where's ur mind

is it u wanna be Luvd? Or worshiped for ur beauty. Do u wanna feel someone dig in? Or is it u wanna get what's comin to u thru bare nudity. How is it u day u jus wasn't someone real? When all u do is make sure u present yourself in such a way. I'm not attackin u, I'm jus observant. U walk around knowin u get what u want on the way u behave. Have u ever wondered y ask men seem the same? Do u think its cuz the image that lures in the shadowed depths of those wantin to fuck is never gonna cut it? Reason with a real mans mind. Cuz he as I is witness to the game of the gorgeous one led him her easy thru lifes profitable twist. U mat be real deep down but ur smile works to well to show ur characters ability to grow. So u dwell on the thirst of those that pay attention n cater to ur needs. Y is it u think done guys irritate u? Maybe jus think bout it for a sec, n realize we see u in ur own lil daydream. Peekaboo to u as a visual display to turn hormones inside out. As empty as ur purpose that u hide behind. We, men! Do enjoy what ur offerin. Yet in a way u prob don't understand, only allow u to run thru our minds s we question where ur at in ur mind. Ur not loveable in any way but lust. Held for pleasure as a reward for puttin up with the bs of pleasin u. Hate true men that watch the design of ur sway that curves to the touch. As eyes take to every shape that bends n rounds ur frame unwillin to hush. We don't care so much if the shell of ur exotic nature is ask there is. So take it in n find the woman that lingers. There's no shame in practicin what u preach. N don't take this as I'm pinyin fingers.

find em runnin

everytime ilu is expressed, it seems u can find em runnin in the other direction. It's all good til that moment they think they own ya, like a game of detection. Dotted lines in the middle of the solids parallel is only after the signature is practiced. Yet, on the x shit changes as ownership leavin emotions pist. Seems once the wall comes crashin to the rubble is where the heart can be found. At the bottom stumblin from the dizzy work from the head rotatin on a swivelin frown. As soon as four lil ol letters job forces a simultaneous gestures spreads thru feelings infections from the start. It's like a find wine drank to see to masterpiece of the art.

a must have

blown n shreddin what it was luv was thought to be.

swellin images of the temptation easin from within a dream.

on display n in lonely space tastin lips that nibble a bit sensitive.

felt as the feelin raises the stakes better than the alternative.
  pressin closer to hold still to the pressure built for release.
skin restless for the pleasure to consume the fantasy of need.
luvr, tell again that in particular desire to be touched where.
dirty whispers crawlin on the neck of a freak bared.
soft n vulgar settin the mood clingin with the grip of nails.
it's a must have to do thoughts before gone stale.
lil bit of sexy have fun dyin to relate to the exchange.
describin filth so elegant words ignore birth names.
feinin for the fill in which passion has its azz spanked.
n the ratin of skills shown could never be debated.

somewhat amused

It felt like forever ago s moments weren't so slow.
To long for comforts support as life inside was a routin core.
So many tics on times hands have expired in the hands of desire.
Goin in it felt as if the end was upon me chasin a dream.
Everything I was lost its passion with every one of my careless reactions.
Alone n confused alongside the frustration I sit somewhat abused.
cuz once it's all been said n done I am the me I was before a false luv.

findin self.......

Findin self with the head hung low.
Taken back what's been dis attached from below.
The mind understandin, the heart took control.
I went astray as emotions' were sold.
Findin the beauty of feelin self.
yet another ungrateful luvr is no help.
as the heart trickles as it melts.
I'm not likin the cards I've been dealt.........

witness to a stranger in the mirror

Lookin up, the eyes follow the head.

I've been Driftin, Lettin loose the best.

Witness to how everything is no longer the same.

The mindset has a whole new approach to the game.

Took long enough is what I keep tellin myself.

searchin for self within the rubbish jus to be felt.

My stare has a stranger in the mirrors edge.

A statement without a word written in red.

as sharp as the wounds in the back have ripped the skin.
invisible to be found in a scar like texture of where I've been.
smashed into lil me's scattered about.
to witness me now week bring words to the mouth.

cut loose

Alone n stayin away from the mind.
Distracted n cut loose from the puppets line.
lingerin in a wabble without the fingers movement.
all cuz I've been there, yea I've lived it.
In the center of self collapsin in silence.
Shits so fucked up I jus can not hide the bs.
Sorry if I can not hear u thru the noise.
It's all that remains that I'm tryin so hard to avoid.
I sit within with a chilled explanation.
the beast within wants retaliation.
locked inside the cage rustin.
ready n willin as the fuckin has its own thrustin.
N even he's muted cuz the argument isn't worth the fight.
In a paused state of realization I'm stuck in plain sight.
hearin the growl so vicious the fear of release shakes the pulse.
it's jus me hear wantin that tamed touch to ease my flaws.

prove the twist

The more u hate, the more you've luvd.
The madness of bein pist only shows u cared.
So hit me again n make it hurt.
Prove the twist created within has a fear.
Take it to the edge of relations with abuse.
Tell me what I've never been to u.
N ask the things I couldn't get close to becomin.
Then when ur done I wanna hear ur sorry in tender truce.
Isn't this the way it's suppose to be?
Across breakin down periodically to release ur tension.
All in all as I remain still takin in the pain screamin please!
fuckin up the minds emotional dimension.

weighed down

the mind is a magical place if enough time was spent desipherin thru the bs to get to reality.

the decision

decidin within a moment of two paths of who one is to become.
a decision in itself is the minds understandin of under the gun.
depth of character in strength in a window of belongin will awaken.
formin a new reality that claims choice of a walk that's been taken.
gainin control of self changin with fractions of a second to spare.
hesitation is the difference of pain for joy to live in a mirror that stares.
where does the heart lay when thoughts know the way of comfort?
instinct catches up every so often to whisper facts reborn.
standin in the middle of confusion inside choosin wisely.
trustin time playin out jus may be the answer that questions silently.
to rise one may fall to guilt or shame if not taken seriously enough to think.
one way or the other plagues the lesser factor that will disappear within a blink.
which life is worth the loss to step unforgivingly as actions speak?
in owns willingness the test will emerge of what makes the difference.
to continue or veer off upon ones way with purposes guidance.
carryin the load of uncertainty at the precise payment of use.
to remain the same or rearrange at anothers cost without a clue.
in due clicks that spin a digital flip unwindin the battle that surfaces.
there will be pain once luv'd in a way a familiar stranger jus might recognize ur face.
in a place years from the pin point minute of in the moment of cat in the heart.
as witness to the truth that hasn't made its presence felt as a new start.
twisted memories unmade will invade emotions as life somewhere else will hurt.
in wonder of what if it was u that coulda made the difference unheard.

blinded minds

beneath the texture seen by sight.
right up n under the sheddin that proves there's life.
below the surface of the pigmentation.
we r the same sheilded from the irritation.
behind the shell of a visual display.
closed eyes r the true witness to humanities claim.
blinded minds by light watch chameleons lie.
visually the same in the dark in the shadows of the shadows that hide.
voices in dialect in tone tune differences in crisp.
by the shade of color the victim moves lips.
heard by social suppose to bees way of life. Trapped inside the obvious issue of self never free from the hype.
within individualized so called independent as one.
a failure to shed stereotypical labels defeats what could be won.......

weighed down

heavy hands weighed down by sacrifice.
carryin the load no longer simplified.
reasons of y confusin the train of thought.
as worth is Losin it's comfort becomin lost.
breakin the back into pieces of stone chipped.
like a mirror to display willingness flipped.
two legs alone can not walk on all fours.
trippin n uncoordinated sweatin from the pores.
moisture evaporates the meanin of urs.
as solo as together that never gives the more.
balance is unstable causin the body to ache.
n the mind is over ridin meanings that r not the same.
two as one can not connect within the truths.
unable to step to relations put to use.
givin to get to gettin what's applied to life.
it's a bit much to ask of the secrets that lie.

it's all in between

as close as the far is in between.
its all distant in the space unseen.
over the horizons mornin due.
to the heat felt from another day new.
in the middle of contact or never touched.
it's all the same in the emptiness flush.
before the after effect prior to the end.
emotions chaos forgets it can bend.
here n gone unknown to what's left.
it's up close n personal to the absence best.
unable to relate tryin to understand.
spreadin relations lost in between a woman n a man.

the lure

friends forgotten the fucked up thing is trust in itself can be the ultimate betrayal. Somehow catchin amnesia as what's shared has failed. Gainin ones best to use it against the one thing ever felt so pure. It's how the truth speaks once the time is spent on that individual thing that was sure. Opened up n absorbin a luv confusin the witness behind the eyes. What's fucked up is how deep intensions express actions yet words r heard as jus another line. Knowin there's nothin self can do or has done to endure what honesty should been enough. It's rough when the return of bein ensured was groped by a selfish touch. Earnin ur worth with falsifications that disrupt the pattern that can not hide. The design of movement n tone will peel back the wig so the visual display can be seen in playin sight. forgotten n forgettin the bond blinded by the act of the lure showin face. As the realization of fate fuckin surfaces burnin in the flames.

chains that rattle

Buried secrets within held for the silences chains that rattle.
None of thy own so much on hush from the echoin chatter.
Behind whisperin lips so quiet walls can not hear what shouldnt be heard.
made for the clangin of the links to listen with a leanin tilt blurred.
cuffs squeeze survivals instincts on mute drippin from the tongue.
locked away beneath the armors steel cell unpaded n unable to run.

wedgin a separation

at the edge of pain, showin under the pressure buildin the pulse. The limit of the sponge over flows, as anger crawls with a force from the character that's been lost. A chain reaction triggered by a hole blown in the self made filter, ripped n on display. Tested emotion failin to comply with a level head, as the feelin into the depths is engraved. Face to face the battle of space turns immature, ragin in self destruction. Control taken by the provoke, fed n feedin in knowin the fight is an act of devotion. At war for the better cause, everything in between his wrong. Wedgin a separation in a drift, flowin with every blowin breeze blown by harsh breaths taken away where home jus doesn't seem to belong.

i couldn't luv enough

Im fallin inside a single teardrop n im unable to feel whats broken within.
Stranded emotions cling to knowin someone special as their luv given will to end.
N livin beneath the skin lays the lies of forever not knowin what tomorrow holds.
Cuz itll come n go in times hands as once again the heart will grow cold.
I've stepped within n without luv as the realization became theyre both the same.
I couldnt luv enough to feel the comfort of truths relyin on me.
Even though I gave all n spared nothin of self to live my dream.
As the hardest thing came to be walkin away from a passion that may never be felt again.
N now I stand as a different kinda man once my once inna lifetime lost its biggest fan.
Lookin into yet, another anonymous set of wonderin eyes misplacin their stare in time.
But ive learned to luv again in a way I can unwind.
Pieces of me fell apart when my eyes drip let loose n washed away the pain.
Cuz I wound up in a set of hands pullin me in from the chill of the midnight rain.

closin up shop

here comes the mind sayin wtf it needs to say.
playin a fool n tired of leanin inward every mutha fuckin day.
so here it goes screamin without the mirrors reflection.
naked n striped to the bs that it fights repeatin muted confusion.
hear me now, I have some chains to break that can't listen to me.
fuck this shit cuz I'm closin up shop due to the irrelevance of what I need.
in a moment of us u can't seem to get it together n I'm clingin.
so under the pressure of endin up feelin solo n watchin u without reason.
idkwtf my purpose is here when u don't fight to cut ties of ur past.
it's me that pays the price pushin forward as u claim luv is me n u want it to last.
I've been here before n lost it all to the same demons u can't release yourself from.
n half the time I sit in silence as u drift off somewhere only u can go so numb.
I ain't got it in me to cry for a battle I haven't a chance I don't have to win.
ur poison alone is my addiction of hate I don't wanna stand the test of time with.
this is a decision u forced upon my shoulders as I dwelled on it over n over again.
Its not me that'll ever get ur best so I guess jus pack up n grab my birds as a man.
no more crutch holdin ground I haven't to gain in this life or the next.
n u say I don't understand, yet u haven't a clue the weight I carried through this test.
this isn't ventin to correct the situation we face due to ur lack of appreciation.
it's a final curtain closin cuz the show is over for the world to see me in desperation.
down I went fadin into u as u drifted away as u despised what it was u couldn't see.
this is me risin to the occasion to find the comfort without pleads.
I'm not the fault of ur destruction n I damn sure won't take the blame.
I won't allow u to place that weight in my hands to carry so u can hold me to shame.
I'm more than this fragile type of humiliation grippin so tight I can't feel.
this is goodbye to u as the kinda person I needed for so long that jus wasn't real.
I gotta go n find out where that line that stands only to bend for the better.
u hold me in with guilt that claims my luv anymore n u don't care to change.
feedin patience that waits for ur smile to live as I gain more n more rage.
I feel played by what seems to be bs fadin with what this could be n shoulda already been.
I'm suffocatin to ur cause so selfish to witness me fall apart as that special friend.
it fuckin sux cuz someone else is probably gonna get the u I never had.
in my hands jus once I've never felt after everything we fought for so bad.
I'm done n goin bout my way n can't worry bout u thinkin I gave up on u.
u see, it wasn't me that gave up when u found a different kinda luv to crave.
second time comin of tragedy jus ran through me n the price i payed.
were never gonna see the good times we never endured smilin back.
i stood by u the way u did me but since u been back honestly tryin u lacked.
it's sad once again that I'm not enough to someone who takes my luv for granted.
yet back on my feet i think i have finally so tragically n in a fucked up way landed.
everything u ever said to me was jus u gettin what it was u wanted as i was dreamin.
n again I'm findin i haven't found the truth of proof that is careless n the closet I'm cleanin. I've reached n corrected self as i reverted to bein who i was as the me i truly am.
all cuz u don't care enough to stand with me n get at it so we can have what slipped from outstretched hands.
so this is goodbye to the u, u chose to be before my eyes that leaked.
I wanted it so bad for it to be u I enjoyed cuz I meant breathin ilu as now I must leave.
u will be missed no did fall in luv with u in a way I never thought I woulda ever.
u jus didn't want it as bad as I did when we fought for everything that jus became never.........
........ilu!

reinvented

Reinvented n standin thanx to ur smile.
Go figure it be u to bring forth what it was I attempted to hide.
As scared as a small child in ur presence.
U alone pulled the dog back to luvs side of the fence.
Reopenin the valve for the flow to feel ur ease.
This is how emotions were meant to beg a pretty lil please.
On knees for the realist touch ive ever known.
N I can't see y it shouldn't be me that receives ur times relaxin hold.
Its u that brought me back from becomin what it was i forgotten I once was.
Fallin deeper n more passionately in luv.
Ur every lil piece in such a beautifully packaged present.
Wrapped n ready to be ripped open n made to feel with no resistance.
My guess is u probably don't realize what it is u have done.
U captured my driftin heart on the run.
N i felt u somehow in a moment of bein lost in time.
much luv to how u feel for me in ur mind.

the tongue

jabbering giberish lips bounce in enjoyment.
speakin in a moment to vent.
like savorin a delicacy the tongue drips.
released from the texture of the untamed lips.
hearin intensions roam thru mid air.
intensions come to life bared.
vibrations like ripples curin the smile.
arranged in a unique n noticeable style.
space disappears as swsees trickles.
the tongue rolls as it wiggles.
nerves vibe pushin the pulse close.
out the surface life a thorn on a rose.
easin connection thankful n still.
never cold to the merciful thrill.
grazin hairs twist n intertwine.
braided n to the sound as mine.
hearin satisfaction in the design of eyes.
takin in a sample for the mind.
slowly intensifyin a more subtle approach.
assignin depth to every rhyme at its most.
fingers relaxin in a selfish game.
as the delivery gals like rain.
grateful for the brief moment so unjustifiable.
on self as ol' reliable.
tappin on what's wanted beneath the skin.
untold, it's only paper thin.

up n under the above doin time

fillin in the pieces missin.
kissin each fragment lip fistin.
fuckin a fight that doesn't fit.
fakin the shape with a twist.
puzzlin the feel of y it hurts.
tiltin the head half cocked it learns.
makin way beneath the face.
strainin the stained embrace.
trickin thoughts jus ain't right.
frustratin everything in sight.
callin to the answers in the mind.
questionin all up n under the above doin time.
feelin dies after the end.
standin wonderin fallin away from a friend.
completin the jigsaw cut from the chest.
winkin a peek at the curves of which ones next.
luvn life for it must go on.
touchin n unfazed to where I'm goin.

in the ends pt. 1

restless nerves in time speed walkin standin still. Causin confusion as caution runs like a cartoon with the thrill. Makin moments last as long as the twilight that wasps the beatin brain. Lettin down emotions as memories fade due to the crypts thought of insane. Victimized by the villain within creatin the cheat codes to protect a pause. Connectin skippin beats on a tightrope high above the bar of expectations. As conversation settles in the ground lost gainin roots eventually ripped by deterioration. Burnin flippin pages as letters ruin to the edge tryin to be heard once last time. In the ends tear drops form periods smudgin the experience in two takes that never align assigned to lips that speak from within the hidden pine........ N the story goes on

a prisoner by will

detained in cuffs by the taste of a drizzle slippin from a bitten lip.
rights read by the chatter of deep passion drippin from the danglin clit.
needed in a lock down situation for comfort to explore reason with the night.
craved in chains whodini himself wouldn't wanna escape beneath the lights.
a prisoner by will by my bar on her heart hangin stiff between my legs.
wantin to touch the devotion of pleasure crawlin thru hormones in a beg.
caught n payin time spent restrained n made to obey every dime on my sentence.
fucked on the other side of the gates of luv sucking the life outta me behind her barbed wire tattoo with no fence.
another victim in eyes that play circumstances for gain with every climax that cums.
an inmate to her sexual fantasies so satisfyin slidin smoothly inside as one.
incarcerated by the obsession she's perfected to release me from my own cell.
as the details r full grown n mind blowin that r mine to endure as I'll never tell.

let em go

lettin em go back out in to the world cuz that's where they believe they belong. Jus ridin the breaks as if worth actually meant wonderin all along. Watchin en walk as emotions collide with the vibrations settin of a chain reaction of ripples gettin speed. N there's not a damn thing u can do but stand in the middle of luv as u lost that need. They gotta go cuz its not the life they were lookin for as they hate it guts. Funny how the mind starts thinkin how long they've felt the decision to shut down on luv. As if they didn't know it's what they wanted or not? N mentally it seems they were jus crushing amongst ur side helpin u believe in em took they wanna stop. Changin coarse n leavin a void in an all of the sudden switch a Rooney. But its a choice of an individual that jus wants to find their way. Don't be made dev if they were web m everything u were lookin for from the beginnin til the end of days. Key em go n know u had ur moment under the sun closer than you'll ever be again doin ur part. As another will bypass u if u don't intercept em before u ever know who they r.

know me

if u got to know me, would it be close to bein somewhat enough?
could u find what u were lookin for or would that be the end of ur luv?
as that fresh feelin of somethin new faded from the satisfaction of WOW.
I'm jus askin so I know what to look forward to if this isn't it so I know how to hold me down.
I've been here a few times over as one to many rodeos has damn near crippled me.
I don't wanna go thru repeated emotions to wind up standin alone lettin off steam.
if u knew me after spendin a bit of time to know if it's me u feel in healed tears.
would u do more than the others n mean what u say as u tell me what i wanna hear.
I'm jus talkin our the side of my neck if ur not given the chase a chance to fall.
for me to catch u in the middle of the horror that could break us as u crawl.
lemme get to the point of where it is I am mentally in reality as of in the moment.
find me here in the present if I fuck up or some time soon if emotions don't show it.
would u know me well enough to know I human no didn't mean what it was I did?
at that single fraction of a second where we r on the line could u release ilu from ur lips?
to make sure you'd never miss me as if I'm what u don't wanna do without.
shut down ur heart n jus be with me for a bit to see if the attraction is more than eyes speakin out loud.
allow a couple nerves to relax n settle for their aloud to ease up to have a lil fun.
I'm no different than u tryin to find the truth in actions that plunge.
wanna get to know me cuz none of us knows who we really walk on by.
n never knowin jus may be that decidin time where it coulda made a difference in ya life!

goin to waste

there's truth in a smile that don't know how to live. Like a burnt out clutch as gears can not be switched. A dim light behind the eyes lack sight in disguise. Is that empty stare that feed into the lies. Losin time put into self goin to waste. Demeanors movement guides get that lag n wait. A breakin point in the mind snapped by the abuse allowed to be touched. N shakin it of is a matter of hire bad the heart gushed......

crash!

I'm back n backs safe from front to back. The mans been stacked up n every so often attacked n mugged for the stash. From the past to the now showin self how to be proud was a task. Wow, gashes stretched into scars as the frown pounds depths at the point of impact. Crash! Time moves so fast. Yet bein grown ain't all that much fun as the mind spins. It's more elementary n this world that lacks the understandin between trailer park n doin part. Gone to be undertaken as the mark shows we r jus so thin. Tart to the tongue a nigger doesn't carry a color yet have a place were they've been. Start to finish who's the degenerate bein from where birth to where they're said to belong? Molded along side of lifes slack in ability cuz attention isn't given to the facts. Jus acts of plagiarism in a sense of copy cats monkeying a see puttin in the dues irritatin the rash. Fittin into societies contrast as hand to hand combat isn't always physically that. Lost, once upon a time even I blended in n fell in the cracks.

me!

yeah I'm a pretty mutha fucka.
but I got my mind on lock.
its is mine!
so don't believe what u thought.
I had to dig for me.
cuz all that's ever seen is the shell.
when my emotions r in use.
I am who I am which must will never tell.
me!
yet I found someone who was there for, me!
n she deserves my luv.
eye candy to say the least.
but there is depth here I wanna touch.
heart to heart, I'm right here.
in true form.
n there's one thing I don't fear.
n the next line will display my norm.
that is me!
I know who I am.
that means I'm good.
on that level as a man.
tryin to write what that is in my lifes book.
I existed.
one day, my presence will show.
no longer double fisted.
but truly known.
as me!
I enjoy to live.
yes, I have found self.
n I got alot of luv to give.
cuz that in itself is is lifes wealth.
now can u relate?
how can u not if ur in the right state of mind.
yeah I am the same on the inside as out.
my life is beautiful n I'm thankful fur my time.
as these muted words bounce off the tongue out loud.

lifeless

knowin I'll never see myself witness me lifeless n laid out as the body has nothin left to give.
as that time of dyin will claim the only fear that frightens the end knowin we once in lived.
there's a moment if were present that is inevitable of the truth Leon is know it is over.
that final second that'll rush the pain tryin to hold on to the luv slippin into a time, forever.
as motion settles n beats pound at the tip of the loss is the point of gone fadin as a memory.
in that precise fraction of what life has come to show u it itself was the only form of true luxury.
imagine the torture of leavin everyone as u r never gonna be as u r soon to be no more.
once dead it doesn't really matter yet it's jus before that last gasp that u understand emotions that pour.
with an empty feelin of fallin alone into the nothin u will every know u r in.
the worst possible thing to ever endure is comin n its got a place for us as paradise week be ruined.

the absence of rhythm

lyrical masterpiece missin the absence of rhythm. Comin from within the movement in my system. Words without musics illusion to relate. Diggin into emotions in truest form with no debate. This is real! Self can't be lied to n that's all there is to say. Unread letters of the hearts deepest passion not afraid to be seen, but hey! Can u feel me? Rhymin the shit outta what makes us all the same. I am humane n only different in the way were alike. Close the eyes as u truly find life is the reward for the mind. Playin the inner chords touchin. Givin truth as makin luv to the eyes draped n clingin is exactly the untold point. Acknowledgin the void seen in everyday life that all of yall n me r the same. Nothin that ain't been felt is the normality on the flip side of reality untamed. Shields molded as if how we appear is who we r. Yet few r smart enough to know the hearts part. Trouble is comin to luv u n it will leave. It's instinct at the center covered by smiles that want ur belief. Have u felt it? N here we r as there's so much b.s. Jus stains on time that can't be bleached out. It should be a good moment to know that level has been reached, endin the bout. But this is only a waste to those who thinks it's a joke. Flippin letters over to express the design in the face that isn't alone......... Feel it! It's no b.s. Be human n come down off the hype to a new twist. The oldest of them all still pumpin within each one of us. Yet we cuss. What is difference? But the depth of admittance.

never to lose the friendship

lets jus fall in luv. It's jus that simple. U n I, givin it a go. One shot. One chance. Jus to see if we possess what it takes. Do u think it be one of those things where u couldn't see us ever goin without one another? I'm jus sayin. Am I felt here? Could this be where we belong? R we not on the same level? Isn't this what were both lookin for? It's come across my mind. U jus might wanna know where it is I stand. Never to lose the friendship, no matter what! Salvaged before anything. That's the design of truth. Cuz I'm always gonna be here. U can lay on my shoulder anytime you'd like. This is real. Cuz I don't think I could ever without u in my life. I'd take u any way could get u to look my easy n jus speak. It's like that.

as real as air

I heard u can feel it when it happens.
that snap of emotional sadness.
removin self n hidden within somewhere.
n the truth is it's as real as air.
I felt it bend til it broke somethin inside.
as I got lost tryin to find me in my own mind.
they say it could take its time for self to resurface.
ask the time searchin for what worth it.
as questions go unanswered with confusion.
n who one thinks they r is only an illusion.
missin the point of what we become.
not knowin the heart is in the run.
yet it's the blue it'll hit u as u come to reality.
back from turnin away from individuality.
thinkin ur u but its not quite the same.
only knowin the difference when u wake up one day.

touch play n poke it

touch it so u know how it feels.
n if it hurts put it back down. Jus know either way it is real. listen to the movements sound.
close ur eyes.
play with it. Understand it could be anything in ur mind.
poke it if u havta. Make sure it's alive. Within reach. Neva Eva say Neva Eva Neva. Let it teach.
learn how self forms in its presence. Find if it's the time. To go that limit of distance.
n yeah, be kind. No matter what is received.
be true to self opened n awake. Jus believe. Cuz it will eventually take shape.
without lines of boundaries.
it'll open up on day. N if it isn't the Calvary. It won't be long til it does comes along n is willin to stay.

rare n in true form

showin how the awakenin has stepped to the stage. A different book in the end than that of the beginnin untamed. Tellin a story of how one can rise n fall at the hands of luv. Comin away with a more settled kinda clutch.
somewhere in the middle of expressions controlled with an undyin characteristic. Rare n in true form as the take goes on n on no matter how tragic. Findin space in between skippin beats confusin even the hands of time. It's in the way the smile points to the skies. Somewhere in a moment captured by the mind. Becomin whole with self's worth willin to walk the line. Unbreakable n leavin lessons learned deep in the past where they belong. Emergin as an individual noticed on a level takin flight. Givin meanin under pressure to those that surround what's shown in n outta sight. In true form unleashin quality from within rewritin what's already been written. Changin before the eyes that sink into truths in actions able to give a description. As the transformation has taken place beneath the texture seen by even a lazy eye. Likin the one that finally has come forth in the mirrors sigh. Here for the long haul at last to live n let live. Acceptin reality no matter the scene that may or may not be the same tomorrow. It's the acknowledgement of everything is gonna be ok tastin the enjoyments n sorrow. Checkin there image of whom appears in the talk world. As time spins it's hands without a pause it twirls. Woke the fuck up n feelin what's never been felt. Oh the realization is unmentionably instilled. Indulgin in a crystal clear communication spoken like silk. Growin into a stable mind with room to build.......

friends

seems the friend in me has gone n went astray.
I fell into the pits as time had passed like a luvrs name.
needin someone jus to lift me back up.
my mind bent n didn't bother with such luck.
silence slowly muted the untold expression that had since died.
jus driftin away from the closest people to my heart that listened.
n fallin the way I gotta admit I fuckin missed them.
becomin yet a stranger as if we've never met.
distant n fadin from smiles that stood the test.
as I went inward to find me shakin off life.
n no one truly knows how deep I was cut by the knife.
inserted in my back that crippled my own.
I jus didn't feel the need to bother any of them with what couldn't be shown.
expressions in conversations shielded the truth.
I hid the depths of pain as it grew.
cuttin ties after while so I could heal so I could breathe.
n now I don't know how to resurface back on the scene.
these r my people that lent a shoulder n an patient ear.
yet I crawled into a phase n fought a battle they couldn't steer.
no face value of sight ever came to the light.
I was a ghost in a moment runnin from life.
the struggle was unbearable movin forward.
n I was all alone til my lady made me want more.
side by side piecin a life back together.
but where were those I left standin in wonder of butch?
I feel I walked out on who cared n was a crutch.
yet I had to find the one I lost within myself.
as no one knows who it was that gave so much help.
I was ashamed I allowed self to be lowered to an all time low.
n for the life of me I didn't want it to show.
but now that I'm on the rise back to normals way of feel.
how do I reach for those I've forgotten about as I found what was real?
cuz I'm grateful in my own way to the few that were there.
jus before I left n let go as I was consumed by the tears.
I'm here yall n I'm almost 100 with a lil lady I keep so close to my heart.
yet the untold story will remain as is as it molded me as it did its part.
the hardest lesson of my life jus passed me by.
n the only thing I've missed is bein in my friends lives.

a once in a lifetime kind thing

there, the way the unexpected sneaks up on u.
look back, did u see the direction of use?
thoughts own angle of y u chosen.
do u wonder y over time the heart felt frozen?
seriously, think of how it jus crept up on u.
tellin u how ur everything n swore truths.
it came for u n u alone standin jus that, alone.
wantin u to feel a lil place called home.
yet I bet u couldn't see the future til it was to late.
changin course on luv as it buried u in hate.
is it cuz u believed in someone for once?
is that y u fell so deeply n madly in luv?
face the past in which u have come.
that place that left u so fuckin numb.
my guess is u thought it last forever.
a precious happy lil life always together.
but for unknown reasons shit got twisted huh?
found out luv was one sided n u were the one.
foolish enough u played the part.
it's ok, we've all either have been our will be marked.
it's a once in a lifetime kinda thing.
that theft of self givin reality to our dreams.
it takes away those unneeded deceptions.
as eyes desipher to make a correction.
without that pain that cripples u within.
cuz you'll never truly understand a real grin.

how we truly meet

jus a moment before touch reaches in to gain.
findin that split second of thirsts undyin claim.
lookin for that desire fillin the pulses ripples.
listenin for depths without words that dribble.
still with patience watchin eyes evade a blink.
waitin on the rush to consume how we truly meet.
in a stare where wonders live to express.
comin from the behind the curtains undressed.
naked in a sense to what's seen is real.
sinkin into the design on which the heart peels.
sheddin in a brief glimpse of times fortune.
long enough so emotions can be more than tuned.

untouched

As free as tone in true form untouched by confusion. Words never settle on the emptiness of illusions. Rare n holdin meanin in between syllables that connect. Purpose is as clear as day til the day it rests. Real n out in the open standin against the winds breeze. Givin reasons of y there is a need. Takin limits to another level most can not seem to grasp. As time is that one thing that never lasts. Communicatin with conversations spoken with truths. Before those who jus might have a use. Havin the realization released by unchained emotions. Unafraid to speak of what's really at play. Cuz one time is all that's in a moments way. Tongue of choice singles out the pain from hate. N livin in the middle of Luv that relates. Allowin no one to tame freedom of speech. Yet choosin wisely of what drops as it leaks. From lips that shape the sound no longer can make out. Without them it's jus noise blurted from thy mouth. In control of self expression til the last letter is pronounced. Either way of feelings bein hurt or the comfort found. I stand within me n will not fake the funk. Cuz I know what it feels like to go numb.

touch n go

emotion as black as days turnin into nights.
with no moon givin shadows a chance to fight.
all is the same within the walls of the heart.
never fuckin around with the edges to be chard.
rejectin luv at all costs til the end of time.
for the pain is a loan on the characters dime.
Rollin covers as pillows hear the moans.
listenin to the list of different tones.
alone in a state of mind payin the price.
the unwanted twist is a game for the blind.
Come n go at will for time is all that's shared.
findin comfort in a need not to care.
playin with passion like poison leadin the way.
as far as relations before goin astray.
replacement of luvrs that want more in return.
but that's been a lesson to often learned.
jus touch n go for moments to ease with pleasure.
as empty as a buried never found treasure.
one two three list grows as names r forgotten.
faces no longer matter as shapes r a type, body hopin.
used n put back with the rest fillin a void.
as self knows ones best jus craves to enjoy.
set a drift from connection from within.
with a more simpler way to live with a grin.
single n free rode n ridin the backside of life.
all cuz the scars run to deep formed by the hype.

by chance

if it comes to that, past if the point of bein mad. Where the flip side of us j jus got had, n we wind up unwindin with the ends sad past tense of life endurin the lack in another that doesn't wear it mask. Know I'm thinkin of ur name. As the same I am not playin games. Jus main my way tryin to figure out where I belong so the heart can stay in a place that won't stray away from lettin go every other day. It might happen to us. Once upon a time list in luv shattering that shared touch that's the crutch we lean on in more than a crush. Lost fallin in to the dusk after a long dawn that has forgotten how to blush. As hate replaces the rush turning into dust in the wind flush with the skin of once was. So by chance of the hearts revolver runs outta bullets per say. Know today I wanna luv u tomorrow under gray skies that jus may fade as the comfort stares at a different face that have more than was sends to be fate. Bit of not, we must've made it a saved that one thing laid out the m to be felt by takin blame cuz callin each other babe was worth the crave.

blinded crime

makin the best of the situation that keeps comin loose at the seems.
reality jus isn't understandin me tryin to reach my untold dreams.
I'm left to the imagination changin directions on me to often.
with that tomorrow of uncertainty takin up space, ain't that somethin.
soft words sharpened by teeth that cause scars to pop up every time.
it's jus on the card for me to luv a loss waitin to leave my fingers find.
as the hearts fell in luv with the blues callin to my secrets muted.
I sit way to often with the silence wonderin am I that clueless?
once the ragin river dries to become a thirst I'm never gonna taste.
I'm slowly dyin inside with every blow jus goin to waste.
as the heart feels the scream from the pain released from the blues guitar.
each time it's gets to be much to much as relations become hard.
trust doesn't mean the way it has a few times before no more.
I'm startin to believe in all imma ever have to enjoy in my lonely core.
pushin out the mental aspect that risks a rhyme behind the eyes.
yet they're unheard n unread as it's me written to the blinded crime.
this is jus how it is as the stare at life I have is confused.
all cuz I look for luv n always wind up gettin abused.

not all birds know how to fly

before u can put it behind u.
u gotta realize there's nothin u can do.
to let go of that once upon a time.
the heart has to agree with the mind.
movin feet steppin away is only movement.
u havta release the wantin to hold it.
the one way to leave it where it belongs.
is know how bad it did u wrong.
ur gonna feel the empty pull u down.
but time can n will find a way for u to smile.
it's for sure that feelin shall come again.
but not til u make it own stand.
to be free u must accept the end.
knowin self is ur go to unforgettable friend.
diggin into the poison set in the trusted vein.
feelin for that unguided n unwanted pain.
pullin it from the depths of whom u r.
n emergin untouched raisin the bar.
to have that level of expectations.
there's a need to erase double standard intensions.
gettin to the understandin of life must go on.
ease back n loosen the grip, closin the door.
for good n for ur own good to make it.
jus turn n know it's the end of the b.s.
nothin can hurt u if u don't allow it to break u.
no matter how deep luv lingered cuz its thru.
to shake the pasts memories set in time.
there's no excuse of askin questions of y.
jus be free n live under the changin skies.
not all birds know how to fly.
so take flight n soar til u dive again.
landin in a moment to figure out how it feels to stand.
n if u happen to be one of those who never lift off.
set two birds of if own on a mission, tellin then to get lost!

right about now

somewhere new driftin off with luv guidin the blind.... Stands still the moment of knowin this to could disrupt the mind.... Concur the passion n fool it with emotional poison.... Ends of beginnings fail under the watch of lips moistened.... Here in the presence of time goin numb.... A place called home could very well fall back on number one.... As anger films the play back to the change that is to much to give.... Losin the battle once again as a time before lived.... Under the contact it could all be unnoticed without a cause.... As those tempted tingles slip n slide in to a pause.... N those that disapprove applaud for their own turn.... Feelin as dead as luv fed to the worms.... Right about now the weight seems to weaken the strength tryin to stand firm.... As in between the lines of confusion reads another lesson learned.... Rippin holes in the chest the size of fingers diggin in after the heart.... N this has the makings of pain written in the scars.... The untold depths hurt before that face even disappears.... Prior to that empty hollow wantin her near....

flicken a slice

felt n feelin the linger of time Rollin over pointin fingers aimed upwards as knuckles r seen as ah fuck u expressed as the only way to admit I'm tired of fightin for what could be mine. Flightless birds unplucked yet bald like an eagle risin to the occasion touchin the skies changin colors as beautiful as my life could never be. Fed up n frustrated with time never givin in as my sails blowin the winds untamed gesture flickin a slice through the breeze that chills my bones. Oh yeah, not givin a flyin fuck has tampered with my mind far to long as a set of twins play with the shapes of the clouds changin with the shadows on the ground beneath the feets soles.

til the end of life

I can luv u til the end of life.
even if that means u drivin me outta my mind.
Cuz truth be known its what I need.
Jus don't break me down n beg u please.
im feelin u in my heart like an equlizer.
Crystalizin the sound of ilu as if a purifyer.
I got that sweet spot so tender to ur touch.
collidin beneath the expressions rush.
Crazy to the break breathin thoughts.
Im down for ur cause.
ready to release the victory u won within.
Believe in me n u shall see a true grin.
One in which u brought back to life.
N for ur luv I will fight.
So trust in motion movin in ur direction.
I'm comin fourth with true intensions.
askin only one thing in return.
don't teach a lesson that doesn't need to be learned.
cuz if it's gonna be anyone, y can't it be me?
settled within ur passions dreams.
u can make desire drive me insane.
complete the package as real as the fallin rain.
as that comfort in the middle of life.
jus don't ever walk out my mind.
cuz the battle from the heart would kill me.
it be war rippin shreds of needs.
I jus want my time of earnin my place.
to enjoy the texture of the taste.
of what the flavor of ur luv is worth.
til the end u can be the expression unheard.
held as selfishly as mine as urs is urs that's mine.
madly in luv til the end of life.

luv me as if i were u

play me a tune that could never miss a beat.
save the words creepin from in between ur teeth.
make me feel somethin as real as life itself.
as I wanna stay cuz I know without a doubt im felt.
come get me n show me it's me that lingers in ur mind.
put this man to ur own personal use til the end of time.
I've been waitin for so long to feel a woman grab ahold.
claimin what she can't do without as hearts unfold.
treat me as if self is on the return end of ur own touch.
give meanin to the expression livin with the rush.
I'm willin to never be the same again.
changin as a man holdin only ur hand.
as passion find the realization that will never lie.
jus let it be known I'm the one in ur emotions that cannot hide.
sink into me as u lean softly as a real woman.
ready to have someone like me as eyes r moanin.
missin that umpfh ever so needed to be with me.
cuz I'm that one thing late at night held in comfort.
n at my worst is u that's never bothered.
for I'm somethin life jus wouldn't be the same without.
Endin this time alone lost to that endless drought.
be that one that gives so much reason.
not once changin to the breeze in between seasons.
be real n open the gate to ur untold need for me.
cuz I'm sittin here in patience witness to dreams.
not as of yet pulled from the secrets of my own silence.
wantin to feel that worth of unspoken truths in my defense.
come to me n share the full package of smiles jus happenin.
as a sure thing doesn't have be said nor ever saddenin.
imagine that I'm u n you'd luv me the way I'd luv u.
when the space in between closes n we land like glue.
inseparable til the end takes one or the other as we pay my dues.
enjoyin the best thing imaginable within reach.
doin more than imaginin if it were possible we'd forever need.
in the presence of no matter what, claim me as the one u want.
cuz I need a lil proof in the way ur words flaunt.
ilu more...... If it's me, find me n luv who it is I am.
n I'll let u run as free as the flow of luv settlin with the ripples that makes this man.
walkin the shores of the hearts splash Rollin up n over the get.
planted like roots to rise like the sun peekin over the horizon for life to begin.
from the mornins wrapped in my arms til nights sound waves.
Rollin as if thunder that hover the oceans view.
luvn u thru n thru, luv me as if I'm were u.