a 5'6" smile

settled in my skin.
finally expression a true grin.
happy n content.
nothin left to vent.
smooth edges once jagged.
once feelin fed up n had it.
now sittin ever so still.
on the upside of the unclimbable hill.
climbin n clingin.
for i am believin.
my time has come to be.
i found what it is i truly need.
she stands 5'7" with a smile that wont quit.
n believe me when i say she is the shit.
my other half seein me for who i am.
the better half lettin me express the inner.
teachin me as she allows me to be me.
learnin within of a luv that just must be.
i sit within my skin feelin her.
without touch n in luv with only her.

good morning

sun diving in between the cracks.

bursting in warmth against my back.

laying in the mornings glory.

awakened to live out my story.

cool breeze pushes soothingly past.

breaking and bouncing off my face so fast.

time ticks my comfort away.

so i enjoy it with no delay.

settled in a moment all mine.

relaxed beyond movement as the day shines.

i am one with lifes little gift of morning bliss.

grasping my chance to feel its kiss.

of this

all n the above for this. only if i would've known.

jus for this as it is u i kiss. my luv woulda shown.

i would've been better off. knowin of this instead of clinched fists.

yet i've never been better off. than u n this.

startin all over with u. 2 get where we need 2 be.

from scratch out of the blue. is the way it must seem 2 be.

from the bottom once more. we'll rise 2 the top.

2gether 4ever as we enter a new door. n never stop.

i feel i've let u down. but i didn't know of this.

n i feel me stompin on sound. 2 do all i can 4 this.

the unknown fact of u n i 2gether. was so unnecessary.

yet 2 build this 2 last 4ever. once was so imaginary.

only u can push me 2 want this. willingly as we imerge from the mist.

i want it bad enough 2 feel somewhat pissed. for the lack of this.

it shoulda been us from the start. now look at this mess we're in.

even if now we can never part. in the end we'll win.

u live

safe inna dream is where u'v landed.
deep in tought alone n stranded.
safe from harms unluvin ways.
closed eyes protect u from this worlds day.
sheltered n wanted u live out ur memory.
it's the only way u live inside of me.
embraced by the only thing that is truely left.
existin within each n every exhaled breath.
oh how i wish u could find ur way n escape.
this over rated torcherin relentless fate.
tucked in tight n chained to the walls in me.
u live under the skin of the dyin thee.
if i could pull u out of what's in here.
only give u back what u'v given me without a tear.
maybe then i could let it all be as it goes.
or even be set free of ur unforgotten strangle hold.

in time

all ones life, waitin is at hand as time can't count.
repeatin itself, watchin lifes lil way of givin out.
growin young to old, if given a chance.
as others fall from the walk, livin the dance.
along the way one forgets how to sieze the day.
livin too fast, fallin alone n astray.
in time, our moment will come callin.
seperated from luv, of a life put a hault n stallin.
n the clock will continue to tick its way along.
til we all find our place, where we belong.

everybody has there own path, own reasons, own decisions.

there own gain, own sake, own intentions.

some have a weird sence of comunication, sence of right, sence of wrong.

sence of hope, sence of self, sence of what they feel is gone.

we all need without bein known, without showin, without vulnerability.

without neediness, without pain, without giving the lats iinch of clearity.

can u?

can you see me? fighting to get out.
trying to show u. what it is i am all about.

can u feel me? as i touch you.

as if you were the last. as i am content with holdin you.

can you see this man? speaking without sound, just with eyes.

desiring only you. with no wonders or why's.

can you feel my presence? doing all i can.

just to see you smile. as i stand before you as this man.

can you see my good? out weighing our pasts.
giving us a better now. and how i want it to last.

can you feel the way i do? consuming the internal.

is it mind releasin? the way i cave to you.

can you see the future? and where we may go.

how we may get there. from here as we grow.

can you feel how i love? the way i break down.

i am a man. yet u have me in sighs of wow.

can you see the way i walk? it has changed becuase of you.
the walk i sway. is a reflection of the ways of you.
can you feel me inside? as i touch your secrets.

open you up. and show you now regrets.

can you see i mean well? and have good intentions.

i just want my chance. as we look at photo reflections.

can u feel where this is going? i got you as you do i.

together forever. sayin it is about time!

4 so long

wantin somethin 4 so long. i shoulda known. put it 2gether as u were on my mind every now n then. i was always lookin in the wrong places. dealin wit not knowin when i'll get mine. i felt u in ways i never knew. un-attempted, it seemed never 2 exist. checkin others off 1 by 1 at a time 1 after another n repeat. 4 they were'nt u. i never knew this as they disapeared from a growin diminishin list. i felt u without knowin we could co-exist. walkin seperate lives grittin teeth n clinched fists. u lived in me 4 so long. n i didn't know y til now...........

pieces

1 piece at a time.
i gave em a piece of my life.
played my games.
i couldn't be tamed.
half hearted i smiled.
placin em in a file.
locked away before long.
for this i was wrong.
lil pieces of me is scattered.
leavin others shattered
pieces i never needed.
thrown away as they pleaded.
here n there i ketp it movin.
constantly feelin as if i was losin.
game was tight.
fillin my nights.
lyin my way past a smile.
stackin em up in a pile.
knockin em down ever so often.
shit got old as i was unable 2 soften.
1 piece at a time.
i was losin my mind.
all the time i wanted somethin else.
it wasn't about the wealth.
droppin me along the way.
sheddin a lil more everyday.
i gave so much.
yet never enough.
this was me spreadin thin.
losin unwanted wieght with a grin.
learnin the edges of the puzzle was still intact.
n that's a fact.....

fallin, all over again.

seems i'm fallin all over again.
as i stand in fram with a grin.
yet round 2 i have the chance of a lifetime.
speakin what's been left lingerin in my mind.
2 fall 4 the 1 i was suppose 2 hold.
my hearts been baught purchased n sold.
it's been a long time comin.
n am i ever so done runnin.
i'm fallin all over again 4 u.
as i break down my own reality n find i am so deeply in luv with u.
the 1st time we were young n pulled apart.
never had a chance 2 break free in a fresh start.
never had a chnce 2 feel what luvs intentions really was.
never feelin the way it feels 2 be really luv'd.
even though this yrs ago was put in place as it were put aside.
the way i see it we needed 2 learn how 2 luv in our own time.
i'm fallin all over again right now as i breath in.
fallin 4 u again.
i felt u 4 yrs gone wrong.
empty n feelin failin as i kept movin along.
learnin on my way back 2 u.
so i had a chance 2 luv u the way u needed me 2.
never knowin this would ever come true.
stickin like glue.
n i'm fallin all over again 4 that 1 i dreamed of 4 so long.
2 u i've all been drawn.
forced 2 get along without u by my side.
yet my skies were worth the flight.
wonderin of another that could never fill ur shillouette.
waitin 4 our life 2 be set.
i did not know.
time moved so slow.
hadn't a clue.
that it be u.
so know as we stand 2gether i'm fallin.
over u as i slide within the air that surrounds me.
this is the way it was mean t2 be.
u n i 4 a lifetime.
enjoyin more than the night life.
luv'n in our own way.
plantin roots lost 2 stay.
all grown up n day dreamin i'm fallin all over agian.
4 u as i shine n my eyes r no longer dim.

near

i want u near.
kissin my happy tears.
i fell deeper 4 u.
harder than ilu!
i am urs 4 a lifetime.

i need u in my life 4 it 2 shine.

u i'll serve.
now that i got the nerve.
i choose u.
n only u.

priceless

i wish i could heal ur pain as time releases the pasts unwanted gain.
take away the hateful yrs of wasted memories n replace them with me.
instead of the lonelyness we'd fall in luv under the rain, priceless.
take shelter in each others arms under the trees as i'd get down upon my knee.
jus 2 go back i'd give anything 2 feel ur presence 4 a lifetime as our hearts sing.
i wish we coulda been more than we r now as it is my only regret in this world.
then again it fuels us it a future thats past has left us stranded n in2 each other crashed.
yet we r what we shoulda always been in a time where we floated without weights motionless grind.

spilled

the closet ain't gotta damn thing 2 say.

not 2day tomorrow or of yesterday.

i've said all that fills its filthy mouth.

i spoke of all the things that went south.

my secrets have been spilled from the core.

yet this world is wantin even more.

like the blood that trickles from an open wound.

it feeds on as 1 goes kaboom.

i jus let it be known, what i'm about.

yet........ u'll never know! til it's out.

spilled from blue 2 red.

bruised n finally said.

edges

when it unfolds n the edges of my mind is revealed in that certain way.

u 2 will know how i lost control as i dealt myself a hand i laid down n refused 2 play.

from the scars stitchin me back 2gether from the rips n tears as i am exposed.

i quit n forced self 2 heal as i tend wounds i've created, n now i am exposed.

once emplodin, nicks n scrathes hold in the anger dyin 2 be released.

capturin all the things n i'll never tell a soul as my skin tells only half the stories skinned knees.

beaten knuckles ache in winter months as bulgin imperfections show.

stitchin holes, tryin 2 tell on me as if they can speak of whats been done as i find my flow.

round corners have smoothed my mind 4 yrs past.

yet the rugged edges fray as it's sleek texture will never last.

1 day u will know if i can not control the burstin that repeats.

on the tip of thy tongue as it creeps.

boo

watchin u day by day.
how u go about daily on ur way.
i see what i've been lookin 4.
it makes me want u even more.
ur 1 hell of a woman in my eyes.
a blessin outts disguise.
n u r jus what i was wantin.
u sure r somethin.
the way u wanna be luv'd.
2 the way u wrap me up like a body glove.
i'm urs 4 the way u do u.
imma call u boo.

wish list

on my wish list u lay spread in ink.
n even though i have u, it is u i wish for as i think.
jotted down, stainnin a moment in time.
wishin 4 u 2 forever be mine.

Unknowning

Run. Away in time. Go. Be self in mind. Search. Accept the facts. Find. Point of impact. Return . To the one who was you. Inside. Compair differences. Whom. Came from the other side of fences. Sit. Notice what you’ve become. Where. In which you’ve come. Play. In times window. Cry. Happily under shadow. Funny. Where we go unknowing. Learning. Slowly growing. Looking. Stare into the past. There. In a time that moved to fast. Wishing. Just to have it back. Pages. Written in the lack. Unfinished. Coming around the corner. Showing. Face of years gone with the thunder. Touch. Feel it reach. Now! Let it teach….

Thinkin Of...

jus thinkin of u.
i grin form ear 2 ear.
i luv luv'n u.
as i cry a happy tear.
sittin here i day dream of u.
wonderin how i pulled it off.
i'm jus me n u r u.
when u came along i was lost.
liftin a man back 2 his feet.
like only u could do.
now my heart is skippin beats.
4 a luv u give so true.

Ready

Flickerin lights. Stage is set. Blinds are drawn. Ready in depth. Deeply involved. Liquid substance. Standin chilled. Sounds of luv breakin the silence. Waitin. It’s late. Moment as if it was the 1st. Giving into fate. Hearts ready. Night breeze blows. Coolin the emotional heat. Exciting the mood. Tension builds. Patience strung. Bubbling petals float. Ready to get it done. Bobbing to the beat. Mind pleases the soul. Entering here you come. For mr to hold.

Luv'n U

I Luv U! N only u. 4ever now, 4ever 2ghether. U r my 1. My dream. My world. u r simply spectacular. AILOWY! ilu! til the day i die. I stand by ur side. A luvr n a friend. I live 4 ur luv, ur touch, ur smilin embrace. Til the end. U r more than the air i breathe. releasin a remarkable sence of relief. A new life streamin inside. i break 4 u. 4 the way ur jus willin 2 luv me. my luv 4 u i can not hide.

In These Eyes

Ur BeAutiFuL!
2 ThEsE eYeS oF mInE.
sO lUvAbLe.
lAyIn AbOuT iN mY mInD.
a TrUe LuV.
gIvInG uR aLl.
WiTh CoMfOrTiN hUgS.
iN2 uR aRmS i FaLl.
I aM uRs 4 AlL tIMe.
2 HaVe N 2 hOlD.
aS i WiSh U 2 bE MiNe.
Til oUr BoDiEs R oLd.

Hear Me

Hear me now as I stand breath taken and without sound.
As I try and whisper a rhym for you in which in me I found.
Listen to the man within speak from the deepest untouched cracks.
Where he laid hidden and speechless awaiting on you as my heart attack.
Hear me as I drop a line into your ear as it vibes a beat to my words.
From somewhere under the armor there is a pounding thumping as it’s time to be heard.
Aged like wine waiting on the one to sip the a taste of wisdom exploding.
I softly release the motion of forming emotion after emploading.
Hear me tell a tale of a fool growing up in his time without you.
Falling inward long enough to find the art of sound of loving you.
Preparing a riddled phrase in a form so rare to this world.
I am here now ready to claim my one and only girl.

everyday life

Everyday life has come into foocus long ago. Who to pare up with was so fucking unknown. Playing one to the next I consumed them all. Let only one in and took my very own fall. Life seemed to be always on the low. Not knowing on which way to go. Open eyes looking for just one. But they were all over before it was done. Living life for me. For any other I could not see. Heartless when all said and done. After I had my giggles, chuckles and fun. True player with game that had no game. Go figure and one also knows how to speek for own selfs name. Confusing to say the least. Unless you know how to play with anothers beast. Easy it came as natural as breathing. Constantly giving what was wanted yet teasing. No one could ever truly have me. My intentions had a need. But who am I to blame. Was it my fault they could not beat me at my game. I feel bad at times for breaking a few. But they should of knew. And I got mine in return. Guess my own game I did not learn. Slipped once for sake of feeling. Left standing half kneeling. I am one hell of a man I do believe. Just done some things I could never relieve. Still in frame I gave up and fell inward to the unseen long term lonleyness in which I would leave every one of them. Hurt for the first time I stepped backwards and found myself out of theme. On my way out of control. I was awaken d before I could fold. The one found me after finding her. After not being heard. I was unknown for so long and wondered of. Then and there I gave in and gave up the games and lived within my word. Everday life swings its doors open to explore what is on the outside of ourselves. Needing help.

from the lips

spit ur game

as i taste the flavor

enjoyin how juicy

bad behavior

tell me how it is

how u want it

slidin down my tongue

is that ur shit

speak ur brain

n i'll give u head

make ur legs shake

while u lay spread

i'm listenin

ur sounds tellin on u

moan as ur touched

lickin ur sweet spot through

open up n let it be known

truth or dare

let me in i'm ur freak

how much will u bare

ticklin ears with words

pleasin the man i am

whisperin quiet enough to hear

i am all i can

riddle me a session

see if i can figure u out

body motion releasin surpressed emotion

hormones blazin about

free ur expressions upon me

find my intentions

droppin sylables so fresh

mirror relections

u don't have to spell it out

i am grown

jus wanna finish thee

as ur upon my mouth n ur minds been blown

from the lips

bittin n nibblin

releasin screams

revealin what ur sealin

shoutin my name

pleasure is all i have to give to thee

hear urself call to me

drippin from the heat

mood swings of passion

escapin from ur vocals

forcin the issue

grabbin hold

vibe me a rythm

beatin from the pulse down between ur legs

tamin my beast

as i attempt not to beg

paths returning to fork

two paths walked individually-lost and empty through the years-eventually telling self there has to be a fork to follow that feeds a taste something like happy tears-one that is more filling than starving for affection and an endless fear-legs kicing the feet snapping toes that trample away from where one intended to go-unable to return for so long-one knows this road traveled beyond where they wanted to go-chosing a greater path that always has been wrong-somethings always missing and needs to be found-wondering where it has gone and what could fill the void of pains endless crying sound-tomorrow seems to be the same as everyday-unhappy and unsatified-something went astray-so direction has been redirected for yesterday never to repeat itself again-spreading self ever so thin-connecting with someone else that seems to have been misplace for so long-one in which clearifies the inner song that helps one sway and could never go wrong-years gone as if the wind blew them away-floating alongthinking of one another-curious aas they lived-yet time has awaken and has given a chance-making lost memories up as two want to play- the fork at the end of a path has lead them back to point a-thinking and feeling knowing everything will be okay-walking away in luv for it is true-who knew? crossroads meeting at the exact point of walking awya from everything they ahd ever known- leading them into each others arms where the gentleness of happiness feels so grown-giving up on yesterday- finding the past face to face today-it's everything that has ever been wanted for so long-to have their one come strolling speaking from the tongue-soothing the emotion of hope-loosening the stranlging rope.

patience as you take the time with me as i luv you- i feel i've learned my lessons along the way to you-yet you're something else i've never seen coming as my heart is on the floor-how i made it back to you i don't know and i just don't care because you i can not ignore-giving yourself is all i ask in return for what i am willing to do or even put myself through-just to have you looking in my direction completes me in ways unheard of as if you were my glue.

feel

feel whats going on inside-see if its what you seekin your mind-step out side the norm-re-enter and see if it confronts you-comforts you-if it makes you smile as i do as i do-showing teeth-feel teh man i am stuck within-bring him out and have your way-with a stoke the tickles the touch of skin connecting-find what makes a grown man quiver-then watch and se if you can believe their is at least on real man in the world- willing to just live-feel whats trying to escpae into your arms as it wants to lay peacefully-with the absence of games-feel the charm take over the expression on face-i a of only flesh and bone-in need of your luv-feel the beast luv from out of behind the stone this world has put it-feel thy hand as we walk side by side hand in hand back to back-fighting off this world together-here i stand opened up-do you have it in you to feel me? feel me!

watchin luv...

im sittin here watchinn u sleep tryin to steal one more moment with u. because ilu n i know every second that passes is another minute closer to another memory in the past. somethin wanted as it is enjoyed yet never forgotten. knowin our time together is becoming more than ive ever expected, i have fallen so fucking hard 4 u. u r a beautiful person inside n out. ilu jus the way u r. never wanting u to change as im wanting 2 be more like u. i am happy 2 be laying here with u as i allen ray morgan (butchie) as i am given this chance to help ur smile shine. n that in itself tickles me. never let anyone change u baby. u r a rare one to find. someone i wish i could be. n someone i hope 2 become. u r my world, my everything. knowing u accept me the way u do pushes me more to become the man i wanna be. naturally. this thing called love we share is beyond this world. n i believe we were meant 4 each other. so as i slide back down n snuggle along side u, know in this exact moment, this is how i felt n what i was thinkung of. uuuuuu. ILU MANYDY! more than words could ever wxpress. AILOWY, 4EVER.

the word if

what if 2day was the first of many.

if tomorrow was bigger than the turn of the century.

what would happen if one were 2 fade.

drift in time n jus get lost inna face.

what if time stood it's ground.

forced a path not yet found.

if yesterday was all one wanted.

as if the missin had no sound.

what if seconds dropped like memories.

forgotten n emptying.

where's the if that plays it's part.
when an end begins a fresh start.

what if all that was ever needed.

was beyond what we ever intended.

as if the absence left a hole to fill.

after livin in a space that was still.

what if everything was givin 2 one in time.

learnin of self n acceptin the find.

leavin all that's happened behind.

2 finally embrace what's considered mine.

what if the end is the freshest expression felt.

stealin the importance of how it feels 2 melt.

can one find in the word if the meanin of hope?

let it ride as moments float.

connect

lets waste emotions n taste some tears

find ourselves in each other n comfort our fears.

dig deep n feel a luv showin a face never seen.

slow down time n pull it outta our dreams

lead one another into the night with precision.

knowin the dedication intended with invisible puncuations.

it's u that brings me to these words of desire.

ur the one in which i'd build an empire.

feel the cirlce come around n connect.

land in each others chest.

giving away all the good left within our hearts.

n see where that puts us with its spark.

goodbye the end

never say goodbye.

til time blackens the sky.

the end is nowhere near.

this can u hear?

today is eternity.

rufflin for sanity.

goodbye is a life long fear.

walkin down the dock on the endless peer.

don't speak of the end.

life in time we will spend.

tomorrow will come.

get u some.

yesterday will be today.

try to stand brave.

leaving one wanting more.

of life evening the score.

goodbye finalizes all in the end.

backwards never bend.

for later days a future is still.

so get ur fill.

better

better than ever than the last. better than ones ever had. time moves way to fast. this time enjoying how long it's capable to last.

better than the previous who was to proud. better this time with a dream that was out and about. wasting a little time goofing aloud. it's about time, time has finally come around.

better than one could've ecspected. beter than the one could have ever erected. pleasure seems so much more as it's protected. never falling victom or subjected.

better than finding time to pick up the slack. better than healing wounds with scabs. time seems to have found it to give it back. and i gladly tip my hat.

better than everything one has ever known. better expressing a love so grown. falling into another running from being alone. feeling complete in a simple word called home.

your name

tasting your name to feel how you ease from the pleasure within.

speaking in a tongue only you understand as i bow in sin.

enslaved to the sound of your name as if i am owned.

i crave the way your released like an erotic flavor sitting upon your thrown.

flowing through the sensitive nerve endings in the mouth you tickle the taste buds as you soothe me as you slide.

i attempt to hold me together as i stroke with a licking ticking mind.

savoring so much in such little time i enjoy its presence.

slowly allowing your name to escape thy lips hesitance.

with every letter becoming one with each individual syllable.

you tease the watering moisture dripping from thy gums as it seems invisible.

the way your name streams down the tongue feels ever so wet and luscious.

swirling down stream like a river out of control you float feeding my conscious

runnin game

runnin game without game.

only understood by the game ran.

givin game up as games r played.

waitin on game time moments planned.

showin game a lil piece at a time.

by situation only game can handle.

game is over rated by gamers playin it out.

lightin up the night wit game candles.

havin game is not havin game.

as it my appear for game is very much real.

unplayed n natural game always lingers.

takin care of game is in the way game feels.

game changin game n the color of the crown.

to wear the thrown u gotta put game down.

game will find one in need in ones own time.

yet not everyone can run game when it's been found.

realizin game is the absence of bein real.

as game changes round every corner turned.

burnin bridges cuz game wasn't good enough.

game does only one thing as one learns.

teachin game is unheard of to the know how.

spittin in a form game can only endure.

game in the one thing for sure to get one to the top.

to drop u as game watches from the wrong side of the door.

going backwards

direction changes like the wind.

screamin n howlin against the skin.

movement concured by a single face.

showin interest in the great escape.

blown in between breezes as road are too short.

yet long enough to feel the hard floor.

trunin around lookin back in time.

wonderin where in the hell is ones clear sky.

jumpin paths in need of fulfillment lost.

lovers fade as they've been tossed.

backwards one goes to find their way.

searching for the answers of a gone n done day.

behind ones fallen to the hands of lies.

watching another from time to time cry.

disatached from all ones known.

walking out on the wind for ones grown.

against odds broken n empty.

wantin time spent that's good n plenty.

do what i can

come get me in our time.

scared is not an option.

no half steppin allowed.

hit me without the closed caption.

imma bring my a game.

temp me in ur own way.

take ur time to bring me out.

just naje sure you do it today.

find me standing where are.

diggin you and your special game.

holding out to give in to me.

come get some for we'reone in the same.

step to me and see all the possibilities.

reach and find the man in me.

stretching self to be fkush with you.

bouncing in between your every dream.

here i am at last willing and ready.

pushing the issue to get this in.

share with me a little time.

and find me smiling with a grin.

i'll do whatever it takes.

show me to you the man i've become.

wanting to see the woman you hide.

lean into me and find a home as we become one.

press the stuation at hand.

face to face and show your ways.

try a little piece of me.

and i'll do waht i can.

rogether

spell bound in n outta ur presense.

givin all 1 can as letters form a message.

1 thought at a time, showin capabilities.

creatin more in between the air of oppertunity.

speakin in actions made to be seen quietly.

lettin be known ones self expressed truely madly deeply.

rocked by urunforgettable disirable stance.

emotions for u r so much morethan inhanced.

ur outta my league as so it seems.

n i'm findin me tryin to do all i can to please.

a friend n a luvr sent to slowly relieve.

in between the fine print i do very well believe.

for we're one in the same as we move.

showing together we could never lose.

the fine line

own me.
feel that thing u seek.
teach me what i don't know.
watch me grow.
help me walk the line.
no matter how fine.
take control.
watch me flow.
give me luv.
n i'll never run.
im urs for the taking.
me in the making.
tempt me if u please.
put me on my knees.

what i needed

i often wondered what true love looked like if it were to ever stare me down.
complete the man in me n delete the clown.
but now i know how beautiful it is because i see it everyday in your eyes.
as i belong under ur clear blue skies.
it is only you for it is you i trust.
wow, how long ago i had a crush.
i give you me as the real me.
until my dying days down on my knees.
in your arms i've found a home.
u calm my moans n groans.
i need nothing else as if i got what i've always wanted.
n i'm gettin exactly what i needed.
handed to me, it's now on me to make it work.
n i never wanna see it hurt.
you've give me a new way of thinking.
as quick as the eye blinking.
i found unused storage space in my heart i never knew i existed.
n imma fill it with a love worth dying for because i can't resist it.
your the best thing i've ever known.
mind blowing n full grown.

all around you

behind u i stand to hold u in the roughest of times. i got ur back. in front of u to keep u outta harms way. u got it like that. drag out the night as if i don't know how to stop. giving u my best. for u n only u i give me. fuck the rest as u put my lovin to the test. beside u i walk content with ur smile. in total appreciation. inside of you i linger in a lovin way. surrounding ur heart without hesitation. i'm here to make to best of our time. together forever til the end. walkin a straight line bringin me to u. as a lover and a friend. around u is all i wanna b. beneath and above rollin in love. givin all i can to make me worth the while. pushin with a extra shove. i reach for u as i'm still. wantin to touch a real woman. outstretched ans waitin for a reponse. just to be ur someone.

the way i write is way i speak,

it's how i feel in the way i say is all me.

for a brief moment in time,

where i'm attemtig to concur my shine.

i wait in debate and think of what to say,

as i give a little more to each day.

patience kicks in as time flies by,

unable to relieve myself of my mind.

seems ive been dreaming n to be wakened up after so long in ur arms.

as if we never were meant to part.

the road was long.

n time tested me everyday as it felt wrong.

i found a new feelin fiilin the hearts inner walls.

soothin the hateful man as he falls.

deep into luvs joyous presence,

a luv that has great acceptance.

i wanna fall into u.

for it's the onlu way my heart feels complete.

absorbin ur luv first hand.

pullin me off my feet.

i knew i luvd u almost as quick as wr started talkin.

yet to have a chance at ur luv is llike livin in a dream n never wakin.

for u id do anything.

for u id wear a ring. made for two.

foe me id help u smile.

for me id luv u til the end of time as it comes to soon.

til it runs outta time on us.

losin style as we r so madly in luv with style.

for u for me is all im sayin.

for each other constantly prayin put in gods file.

i dont luv u like ur the last woman on earth.

that would mean id be sttlin.

jus cause.

i luv u cuz ur the only woman on earth i wanna spend the rest of my life with.

pleasin.

jus cause.

there is a cool breeze blowin.

a scent of riann in the air.

rushin through under the thunder.

pleasiin my day.

n now all i need is u.

u own me inside n out.

my luv craves u without a doubt.

i'd do anything to help u smile.

for ur more than worth my while.

luv looks good in ur eyes.

staring at me.

in a way as if i am a dream come true.

lil do u know ur my dream of dreams.

the only one for me.

ilu so much.

sometimes i think about u n i n get a tear in my eye.

u make mr so happy.

as i try not to cry.

u complete me.

u fill me.

u make me happy.

for u id do anything.

no onehas ever made me wanna do this.

i luvbein in luv with u.

u make everything all better.

me better for u.

to hear u say ilu the way u do tickles my luv.

i want nothin in this life other than u.

i am madly in luv with everything about u. ailowy!

ilu more thani ever dreamed of loving anyone in my life time. i am urs forever to have and to hold.

u r so beautiful sittin in my behind my eyes.

as i sit back and realize.

ur the only thing on my mind.

oh how much ilu.

n the fact that ur all mine.i believe iv found everything iv ever wanted.

i am so happily in luv with u.

u r the difference iv been lookin for.

n its great the woman for me is MANDY!

i love it.

wiyhin u.

mind body n soul.

touchin n pushin buttons as u loose control.

i wanna live with u.

caress n do all i can to please u.

caught in the middle of the moment

it seems as when the moment slips away i wanna shed a falling solo tear.
knowing i'll never have another chance to enjoy it again even though there are more to come with cheers.
seems i fall into the expressions taking place that compassion may one day forget.
along side the passion shared that gives individual times of happiness so much meaning to perfect fit.
to make every last second of a kiss worth more than the contact in between two in love.
i sit in my place within me feeling emotion one heart beat at a time sung.
giving all i can to be remembered by the mornings light where it all starts over again.
living in a second within time i unfold with stealing something precious as the making love in the rain.
wanting nothing more than for it to last as long as the air exhaled from my lips.
holding on for the better chance of love i touch the skin of life's patience.
deeper i cave into it's presence of mind that it thought of me as i become one with another face to face.
exploring what has been given between hearts finding a sensitive caress soft enough to stroke the soul before it goes to waste.
and as it's getting it's legs back and it runs like hell into the future i pick up my pace as i try to keep up.
losing the past faster than we can fall into the future together thinking this is all i want.
never to return other than through dreams lived once upon a time.
i'm caught in the middle of the moment in which i've waited for so long to shine.

Mandy And Butchie

This story all began back in the early 80’s with two kids who’s mothers were friends. One girl named “Mandy” and the boy “Butchie”. As the clock started to tick, the hands of time allowed two children to form an unspoken crush. Neither knew of the others secret as both would have liked to speak their mind. But they were scared to do so. This act went on for a few years as eyes gazed and stares went unnoticed. When Mandy would get in trouble, Butchie found a way to be there sitting in trouble most of the time. Seemed the two of them were on their way to something special. Then as quick as they could blink, time changed course. Mandy was gone without warning. Leaving the young man wondering different things.

Through many distant years the two of them often wondered what happened to one another. Who are they now? Where are they? And as kids and marriage was put into the mix of life’s little game. They found themselves with someone that was not meant for them. Yet, time kept spinning with the world as the two grew and learned of themselves. All at the same time they hid inside a dream of having someone the same as themselves. One who understood them and in which they came. Accepting them as they truly were internally was a necessity. But who could it be, if anyone at all?

It was early 2010 when Butchie was off doing his thing. A proud dad finally trying to do things the right way for once as lessons seemed to be learned. Thinking one day he thought of Mandy like he did on and off through the years. As she to often thought of him. Butchie went looking for her through friends and family on face book. Hoping she did indeed have one. Finding it was not as hard as years before, Butchie came across her. A friend request was sent as he sat in a moment of silence staring. He waited for a few days before Mandy accepted. Then a few more for her to respond, but she never did. Mandy did not know who he was for he was all grown up and looked so much different. She paid the friendship no mind. But who was to blame her, Mandy seemed to have a marriage and children. Life appeared to be good to her. All the time she wanted out of what she never truly wanted to begin with. Feeling lost they both remained on an endless road, with the unfulfilled feelings of will it ever end? Is this the way their lives were meant to be? Unhappy and knowing there was something else.

Giving up Butchie turned towards another a short time later. Unwillingly leaving the past where it laid he still paid her attention quietly. Yet Mandy started to get curious of who he was, and why they shared a friend on face book. Following Butchie and forming a kind of attraction she could not explain. Mandy here and there read his posts and looked at his pictures. Wondering how there was something about him that got to her as she in her own was trying to move on with her life, saving money. Nothing was ever said.

As August rolled around Butchie sat at his mother’s grave pleading in prayer to give him direction. He felt something going wrong fast and was tired of playing games. For the first time ever he had loved another and he prayed as his relations was failing. In the mean time, Mandy still struggled on how she new Butchie. Peeking in on his life and feeling bad for what he was going through for months, as he lived through good times and bad. Without even knowing why she was drawn to him. Months flew as days felt as if something and someone was truly missing in their lives.

November 28, 2010 was on a Sunday. Butchie noticed something was wrong with Mandy as she seemed upset. This was the first sign he saw that there was a problem taking place in her life. For he periodically scoped out her face book page wondering and watching secretively. Mandy showing of something other than happiness bothered him as Butchie left her a question mark as if asking what was wrong. Nothing came of it until later that night when she was curious herself of his own situation he faced. Knowing Butchie was going through a breakup, Mandy asked if he and his girlfriend ever made up. He replied, no. This was the start of something long over due.

Butchie was almost speechless as if he was a little boy sitting next to her in trouble all over again. It looked as if his prayer had been answered. Could it be? Man it would be nice Butchie thought. The two of them eventually got around to rattling on about him moving back to the north side of Columbus Ohio where they were from. Yet, Mandy still did not know why she was attracted to him or even why she asked him anything. All she knew of him was he was a cute good looking guy who had just been crushed. Mandy did not know who he was. Now only knowing they were from the same neighborhood. Butchie quickly picked up on this and began to throw out hints of who he was by saying things. Dropping hints like, I know your mother and brother, to what block he lived on. Confusing Mandy, he was trying to help her realize who she was actually talking to. It was not until he mentioned who his own mother was that it clicked in her head that it was Butchie. This could have been avoided if she would have just looked a little closer to his family list on his profile. Yet, at this moment Mandy threw her laptop into the air in excitement. “OMG I know him!” Smiling ear to ear, uncontrollably as there was a ten to fifteen second pause. Now having the chance to know unanswered questions Butchie himself had nearly given up on just a few months earlier.

Butchie stopped biting his tongue for once and told Mandy he had a serious crush on her when they were children. Mandy replied, “So did I”, blowing his mind as well as hers. This was something the two somehow unconsciously waited for, not knowing the other felt the same way. Slowly they caught up and found themselves as one in the same with each other. They were almost the same person as they walked two different lives that were so much alike.

Unspoken they wanted to know why each other lived within them. Craving for years going on to long apart, they were face to face with a couple of dates and meeting up. Slowly they were falling in love one conversation at a time. Finding their one, they eventually moved in together as the nights became too long to spend without one another any longer. Happiness and fulfillment completly filled their hearts. Minds finding who each other had become and where they have been gave so much closure after all. They liked who they had become. Feeling the comfort in who they now held. They were thankful they prayed for change. It seemed like an eternity as they were apart. But everything was perfect and not long there after a ring slid down the finger of love as Mandy smiled in acceptance. Bringing great joy too Butchie. Love was finally found! This was it and they both knew it. Something Mandy and Butchie felt they wanted to spend the rest of their lives together. For they believed they found the one they were meant for as the feeling was very much mutual.

May 26, 2012. A day true love is joined as they wed in the eyes and hearts of the beholders

filled with compassion

quietly i speak whispers soft enough the tongue can taste but can not feel the movement sneaking by.
as if a hush has escaped the lips without touching the air caressing its presence into this world at its birth.
flowing smooth through the mouth as it slides free into invisible letters forming with minimal sound filled with compassion.
i sit and try to catch the emotion released with ease in a direction in which it pleases every letter expressed out loud.
opened to a love exhaled from the lungs as i sigh a weezing breath trying to catch what is left collapsing within.
with drifting thoughts shown in actions only the eye can believe the sway of their soundless intentions moving in perfect rhythm.
i felt you as you entered my heart and become one with my mind as i tease myself on how to express what is going on inside.
unable to bring it to true form of what it is you mean to me in ways your smell drives me madly insane.

FOUND ME WITHIN MY CORE, ALIVE AND LIVING. SMILING.

been deep. found me. new points of view. once had not a clue. old reasons no longer me. becoming a dream. bottled thoughts. coming up lost. freed self.regained my health. found true love. sent from above. bodies only but a port. FOUND ME WITHIN MY CORE. hand in hand. standing in mind a man. surrounded by love. pain is gone. ALIVE AND LIVING. opened i'm giving. been there. now back here. i fit the scene. this is me. good where i sleep. night slowly creeps. looking forward to waking. i'm SMILING.

another way of thinking

im not dying to become number one. in my lifetime i just want feel the sun. upon my flesh as it sits in a pausing crawl. long enough before the body falls. somewhere within me i want to open up and fully find. a better place to sooth the mind. with a reason why we all exist. instead of death leaving us alone and bitterly pissed. to live is all i ask. yet i've learned there is so much more to life than that. as an atheist i stand looking for a new way of thinking. i've been inside myself and i can not find the answers i am seeking. yet the bible is man made. leaving me in a confused sense of daze. i trust this not. somehow this has got to stop. how does man know what a god intends? to have this answered, i'd be willing to bend. lost inside where i found comfort in words before. the human language no longer help this mans core. so i am open to another way. i just do not think i'll find it today. i am simply a man willing to believe. it is just not as easy for me to retrieve. for my head can not wrap around its reasoning. religion has not been my flavor nor seasoning. and as i walk with purpose as a human doing all i can. to make it another day before my legs no longer allow me to stand. i feel something else in my future. yet it feel as if it is just so far away until i can rid myself of my very own monster.

Hearts Part

As you set simmering in a steaming heat in my mind,

I am captivated by your endless sighs.

Easy and still to a pure beat vibed from the heart,

All in all that is not the best part.

I am learnin to truly appreciate what love really is,

This is the love for the longest I wished.

It is you and only you that will get my best,

Put my love and free will to the test.

It is your unexplainable love that lingers,

Gripping like a tightened hug clinging with gentle fingers.

I feel you deeper than a relaxing massage,

Way down you have been invited to lodge.

Sinkin all settled and snuggled warm in my chest,

I have come to realize your so much more than the rest.

In you will invest my heart,

Givin u my end of time til death do us part.

on my way

i looked and waited, yet played in the meantime.
walked alone and with another working, i never visualized.
stood still long enough to keep things moving.
i fell once to show i knew how to love and it was soothing.
selfish intentions grew within knowing it would end.
always searching for that one i never thought imagined.
true to only self, i lied to ease my own pain.
telling fibs of a love i did not share, for it was my life to be tamed.
playing a self centered game of it's all about me.
trying to find my groove to lay low and live a love so free.
i am human and been on both sides of love as it time and time again came back to never.
i damn near got broke once, yet i surfaced stronger than ever.
more clearer than i was the day before i learned.
been three strikes and out and never to return.
i was a man consumed by a woman's sexual touch.
asshole was my middle name numerous times over and such.
cheating my way along as i gave them all my manly given talents of lust.
waking up i found myself wanting more than i was giving, somewhere along the lines of trust.
i left a bad place in time and re-amerged a man sometime later.
tried out a few lovers that went bye bye as memories fade with her.
one in which i could feel and another i gave my heart.
yet coming out of the storm as the rain cut loose and given a fresh start.
i was sent someone i've dreamed of to the present day.
i am mearly a man and that is more than i was yesterday.
growing, i reinvent me as i learned from my past.
now true to someone other than self at last.
i can sleep knowing i found my groove on the other side of lust.
it wasn't long ago i gave a real attempt at love.
and i to fell short even though it should have never been more than a....
i felt one other the way i do now but this one i have is so much better than a...
to compare them she would win by far.
my all time favorite one of all that i've come across earning scars.
so i guess i've only loved one til now.
making it two with a possible that never got off the ground.
and as i sit and confront feelings that i've experienced in my time.
i realize i'v found the perfect woman for me that fills me inside.
seems i had to do a few things before i was allowed to have her as my wife.
showing the man within has helped complete happiness in my life.
finding him has shown i am the man i want to become without a doubt.
and it is noticed everyday i awaken to a beauty in and out.
i am in a groove in love, with my one.
far from the man i claimed i was.

The woman within

Ur the best I’ve ever known.

I love in which you have grown.

A woman so alive inside.

And from me you refuse to hide.

I love the way u play as u walk.

With those eyes as you pause.

Giving interest in my direction.

You are simple perfection.

The way u love me is remarkable.

I feel u deep enough I find u irreplaceable.

It’s the woman within your soul I crave.

The one that opened up and gave.

A love worth more than life itself.

My heart moves on from a mode of stealth.

Just a touch keeps me on my feet.

A kiss seems to drop me to my knees.

Loving u has become a thrill living within.

Coming out speaking I love you as I grin.

You have become the only one that has ever fulfilled me.

It’s all in the way u love thee.

Who you are, is what I wan tin my life.

To a T u fit the silhouette in my mind.

I am so in love with everything about u.

This love I feel is the only thing iv ever felt so true.

You and I in the middle of the night.

Is something I never thought would come to life.

Holding you is a breath taking experience to say the least.

Just to be near u pleases and soothes the beast.

All I want in this life is for you to smile.

Just so everything I do for this is worth the while.

You see, you are the one I want to please.

Live my life out with as this reads.

ALWAYS IN LOVE ONLY WITH YOU!

I am so in love with you!

This thing is forever.

Something I’ve said as never.

No one has ever pulled me from one reality to another.

I am so happy to have you as more than a lover.

Speaking in this way brings me to one possibility.

I am in love with u and I can see your invisibility.

Noticing the woman you are and want to become as a beautiful individual.

My love, u are truly irreplaceable.

As one day I will bow on one knee.

And beg only you, pretty please.

on the other side of.............................

on the other side.
lets get lost and hide.
where the sun never shows face.
lets make our own pace.
as the day breaks.
lets run faster into the nights escape.
far away from the light.
where eyes struggle to focus on sight.
as sound takes control and touch concurs.
where taste is more sweeter under the covers.
lets play in the dark.
find what it means to do our part.
where to warmth is only met by contact.
as we try to keep our feelings intact.
lets lay in the still of the moment.
and find a love more than potent.
drift to the opposite of the never end of here.
as we listen to the sounds only we can hear.
open up in the grasp of a lover.
lets, as one of us hovers.
somewhere where the visual effect is at a loss.
where orgasms seem to want to pause.
within the heated passion as we thrive.
and all other senses come alive.
falling close enough into the morning.
as we step backwards into what we were enjoying.
lets find our way so deep in love.
on the other side of.............................