i had to come undone

Remembering how it used to be.
 Luv was a stranger caught in a dream.
 A blurred out silhouette standin alone.
 As eyes closed every night as I went home.
 Jus to leave in the mornings unchosen wake.
 Back to the real world in a wondrous escape.
 Tryin to pluck the imagination free from captivity.
 From the shadows of the minds endless creativity.
 Afraid she'd think I'd find an other.
 Not knowin i wanted her n nothin more than her as my luv'r.
 My thoughts shaped her sexy curves.
 As i believed in her every word.
 She was always there waitin when I returned.
 Unchanged, the way I remembered only her.
 Waitin for me to shut down my endless day.
 So she could enjoy me for as long as I could stay.
 Runnin through the nights inside my mind.
 The luv we shared was right on time.
 N as her face formed it's cherished features.
 She came to me as the most beautiful creature.
 Standin apart in a sea of women.
 As I was the one she chose of all other men.
 To take her side as she sighed with every kiss.
 I remember how it felt to taste her lips.
 Yet time skipped a beat n we fell off track.
 From where she came she ran straight back.
 Findin her way to me here in my reality.
 She jumped back in to my fucked up insanity.
 Afraid to luv n scared to feel.
 She was the saddest thing that was so fuckin real.
 N as the darkness within my head swallowed her whole.
 I retreated myself as a disappointment growing old.
 Deep in my daydreams I've forgotten the way she looks.
 N the good times she gave me are long gone n shook.
 Free from a dream come true I realized she was the one.
 That pushed the limits as I had to come undone.
 Findin me in a situation so I'd never get lost.
 Comin full circle for a moment to pause.
 A pitch black memory jus can't seem to remember.
 Unseen n deleted from the shores of my mind she's lost forever.
 As I know now the meaning of lifes roadside show.
 N now I to, can finally go home.