diddles by the text

its the way you love me. how you respond to me. the way you look in my direction that's got me willing to bond.

your the love i've always wanted.

as i lay and listen to you sleep. knowing it is you beside me. i feeel my search come to an end. with every breath you take i sink further into a friend.

it's easy to love you cuz your beautiful. yet it's not you physical beauty. it's your inner self that's won me over. has me proud to say your my lover.

your love sits on my tongue. as if it is a peer and is lookin gout on the most beautiful sunset. yet it's you it stares at. and i see why it smiles the way it does.

kiss me. feel how you take my breath. taste me. put my lips to the test.

everytime you hold me i melt. as if i were fallin into you and i splash against your chest. liquified in the presents of your love. asif i were for you to taste.

life in it's own has all i ever needed. so my guesse is i was suppose to enjoy it and was given you.

ilu cuz u r who u r. real. amazin. lovable. smart. nice. corky. beautiful. generous. ur simply the best ever. i've never met any1 like u.

on the 3one

last day of january 20-eleven on the 3one.
more so now than i've ever been under the gun.
lookin at the daylight creepin in the blind.
i feel my struggle has finally stepped away from the grind.
here on the final day of the 1st month of the year.
i think where i was last year as i shake off a tear.
it was almost that long ago i went lookin for her.
n as i found here i had to leave her thur.
this next month rollin in will mark a time where i had not.
nor a single tie as i had my very own spot.
lost in a way i remember me givin up.
wonderin after so long wtf.
yet i sit on this glorious day of knowin.
n i feel what i was searchin 4 then as it's growin.
life sometimes gives when one is good n ready.
n i believe this thing is as good as steady.
what a years difference makes when all has failed.
gien in once n given back the air in my sails.
so i comfortably play with the thought of never havin her.
for it didn't look as if she would ever hear my words.

a place where love fits

thinkin back........givin serious thought of where i've been............as all the memories r harder n harder to remember.......and i'm unable to i give in...............seems i'm where i'm suppose to be........nothin til now has meant a damn thing like what it is i'm doin now...........i try to put myself in the past.........but somehow i can't seem to find me in that place in time but how?.........it's as if my mind doesn't wanna return......n my heart is good where it sits.....we all have places in which good n bad has happened.........and a place where our love fits.............yet myself won't let me venture beyond where it is i am........it doesn't make to much of a difference to reminisce on shadows runnin for cover..........i found my place in time.............and the best damn woman within a lover........my slot is filled................somewhere where the me has come back to life..............................yet i look into the pages my life...........ones that has been written by fallin from flight.........n i realize i needed every speck of learnin i could handle.........for the better of now........for the better understanding.......as i taste it in my mouth.

on a cloud

sittin thinkin, wantin some smoke.
grippin trippin, needin my lungs to choke.
dreamin diggin, needin thoughts roamin.
knowin showin, givin as i open.
leakin bleedin, livin before the raven.
sweatin cavin, shakin on the pavement.
flippin hittin, smokin on a cloud.
tokin holdin, breathin in the silent sound.

forgiven.

i always told myself i didn't wanna be like you.
but the older i get i see your point of view.

pains me to believe in the things you never taught me.
and now that you're lost somewhere in a dream.
i can only remember and forgive all the times you've failed.
unable to just let things be for us boys have been derailed.
back together because times heals the heart wanting family.
yet having you here will finalize me complete, happily.
yet i stand for what you never took the time to say.
i have become a man without you pulling me apart every other day.
a friend you forgot how to be has been forgiven.
i just wish you were in the flesh alive and living.

subliminal

impressions linger once hands are washed.

and someone's been tossed.

character showin throughout the course of life.

some cut by the knife.

imprints felt and stainin outreached limbs.

fallin inward tryin to win.

morals tellin on the acts one has taken.

sometimes leavin another hatin.

repeating age old ways of self center ism.

loss of inner vision.

non visual marks scarin what's left.

layin feelins to rest.

role playin in the presence and likes of others.

losin frineds and lovers.

influential displays of irritatin fakes.

stoppin and slammin on the breaks.

vague memories of times left scattered in frustration.

lost in the limitation.

engraved so brilliantly within a stranger.

no one knows the true danger.

molded faces smilin life away.

dead inside and fadin into the days.

effects changin other individuals.

subliminal.

eNoUgH

OUT THERE. seems i am the only one fighting with me.
breaking down inside of me. IT'S NOT MUCH FUN.
EVEN WITH THE RICHES OF LOVE. i am to hard.
pushing me. I DO NOT THINK I WILL EVER BE TRULY HAPPY WITH ME.
CAN NOT SEEM TO DO ENOUGH. FEELS I AM FAILING SITTING STILL.
GIVING MYSELF HELL. forcing the issue.
pressing onward without bodily care. SELF NEVER MATTERS.
AND I AM USE TO IT. it is what it is.
i am me and it is what i do. AS I CAN NOT GIVE IN OR COME UNGLUED.
CONSTANTLY MOVING. someone has to get the job done.
who better than me? I CAN NOT SIT LONG ENOUGH TO RELAX.
I HAVE BECOME TO CONTENT. letting the load way me down.
doing all i can. FOR THE BETTER OF WHAT IS PLAYING OUT IN MY MIND.
I WILL NOT QUIT. for i will never forgive myself.
just wish i could let myself down every now and then. FOR ME.
BUT I AM UNABLE. i am not made to slack off and let it linger.
it has to be done. SO EVERYONE CAN ENJOY THEIR TIME.
I PUT IT ON ME. i take the blame if all else fails.
i feel the end of the day. AS IT TELLS ME HOW LITTLE I HAVE DONE.
AND I KNOW IT IS ALL IN MY MIND. yet i can not shake it.
i have been told i do to much. FROM MORE THAN ONE.
BUT EVERY TIME I HAVE FOUND SOMETHING I WANTED EVEN MORE. in a lover.
a friend i want to hold. AND STILL IT IS NEVER ENOUGH.
I FIND MYSELF LESS OF ME. always trying i seem to get the best of me.
i just want a life filled in the eyes of some one special. AND BE RID OF THIS BURDEN.
THIS WAY I HAVE BECOME. but i do not think it will ever lift.
i have already got it in my head to do all i can. AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME, ME.
OUT IN THE WIND. waiting on the breeze to take it all away.
as if it never mattered how hard i have tried. IT HAS HAPPENED BEFORE.
NOT LIKE I REAP THE REWARDS. i just donot want to see love walk out the door.
as if i am not good enough. REPEATING ITSELF AND IT IS GETTING OLD.
NOTE TO SELF: i do believe i have found my one.
the individual that will never walk away. sticking around to be a true friend.
and it feels good. KNOWING SOMEONE HAS MY BACK.
BUT I STILL CAN NOT GIVE IN. i will always drive myself crazy.

a dream

the past is nothing more than a dream one learns from as if it were really real and happening.
in and out of reality forcing a smile to get to where one is suppose to be it's saddening.
faces burning their imagined engraved image into the walls of the minds weakness.
it's as real as never getting back to those lost in a place of gone forever in begging pleases.
pieces scattered inside as if la la land gave in and allowed one to live without dying.
trying to escape to become more than feelings and thoughts shoved deep within crying.
swallowed to forget all that's gone wrong and left pretending they really happened within.
in complete denial facing the demons that push and give memories to bad places to roam as they give in.
relapsing on thoughts unwilling to give up or go away in the now as to will catch up to the head.
leaving you bent over feeling how it was all a dream giving false hope and taken again joining the undead.
it's no more than everything that's gone wrong that's not worth the time to fade away.
and the cage of what's left is driving the rest of your world completely insane at the end of the day.

decision

pulled in from this cold world and held in caring arms you have a warm place to rest.
keep it real and believe in me and you will forever have something as rare as a true friend.
make your own decision in this life on where it is you think you will always belong happily.
kick back and stay a while and if it's worth your time opening up and confiding in me.
i'll be at your beckon call 24 -7 in love with the way you love me as we do us together.
become more than lovers rolling under the covers and express feeling to each other.
i'm just looking for a way to touch you outside my mind where you exist in the flesh.
all my life i've waited on the presence of a woman and over and over again been put to the test.
i'm ready and waiting on the individual within you to show me it's me living in your heart.
dragged in from a walk you looked so lost without love i offer something as new as a fresh start.
speak my name as i whisper yours in your ear ever so softly as we get lost.
i know you've heard it before but i promise my love will never fade or become the boss.
your smile is all i'm trying to save as mine is at ruins without you standing by my side.
so as you explore what it is i claim to be about, remember it's your own decision in your very own life.

how far?

how far you have been?
how far are you willing to go?
all and everything under the moon.
how far does your mind soak inside itself?
how far down do you flirt with your own intentions?
inside your padded room.

how far gone is the minds rough side?
how far in will it allow me to play?
deep in the world called your own.
how far past reality is it from coming back?
how far do i have to reach?
just to tickle who you really are full grown.

how far before you scare yourself?
how far until you run for cover?
because i wanna play on the other side.
how far within is your happiness hiding?
how far beyond the norm has your hormones tasted?
because i see it in your eyes.

how far is a question needing to be answered.
how far with me will u go?
i'm digging in and so ready to do this.
how far for the one willing to give the time?
how far in a time of now?
be my thrill and give into the seeking bliss.

ghost

ghost within walkin with every step.
tryin to get out at our very end.
invisible to the naked eye.
it feels our every cry.
battlin with endless emotion.
takin all the the uncontrolled erosion.
smellin the rotten ones we've become.
ready for it's ride to be done.
the soul of the unfortunate ghost.
creeps in perfect stride with it's host.
true to the one who holds it's existence.
with extreme patience.
glidin along with the confusion.
laughin because it to will lose u.........

escaping inward

riding on the emotions unable to be thought out through the mind.
i creep inside and play with the way every time you refuse to hide.
chasing dreams gathered by my comfort zone that's given the time of day.
escaping inward to invent a new game we can not imagine how to tame.
it's insanities playful side of the ruff working out the wasted space.
giving into how you pull out the shadows tucked secretively and placed upon my face.
on the back of living within our time slowly grinding our moment of pleasure.
cracks in the skull is the only way to get into see what i have in store for you.

another place

imma luv u til my time has come.
n if possible imma luv when we finally go home.
in another place livin our luv can live heaven.
as i patiently wait 4 ur face 2 smile 24 -7.

every time

faded promises ever time one turns around.
one can only wish they could barely hear it's endless sound.
voices telling lies before they come true.
all because one believed in an other as they fell completely through.
spoken soft and broken in the same making two ends.
separated again like a stranger without a friend.
squeaks and moans lost without the movement.
seems good things always lose their enjoyment.
slipping from the mouth never to return.
left empty inside all because one still hasn't learned.
words redirected and unclear losing credibility.
walking away from the love turned hate and humility.
dreams unfulfilled by lips sleek vocab giving up.
like it isn't what we thought or even thunk.
paying attention to the signs popping out of the blue.
giving reasons why we must do what we do.
every time curled up in a ball wondering.
when is mine coming with it's life long offering.
misplaced minds and confused hearts.
never 100% sure the other will do their part.
feelings having to start over with every split.
redefining self for a better chance to love and live.
becoming stronger than the last time a smile was stuck.
still winding up confused and thinking wtf.
it's hard to listen to def letters scrambled in form.
when their absence has settled in place of the comforting norm.
reinventing a life inside ones own mind.
forgetting how time allowed two to unwind.
it's sad how love changes every time in a new direction.
when one of the two in that moment meant it, and had true intentions.

u ever?

u ever felt the way real strokes ur ego?
u ever realized how it is once tasted, u can't let go?
u ever been so real b.s. gave up?
u ever gave completely the fuck up?
u ever watched how it faded on fakes face as u walked away?
u ever took realism by the hand n led the way?
u ever taken over yourself n earned urs?
u ever dug in2 the chest of faint n squeezed it's purr?
u ever allowed real to truly inter ur mind?
u ever found out what real was tryin to help u find?
u ever thought of y every1 is such a waste?
u ever broke away n found yourself lookin in on hate?
u ever stood on the neck of the untrue n laughed?
u ever read somethin that questioned what it is u thought u might of had?

the way

sweat drippin from the inner heat stroke brought on by the way my hands firmly shape your curves and hug ur hips.
wind coolin the flesh as the breeze flows by admirin the way we slowly touch a savorin sip of the chemistry loosened at the lips.

goose bumps form as the body shivers a shake but we can't tell if it's the mood swingin for the better or the way the air tickles the skin.
over heated on the inside and froze on the out as we're watchin the way the excitment within our breath is ecsapin.

flamin hot we sizzle from within as the skin is so cold leavin us teeterin on the brink of love's game fallin into the way we're envadin space.
feelin the warmth as we become flush enough to relieve the chill as we enjoy what's goin on by the way one an other tastes.

body temp. rises with every kiss as it drops as fast as we separate in between the way each greetin of affection is affiliated with every individual fulfilled notion.
blazin inward the emotions feel of a fever to great for the frozen heart thawin to withstand the way we express hornish intentions.

fuelin the fire risen from the moment of acceptance as the ice drips off of the way our souls inner walls warm quicker than we're fallin.
cores are boilin and in need of a change in temperatures to balance out the way the transformation has allowed us to find our callin.

liquifyin feelins melted and remolded in form of the imprint of a new found touch makin all the right moves in the way of the days beginnin.
stirrin up vapors evaporatin into the silky night air without flaw and temptin the way the flame is lit so smooth in the moment we're sharin.

deep

coming up from so deep down. i feel it every other moment i stand next to you. when absent in my day i search for the warmth snuggled up that seems to have disappeared. gone too long yet it's only brief in time as i wait to see the reaction on your face. the response of a for letter word expressed directly to your heart. heard by the ear triggering the brain to react without flaw. i can't wait to do more than visualize you before me. i am playing within on thoughts of holding you close. as if the depth of my love can not be found for they run deeper than i have ever allowed. bringing forth all i am and shown. i can not hide what it is you do to me and never will. this is deep. so far down i can not pull it all out. i am digging and yet i find more than i can handle. your to much for me to take as i have found bits and pieces of you spread and sprinkled throughout the walls of my heart and mind. leaving your footprints forever embedded on my soul. i follow them and wind up on a path of angel dust for me to find you. i believe i have lost control of the one i was in touch with. i have discovered you laying about chilling within the deepest emotion i posses. moving me at will without even trying. i have teetered on the balance of happiness until you walked into my life. and now all i can do is realize how much i love to love you as you linger deep enough to settle within me forever. slipping only through the tears pouring out of my eyes. floating away with the breeze as a love that will forever be missed.

boomerang

boomerang. right back atcha. with a stare in ya direction.
sayin i wanna get witcha. lay ya down n ease ya on my erections.
u betta last. cuz i betcha will when the pulse starts ta go.
i jus wanna be in ya. feel ya in ways i can dig ya once i grow.
to lay ya down n flip ya ova. ride ya like no1 could lika i can.
with ya 2 please ya. is all i wanna give ya is all i am.
4 ya id do ya good. i feel tha emotion poundin a vibe.
it's a showin through ya movement. within ya i can see a good time.
share a moment n be with a man. i gotta lotta luv ta give.
boomerang i a give it back 2 ya. i can show ya how ta live.

a love upon my skin

doing. that's what u do.
growing. hard at the site of u.
pumping. pleasure awaits.
pleasing. letting anatomy escape.
singing. screams heated by the night.
winning. the battle of the fight.
waring. a love upon my skin.
daring. the next level to give in.
holding. long enough to climax.
folding. as i attempt to relax.
craving. the sensation of slippery fun.
coming. we release the power of one.

a man of stone softened

iv'e never expressed it & meant it in so many ways. i feel you in my heart and my mind wants you to stay.
love slips from the tongue like a kiss from the lips. wanting you in ways that makes the mouth water & drip.
it's a trip the way love has spun me out of control & i am in love with you as the man within has been stolen.
a single word powerful enough to change lives forever. & all i want is for us feel this thing through & to stay together.
your my gravity keeping me grounded so i don't get lost. float away & endure what's left at a loss.
the stillness in my eyes is stuck on your face. & how is it every time i turn around i am all up in your space?
you've triggered my sweet spot & i'm always hungry. wanting more as i'm willing to sign my name legibly.
speaking softly my lips lose words as if unspoken. not felt physically i feel the power of letters as if they were written.
a man of stone softened enough to become whole again in your presence. i stand in love with your beautiful essence.

Within

Lost in a ghost town trying to escape my own demons at times. Searching for signs of life and I am the only one present to withstand the abandoned feelings of never again before I am forced to break. Struggles from within pull and give way as I repeatedly fight for my very own sanity tested on a daily basis. Unwilling to die from the inside out I lean into the future with what I have learned for it is at stake. My own thoughts linger in the balance of now and then in between the future of never more and dying to live. Spread thin enough to bleed without being harmed in any way as I retreat within myself for safe keeping and self alertness of the surroundings that fluster my intentions. Yet with great patience I attempt to explore the findings within that eases the unfortunate events that has been dealt as I refuse to play. Rather understand the situation at hand so it to can be handled with extreme care. I am in my head every other second, floating with the multiple choice answers to the questions of life. Day dreaming in the distance and never leaving the comfort of my own mind. I sit silently and become who I am because I take the time to find within me what it is I am willing to stand for. True to the expression leaking out upon my face I can not seem to fake the individual who stands within my skin. Moving my limbs so I can climb back out of myself and run down the day before me that awaits. Calling and taunting, teasing me for the future is not guaranteed. This alone leaves me thinking of a better way to complete me as I am the only one who can chose my path that may or may not fall from beneath me. Something similar on the thinned lines of dug up and placed above me as the dirt fills my place in time. A hole in other words of within me. Once in, never to return. Digging deep and reaching for to bottom of me so I to can do more than visualize my own worth before I never take the chance to become what it means to be human. I am lost inside my mind. Within the structure of my sphere I zone out and live in another world no one else can visit. It is mine to do as i wish and I will use it to overcome this rocks thought process. Walking the only way I can from within.

all one needs

1 single speck of love is all one needs.
small enough to fill in the cracks where 1 bleeds.

a smidget of hope creepin in from the outter world.
crawlin & bouncin like a nutty squirrel.

the touch of love is all 1 can give worth the time.
let it in & find how much your eyes will shine.

1 ever so lil grain of love brings out 1's best.
yet always tempted & put to the test.

love slides in in ways life can not express.
stainin the memories of a time of lost interest.

fadin from 1 to the next in love as we should.
findin what it is that fulfills us as we're understood.

gainin the power of love to form 1's heart as it completes the cycle.
takin control it applies the foundation of loves idle.

waitin for that sign of foreverness to capture 1's will.
over ridin the hurt 1 caused before love stepped in and 1 stood still.

all we need is to allow love in to our rhelm of selfishness.
live and let live, be and let be until we lose all sight of helplessness.

it's the 1 in us all abandonin ourselves with the way of the world.
sheildin self from pain and misfortune we wind up naked and curled.

breakin

breakin out. releasin thoughts held in for so so long.
steppin outside myself. lookin at me i realize i was wrong.
starin in amazement. i adjust to the change inner me needed.
tweaked i feel complete. after all that was said and pleaded.
nothin to gain from loss. my minds clear and mine again.
breakin new ground the older i get. all because i can.
legs runnin standin still. heads workin on now.
spinnin round inside my sphere. never lookin down.
eyes wide open for the future. i feel me come alive.
breath flowin in and out. i'm livin it and it is live.
breakin bad habbits. formed and molded by the past.
doing the one thing i do best. never live to fast.
faced inward i pause. findin reasons within my cage.
blank stares no longer exist. smilin on my new found stage.
for the world to see. i'm breakin the day the only way i can.
heads up and runnin it over. standin tall as a real man.

truths

truths, it's funny how those can not bite their tongues after all is said & done.
holding in the balance of happiness to help it move on or talk it out when it could have been fun.
speaking words needed to be heard gives chance for unreal mo fo's to come undone.
it's the end when all hears the truths of feelings swallowed and hidden from the sun.
only if those who shield out the world can stop being scared and being constantly on the run.
hearts can connect and become something greater than they have ever known as one.
it be helpful to those into someone so they can decide their true direction and love.
we can all learn from everything turned upside down and spit the words as they come.

time

pressed for time in a time where time never stands still for time to properly be enjoyed.
thinking time is against itself in a time when time needs to be slowed.
for time needs not to be ignored or it to avoid its own time.
time waits for no one in time because time is all time needs.
time expires the day n time is the only thing that outlasts time as it only knows why.
in itself one would assume as i did that time is indeed its own worst enemy.
but time in its only goal of living out its time will outshine its own guideless guidelines.
defeating its only purpose in time of time escaping times fraudulent task of time ending all.
time lies in the mouth of times promise of a never ending time when time appears to pause for some to grieve in time of hurt n loss.
time will never die in times eyes when time controls its own destiny giving self all the time in the world.
never reduced to anything less than timeless memories lost in time where it is the not the only thing that is not trusted in time.
as we fade one by one to times death grip time n time again.
guess time is times only true friend as i am mine and yet time is sliding from my time line of good timing turned bad.
n as time runs out i am more than somewhat failing on time to keep the time given.
TIME IS PRICELESS!

it seems

it seems ur the only 1 that gets me. the only 1 that truly by far understands where i have been and why i am who i am . the only 1 that knows and accepts me for me.
it seems we are simular in the same ways of being one in the same. one in love with each other at the end of the day. one true love wrapped and giggling under a flame.
it seems i have been so lost forever without you. lost on a long road of confusion and uncertainty. lost & feeling utterly emotionally screwed only wanting my true one in you.
it seems my happiness has finally rounded the corner. happy pictures hang and face us as they stare upon the wall of memories. as happiness no longer feeling like a loner.
it seems my smile has found its way and will not quit. smiles able to see things in a different light. smiles once broken beyond repaired now more than content and fixed.
it seems time has seen what we can be and has given in to us. given in to the certainty of our love. given in because we refuse to shut it down or even give up.
it seems the day begins to allow another chance at love with you and i am flattered. everyday feels so perfectly right with you. and as i lay my head at the end of the day, your all that matters.

the process of forming images

thoughts of realism creeping in of losing you.
i see myself not knowing what to do.
i have loved in the past & made it through.
but i have never had a love this realistically true.

visions of a future where you are no longer present.
i imagined the impossible & found it irrelevant.
yet the thought is killing me if u were somehow absent.
because having someone like you in my life is extravagant.

sight seeing in my mind tempting the process of forming images.
taking on different scenarios to see what the damage is.
weighing the option sort of speak on opposite packages.
leaving me in the state of mind of total helplessness.

i do not like it one bit when it comes to the likes of misplacing you.
all i am left with is an emptiness filling the void of trying to do what i do.
if gone a piece of me would die the day you walked out & the is the truth.
reality has settled in on what it is you do to me & it is what it is, ilu!

a friend so true

i found mine floatin around inside of u. of all people in this world to fulfill me.
it has been so long & forever u. now finally settin my search free. i have fallen so deeply in love with u. once again after so long becomin me. it definitely been to long a road on my way back to u. now havin a chance to jus feel u & be. livin life filled with love with u. as the only one i know how to be is me. all i ever wanted was my chance to hold u. to let u know the man i wanted to be now become within me.
as if i were always meant to find only u. i dreamed so long of my one fallin in2 me. & as it's happenin all i can seem to say is ilu. u have always been my dream. it completes me jus knowin it is u. makes everything within me feel more like me. wantin to do so more for u because it is u. for that is who i have become as me. i would do anything jus & only for u. what ever u would possibly ever ask of me. it is my happiness in MANDY i see in u. the love of my life simply doin her as she is pleasin me. a woman & a friend that could ever be so true. this pleasurable thing is forever between u n me.
i have been lost so many times over thinkin of u.
wantin to kiss & have my chance to feel the heat.
i compared so many to the likes of u.
none could ever do what u did without knowin u did it for me.
ilu so much for u jus bein what u r as u. ilu my one, my lady, my dream come true, ILU MANDY!

you

muah! set free in a drift, searching for you.

floating along with the breeze. on its way to you.

a kiss puckered with love. made for you.

squeezing air through the lips. i hop eit finds you.

patiently flowing between the clouds. peeking for you.

wind gliding its way. telliphone line swinging waiting on you.

it's a taste of loving. sent with flavor just for you.

a dozen

one night to share in the dark in between the sheets.

two bodies tanlged & sliding in a sweaty act of love.

third base & rounding the for home ready for the slide.

four minutes to spare before giving in to the final shove.

five heartbeats a second pounding at the inner ear.

six rythmatic sex sounds filling the room in excitment.

seven nights a week getting all one can handle.

eight & a half inches throbbing in a pleasure pulsating statement.

nine lives as the feline gets beaten & handled with undesiplined care.

ten fingers touching a stroke trimbling the body through the skin as it folds.

eleven to seven, nine to five, backing it up and repeating these lines.

a dozen ways to enjoy one an other climbing & rolling in a pant out of control.

VISUALIZE

LOOK! take a glance at what it is you do to a man feening.
to me. YOUR A LIVING DREAM PLUCKED FROM WITHIN ME.
SO NOTICE. watch how it is i react to how you do you.
to you. PAY ATTENTION HOW I CRAVE TO PURSUE.
LOVE. leaking from so deep it escapes its own fear.
smiling tears. STREAM AS THE MIND GRINDS IN BETWEEN GEARS.
LOST & FOUND. from the contact of your eyes breaking the day.
grin strecthin one way. YOUR SPREAD ACROSS MY FACE.
SNEAK A PEEK. steal a moment held close for pleasure.
hold the stare. BECOME ONE WITH WHAT HAS BEEN CAPTURED.
EYES WIDE OPEN. lost behind the windows sheilding what is to be found.
gaze. IN A SIMPLE ACT PEEPING A VISUAL GAME WITHOUT SOUND.

in this moment

as my lips dance upon the stillness shaping your mouth striking words like wow!

i can taste the explosion ready to burst from your tongue in this moment of right here & now.

sliding like silk from the moisture flowing from a kiss plucked from the endless feeling of love.

every time i press closer air slips away in between the way the emotion is quietly sung.

touching soft enough a carress would get jealous of the pation shared within as if it knew.

i feel you through the pitter patter of a wordless expressions paused in time made for me & you.

& as we do as we do & acts of want & need are obviously dripping from within.

the heat of a single stare can be taken in such a way to make one want to love again.

gliding back & forth out of control & becoming one in the same with in this moment of how?

leaning in to back down to tease the breath released by the hearts relief holdin on to what is going down.

noticed

i feel i've died & waken in love,

comin as close as i can w/my one,

givin her all i am & what i was suppose to become,

lost in love i've givin up on the hunt,

fidin all that completes the man in me,

heart skippin in perfect rythm to the oldest new beat,

mind blowin as all has been pulled from a dream,

bringin to life the emotion within & shushin my screams,

new breath & way of thinkin clear & in focus,

all because she looked my way & noticed.

my way

luv has made u n sent u my way,
jus so i can feel it's warm embrace.
i've waited for this day to be face to face,
escapin to a place where love itself awaits.
fillin the hearts lonely deserted wasted space,
i feel fazed n dazed knowin ur what i've craved.
i preyed for direction n u were sent my way,
hopin forever is the way this this thing it will stay.

lookin @ u

watchin from a distance in pulsatin throbbin excitement pause as u turn n notice im lookin in ur direction.
starin a glare cuz u catch my undivided attention as the heart follows in the reality of ur perfect imperfections.

it's the way u move n sway with grace that has me turned on n tryin to attempt as a man to behave.
givin in i plead with me, as i struggle, as i give in n begin to crave the taste of ur sweet erotic escape.

wantin the space between to close fast n in a hurry all while tryin to maintain the electrifyin feelins we share n possess.
it seems we're so far apart yet jus outta reach n close enough for extreme easy pleasurable access.

my eyes curve upward toward ur heavenly sent mind blowin frame as if u were a dream comin outta the skies lite blue.
poppin out the clouds in my head my pupils help themselves to the anatomy of the curves as ur body is is rythm doin u.

fallin into u

comin back around, face to face with a lil thing called fate.
roundin the bend, love to love ur very own special way.
slippin into a set of eyes, losin me n lost again.
tryin to stay upright, fadin n fightin to stay a man.
i sit n stare of what i've found, doin all i possibly can.
as fast as i can't help it, i fell n still fallin into u.
i'm dyin to spend my time, never hidin the hidden truth.
we're here again after all this time, floatin n findin each other.
coverin one an other, wrapped n tangled in love wit a true lover.

growin up

makin changes already made.
shapin faces old & played.
findin friends made to keep.
bringin forth a love so sweet.
temptin self to push n shove.
givin life nothin but love.
showin what it is i've learned.
growin up in my own turn.

THE SHOW

thoughts of u creepin up in the dark where magical thing arise.
reachin out touchin my will & playin a game with ur fingertips to my surprise.
teasein ur way as my nerves begin to tremble outta control.
u got me feelin so wanted as u seem to be in ur zone & on a roll.
pinned against the wall & held for the better of the mood.
kissed & taken over by a woman that keeps me from comin unglued.

please me is all i can think as the blackness lightens to the shape of ur face.

ur lip bitin movements force me to crave the way i can smell the way u taste.

nails rippin light enough against the flesh to drive a man sexually insane.
u put on a show for a lover to dream of for days to come as u spark flames.

flickerin in the dark one at a time beofore u get to what it is on ur mind.
slowly dancin ur way up on me i notice how it is u wanna sinfully grind.

pulled o the bed & shoved into the night as if i should've been ready.
seems this bed in gonna be rockin n goin breakin as we're goin steady.

bringin out the best of ur inner desire on a night like tonight, goin for urs.
i lay back & enjoy whats it is i am to experience as u back off to lock the door.

takin ur time to give a show & tell statement of what it is i have come to earn.
a love flowin from within ur core & directed in my direction cuz it's become my turn.

give it to me is all i can say as my tongue waters the closer u get.
i feel u slidin up my leg & it's drivin me wild as u get with ur fasinatin fix.

easin up to losin the straps that cling to ur body showin what i am about to receive.
takin ur time to show how it is u've been wantin me & i do believe.

the way u nibble on thy ear n tell me ur so in love with me.
cripple me as i am unable to move from the beauty u possess as if i were in a dream.

u work on the clothing i jus had upon men in the way of ur plans comin into focus.
i'm hooked & stuck in the moment as u illustrate how a woman can do a lil hocus pocus.

oh how u make me oooh & ahhh as i grab & wanna turn this thing around.
show u how i get down but this is not my show so i'll jus sit back smile & let u go to town.

& i'd love to give u a lil somethin somethin but i'm to into the things u do.
so perfect & jus the way i like it as i feel how u prove the woman in u.

above thy shadow

rememberin how alone it felt.

dealin wit the cards i was delt.

thinkin back on a time of loss.

feelin as if abandoned when tossed.

then was all i wanted in the now.

now wantin a love not so foul.

bringin up the past before my mind.

acceptin how i got here in time.

feelin yesterday is dead & gone.

for today tells me i'm only a pawn.

survivin by ways that make me, me.

plantin roots & growin new seeds.

pain & what's left to gain takin place.

over the b.s. & winnin the race.

standin tall above thy shadow.

yet still in the mix of the everlastin battle.

on the tip of my tongue

ur love sits on the tip of my tongue. as if it were a peer n it was lookin out on the most beautiful sunset. yet it's u it stares in amazement at. & i can understand why it smiles the way it does. as it's feet dangles & swings, splashin in the water gettin wet.
patiently watchin as it slowly loses it's breath. in complete satisfaction on the sights of the horizon in the distance givin so much. warmth. gain of life within it's soul. with a twinkle in it's eye that does not fade when the sun goes down. quietly wantin it to hurry with a rush.
sittin under the moons glow as if it were content on the break of day to show ur pretty face. my love is in love with u. day dreamin on the tip of my tongue. lost in ways one can only try & understand something that feels so true.

formin n easin

brinin it to the surface.

with ever more purpose.

givin love a run for it's money.

smilin cuz life is so damn funny.

showin my true self inside out.

happiness leaks as love mounts.

tongue tied from long nights shared.

speakin a twang filled with pride that cares.

moans n groans n feelins of knowin.

emotions slowly formin n easin n flowin.

wake me

closin my eyes is like losin u.
fightin sleep fallin into......
wakin in dream land.
lost again as a man.
searchin for my everything.
n trippin on what's happenin.
now ur here n then ur gone.
wit a blink of an eye time becomes to long.
wantin to grab u as ur outta touch.
ur in the distance n it's to much.
my heart pounds in single beats.
love rythms movin my feet.
chasin the thought of u in my head.
n i can't creep up to u as u disapear before it's said.
ilu screams from my lips in an uncontrolled emotion.
spinnin heads in such a loose motion.
yet ur face is never present.
n it's got me hesitant.
i jus wanna wake before i lose me here.
cause here is where i am losin u in fear.
wake me sometime soon if u will.
cause i am layin way to still.
i am missin u in such an empty hole.
frustrated n i feel me beginnin to fold.
shake me n bring me back.
i wanna be there with u fast.
for i am alone here n unable to find u.
wake me n let me tell u ilu.
listen to how i feel for u.
jus wantin to be with u.

from the past to now

situations changing. every now & then staring at someone new. finding out more about me & who people really are every time. more connected with truth & it is sad. always coming back around asking self what is the problem? feeling lost to regain a love & watch it slip once again. what the hell? but one is only giving a chance to love. it is up to those whom have it in their grasp to hang on with all their might. fight & give what they can allow to be be shared & bared. as i walked away time & time again because i knew she wasn't the one. i was dealt vice versa once as i was left standing still. with wonder stretched across my face. i am me. they all loved me. but i can not say the same.not in the way love needs to exist. i only loved one of them. & she got my all. broke me down playing games. but it is quite alright. i can say i have learned the most valuable thing dealing with love. & that is to just let it happen. i always new time will tell on us all. yet i dissected every last one of them. & i believe it was because i knew they were not my one. good times float around in my head of times i did enjoy. but other times i could not surpass press them down inside me. forcing reality to join me in the break of a new day. past loves gone a stray. some worth a thought & others as sad as it sounds i wish i could forget & knew it would never be long before it would end. but as i sit & day ream of where i have been. i am thankful for the lessons i put myself through as well as one has given the time to help me find me myself & i. i have no regrets. sorrow does not fill this heart of mine. for i found the one i call love on my journey in which i was so alone. i have connected with a lovely woman that is as perfect as i could ever ask for. she fits my every move. makes me feel like i am gliding my way through life. & i can honestly say for what i have been through has been the road back to her. the path i walked was suppose to happen so i would never hurt her. for i never truly understood love til my heart was broken. talked a good tongue & knew so much. but it was as if i needed to feel how it felt to lose someone or something to appreciate the time spent. the love shared. the desire of an others touch. once upon a time i knew nothing because it meant nothing to me. & now where i stand is where i exactly want to be. without a doubt. i have finally come to believe in love. in a new state of mind i feel it without a touch. see it in a stare from across the room. & hear it when i listen as it tickles me within. completing me. & i have those to thank before her. without them to do their part in finding where they belong. i would still be out there lost & in wonder of where it is i am to be. i will forget them not. & i will take with me what i have learned & apply it to what it is i want the most. who i share it with is indeed mind blowing. & all the more reason i am more greatful for my past. for i have been molded into what stands in the flesh. from the past til now i have shape shifted my inner self. for me. for i did not like who i was. & i came out on top for what i have created. a real individual facing life in the eyes. having love in the heart. & playing not a single game. i stand a man so in love with the woman of my dreams. & truly do not know what i did to get her. but i will take it as my lessons on my way to her has come to pass. for i now know what it takes to live life with love.

one of a kind

speakin of love i've figured a way to allow it in without a doubt.
thinkin of ways to win this bout and let it play it's own way out.
dreamin of my one to say my name without all the games.
wonderin how long til we're one in the same under the a flame.
givin all of me in which i've never come to ever be committed.
acceptin my one has come around to be just as interested.
lovin the moment in time i have to waist a lil breath on the best.
claimin my one and leavin the world with the rest of its guests.
pleasin the man within me as he is in between all the ugly i've seen.
livin a dreamt up dream made for two to become the perfect scene.
losin ones self in love of an others oracle as it feels so easily practicle.
inablin my will to run as if i would dare to leap back into life's obstacles.
findin the one true thing i've seeked out and only came close just to retreat.
runnin i ran into my one standin still greetin my will with a smile worth more than what life seems to be.

this thing

creativity outta wake. @ a loss for words. minds been a lil busy. minds been wrapped around u. thoughts givin in on tryin to find true love. now before me. i can not explain it. this mind blowin episode of hearts connectin. this thing of feelin so utterly complete. i need not to disect anything this time around. it feels so right. in ways where i have become satisied. content in whom it is i kiss. that one thing that is so small but means so much. i get lost in ur eyes. n am mezmoriesed by ur face n the way u are. blank stares form upon my face. expressin this thing that seems to have become so real. unbelievable real. til u whipser ilu. n my heart feel a beat skipped n lost somewhere within the vein. windin up sort of breath. as if i choke on the after effects of somethin so pure. i havn't a doubt in my mind where this thing is headed. u are the one i've been waitin on my whole life. n time has finally come to realize such a love exists. one that gives meanin to each n every letter of it's existance. from the touch to the power of fulfillment. i have learned many things on my way back to u. now ready so i don't hurt u. i have grown into a man with meanin n purpose. behind every word shapin my mouth. i have created me for me for u to enjoy. it's funny how things turn out. we were taken from one an other yrs ago. n this thing we hold together is stronger than i've ever felt. misplacin the one thing i am so good at. riddlin a rhyme for the mouth to taste. n i don't know how you've always done it. but i like this thing we have.

my one

it's such a long time since uv taken so much space up in my mind.

roamin carelessly with movements of love strokin my time.

it's as if uv lived within me through all the yrs past gone n lost that's faded.

the places uv been inside me without havin u is a process in which i've waited.

emptiness of someone gone all pointed in ur direction day in n day out.

lovers came n lovers went without a bein missed between the drouts.

all livin up to u in a hide n seek faze played out inside my head.

tryin to find u within them without turnin somethin good ugly now dead.

with over a decade over a decade under the belt i was lost without u in my life.

thoughts n wonders of not knowin for so long i slowly faded from the hype.

jus to find u n have my dreams come to a close so it had appeared.

now knowin i am what u were wantin n waitin on time to give a chance to cheer.

this blows my mind in ways i can not explain with words though i have tried.

ur my all, my one, my lady, my love n i am so in love with u as i reply.