be suspect

Why is it that sad is not ok to feel?
 Like ones truths jus don't cut the deal.
 As we tell ourselves selfish lil catch phrases.
 Yet we ain't no better than the next two faces.
 How is it we lie to the one that knows us?
 Tryin to convince self to rise up in the mirrors lack of trust.
 Like shit doesn't matter comin outta the battle.
 Attemptin to shake off the mind of what's been rattled.
 Knowin damn well the emotion is as real as air.
 Not allowin it to run it's course to be more well prepared.
 Half steppin with a false state of presence.
 Smilin back at this shallow world as if self is irrelevant.
 All cuz it's viewed as a weakness for anything to make a difference.
 Jus to hide behind the past tense of silent remembrance.
 In all honesty self worth does get misplaced from time to time.
 N every now n again one feels like losin their own mind.
 Strength is not appearin to be better, off in another life.
 It's knowin what u had beneath the hype.
 Applyin it to self the next go round for keeps sake.
 Joinin a reality where shit happens to even those refusin to be naked.
 Figuratively speakin that is, as the tongue bounces syllables every time.
 Why's there a need for fake expressions as another is to pay the price?
 For u can't break inside to crack a leak in over ran wells.
 Shame on u for not enduring yet another thing this life can not sell.
 But u don't havta live in reality, I give no fucks.
 Be suspect!!!
 In the side show of selfs lack of respect.
 Linger in ur b.s. Like everyone else fakin the funk.
 Unable to endure lump after lump.
 It's not my feet that'll be screamin cuz they don't appreciate the way I walk.
 Real talk...
 When the pressure pushes in on the chest.
 It's ok to be a mess.
 To feel the weight applied collapsing the lungs.
 Jus a lil hint, ur not the only one.
 Even the struggle gets fed up.
 Back trackin n relyin on lusts.
 Cuz what appears to be real can only stand next to u for so long.
 Truth of the matter is, we're all alone so enjoy everything that will go wrong.
 N fuck u if u don't agree.
 I won't sell myself short of my truths caught n left to my dreams.