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Monday, March 28, 2011

another way of thinking

im not dying to become number one. in my lifetime i just want feel the sun. upon my flesh as it sits in a pausing crawl. long enough before the body falls. somewhere within me i want to open up and fully find. a better place to sooth the mind. with a reason why we all exist. instead of death leaving us alone and bitterly pissed. to live is all i ask. yet i've learned there is so much more to life than that. as an atheist i stand looking for a new way of thinking. i've been inside myself and i can not find the answers i am seeking. yet the bible is man made. leaving me in a confused sense of daze. i trust this not. somehow this has got to stop. how does man know what a god intends? to have this answered, i'd be willing to bend. lost inside where i found comfort in words before. the human language no longer help this mans core. so i am open to another way. i just do not think i'll find it today. i am simply a man willing to believe. it is just not as easy for me to retrieve. for my head can not wrap around its reasoning. religion has not been my flavor nor seasoning. and as i walk with purpose as a human doing all i can. to make it another day before my legs no longer allow me to stand. i feel something else in my future. yet it feel as if it is just so far away until i can rid myself of my very own monster.

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