to ease

healing from the inside. in a place i've shielded and hidden from this world for so long. let one in and it's broken before things ever took off. wonder why i never allowed anyone to enter. i knew from a young age not to do so. but nooooooo! i had to feel something with someone i knew would do it to me. but it's all good. i got my scar. i've felt the pain from a desire of wanting someone. and i'd love to do it again. only next time i know what it is i'm looking for. with a lil time under my belt to ease this hole in my chest. i'm going to get back at it and chase down a long lost friend. see where it may go. someone i can trust who won't purposely twist me up. nor throw me away. hopefully one i can find that one thing in. it's been so long. and feelings still linger in the air. n i like it because the feelings are mutual. willing to ease into it. but being honest enough to express wanting more. my future looks good.