long ago

it's been so long. where in the hell did you go. vanished like the night. reappearing as if your face never lost it's glow. it's been so long since time allowed me to see your breath taking smile. and you still have a place deep in my minds secret file. i remember how i use to sneak a peek as if you were to knock me off my feet. you were my first crush and you made me feel so weak. and here we are years later as strangers finding our way talking today. me, in a stage of shutting down and you're just strolling along making my day. it's funny how i never stood up and took my chance on you. i didn't know you felt the same way about me that i felt about what brewed. wow, only if i would've spoken up so long ago before the watch got misplaced. i'm not trying to jump into anything until my recent past has been erased. and that could take quite a while to come to close. but friends are a must because we have a history that has been froze. needing to be thawed out by conversation to catch up on where we've been. my intentions are good and what i have in store is not a sin. friends reuniting as long as possible until time gives a chance. allowing my heart to heal from a very good gone bad dance. it seems like yesterday we were all goofing off with out a care in the world.
my shy ass was to chicken shit to say anything to try, like a little girl.
but it's all good, times have changed me into a man i have come to love.
and in time i know we're both looking for the one who fits like a glove.
but right now you have things going on for you and i'd never cause you any problems.
so friends we can be and catch up on good times lost in between our troubles.
the rest is time and patience of seeing what is and what will be.
and i'm okay with that scenario playing out to hopefully set this long ago now finally face to face thing free with thee.