pushin the poison

Is all the emotions faded as they were spent?
Cuz I can't find the truth that was sent.
From somewhere deep enough to make a difference.
As I witnessed first hand the death of defense.
Jus to build a wall not even I can climb over.
N I'm tried everything to keep it together.
Cuz I was afraid of feelin that way again.
Yet what's left is the reconstruction of a man.
I keep pushin the poison thru the veins.
Hopin to feel the depth reach for the claim.
Is it to late to gather the only thing that can break me down?
Lettin loose of the grip that dangled my all.
As fallin it's the thrill takin control as I clawed.
Clingin to the pieces escapin the structure.
Knowin I never had a chance at future.
Slippin while eyes couldn't see the end in sight.
I gave me n now I have me as I hadn't lied.
Strugglin with the confusion set in to what become if my life.
Behind the visual display that still tears me apart no one can know why.
It's jus the way time has rotated for me to rise to the occasion.
Yeah I once stood in the presence of luvs imitation.