deserted feelings

outstretched hands slipping from fingertips.
loose grips, the heart takes its final hit.
eyes swell in its wells full of pain emerging.
facing this world and feeling undeserving.
palms pour with sweat making hands slide.
as the evil pit within one can no longer hide.
emotion flips and inner rage forms.
hating the deserted feelings of being purposely torn.
minds rolling into a state of shock.
hands attached to the head because it will not stop.
the pounding hurts and the minds over worked.
heart aches and irrelevance bleeps unforgivable words.
feeling the dying of something once so good.
willing to change everything, only if one could.
confusion settles rattling the nerves once made of steel.
left wondering wtf is the purpose of this fucked up ordeal?
fighting within ones self as if self is to blame.
losing another love to a selfish played out game.