here's the thing

Here's the thing, so tell me if u can feel this. I found someone who I wanted to spend some real time with as I was forced to walk away. Jus to wind up in someone else's arms I feel the M same way for. I'm not hung up, juts tryin ti express hire it is I waited on one to open up n give what I gave. To luv Standin before me exciting my days. It's funny how someone can let u down after spendin the time of truth out into them. N it's no where what you've wanted in that one person you truly wanted. Yeah, its like a better version of relations. N here's the kicker. Once upon Time I would find anything for one. But reality kicked in n I'm findin I don't wanna do without luv fir she has a name. Shelby! Kinda weird but I accept get n the way she comes forth. N do anything for my kill last.bcuz somethin I swore if never do again. Yet for her I jus cant help but ti wanna feel as deep as she's skin to crawl within me n live. For then to now. Now I have somethin I can trust. As the past broke down for the present to show me a better place with an other face that hasn't ked as if yet. N that's some good shit cuz I aint lookin back . Nor tradin her for anything. Jus strange I found what I'm lookin for in someone I never knew existed. As if we should ever had this chance? N here's the thing that gets me the most. She's got somethin no one else never had before. My back!!! Talk about earnin yr place. Huh. Id give her anything I could to help her smile. U see, she pulled me from my own demise. I was destroying myself as she came along. N it's cuz if her, II've been able to get back yo whom I was before the wrong one hit their hands on me.