelings spread thin.
 Shattered i broke behind the peep holes that cracked n gave a visual to the hidden twist.
 As i sucked it up n found the resistance grew into a better me not so pist...