blinded crime

makin the best of the situation that keeps comin loose at the seems.
reality jus isn't understandin me tryin to reach my untold dreams.
I'm left to the imagination changin directions on me to often.
with that tomorrow of uncertainty takin up space, ain't that somethin.
soft words sharpened by teeth that cause scars to pop up every time.
it's jus on the card for me to luv a loss waitin to leave my fingers find.
as the hearts fell in luv with the blues callin to my secrets muted.
I sit way to often with the silence wonderin am I that clueless?
once the ragin river dries to become a thirst I'm never gonna taste.
I'm slowly dyin inside with every blow jus goin to waste.
as the heart feels the scream from the pain released from the blues guitar.
each time it's gets to be much to much as relations become hard.
trust doesn't mean the way it has a few times before no more.
I'm startin to believe in all imma ever have to enjoy in my lonely core.
pushin out the mental aspect that risks a rhyme behind the eyes.
yet they're unheard n unread as it's me written to the blinded crime.
this is jus how it is as the stare at life I have is confused.
all cuz I look for luv n always wind up gettin abused.