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OUT THERE. seems i am the only one fighting with me.
breaking down inside of me. IT'S NOT MUCH FUN.
EVEN WITH THE RICHES OF LOVE. i am to hard.
pushing me. I DO NOT THINK I WILL EVER BE TRULY HAPPY WITH ME.
CAN NOT SEEM TO DO ENOUGH. FEELS I AM FAILING SITTING STILL.
GIVING MYSELF HELL. forcing the issue.
pressing onward without bodily care. SELF NEVER MATTERS.
AND I AM USE TO IT. it is what it is.
i am me and it is what i do. AS I CAN NOT GIVE IN OR COME UNGLUED.
CONSTANTLY MOVING. someone has to get the job done.
who better than me? I CAN NOT SIT LONG ENOUGH TO RELAX.
I HAVE BECOME TO CONTENT. letting the load way me down.
doing all i can. FOR THE BETTER OF WHAT IS PLAYING OUT IN MY MIND.
I WILL NOT QUIT. for i will never forgive myself.
just wish i could let myself down every now and then. FOR ME.
BUT I AM UNABLE. i am not made to slack off and let it linger.
it has to be done. SO EVERYONE CAN ENJOY THEIR TIME.
I PUT IT ON ME. i take the blame if all else fails.
i feel the end of the day. AS IT TELLS ME HOW LITTLE I HAVE DONE.
AND I KNOW IT IS ALL IN MY MIND. yet i can not shake it.
i have been told i do to much. FROM MORE THAN ONE.
BUT EVERY TIME I HAVE FOUND SOMETHING I WANTED EVEN MORE. in a lover.
a friend i want to hold. AND STILL IT IS NEVER ENOUGH.
I FIND MYSELF LESS OF ME. always trying i seem to get the best of me.
i just want a life filled in the eyes of some one special. AND BE RID OF THIS BURDEN.
THIS WAY I HAVE BECOME. but i do not think it will ever lift.
i have already got it in my head to do all i can. AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME, ME.
OUT IN THE WIND. waiting on the breeze to take it all away.
as if it never mattered how hard i have tried. IT HAS HAPPENED BEFORE.
NOT LIKE I REAP THE REWARDS. i just donot want to see love walk out the door.
as if i am not good enough. REPEATING ITSELF AND IT IS GETTING OLD.
NOTE TO SELF: i do believe i have found my one.
the individual that will never walk away. sticking around to be a true friend.
and it feels good. KNOWING SOMEONE HAS MY BACK.
BUT I STILL CAN NOT GIVE IN. i will always drive myself crazy.