Within

Lost in a ghost town trying to escape my own demons at times. Searching for signs of life and I am the only one present to withstand the abandoned feelings of never again before I am forced to break. Struggles from within pull and give way as I repeatedly fight for my very own sanity tested on a daily basis. Unwilling to die from the inside out I lean into the future with what I have learned for it is at stake. My own thoughts linger in the balance of now and then in between the future of never more and dying to live. Spread thin enough to bleed without being harmed in any way as I retreat within myself for safe keeping and self alertness of the surroundings that fluster my intentions. Yet with great patience I attempt to explore the findings within that eases the unfortunate events that has been dealt as I refuse to play. Rather understand the situation at hand so it to can be handled with extreme care. I am in my head every other second, floating with the multiple choice answers to the questions of life. Day dreaming in the distance and never leaving the comfort of my own mind. I sit silently and become who I am because I take the time to find within me what it is I am willing to stand for. True to the expression leaking out upon my face I can not seem to fake the individual who stands within my skin. Moving my limbs so I can climb back out of myself and run down the day before me that awaits. Calling and taunting, teasing me for the future is not guaranteed. This alone leaves me thinking of a better way to complete me as I am the only one who can chose my path that may or may not fall from beneath me. Something similar on the thinned lines of dug up and placed above me as the dirt fills my place in time. A hole in other words of within me. Once in, never to return. Digging deep and reaching for to bottom of me so I to can do more than visualize my own worth before I never take the chance to become what it means to be human. I am lost inside my mind. Within the structure of my sphere I zone out and live in another world no one else can visit. It is mine to do as i wish and I will use it to overcome this rocks thought process. Walking the only way I can from within.