? hmm

? hmm. questions and answers.
black and white and shades of gray.
lies, truth, and fibs.
smiles and frowns with blank stares.
opposites of the same things we feel.
trust, betrayal and deceit.
to quietly speak or verbally abuse our voices.
talk in silence, sneaky little secrets, ignoring the choices.
or became a rat fuck weasel, retrieving.
thinking or brain washed into believing.
good, evil, or something rewritten as an atheist.
the balance of man and woman, .
alive walking dead in2 the sun where the shade hides.
having sight or blinded, raped of the chance 2 see with 2 eyes.
hearing what you will or want over everything needing to be said.
struggling with trying to get you share, b4 your dead.
give face and stand for yours or turn away for sake of self.
fend or flee, turning on those who have bared knuckles 2 give you good health.
relax and on edge of everything you've ever known.
loyalty or self gratification, how do you wear your thrown?
learn and disregard info that will help the bumps upon your head.
over look or show some interest in someone willing 2 live and share a bed.
trust thy neighbor or see them for whom they are.
pretend or be real in the eyes of the earned flesh ripped scars.
you or me, bending on knees.
faith and disbelief, chasing untouched dreams.
fuck or fight til the death to live another day.
bleed or cower in2 a hole where you lay as a shaken prey.
shake firmly and fist those enemies of ones time in hard ache.
clinch or release the ignorant for all they do is hate.
give and and take form those who do nothing but want everything 4 nothing.
help and thank or fuck off with a fuck you as it becomes an endless fucking.
things that make us who we are are how we deal with adult situations.
human or what? lead me not in2 the errogent temptations
begin and end, we all have one living in the middle.
hide or stand proud of the actions we do more than diddle.

i've found my peace

remembering the tasteful words of love, as you come from out the blue,
a rose not yet bloomed you swept me from my feet and showed me something new.
without knowing you gave me everything i've never known,
giving me my final touches of sanity as you became someone i put upon a thrown.
secretly in love with you for years as if you were deserving, not earning it,
refusing to accept me as if i were just speaking another line of shit.
like men do so often as you rejected the man you didn't want to know,
not knowing i've turned out to be the best thing you may never get to hold.
and i'm moving on without you running the tables of the mind for the first time,
enjoying my piece in which i've found peace within me along side the sighs.
and the question still remains of why wasn't i good enough,
i am all man in a time where men are rare and over acting tough.
but it's all god with me as you've decided to pass me by,
because now i can get on with the rest of what i have left of my life.
after 15 years i've now have a clear head for once like i've never been able to do,
since i've met you i dreamed of the things i could do for you.
and now it's all but a dream that had a short lived life that never got a real chance to take flight,
you couldn't find me talking all that as you seen it, smooth jive.
and i'm not complaining one bit by far for any desperate outstretched reason,
i'm just blowing on by in the wind, right on by as it's breezing through the seasons.
moving along because i know my worth that you couldn't find the time to wonder why you were on my mind,
turning your head on the drop of a dime like i wasn't the man i am inside.
but yet i'm me and that's all i'll ever be until the day i die,
with or without you by my side, telling me everything will be alright.
for there will be another to fill my nights in ways she is so deserving.
living a life so damn fulfilling as we just can't get enough of it's servings.
laid out like a feast before us to enjoy like as if we were royalty in each others arms,
so know this of if you know anything at all, you'll be missed but life must go on.

cum trol

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that one

seems everyone is looking for that thornless rose like it exists.
open hearted every now and then with infectious intentions.
getting along n accepting someone other than themselves.
in anothers voice, listening for the sounds of speechless bells.
for that is what it takes to make it the distance beyond going through the motions.
past the games and the bullshit of all the worthless commotion.
being held like no one could have ever done in a million years.
not worrying about the hard times or the awaiting shedding tears.
falling in love with a stranger, getting closer than air wants to allow.
tempting time to show you how to turn your fraun upside down.
asking away at questions that time can only tell.
just wanting to be held and feel things you've never ever felt.
who can blame you in the short time you have to live in the window you can not slow down.
wanting more then anything to believe in what you have found.
finding the other half of ones self, looking for a best friend.
that one that fills the empty hollow pit and spending a life worth the time well spent.

girls on boys

nails sliding down the back, clinching needing the stroking deep and hard of fuck session 101 as it is unable to be tamed.
i won't stop until you get every inch, rubbing your pain across from within down my back, carving your name.
finger tips slipping with all the thrusting as i pound my way into your anatomy.
rolling, switching positions, giving up control for you safety, over taking you gradually.
flipping back over for the ravaging, man handled in ways you never thought you'd like by far.
pleasing the sexual tension bursting from your panties before i took them off, over flowing, feel me, i'm so fucking hard.
this thing i am giving is real, long and wide enough to fill your world and mind with the dirty little thoughts that make you want to return.
feel me penetrate as i intimidate the woman in you until you have learned.
i am not what you are use to as it shows upon my face of how much i've been wanting you.
ohh, the things i am so willing to do to someone as gratifying as you.
flirting with the skin laid upon you beautiful ever so tasteful little frame.
driving you in every which way, right and left then to the end where i'd stop before the edge and go again until you go fucking insane.
slowly breaking speed just to give it hell, my hips in a rotating motion, back and fourth and it seems my ass is touching the back of my head.
perfecting everything i've learned on my way to you late at night to the floor from the bed.
loving the moment in which we are in, vibing, letting it happen because it is a must do.
fighting for the time shared to become the only thing on your mind, because your over due.
accepting the smell of your being, grabbing hold, hair flung by the hand as i explore what no other can that a real man can.
turning you out as your on all fours, going strong as my rib begins to crack in pain.
wanting you to cum for me so i feel i've done my job, persuading you to give in.
bust for me and enjoy what it is i am, a man simply trying to make you grin.
pushing you to the point of over comed by an ease of pleasure and relief, as i can be the that one.
pulsating inside you, so far within, til the sweat rolls down and your out of breath, spent and done.
you will never be the same, waking up searching for me to come back around.
legs shaking from the walk your legs are unable to withstand.
i could be the perfect ending to a day worth living.
if given the time to properly be with the woman within you, peeking and hiding.
don't be scared, it will only hurt a little, i'd be as gentle as i could.
being girls and boys, playing an acheint little game, yet only if you would?

u

fluttering heartbeats pulsating 2 ur name as i call it out loud 2 myself in da middle of da night when im all alone.
ticklin da taste of da sound it makes , drivin me outtta my mind cuz ur not around 2 hold me close.
i want u in my arms enjoyin this feelin i have to give bouncin around inside of me like fireworks. so u can attempt 2 feel what it is i intend 2 do wit u if ur were 2 give urself 2 me in full, as we'd rewrite da book n cause our own sparks.
words can not express enough of me 2 u as i try 2 show da man i am in ways a man can not seem 2 express in modern days.
jus wantin 2 feel like a man long nuff 2 let a woman kno he 2 can b tamed as his smile can also fade.
wantin u inside of me so u can feel the feelings that i feel 4 u as our time grows shorter tryin 2 find da reasons y we've met.
i know i like u so much love could slip @ any moment as i ask y do u make me feel like this lil kid hopin 2 have found his catch.
u r driven me crazy in more ways than one all @ once confusing everthing i thought i'd always kno.
i cant diddle as the mind thinks da thoughts buildin up 2 dis outburst of true feelins cramed in2 an easy flow.
like as if my world has come 2 u in this special place we've managed 2 stand 2gether long nuff 2 wannna b n stay 2gether.
never sayin never, wantin it 2 b 4ever with words gathered in phrases ever so clever.
if u could feel the heat generating in my heart over your smile alone.
what would u do if it were 2 express its true intentions in da palm of ur hand as u held it close nuff 2 realize u could welcome it home?

(now)

yesterdays are lost, visions of those burried under the dirt the mind hides as it pretends it does not hurt. embedded into a code of remembrance burnt across the sight of dreams haunting on1 because they were cut off well before the needed to end. finalizing the present as it slips into the past, further and further as its harder than ever to recollect the faces misplaced in a window time allowed once upon a time. with its own terms pressed against your lips as you taste the emptiness over take everything good. loved ones raised and lowered. left in ruins. cringes of loss taunting and teaching you of how it would love to break you so far down. six feet if able. tomorrows are not expected, though we live for another day to love once again. cries of self pity. untamed and outspoken, screaming aloud of life's capabilities in disbelief. fair has no say so in this game of endless defeat awaiting it's time to claim it's prize in all of us left breathing it's precious air. no regrets other than wanting more time to make things right before those we embraced once upon a time knows how much they were loved. and still it could never be enough. today's place in time is all we ever have to hold and feel til it just was everything we have ever wanted. slipping from forced hands made to let go. one will never be the same after all has gone to hell. feeling desperate and fragile so far from love in a moment of confusion of how one will go on without bending to far as to letting it break you. unable to feel the arms of someone special wrapping in love like they were here forever as this world provides you with evidence why life is to short. reasons unspoken by ones end calling in their own time of being released of their very own existence. with out a goodbye ninety percent of the time. and as we parish as individuals. life pursues on like we never mattered at all. turning the long night s of loneliness into days of someone one wish they had back. and days fade back into night just to make curtain we all know we are nothing more than ash blowing in the wind. from where we came from years ago to now. we are all still the same flesh and bone no matter how much we change emotionally or mentally. and if we make it into the future, what is it you would do to make sure those around you knew what they mean to you? because time is not waiting. we can not hold onto the hands ticking around the clock. showing us our lives are escaping and ever so slowly fading. minutes falling into hours that build into days upon days forming months and years lost in time we can never get back to. and were always wanting yesterday back? always looking out for the future? pretending our now will get so much better? fuck that! my now is all i have. it is the only thing we all really have . no matter how we spend it, it remains the same. and i am going to enjoy mine.

4-23-10 mamas b-day

seems floating kisses sprung from my lips fall short,
muah's that can not reach her on rainy days,
being forced down by the drops into puddles beneath my feet,
above her unable to find the expression upon her face.

blown away by the wind far from where they were intended,
smiles lost and struggling with a tweak,
fluttering in the breeze flowing by,
misplaced in time without a friend to ease my defeat.

and the way i have been missing her is unreal,
trying to replace someone that is irreplaceable,
grieving in time as time forgets her name,
all in while her face losing ground as she is unmistakable.

without the picture to remind me of who gave me life,
she would be almost vague as time goes by,
closer to being totally gone in my time of dying,
with no one to know of her existance as i try without crying.

i attempt to help my young know who she was,
through the photos she left behind of a life cut short,
her breath stopped as we sat still taking in the empty horror,
man i wish she could walk through my door.

lift me up as she has been gone for far to long,
and this pain is only dragging on,
warm teardrops falling every year about this time,
and it is as if my love has been torn.

ripped from my chest as i am left dumbfounded,
studering without a voice standing above her once again,
at a loss of words repeating question marks over and over in my head,
wondering if i were to die tomorrow, would anyone remember her name?

(my piece-peace)

feeling it because i am human after all. emotions getting the better of me tonight.
losing touch. down in a hole to say the least. stuck in this world i have created unable to get ahead. a single dad of three struggling when alone. trying to find my way day by day. and behind these eyes i see me falling apart eventually. i feel an emptiness deep within eating at me. telling me the fight is to much. there is not enough loot coming in to maintain the necessities. this is my world smacking me in the face. and i can not get ahead. though it be so easy to walk away like so many so called men. but i can not seem to allow another man raise my young. i love them to much to turn my heart on them. and i am finding it hard to be with someone . in a normal relationship because they deserve a real woman's touch. touch meaning someone can maintain and help hold it down. but i do not see it happening before they leave me old and to late for love. trying to find a new life with someone because my old one i gave my everything, seemed to come to an end. as i remember the lonely nights and pain i felt making the bills. wanting it no other way but possible having someone to fill my nights. i do not live a typical mans life. it is more like a single moms way of life. and even this is holding me down. jobs not interested because i might have to take time off because i have three kids that might get sick. good jobs that hold them against me. i know what it is. my work record is pretty good. good references. and yet? it sucks ass. i want the finer things in life as well. it just seems those with kids are somehow held down when things do not work out and separate lives are being lived because it just did not work out. i do not get child support. i do not care for i have my kids. i do the best i can. squeaking by. running out of everything fast. i sure am glad i am good with the greenbacks. i would be in a world of hurt right about now. i think i just need to join forces with someone who can do the same. mature enough to keep her head. because there is so much more to me than being laid up in comfort, as nice as that may be. my mind works in ways that understands the concept and importance of the meaning of how this world works. and i am willing to do my part plus some. i just have not been that fortunate as of yet. even though i try and i look for new opportunities. i will be 45 when my youngest walks his stage to entering this worlds wrath. as i would have done what i could for him to prepare him for what he may see or endure or find along his way. 45, wow! i just may be alone just that long. because i a m looking for something within someone. and i will not stop til i find it. i will not say what it is. that way it can not be imitated. it will be as real as it presents itself. i know what i want. i know what i seek. i found it once. and it slipped away. finding it twice is going to be a task. for whoever decides to fill those shoes id going to have to be one hell of a woman. as i would expect them to want the same in a man. allowing each other to be self in full. but like i said i do not see it happening any time soon. and it is no ones fault. it is just what it is. i am not 21 anymore.i am not 26, nor am i 31. i am closing in on my mid thirties. and i feel i have failed. i feel i am not enough and have to much baggage with not enough money. but on the other hand i believe i am one hell of a man, dad, person, realist, lover, partner, and friend because i took a look at myself one day. and in that mirror i found in camouflage, something i could not believe. i found me waking up with my world around me falling apart because i was not yet a man. and i have done everything within my grasp to become just that. i molded myself within my childrens eyes, someone whom the like a whole lot more. i feel respected in their minds and loved in their hearts. touching a piece of them that will live on long after i am dead and gone. this i know. what i do not know is what i am to do in the present with two clinching fists that refuse to let go. yet, does not know how to ease the tension and find a way to enjoy the time i have left to live. it is harder than i thought. always worrying. thinking. trying to pay the bills from stretched dollars, ripping and falling into coins saved for a rainy day. what to do without that second income? without that one person that fits good enough to make the ends last. and still be able to smile come morning looking at my ugly mug. i have grown up and am ready. it might sound like i am desperate, but this i am not. i am just ready to get this thing going with someone who can relate regardless of age. that does not matter anymore. as long as she is truly about it and is a real woman. because i am all man. broke here recenlty by someone that gave me my final touch of sanity. (FMA) opening my mind as i so needed. i just wish she knew how much of a thank you i owe her. and how i would love to be. yet i will stay forever in her debt. always a friend in the hardest of times. i do not believe in much. but i do believe everyone has a reason why they come into our lives. most make you stronger. some show you how to love.(TEP) others keep you on your toes. and then there are those who teach you something you need to know. adding to your arsenal. giving you the power and strength to keep moving along. and i am on the watch for that one because my minds sight has finally come into focus. and i am able to see why we must do as we do in a mature manor of being human. i get it. but what is it i am lacking for my circle to come around full swing and allow me to be happy? because it is hard for the profile i fit, yet am not one bit like. only if one knew. i have to much depth to wear another mans shoes and start all over again. if just given the time to be found as i write this piece of my inner self trying to explain where it is i am coming from. looking for just that. (my piece-peace) landing in a curious enough ear to hear me speak of who i am as time will show just that..

no where to be found

sittin round pokin fun @ myself cuz im bored as hell.
aint got shit 2 do but feel on me n no1 can tell.
i need sumtin 2 do b4 i lose my cool.
i feel like an empty soul n a lonely fool.
sumtin aint right half the time.
seems im lookin 4 sumtin dat cant fit me rhymes.
postin like an addict i feel me wearin away.
constantly feenin 4 sum1 2 look my way.
not jus any1 by far, im not desperate.
but by sum1 dat can stop it.
cuz my fingers r tired of my minds way of thinkin.
they jus wanna bottle so we can get 2 drinkin.
u dont kno how it feels or maybe u do.
2 jus want sum1 to get lost in u.
n yet their no where 2 b found.
like as if they left without a sound.
leavin dreams untouched b4 enjoyed the way they should.
passed by n ova looked bcuz of a category 1 fits fuckin up his mood.
sux azz is wat i say on a daily.
but jus maybe, its all in da way i find my baby.
feelin torchered for other mens ways of how theyve done their thing.
set on da back burner cuz i look like i jus wanna fling.
but time will give in n give me mine.
it's jus a matter of time.

whew!

wet, 2 say the least. i can see it as your spread about upon the sheets. staring and giving that look the way i like. and from the looks of your eyes, it is going 2 be a slow ride as i attempt 2 blow your mind. erotic lust, vibrating moans. wanting 2 get at that thing that can make us explode. breathing deep in2 the ear. as your glare pulls and edges me ever so near. ready 2 do all the things we've been waiting 2 do. you've opened up and are wanting 2 feel me deep within you. but i must slow my roll and make you wait, so this night will will remember as your great escape. for i have 2 please you first. as i plan 2 try and relieve my thirst. way down between your thighs. in the valley where my tongue likes 2 hide.
playing peek-a-boo watching you squirm in the movement of the motions as you try 2 fight.
thinking of how i can create a masterpiece with a simple stroke, oh so right. playing with the sounds that tickle the ear by human nature. from your woman within , as i control your weather. making the winds pick up, the thunder growl, and the water flow from above. taunting and teasing your love. as i am taking my time 2 feel you wiggle. i am just trying 2 keep this thing we're doing simple. as hard as it may be 2 not 2 take you now. as hard as i am wanting 2 help you and show you how. ease on back as your spine arches upward feeling my presents. believing in what i can do as there is no resistance. time consuming as it is i hear my song, and i enjoy tasting it for it is what i 'v wished for o so long. lock jaw and all i will not give in, til you've had enough and want me 2 put it in. gripping at my head you grab my hair. pulling me up to share what i intend 2 bare. hovering i slide in easy enough and ever so slow. showing you how my manhood as a man is so full grown. pushing and pulling, slipping and sliding. thrusting i am wanting you in perfect timing. going for long moments, and longer sessions at a time, faster then slower. creeping, picking up speed as your nails are clinging, wanting more and more. closer and closer we accept one another in an act of lust. guard down and pulsating we begin 2 trust at what love intends 2 do with us. we've found what it is we've long 2 explore. an experience like no other, leaving our clothes at the door. as sweet passionate moans and groans fill the room. listening 2 the bed go boom, boom, boom. working, i give you everything i am. wanting 2 express 2 you how i feel as i begin 2 ram. heavy panting, toes higher than ever, in the air. allowing me 2 penetrate you so far in between and way up in there. touching places you didn't know existed. clawing at my back, double fisted as if you've missing this. sweat pouring, tasting lips, sucking of the neck. all in an act of
turning you on, making you a nervous wreck.
releasing all the days stress you've built up through the day.
as i am lending myself 2 you so you are able 2 maintain. and the time has come 2 feel a miracle waiting 2 happen as we were meant 2 share. together, busting, climaxing, ahhh! losing control of all functions because we cared 2 dare. whew! we are a perfect pair.

@aol.com

this is my life. this is the way i'm headed. saying these things i express open hearted. falling on restless ears. to bad there my own. i wish i could have had that one thing we all crave. i would have loved it forever. but my one thing has me becoming more than i could have ever wanted to be. tapping out my insides long enough to read them to self from time to time so i do not forget where i have been. because i do not want to return. this is what my world consists of. me and those whom surround me. the company i keep. new faces. old stories. all telling my version of life in the way i have seen it. what i have learned. things i have endured on my journey. the pain and the tears that make feeling something as simple as a touch feel so damn important before my time will come to pass. we all wish on someone every now and then. some more than others. some other than lovers. but all and all, we all just want the same thing. happiness. we just have different outlooks on what it is. and thats when people become assholes and bitches. honestly, we are all trying to live before we die. as time gets closer to running out and life seems to be slipping away. we change from someone we always thought we would be. into someone that can not stand who we were. it is strange how time can force its ways upon us ever so slowly. helping some of us find our ways and others find themselves lost forever. but these are my words of dying as i am living he best i can. finding me. finding my way. learning what this world has to offer. never under estimating that my time can come today. just wish someone would listen other than me. i have figured who i am and what life is. and i am ready to just live. this is my page in time to give back the appreciation valued within me. i will never come fake. always true to me. and yes i miss some people in my life. wish others would go away. and then some, i wish a little more for, for my own personal gain. but that is life. what are we to do when you have the facts before you. but just that. keeping it moving because life is to damn short. if you blink you just might miss the very thing that could have made the difference like no other. yet we categorize ourselves and others. labels. groups and it's a shame how we can turn our heads without finding out who someone is. allowing one person to set your mind for you. all because they did you wrong. now u have to take it out on others in an unaware way of silence. not everyone is a bad thing. but hey! what do i know. this world knows everything anyway. unable to accept honesty when someone speaks the truth. like it can not learn. i am not the same person i was when i was a kid. nor 4 years ago. i have become a true man. someone i can look in the mirror at. someone my kids can look up to. and i got names and numbers of those who could tell you the same. as i would of them. man or woman. and as i ramble i can not seem to say enough. but i am done with saying this. i am just me and i just want to live as n my time, my window, my chance ...................dot@aol.com

lets just be

i could write all day on diddles of you, say many things i wish would come true. walking in a stroll, burying our toes in the sand, me n u hand in hand, woman and man. doing our thing til we just cant get enough, then do it all over because we love it so much. get lost in something other than lust, far beyond something as simple as a crush. ready to find out what it is we crave in each other. and why it is our love had to suffer without one another. lost and wondering in and out of lives that never seem to stay around. becoming numb and distant, cold and hateful, making evil sounds. til we collide with that one that understands and can maintain our heads. with a heart that is less than half empty willing to be filled with things needing to be said. listening to something real enough to catch an interest. hoping we don't wind up on the end of a long lost list trying to be more than a witness. climbing our way out of another hole we can not stand to bare. so lets just be and let be and see where it goes before the end comes to soon and again it seems it is never fair. allow me to fight for what it is you give so naturally til you can not give no more. wanting and desiring you so passionately as i would love to pick your heart up off the floor. find our fantasy dancing in the rain and watch the sun wash away the silhouette we have lived with for years. feeling the heat from the breath expressed upon our lips and neck from someone that has the same fears. no longer needing someone to imitate a shadow within our minds. yet accepting something new in which we can not hide.

the goods

feeling something in the way i use 2 try n feel with someone i would've done anything for.
once upon a time when my mind was clear and i was all the man i needed to be coming up short.
finding my smile in someone elses eyes for a short time before i lay it down in there arms.
knowing iv found me prize and im happy to share something pure coming from my heart.
she doesnt have to be great. doesnt have to cherish me in anyway. just has to be her.
someone willing to find me finding her as we find each other finding our way together.
patiently strolling along whispering silent words of love deep in her each others ears telling time what (we) plan to do.
accepting one another in ways no one could fill a void if they were allowed in to even try because its made for two.
who is she? i do not know anymore. where is she? i couldnt tell you where she went. but im carefully looking under every rock and over every mountain.
shes out there, holding out. making me make her let me in. taking it easy and feeling something worth playing with till there is no end?
you see i know what im doing and i know without a doubt what it is i want.
i thought i found it once upon a time ago when my dreams were coming into play.
but it was only a learning process that made me stronger in ways im able to feel again.
to try and live without someone lingering inside my head for reasons i do not know why their there?
allowing me to finally set myself free and live a true love worth giving to someone as i can care.
its the goods and im looking because ive come to realize you cant make someone love you.
you cant force someone to feel you, find you, want you or even trust you.
you can only put yourself out there and hope that someone is real enough to at least take the time to get to know you before you get there.
well before you turn and walk away with your patients in hand feeling rejected after simply just trying to get somewhere.
learning valuable information about yourself youve never thought youd ever learn.
in ways the mind over turns the heart so it dont get burnt again, as lesson are learned.
wars have been fault and love is face to face with yopu because its time to get it done.
time for life to begin and make you finally feel like you have won.
becoming one with someone who has become a friend of friends above all others.
above all the emotions n thoughts of what its suppose to be, and just let things play out and be more than lovers.

IN DA BUBBLE

WAT IF U WERE 2 GET IN? WAT IS IT U INTEND 2 DO WIT ME? WAT IS UR INTENTIONS? WOULD U B CONTENT JUS LIVIN GOIN THRU DA MOTIONS N WATCHIN 2 C WHERE IT GOES? WAT IF U GOT IN N DIDNT C WAT U WANTED 2 C WITH IN ME N QWAS SWANTIN MO? DO U THINK UD STILL THINK OF ME DA SAME? TELL ME IF UR WERENT FEELIN ME OR PLAY DA SAME PLAYED OUT GAMES. WAT IF MY BUBBLE DIDNT NEED 2 B POPPED? WAT IF IT NEEDED REPAIRED N U WERE ABLE 2 STOP DA BLEEDIN? WOULD U CARED? IF U WERE 2 SUMHOW FIND UR WAY THRU DA CRACKS N FOUND MY PAST? WOULD U CARE BOUT HOW I LEARNED FROM IT N CRASHED IN2 ME? WOULD IT MAKE A DIFFERENCE? COULD U FIND DA PATIENTS LONG NUFF 2 FIND WHO SUM1 IS B4 MAKIN EM ACNIENT HISTORY? NEVA TASTIN DA MYSTERY DISPLAYED IN MY EYES. WATS DA ODDS OF U STICKIN ROUND NEVA WANTIN 2 SAY GOODBYE? FEELIN DA FLIGHT OF DA FIGHT ONES WILLIN 2 FLY LIKE A KIT, ENJOYIN DA FUN IN DA SUN. JUS CUZ HE CAN N IS WILLIN 2 HAND IN HAND. DO U REALLY WANT IN? IF SO, COME GE SUM. SIT BACK N KICK IT. CHAT N TALK 2 SUM1 WILLIN 2 MAKE CONVERSATION. NEVA IMMITATIN DESPERAPTION 2 B LOVED. CUZ HE KNOWS WAT IT MEANS 2 B WANTED. KNOWIN OF ITS POWER 2 LIVE A LIFE WORTH DA TIME 2 SHOW HOPE. WAT IF U FOUND DA 1 U LOST LONG AGO WITHIN U IN ME. FEELIN SO ALIVE! ABLE 2 EXPRESS ALL DA JIVE U GOT GOIN ON IN UR MIND. N POURIN OUT UR HEART IS EVERYTHING U WANTED 2 FIND WITH SUM1, FINDIN A FRIEND OF FRIENDS. WANTIN 2 B WITH EM TIL THERE IS NO END AS IT CREEPS UP ON U. SLOWLY ALLOWIN U 2 B TOUCHED N PLEASED IN WAYS ONLY LOVE COULD MEND EVERYTHING UV GIVIN UP ON. U. DO U THINK IT B WORTH ANYTHING TRYIN 2 MAKE A LIFE 1 CAN LOOK BACK ON N SMILE @ EVEN DA HARDEST OF TIMES? IN BETWEEN DA CRIES N Y'S. WAT IS IT UR LOOKIN 4 IF ANYTHING @ ALL? WALKIN THRU DIS LIFE ALL ALONE FEELIN SO SMALL? READ UR MIND AS ITS DISPLAYIN DA ANSWERS OF MUTURE NEEDS N WANTS. DO U THINK U CAN FIND IT WITHIN SUM1 LIKE ME? CUZ I THUNK IT, N FOUND U IN MY THOUGHTS. ROAMIN. CLOSTERFOBIC. NEEDIN A BREATH OF FRESH AIR, BUT HEY! DATS JUS WAT I C. CUZ I FEEL DA SAME WAY. U FEEL ME? TIME IS TICKIN. IN OR OUTSIDE DA BUBBLE WHERE HOME RESIDES. TRICKIN US LIKE WERE BEIN PIMPED IN N OUTTS RELATIONSHIPS, HIDIN FROM DA EMOTIONS WE FEAR TIME AFTA TIME.

where r u goin?

i wanna kiss ur lips til da taste of em r stuck 2 mine. caresse u wit my finger tips til we run outta time. roll round n play til da mornin calls our names. n fall asleep in each others arms, dreamin all day. so where r u goin walkin wit a stroll id like 2 watch all day. breezin by ass da wind blows makin me say things a could neva say. loud nuff 2 make whispers blush. creepin by as u give me such a rush. please, slow ur roll n tell me how could i get next 2 u takin my time n enjoy u. do things a man would love 2 do jus tryin 2 get 2 kno u. feelin a need 2 pick u up n neva puttin u down. sweep u so far off ur feet ud forget about da ground. i jus wanna stand next 2 sum1 like u so i can feel wat its like 2 b so fuckin hot. n im findin myself starin in ways i cant seem 2 stop. let me walk n talk n chat n c if or paths hav crossed 4 sum uknown reason we need 2 kno of n y weve met. sit n check if its possible 2 redirect ones heart 2 becomin whole once again in sum1 elses not so perfect lil world as time is spent

dats wat u do

i wish i was there with u, im goin crazy

i need u beside me, takin me

naked, cuddlin me

i wanna feel u wraped around me

drapped in da moment as we'd jus b

u feelin me

wantin me

pleasin me

doin things 2 me i cant explain as we'd b u n me

bein free

touchin n feelin da skin in which we crave

tryin so desperatly 2 behave b4 we give in n escape

as da space in btween has been 4gave

fogotten n closed n attempted 2 b tamed

explorin one another in ways sin would blush

cuz dats wat u do 2 me wit sumtin as simple as a touch.

i kno me

i dont ask 4 nothing. wouludnt expect u 2 undastand.
if i need sumtin i can get it on my own. as a man.
wat im needin is a lil time. a smile n sum1 worth da while.
easin in so smoothly i cant stand it. sum1 id walk dat extra mile.
im very picky but can relax my guard nuff 2 c who u r.
if ur bout wat u say n can go dat far.
watchin da hands of time cuz it seems 2 move a lil slower dat way.
wantin not needin 2 stick round n simply play a grown folks game n stay.
i can do me, 4 me, cuz i know me n i like wat i c.
but wheres ur mind when when u awaken from a dream.
dats wat i wanna kno b4 i can give wat im so able 2 do.
cuz im lookin 2 replace my sihlouette we all hav of dat 1 we'd luv 2 touch, could it b u?
shape shiftin it wit a tweek 2 help u fit in if ur wat im thinkin.
cuz iv had dis shadow dat needs replaced wit sum1 wit meanin.
slowly steppin in2 sumtin i kno nothin of wit an open mind n acceptance.
cuz i kno if its not 4 me or if i can take sum time n hold on in patients.
hangin on 2 time tryin 2 kill dis battle of sleepin alone.
so ur gonna havta b sumtin outta dis world yet feet planted on da ground.
sum1 not so different n full of life n willin 2 share it.
do u hav standards? wat r dey? n do i fit?
can u think of wat is it u want outta sum1 b4 u jump in n bcum 2 realize its not wat u wanted.
cuz im seekin sumtin i can look back on n say i luvd it.
every smile, tear, n drip of sweat dat fell from my brow gettin her done.
i kno i can b me n i kno wat im able 2 express 2 da right 1 if shown sum true interest.
a woman who can do her part n jus let it b wat it is so we can feel n taste wat it is upon our lips.
dat thing dat we want bad nuff cuz we jus click in a way we can co-exsist keepin mind da ova hearts neediness.
always focused enjoyin more den da simpler things fillin da emptyness so life can b sumtin other den a lifeless experience.
i c in many different angles as im able 2 get 2 dat point of wat it is i want.
i kno me n i kno wat it is i can do if givin da chance 2 give it a good grunt.
do u kno u?
hav u found u?
do u kno wat u wantin?
its gotta b sumtin.
wat r ur intentions?
i wanna hear it b mentioned.

can u?

can u c me?
can u try 2 imagin wat it b like?
wat luv could do if ud let it happen.
can u b grown?
can u c 4 urself livin life?
who is it standin wit u ur huggin n laughin?
can u accept me?
can u feel me touchin?
slippin in2 da picture?
can u b willin?
can u get 2 da fillin?
blood pupmin thicker n thicker.
can u b captured my presents?
can u live witout my abscence?
jus wonderin?
can u keep ur head?
can u maintain ur dreams?
witout bein smotherin?
can u in a question of curiousity?
can u cuz im askin?
r u able 2 c da situation?
can u relate?
can u hold ur own debates?
wit out my intimidation?
can u?

oops

i aint in 2 beggin n pleeedin, bleedin from da inside out feenin 4 wat i can not have dats missin from my touchin n squeezin n pleasin as im left dreamin of things that neva got started as we parted b4 we turned cold hearted. neva sparkin a night in btween da days light shinnin in on everything iv been waitin 2 bleep wit a cheesin grin tryin 2 freeze time so itll last long nuff 2 remeber n oops there it went. as i found u leavin my presents. walkin in silence tunin me out remindin me im jus a man n ur freein da mind of clingin thoughts as its gone n done it. releasin me from yrs of wantin sumtin bad nuff 2 chase 4 as long as i could b4 time passed. temptin me in2 actin childish n heavy breathin. but i cant seem 2 beg n begin fleein self 4 sumtin dat wasnt willin 2 find me in a time of needin sum1s face n a moment of simply feelin a chance of livin. jus creepin along neva havin 2 pretend in da face of 1 another jus bein self, hepin wit a lil tlc n sumtin else.

not finished

Seems every now and then I find myself awakening to a new face I'd like to see stick around.
Just wanting some of whats called the good stuff as I'm able to resemble what it is in a woman's eyes, changing her frown.
And its as if shinning smiles keep losing there color as they dim themselves into an everlasting fading ghost escaping.
Like it was all for nothing losing time well spent wasted away without a chance in hell, like being at that point of no returning.
Thought I found my one as she walked on by once upon a time telling me i wasn't enough with silence of saying nothing at all as if I wasn't worth finding.
I got two diamond ear rings I wear I never bought before her to help me remember a time of something I wanted so bad with true intentions overlooked, its numbing.
Failing as coming up short is all I've ever endured as I'm back on my feet staring googlie eyes once again into a strangers face I can't wait to see if it shape shifts or could possibly be the one.
Patiently watching as I always do figuring out angles in which people present themselves in an adult like manor keeping mind over heart so a true song can be sung.
I'm tired of wasting time on coming up short time and time again, whispering to myself late at night whats wrong with me?
Knowing damn well it's not me as I'm looking to find that one that keeps me going letting me be me as she does her in a way we've never seen.
Because I get it and I know what it takes as I will not quit trying because I'm not finished searching for her just yet.
And when I find her I'll know because time will tell as it always does as she loves me till there is no end.

ms. day

u got my mind slippin n dippin in2 ur world. searchin n feelin my way round ur curves. trippin on a lil sumtin sumtin i didnt c cumin. wonderin n thinkin is this happenin. i was jus out n bout creepin wit my peeps feenin. lookin 4 a 1 hit n quit i was livin. twistin my neck i saw u starin n darin me wit those blues n i felt sumtin in me meltin. playin like a puppet in2 ur sweet tastin lips of replenishin da feelin i had put on hold as dey were fadin. sparkin an easin breath of relief when i seen da pointin in my direction n debatin 2 come take me. swingin ova 2 drop ur luvly soundin freshness iv been needin 2 hear smilin. i knew sumtin was different in da way u were walkin n grindin da way i like. talkin n singin n ticklin my hope n teasin my will 2 keep it single as u were flirtin wit eyes of beautifyin hypnosis i was hopin dis was real n i wasnt dreamin. could u b fittin in2 my style of woman? dat sihouette iwas hidin. movin n dancin it felt i was waitin on da wrong woman as u were temptin 2 get in2 my world of sumtin other than what i may hav been doin @ da point of knowin u were indeed single n free 2 mingle wit me as i cheesed. helpin me wit what id like 2 say as keepin it movin. n i jus keep dreamin thoughts n grippin them tighter n longer as i keep findin myself lost in daydreams fightin away as im acceptin da reallity of a certain ms. day dat im likin in a way u gonna havta stick around till i get a feelin 4 u as im game 2 findin out how it is im agreein wit self on dis 1 dis time around. simply livin in da moment of gettin 2 kowin n findin sum1 as were movin in da same dirrection. its presentin a smile in seem not 2 want 2 remove as iv been thinkin im likindis rhymin of u n i sighin.