Resentment is calling to my character.
Whispering through details caught by the eye.
Forcing the mind to detect the unbareable.
Hearing syllables refute the anger settling why.
Creeping within the nerves sets a horrible explosion.
Ignited by a fools game one isn't good at.
Looks like I'm back to square one with tradition.
Trusting no one and turning again on my accepting lack.
Before me stands the fluxuating difference in now and tomorrow.
Blind I am not, yet proof is out of reaches tips of sorrow.
Complex as it is I'm caving silently with the winds change of direction.
I believe there for facts must line up simultaniously withput dedection.
Here watching I've seen the possiblities that trigger the curious questions.
Giggling I refuse to want to face the bare truths misguiding reactions.
Self is becoming one in the same the best I know how onse again.
I'm no fool for I've been around the block and reasons are lame.
I act stupid and listen to tales told to a lent ear caring for a response.
Lmmfao, only if known what I've gathered twists would run backwards at once.
As clear as day yes I've noticed what I shall not speak of as this present time.
But its coming and I feel lost in the future where I stand alone and without a mind.
Its climbing out of me as I swallow the taste regergitating the raw flavor.
And a smile seperates me from a reallity where I come to have bad behavior.
I'm turning slowly as trust in anyone is irrelivent to choice in the matter at hand.
My hearts stopping and I can't feel anything within my own breaking as a man.
In other words I've know for a while past over due smirks that speak the hidden.
Guess I've finally stepped to the plate and at last I know by everyone I've been bitten.
so I fade beaneath the emotions expressed as squeeze the patience.
Holding out for more than words spoken as the fun is upon me awaiting the situation.
Its coming so still movement is unseen.
Approaching silence in an awaited stream.
It may take time to show its face of truth.
Telling whits presense of its use.
Slowly it creeps pacing around and about.
Taking its time to reach purposes cloud.
Acting as if intesions should of known.
In reactions over and over were shown.
Held by arms of secrets hiding face.
Wrapped by half hearted lines traced.
As fingers cling to sufficating the air between.
Feeling the passion in the forward lean.
Flush and compressed to only love.
Lies fill gaps irritating the quiet hush.
Going with the flow of neverending.
Around the body elbows are bending.
Completing a circle of trust untrue.
Seeing imperfections in images drew.
Affraid to be released by a hug so rare.
As the heart will begin to tare.
I don't wanna be loved by a conscious.
Plagued by guilt givin only one option.
Knowin back in time I've been crossed.
Playin a game of u know who's the boss.
Trickin my worth into beleivin in a fadin cause.
One day to open eyes to a pause.
Cuttin photos of the happiest times ever lived.
Rememberin what it was I was capable to give.
Left rearranged by an others falsehood.
Wonderin could I love if I would.
Forever changed by the hearts misdirection.
Makin the best of the doubtful corrections.
As double sided doors are seen differently.
By eyes on opposite sides as of failed oppertunity.
I jus don't wanna be claimed as a mistake.
In relations I refuse to comfortably partake.
On the ouside fadin back n forth to the inside.
Rockin in a moment made to break the mind.
Visions appear of thoughts unwanted here n now.
Escapin in a withdrawel ignorin the possibility so fowl.
Lookin inward I feel the what's left snappin in frame.
Eyes unable follow the misqued signals before the rain.
Starin at time spent unravellin driftin sequences unseen.
Even dreams are losin touch unconnected with means.
Poppin in n out I seek for hints of truths subconsciously.
For I can not handle the load of facin coincidently.
Pullin from depths I find myself losenin thy grip.
I beilve on this run I may have somewhere slipped.
It is dark tonight as I walk in mis air.
I feel the ground beneath but I do not care.
Destination is unknown as yet of how far.
I'm willing to go for I lost the beat of my heart.
Emptiness surrounds the echo about.
Calling to the imaginations repeat of the mouth.
Drifting inward the whole is so real.
Behind me lays the same as I stop and kneel.
Pausing on space I touch my soul.
Palms to souls I start to roll.
Uphill bouncing it is so weird.
Downhill climbing off a peir.
Hollow shadows unseen yet heard.
I am not alone nor can I hear a word.
Lacking sight behind the eyes I linger.
Following misguided fingers.
I am no where fast as I am where I began.
At least it all looks the same according to my hands.
Lost in sight of abscent images.
Tip toeing softly in the blank dimerage.
Sound is not close enough to make.
And their isn't a crack in which I can escape.
It is dark tonight as I lose myself.
I really think I need some kind of help.
Theraputic lines stretched sideways like the strength of a rubberband.
Snapping letters loose as if a spitball on the minds untamed stand.
Pshycological entertainment spread like silk so smooth on a sheet.
Laying so beautifully adequate before the eyes resting comfortably unique.
Irresistable imagination begging the tempting consciousness the finally speak.
Dropping curves round shapes behind the meaning of fixated insatiable peeks.
Chemically balancing the imbalanced curiosity of depth suffering from curruption.
Confirming self is resistant to the chains unsatisfyed by the torture of disfunctions.
Enthusiatcally combining texture to the taste of purposely tampered theroretical clearity.
Is guidence played by the alphabets maze that is doing so much more than baring me.
Relentlessly cliff diving in the minds clouds of space is a message that bounces off the pupals impact.
Rattling nerve endings cleverly maintaining comprhension of no more than facts.
Imortalizing self as lifes lessons passes by with diddles left alone rectify a rare breed.
Scribbles scrubed with disenfectent of owns once lived troubles and unread dreams.
Gratifying rubbish unseen by forevers ongoing tick of diluting indulgence of pleasures.
I will live after creativity has spoken rationally to the captivating of my own hidden treasures.
Cry for me, for my eyes can not see.
The angle of selfishness untangled.
Feel thy pain, ease this hearts dripping drain.
For I am unable to capture the inabled.
Speak my words, for the taste is sour.
Crumbling before ears can hear my core.
Be me for a day, endure the unwanted pain.
Breaking unselfishly as I am as human as irrelativety.
Reach with hands, that clinch my stand.
Losening free will as paths drift yet stand still.
Beg for thy tongue, piercing beleif from the lungs.
Overflowing with desperation and clearifycation.
Comfort real love, expressing actions through hugs.
Wrapped so tight with all ur might.
Be me for just a day, showing interest in more than a faze.
Dazed and confused without a single hint of a clue.
Through the cores cracks I feel the hollow creep.
Alone inside this man lerks self breaking with need.
Partaking in a game so unjustifyable to true emotions.
I as a man am beginning to shut down the everlasting devotion.
Under the skin lays me as human as life exists.
Boiling in frustration of what's been taken from me as a gift.
Love leaks in streams speaking of the pain without.
As words spring to fight for what's fed through thy mouth.
From deep within I call to those that matter the most.
Yet alone I sit begging with this empty pit I feel the most.
The struggle of self is an arrangement of things lacked.
Some in which have change my will, fading to black.
Different I am with more meaning for the point of sake.
Reaching for those cared for, that in, my heart wants to partake.
There I am not, but not by choices of my own character.
Forced hands smacked loose of the clinging barriers.
Lines of which needed not to be drawn so deliberate.
For I know what I am, for this I have the intellegence.
Misguided paths part before reasoning is matured.
Most of all cut short of memories haulted by a detour.
Beneath the passion of this man I am sits still the greif.
Misunderstood, causing so much unwanted beleif.
Seeing with eyes, the reallity of a situation confused.
I am left dangling for this unforgiving world to use.......
Amazing stories lived through trial and error.
Spoken tales from angles different to similarities.
Directions of the minds perceverance unravelled.
Opposite alterations seen so unique with clearity.
Which to believe as the minds speeks of its own belief?
Gathering information stored in only one view.
Set in stone lays two sides conflicting a result.
Combined is the truth told for the walls to put to use.
As mute as the wind without a flow to whistle.
Double edges slice fact nor fiction their seperate ways.
The restless peice of information settles in confusion.
A game of tug of war flat out and simply played.
Pointing fingers stretched beyond repairing conscienceness.
Unbent limbs blaming cause behind irritations misguidedness.
Changing coarse twisting depths abscent before crustating eyes.
Leaking responsibilities own frustration examined by lies.
Landing resentment in frame of mind unrepairable without trust.
Desguising resemblance replaceing matter faking purpose of love.
Turning with resistance hope is all that's failed in a lifetime of knowing characters magical.
Alone and walking past hands that quit lending friendship for reasons immaturely impracticle.............
Understanding the misunderstood.
Collapsing the mind covered by a hood.
Hiding the confushion snapping the mind.
Answers unwritten are hard to find.
Lost on peices that don't fit near enough.
Reaching for realities lessons coming undone.
Cracks cave thoughts unable to maintain.
Words leak of filth so utterly profane.
Spinning dazes rotate a swiveling blur.
Pretending to have meaning in some kind of worth.
Ends dropping beneath state of minds wealth.
Breaking down silently one needs some kind of help.
Gathered questions stuck in a frozen stance.
Waiting for reason to be given in the outcoming plan.
Struggling within the battle fades the will to rise.
All that's left is the figment of imaginations try.
Beaten below the courage fleeing into defeat.
The cries of a man are unheard as his breath stinks.
Pleading with why's un~naturally resting the head.
Fallen the bobble is gone as the nodding is dead.
I wanna live like about it is as natural as breathin.
Givin more meanin in a kiss than the fact of reason.
Up early doin what luv could enjoy watchin from afar.
Up close gettin the bigger picture of its own design learnin its part.
Further more all I want is to jus wanna claim my unconditional one.
To be own by the guidence of an others heart doin all it can.
Standin in mind the lifetime that awaits in this cravin man.
Everyday never missin a beat of fillin the pleasure of home sweet home.
Adaptin for there is someone like self that is oh so grown.
I wanna feel the erge to complete the understandin of communication.
Both parties givin self in every way without exadurations.
Mornin to night thru the wee hours of secrets played out.
I want it in a way I'm willin to show I am all in here n now.
Please forever give me my time to do somethin I've never done.
Gimme my desire of confort the individuallity of one.
My words can never express my depth of happiness I need.
For someone to do for me as I would for them on n off my knees.......
Wearing a face that doesn't resemble my character.
Feeling the strain that makes me appear as an amiture.
Breaking actions hold back true intensions unseen.
Lost in my mine os me snapping out of reality.
Ooh the ache that shows what's going on inside.
Checking self and doing the best I can to hide.
Resistance is appearent to the eyes drowning flow.
Squeezing the life out of what it is I now don't know.
Its everyone around the walls in which I retreat.
Defeated I run emotions out of the hearts stream.
Sneaking peeks I'm becomming who I was.
Trusting not a single untold word of such.
Locking the gates as no one is allowed to enjoy my thoughts.
Excluding no one from caught outside my own faults.
I gave time and will and found me was not worthy of gain.
Unravelling in frame remains the purpose that has been stained.
Fact of the matter is I am just me unable to feel the comfort.
Hearing lonely chords play a melody fit for me of some sort.
Beleiving in nothing coming from an other for they line boundaries.
Found in me I stand unimpressed and alone with sound of needs.
Bigger than I can be, swallowing unheard screams.
A person suffacating on selfs wants and dreams.
No one appears to 100, falling short a few percentages.
Why is it I'm expected to be unhuman with defencelessness.
All or nothing for I know what I have and my capabilities.
Watching everyone around me get lost in currupt abilities.
Its never about me for I can not ask of an others will.
The lack of interest is weakening my very own skills.
Losing movement in the hearts comforting determination.
I feel I'm lost inside myself unable to understand domination.
Actions reflecting true form of character as words cut deep.
I see the meaning with the abscense of me being me.
Does anyone put someone else before their own pleasures?
I can not comprehend why some things they will never.
Is it one just is not good enough to give without asking?
How is it the good is me is turning around and not reacting?
Shutting down of all things as if I do not matter.
It is everyone elses way for what I like would not rather?
I am backed into the corner of my mind hiding from emotions.
Words are ignored like the clearity confuses devotion.
People in general all as one are all the same, I know this now.
There is not a single soul around me that will bend a frawn.
Not for my sake and it shows with great disreguard.
My back does not face the mirror that watches me do my part.
Lines uncroosed for I am nothing to anyones happiness.
My heart feels I am alone on the facts of 100 and restless.
Maybe I should give what has and is being given.
But it only makes for a lifetime of shortened satisfaction in liven.
Running out of the fluent reasoning making sense in my rhyme.
Trying to find words to put in this so called empty pit of a mind.
Tired and strained from the overloaded reallity of endless.
Pages rip unwritten tolds of the overwhelming releantlessness.
Searching details within invisible ink read to tell the whole story.
Needing toughts to fall from more than the forgotten momery.
Stained imprisonment captured by the compelling imaginitive thrust.
Pumping a fulfilling blindness to the naked eye closer than flush.
I'm at the ends of creativity falling short of a shush of sound.
Loosening free will to open up untamable unguided grounds.
Anything away from the norm that leaks temptations uncontrolability.
Something even dreams look forward to, drifting under unstained sheets.
Ahh as the fingers let loose of the extra caricular activity.
Loosening gears grinding with the power processing unity.
Torque spinning the top of the minds everlasting impulse.
Tip tap clicking clacks releasing all the imperfect flaws.
Rounding sphere of knowledge gitty uping the ride.
Digging deeper than the reverse side of what can not hide.
Plunging into an outlet suit to fit the moods creativity.
Again I remain guilty of the fluent charisma gathering activity.
Breaking hell open.
Scrapping the erosion.
Long awaited redemption.
Ending unwanted relations.
Holy water sprinkled.
Releasing pains drizzle.
Facing the evil.
Tongues are bilingual.
Standing as saved.
Lords will behaved.
Expression my opinion.
Making real decisions.
Eternity at stake.
God I'm claimed.
Devils not needed.
Torn and weeded.
Lied to repeatedly
Always defeating me.
Taking my sins.
Heaven does forgive.
I've found home.
Leaving demons alone.
Protected by faith.
Beleiving thy name.
Fire all around.
Snapping the sound.
Turning I pray.
Evicting Lucifers stay.
Anger rages air.
Leaving without care.
Untouchable by hate.
Clearing the slate.
Stepping from entrapment.
Hole closing magic.
I'm finally free.
Amen I speak.............
Bam! Wtf? Where'd u come from? U came for love.
How? Why? Here. Who said I was worthy of ur time?
Damn! Hmmm? Bells. Did I wind up the groom?
Wow. Hello. Geez. I become more than ur fello.
Thin beneath the feet ice cracks uncontrolably weak.
Gapping holes waiting as knees fold with the cold creep.
Slipping balance slides sideways in defiance chilling the rant.
Elements frozen as feet prints by the dozen are a has beens cant.
Deep burrs are heard through a path deserved & well learned.
Solid ground biting toes that pound creavises without a sounds turn.
Strange occurances ducking in & out of narmallity.
Moments changing the pasts avoidence of dualality.
Grips loosening by ways of disposals conflictions.
Reshaping wisdom walking in opposite directions.
Standing individually understanding self as found.
Ready to live gathered for the better of gaining ground.
Slowly fluxuating meaning in a little peice of mind.
Appreciating time spent determining to confied.
Piecing together lifes disign to beat the relentless drwan out struggle.
Standing strong, choosing when to wear the the hush of a muzzle.
Lasting afloat upright & determining very own my own path.
Adding up the perks & completing the mutliplication of math.
Coming together & easing into a lifetime of deliverance of living a dream.
Popping out of sleep, now reallity is tasting so deliciously sweet.
Complimenting right from wrong made by the days actions.
Getting the feed back without asking for a selfish reaction.
Being me as doing self insists of partaking in more than self.
Showing interest in ways I peek with a mornings fastening on my belt.
Pain & pleasure shaping form in whom it is I truly am.
For my loved ones I will always have purpose in becoming a meaningful man.
Catch me sleepin. Roll n watch. Slip ur mind. Pick a spot.
Creep in slowly. Sneak a feel. Play at will. Rub a steal.
Soft n easy. Have ur way. As of yet. Do not wake.
Please own self. Take ur claim. Touch with emotion. With hormones unafraid.
Crawl on top. Slide on down. Slippery when wet. Without a sound.
Bring me back. Curlin my toes. That's a game. Naked no clothes.
In the slow unique process of the making of a man.
Details have been left for him to make his stand.
Alls been given to the soul to search for purpose.
Finding the meaning in self can show more than worthless.
From the beginning man has dtermined his destiny.
If willing to become an individual one can live without intensity.
Own choice molds character into times completion.
Facing the man in the mirror with more than reason.
Correcting mistakes made by misunderstanding situations.
Trial and error shaping a true mans restoration.
Doing what it is he is capable of to be respected.
For he knows his manhood everyday will be inspected.
Moments define a lifetime of a mans gratitude earned.
As actions speak of what it is he's actually learned.
It is not until laying upon his deathbed that he knows.
Looking about the pain expressed before he lays low.
Asking did he do all he could for the ones he loved.
Answering yes as the loss is more than a simple touch.
Me as I n I as me.
Inside of me I am free.
One plus me is the greatest thing.
In me bouncin within my own dreams.
I became me n found my lean.
Breakin the ease of a mind on lease.
Me I bring forth ever so clean.
Blingin my own style n seen.
I am the please beneath breaths on knees.
So excited to be me as I cling.
As me I fling n sling.
Me as I as I as me.
Need the blood flowin in my stream.
Feedin off the pulse I lead.
Vibin on lifes ring of jeans.
Damn it feels good to me as I am me.
Shakin my dinga linga ling.
My everything is me actin as self as me.
I is me in eyes that stare as me they see.
A different breed cuttin loose at the seems.
I am a single beam under heavens wings.
Without greed of the greens temptin tease.
Me as I as I asm me.
He he ha ha ho ho hummin cheese.
Good bad mean n all that's in between.
Singin my own song tuned to days of blue n green.
Never to flee from me as me is I stayin me.
Makin reason in seasons of summer fall winter n spring.
Its me u see pleedin with self never to leave.
Playin in leaves fallen from the trees.
Til the end as I is so happy to be me.
Freinds with the days heat releasin the steam.
Seizin the gift of glee deep in my souls me........
Me loves I as I loves me!
If I stood it up would set it out
I'm jus sayin cuz u got me speakin outloud
What if I was truly serious
Would u use ur imagination n be the least bit curious
If luv played its part n found fraction of lust
Willingly to me, would u give it up
For jus a moment to simply entertain
Could u ease into drivin me insane
Let's say I had to have every inch of u
Would u find time to cut urself loose
What if I was good n wanted to see ur bad
Could it be possible to see u mad
Givin what u always dreamed
Findin enjoyment in what it seemed
Under n over rollin silkishly about
N if I wanted u to do more than moan a bounce
Could it be me that you've needed to be free
Cuz id luv for my toes to curl n freeze
If I dared to see u come alive
Is it in u for ur innocence to step aside
Maybe we could play a game for nothin more than the sake
What would u do if u found about me what u crave
To release the power to take control
Doing what u do endin up on my pole
If indeed I were to get to u
Would u if u could put ur body to use
N if I told u what I really wanted
Would I be worth watchin how u flaunt it
For everyone has someone they'd come out of the bag for
Spillin secrets in a nights grind from the bed to the floor
I'm jus askin
Jus would luv a breif glimps of passion
What if I were to allow myself to be ur toy
Would u find me useful as ur sexual void
Maybe what if could never be to straight forward
Would u do more than speak a mumble of ur untamed words
N if u absolutely couldn't help urself
Is it in u to please as I'm being felt
I'm jus wonderin if I could get a hint
Of what it is u want to be bitten choked or clinched
If I overwhelmed ur empty hormones
Do u think u could finally go crazy n act full grown
Pretend u r what u are affraid to be
I wouldn't think less of u if u were on ur knees
If n jus if u were the freak u hide
Yes I know its there stuck deep inside
Could u jus be who it is u actually wanna be
For one night as I am completely under seige
Cuz if u could find it behind an if
Id be forever urs hard n oh so stiff
U see I wanna know the real u that will not lie
Actin out what feels good on this body of mine
So if its possible to lay for a moment
Do u think u could posssible attempt to own it
If that one u tuck inward deep within
Yeah that's the one, I wanna see if she can contend
Its jus a question if u could answer honestly
One in which if u would give in to the effect openly
As I search for the proper way to say what it is I need to say. Will you find patience in my tone of sound released from the depths of my honesty to wait. I'm going to attempt this verbal acknowledgement with this man I have become to express from thy heart just to tell you the secret that describes my emotion for only you. Opened up to the likes of acceptance and knowing you have finally heard the truth. So as I ramble through the letters I pluck from within and align what is going on inside me seen by acts of will. Please try to find reasoning of someone like myself to love you the way I do sitting so close and trying to remain still. So if you can dig into that sacret place no one is aloud to be, you see I need you to understand the passion that is over flowing underneath the vision of the man it is you do indeed crave. My love I must get to the point and try not to have a loss of words as speech may break down before you today. Do not worry if it may take time to get out the comfort in which you give to me, beacause I would just for once want to direct the attention in a conversation correctly. You see, I do not mind one least bit for you to take up the space within me that has never been filled before. I quite enjoy the meaning you give to the unused purpose I have carried for so long in my core. Hear me if you have the tiime to listen to your man putting himself on the line in a way I am so desperately willing to hold on to. Not that anything is wrong, but to assure you I am that one whom can not help but to love only you. Lady, you receive my best pouring from these lips with actions that speak louder than I could ever put letters into form. For you I give me because you deserve a man who enjoys opening more than doors. I guess what I am trying to say is what I have just let slip out so freely. Wow, seems I did not have to try like the way I love you so easily. Goes to show it is natural for me to give me the way I do. Now all that is left is for you to believe I am so in love with you.........
Your not worth anything to me lost.
All that would be still is in the calling of a pause.
The wording may seem hurtfully wrong.
But I wouldn't know what to do if you were gone.
Surpressed memories broken and ignored.
Losing you deep within my unselfish core.
Your worth my every individual imparticular thing.
Misplacing you just may change the way I think.
Even slipping loose from a rings inner diamiter.
Will leave me alone to show the face as an amiture.
Without you dying alive seems appropriate.
Walking alone I would stand confused and misguided.
Life as I know it could never be repaired.
And all my will misplaced is so easily misfortunately unfair.
According to your smile breaths are faint around kisses.
Eyes sparkle with a twinkling enjoyment in wed as Mrs.
Language of your flowing sway speeks without a word.
And it is the greatest thing I have never heard.
It is apparent love has settled in to your creases.
By the tone of you voice you have gathered the peices.
Put self back together before me as I watch you live.
And there is not a thing for you I would not give.
Obviously you have found what you have longed for.
In me as it shows as looking threw me is no more.
You see me as a relivant way of life showing interest.
The way you cling within a reach tells has me speechless.
Fact of the matter that is as real as emotions shared.
Is that how in one an other we were meant to be paired.
Easing out of me I step away and take a peek.
Letting things be what the truly seems.
Watching the freedom of drifting off to sleep.
Oh how I need to get lost in a dream.
For my face leaks of hope that flees.
As my eyes sees self worn and beat.
Running thoughts meet expressions freed.
Staring I creep back into my own heat.
All but the walls are falling at this point.
Standing like toothpicks in the wind.
Cracking as if my spine can not handle the weight.
I'm almost spent and I'm frightened.
Toughts strain aches bruising thy will.
Confushion settles to the nerves pinch.
Poking at the unseen endings likelyness.
One upon a time I had this thing clinched.
Roofs wiggling looser by the days tick.
Allowing moisture to awaken a drip in the eye.
Pain creeps in between the darks path.
Nails cling to structure in a broken mind.
Floors creek like my body that's so sore.
Bending and hiding vibrations as it lays.
Falling quicker as second claim the night air.
Needing a miracle of support I pray.
Given a second first chance after time has been lost.
Almost as if time was meant to be interupted and paused.
Waiting patiently for the moment of irresistable fate.
Hoping lessons learned never came to unfortubately late.
Love sat still enough in the uknown heart to maintain for truths own.
Leveling heads made to understand we are indeed grown.
Days then years slipped away for the sake the breath taking of us.
Its undenyable that we are meant to be more than a childhood crush.
Here standing and given a second first chance to show selfs acceptance.
Honestly we fell asleep on a dream that was unseen as releantless.
Together we now know why the memory lingered and remained.
Living as freinds first as days go by and there is so much more to gain.
Straight up. As real as alphabets has definitions.
Speak to me. With purpose of words chosen worth a mention.
Showing ur face. Be able to beat a bush into clarity.
To the point. Listening I'm waiting on security.
Taking away uncertainties. Fill me whole.
Be u. Here n now as it is u that unfolds.
Have meaning in tone. Chipping loose the past.
Whom is it u r with? Do u want it to last?
Grab ur claim. Hold the truth as feelings r set aside.
Tell me of all people. Confide n do not hide.
Flush lips only retain. Speech attempting to be heard.
Grasp reallity. Grown n flowing willing to learn.
Speak to me. Release all the things u never say.
Upon my ears. Waiting for a freindship that won't stray.
Trust in my reaction. Be one with ur inner most.
Actions told. N together we can grow old as we coast.....
Tasty recipe mix oh so ever nicely.
A dash of you and a sprinkle of me.
Stired for the flavor of the tongue.
Spices of truth and honesty dabbed in love.
Thickening sauce of emotions heated.
Simmering slow and sipped to see what's needed.
Perfection is served to warm the soul.
Enjoying the dish before it ever goes cold.
I'm on my road to the ever so hard to find good life.
N I'm not turnin back in this lifetime without a fight.
My happiness has found its own way to spend its days.
Unforced by the sight of the curve of a womans face.
Times given in to whispers deep within the night.
Held so tight rollin in what's called the goodlife.
Feet claimin ground beneath the undenyable meaning.
Makin reallity from the imagination lost n dreaming.
N there's no way in hell I'm ever gonna give this up.
Fallin deeper by the day covered in my very own true love.
The good life tingles my senses once numbed ability.
Awakening n resting my long gone forgotten insecurities.
Unconditionally I live within my hearts unstoppable purpose.
Finally accepted I don't feel so utterly unsupported nor worthless.
My good lifes here for my chance to be forever as one needed.
Even within the moments so missguided as tensions heated.
I'm never ever gonna ever never quit walkin the walks sway.
Finding ways to make her smile is my lifelong dream to play.
Coming full circle meeting in the middle of being completed.
Giving all I can so she feels blessed n never depleated.
Its the good life laying emotions on the our timeline.
There's nothin wrong with her claiming me as hers as mine.
When selfs allowed to individually grow n live with a voice outloud.
Releasing truth in actions let loose by unspoeken words from the mouth.
Interesting situation revealing the obvious in a constant welcoming connection.
Completing tasks of tests falling from the blind sides attempt to intrude with intensions.
The rolling struggle finds nothing but rough edges stumbling into a frozen hault.
Unfazed standing hand in hand we kick rocks out of the way for the better of our cause.
Laughing unbroken we fight to make the moments meant to be remembered.
Enjoying the ride of passion in between the hardest flatlines bent, snapped and dismembered.
Taking seconds back from the day stressing perfect relations that are more than satisfied.
Crossing cracks webbed in zig zag patterns, invisible to eyes that are locked and mesmerized.
All the while growing stronger within loves power of fate opened completely up.
Breathing kisses untamed by tactics against the gentle clinging to hugs colliding to touch.
Releantless angles throwing confushion directed at the hearts willingness to simply give.
Little does the pain know it can not defeat the purpose behind the desire that demands to live.
Bumpin heads with a two headed coin.
Tails between the legs n I don't know where I'm going.
Facin the flip side n callin tails every time.
Losin the toss n going outta my mind.
Rotation in mid air seems so promissing.
Til the landing leaves me imagining.
The equal bounce of metal happening.
Flicked from the thumb of chance.
Falling down to seek a glance.
Peeking to make the right call.
As eyes gaze upon the lengthened crawl.
Riding on the back of life weighed down.
Feet unmovable, stuck in the soiled ground.
Planted pivit pushing foward yet still.
Muscles ache from the strain of will.
Knees shake in exhaustions ware.
Damn near giving out to what is not fair.
On the backside of the restless gain.
Enduring the best of the chilled rain.
Eyes leak in the silence of night.
Bending for the purpose of the fight.
Face curved to the struggles misfortune.
A timeline given from the start of doomed.
Riddled with the satisfaction of just being alive.
Content with the furry of needing an eased mind.
I ride with patience spread thinner by the second.
Stronger than yesterdays precious moment.
Cracking eyes, awakening to the sight of you drifted.
Lids lifting, staring at the comfort as if in dreamland I missed it.
Opened to a morning filled with the ease of pleasure.
Taking notice to happiness snuggled unbothered.
Pupils adjust to the shape of your face lost in another place.
Watching the rest of a beauty cling to the break of day.
So lovely to see a breath taken so relaxed and peaceful.
It is truly a moment that words find unmentionable.
Splitting to the mornings smile you seek me glaring.
Zoning in contact with the likes of perfection baring.
Emotions slips down a cheek as I'm caught in admiration.
Rolling over to feel the connection of the hearts early morning stability.
Make me. Me. Make the man I am. Better. Me. Make my will be uncontrolled. By me. my heart needs ur make. Kind. Make up my mind. Mine. Make me believe. I am more than I am. Me. Make me step up my game. Claim me. Own me. My heart wants to be. Make me love. Willingly as me. Make me fall. Doin u with me. Make me listen within actions.calming me. Relaxing me. Easing me. Make me breath you. Me. I want it to be me. Make me your best friend. Its me that will defend. Standing as me. For us. Its me. Make me want to beg. Feening for your presense. Me. Only me. Make me. It wouldn't take much. So make me.
Luv me for the passion in the depths of me reachin for u. For the emotion escapin longin to feel only u. For the willingness to show patience for a lifetime for us. For the connection made in between two as one in luv. Luv me because u can't resist the comfort of me. Because I need u the same as u need me. Because the time has come to faal into my arms where u are safe. Because without me lifes flavor could never taste the same. Luv me.
Fighting the invisiblity of failure in between the breezes flow followed by a strong wind backing down the struggle in which I am slowly losing.
Grabbing at space and swinging fists clinched that land on absolutely nothing as frustration slices the confusion in halfs causing more than inner bruising.
Hands unfold to defeat as the body aches from severe storms of havic that rip away the will doing more than giving its all for the better of worth.
Changing the face that stares at the game played to win when comfort is on the line of remaining to stand strong enough so life won't hurt.
If it were me to go first. If it was I to leave my best. Id leave u one last piece of me to ur smile. So u could to feel it in an others chest. So u can hear it beat as a part of me is alive. Left behind to comfort ur thoughts. To try n ease ur emotions. So it can be as close to so u never feel lost. My heart I gave to u. Carrying the luv of u with every pulse. To hopefully remain in ur life. So time it self dcoenst get stuck in a pause. If I left u here today. Forced to part to rest in peice. My last dyin wish would be for u to never feel alone. For us in ur lifetime to forever be.
If it were end tomorrow. Who'd feel the pit of an L? Losin more than what could eva be gained back. As nothin could eva compete with what bein felt. What if today was it? Losin all but memories that could neva go to waste. Who'd be the one needin it more than the other? Unable to find anything remotely close enough to its taste. If it was gone like yesterday. Would u fight for the existance to be reborn as if it neva left? Who's worth would be more than a physical presence? Havin been locked in the heart for a lifetime to spend with.
Ticking so softly.
Slowly yet costly.
Emotions pound.
Deeper the sound.
Booming vibrations.
Rippling a solution.
Rattling nerve endings.
Shock waves sending.
Confussion to the pause.
Finding cracks in flaws.
Needing not to break.
For thy is not fake.
A strain settles in.
Showing where I've been.
Rips tare by the slice.
Going over it twice.
Lost in the disbeleif.
The ground pulls at my knees.
Comforts abscent here.
Leaving notthing but fear.
Poking at what is left.
Destroying my best.
A lil different is my smile.
Falling on the ends today.
Missing its uncontrolled charm.
Bending into a break.
Puprose losing ground.
Somewhat rearranged.
Trying to protect emotions.
Sticking around fighting the change.
Blank stares silencing my grin.
Dropping hints of the ache.
I'm unable to enjoy this day.
The irritations sucking in the pours in my face.
Drying up the leaking sensation.
Turning me into a man of stone.
Mouth is more still motioneless.
All I hear is whimpers of moans.
Taken from me is the ease.
The knowing of m y happinesses vibe.
Desserted as alone I feel.
Lost in an unknown time.
From ear to ear my smiles been misplaced.
Deliberately disoriented.
Way past words purpose and clinging to you.
Emotions feel the endless in touches use.
On this side of loves never ending calling.
I'm in the middle of actually doing more than falling.
Living in the presense of a dreams true ability.
Becomming more than an ever wanted reality.
No longer behind the closed unseen colors in eyes.
Stepping out side the wonder of my drifting mind.
So far past just wanting u to know I want to know u.
In a holding embrace as one comes from two.
Laying close enough to know perfect comfort.
Outlasting the find in knowing what was always to hover.
Claiming what's willing as easy as it is to be given.
Within times clues of telling what's truly unhidden.
Completions correcting characters ways that play.
Walking a talk that means more than past days that fade.
Calming the nerve of the lack of own selfs worth.
Now before me u stand and am finally being heard.
Within cracks in each incomplete letter slowly reconnected.
Reading what's been written and properly inspected.
Finding interest in more than just a empty lonely title.
Watching steps easing along for their not so vital.
Past the clicking of not knowing shared passion.
I am yours my love to do how it as your heart tends to cash in.
Rich in soul that sings a song pushing throughout.
Above the soil as we are not past our moment to live outloud.
I got it.
Found it.
In my heart.
Living n alive.
Its here.
Moving inside me.
Filling space.
Completing the mind.
To stay.
Needing me.
Needing it.
Luv is my find.
Opening me.
Throughout this man.
Searching thy good.
With a sigh.
Expressing self.
Accepted as.
Flowing through.
Hearing lines.
Told to comfort.
In beleif.
Relaxed within.
Its my time.
Is me. I don't understand. Words r abscent. Me. Is it? Confused I am. Rotating huh. Me is. I know what that means. Over achiever. Its me. Lost in tolerance. Unjustifyably misunderstood. Is me. Permenantly rounded. Concrete in mind. As me. Turnin pages stuck together. Missin info. Me. Zoning in la la land. Looking for reason. Me as I. Alone when alls failed. Tearing up. I is. Misdirected. Let down. Is I. Interesting enough. Able to make it. I as one. Level headed n ready. Going the distance. One is me. Reshaping a man. Looking for depth. I is. Aching deep. Searching for self. I am. Therefore I know whom. Becoming the unmentionable. Me I is. Giving alls worth. Wanting meaning in a lifetime.
I love being tied up with you with fingers locked and wrapped in love as if in a laced pattern that feeds emotions coming alive and takes control of gratified hormones as seconds tick and patience sinlges out true intensions showing interest to please a pleasure worth the time rolling in an complex battle for the top that has two victories fighting for the right to feel a climax like no other as yours vs. Mine in an act so passionate sweat dances around puddles forming on the bed beneath that squeeks with orgasms moaning deeper than fantasies trying to breathe a gasp of survival from the heat exhaled from the lungs as if the inner most cravings boil with perfection made for a god that fills our surroundings with more than the temperature of air rising with the sun in the early morning chasing away the night in which got away from us I believe way to fucking soon.
What to do with ends that don't meet?
When emotion are so affraid to leak.
Where's the words that hide from the speech?
Drowning in the throats defeat.
How's one suppose to move as they plead?
Shuffling backwards with their feet.
Who's to say all is will with a please?
Bringing one of the two off their knees.
Why's it always one way outside of dreams?
Holding in the never ending dripping stream.
Endless drifts in the middle of long enjoyable days.
Living in eyes peeking a boo in between sun rays.
Finding forevers outlasting the curious imagination.
Lost patiently in the ways of an others temptations.
Riding emotions that consume everything finally getting right.
Knowing no one else to them can hold a candle light.
Motionless in moments made to be made.
Meeting on the other end of the tunnel still going the same way.
Perfection speaking in smiles crossing lines no other shall reach.
Two as one being what they are being in love as it will teach.
Happy in the mood of what it is for the way it is.
Easing in comforts slow winding breeze catching a kiss.
In the time of where the hearts belong.
Dreams are complete with a face that has been longed.
No more one of these days that never seemed to come.
Finally together feeling rings worn for self is now one.
Understanding what it takes to be with the best thing ever.
Lost in loves desire for passion as it stares back into forever.
With more meaning in purpose than this world knows.
Bending til the snap of a crack breaking for loves equalizing flow.
Going further than invisible lines over stepped to make a point.
Filling more than that irritating lonely void.
Lost in you somewhere between heaven & me I see my life.
Clinging to the compassion & having a need for my wife.
I stand a man compelled by your touch.
As you own the depths of my hearts love.........
I've never seen it outside a dream.
Even there eyes don't speak.
Not the way a stare back calls to me.
So extreme over flowin wells leak.
Watchin happiness drip from ur cheek.
Locked in on the sights of me.
Luvin through a glare that needs.
Lettin loose of emotions that want to be free.
I've never noticed the attention so true.
Not until I ran back into u.
Outside my head where thoughts r used.
Its all in the way u do what u do.
Of this being possible I never knew.
Glanced over n peeked upon it soothes.
Knowin ur following the way I move.
Pupils stuck to me like glue.
I've never seen it that way before.
Reachin out from ur inner core.
U make me want so much more.
Of a luv that tends to lore.
Drainin energy from the pores.
As pulses race n expressions sore.
Meetin behind the closin of the door.
Touchin feelins like musical chords.
I've never witness somethin so real.
Chippin at the stone as it peels.
Made to want to heal.
Its in the way u simply deal.
A luv so comfortin it ceils.
Cracks n breaks along the walls feel.
Makin me out to be more than a meal.
I've never been eased away from being steel.
In a world made for struggle.
Level ur eyes with an other.
Check the height of ur chin.
Or why even bother.
Walking with stress made to break.
Stand ground for purpose.
Bend for the moments.
In rythm with the movement.
Ease along until u find urs.
Enjoy the possiblities u receive.
Go ahead n take a tour.
Live as if u are alive.
In a world so utterly cruel.
Be self til the end.
Yet know u r no fool.
Head held in frame workin on a perfect picture.
Behind glass eyes as still as happy features.
Showing smiles captured in a flashes click.
Pausing moments to be seen foreve to nows grip.
Pinned to a walls space of remembrance in time.
Hanging hooks holding the pasts faces that shine.
Pick it up.
Give into me.
As my heart lies.
Give it meaning.
Feel its pulse.
Show me u care.
Put it to use.
Give it a dare.
Love my will.
Give it a chance.
Make a friend.
Flow with the dance.
Hold it gently.
Trust its cause.
Open urself.
With a slight pause.
Put it back.
Give it a home.
Be its comfort.
Ur all its known.
So show urself.
Become one in time.
Break free from restraints.
Know ur my kind.
So close I can taste it.
Kinda like enjoying a buzz not so blitzed.
Reaching over the middle.
Open hands outstretched within a riddle.
Helping love live with patience.
Easing into rythm ever so anxious.
Bringing forth equal playing feilds.
Something meant that is only felt as real.
Raising the bar of purpose.
Relaxing unsettled emotion so nervous.
Taking the time to teach and learn.
Giving chance for expressions to do more than yearn.
Two paths crossed marking the spot.
X-ing the treasure where secrets a droped.
Meeting in between wants and needs.
Allowing self to be used like a dream.
Its there hiding behind selfish ways.
Wanting to break free yet so affraid.
Boundaries made were meant to be erased.
Once upon a time we all get fazed.
Pulling an other away from rotting.
Spoiling someone other than self popping.
Bubbles bursting in faith.
Claiming the only thing one has in their space.
Saving the worth in loves undying eyes.
Standing only by an others side.
Taking a poke at families irrelivant obligation.
Forced to deal with bloods confusing irritation.
To love them is a real trying over played emotion.
When liking any of them takes so much devotion.
Back and forth along the walls climbing inside erosion.
Hoping relevance slows for the sake of the commotion.
Individualizing last names that represent different illusions.
So far away from the closest thing is bloods restrictions.
Unable to accept one an other as if time lost imperfection.
Picking away at the bound that's strained by intrution.
Needin a topic. I'm lost in the same words.
Trippin on the tongue. Sliddin on its curve.
Tasting the same . Over and over and over.
Rottin the buds frequently. Rejectin flavor.
Tappin out. I sound the same.
Playin with letters. Losin the game.
I need direction. Smooth and direct.
Straight to the point. Loose and perfect.
I'm at a loss. Brain can't think.
Abcdefg. What comes next before the zzzzz?
Sleepy verbal communication out played.
Wish I could wake up tomorrow with something new to say.
Whos got me?
A question of wonder.
No matter what.
Breaking silence in thunder.
No game filled lies.
Never to shy.
Show ur face.
Invade my space.
Who's got me?
With honesty.
Needing ur fix.
I ponder who's it.
Wanting all I am.
Giving cuz u can.
100 doing ur thing.
Rings that bling.
I see u luv.
In the winds gust.
Blowin words in breaths.
Getting my best.
Do u got me?
Or lost in a dream.
Give bits as they run
Leaving wanted undone.
Putting me to use.
U know that truth.
U got me?
Doing u freely.
I got u.
Through and through.
Who's got me?
Unselfishly seen.
Fulfilling my life.
On or off lights.
Letting me know.
For its being shown.
U feel me?
Who's got me?
Is it u?
Words spoken true.
Is my wants ur own?
As ur r mine full grown.
Unseperable and willing.
Doing all the above filling.
I know who's got u.
And what they intend too proove.
Its me and I can not lose.
I give for I am.
Cuz I can.
Question stands waiting.
Patiently saying.
Do u got me?
Making sure I don't need.
I feel as if I am being put to use.
That is a good thing until words are meant to boost.
Losing meaning in the truth.
For intensions spoken are way too loose.
Telling on self with twisted clues.
I'm backing down before I lose.
From a love who's emotion are true.
Yet it is false leadings that makes me think I am who?
I can not be that man of her dreams that said I do.
For the cofusing mind is not understanding the proof.
Unseen and unfelt breaking down the hearts boom.
I am for I luv without holding back the woo's.
Words of my likes are no where near neccessary.
Irrelivant even to a lonely obituary.
It is as if invisible lines have been drawn.
Am I stepping over boundaries that don't belong?
Getting only eighty percent of the ticking that is left.
As I give my undenyable whole hearted best.
Coming up in between actions as just an other average stiff.
Willingness is not even on the to do list.
To give is to receive as a bond untold.
Seems what I want is always put on hold.
I need not to believe in a mouth that is false.
Repeating what I want to hear is a flaw.
Loves design is not completely understood.
Untouched cravings set aside that I wsih she would.
I'm creating a sheild as I fight for my likes.
Even married to my breath taking wife.
I no longer want what makes me, me.
Held out on to long of what is suppose to complete.
Resistance of selfishness shows a face.
And I'm beginning to believe I don't have what it takes.
To have the desireable passion that takes no interest.
Is it possible I'm not worth the touch more than a kiss?
My own desires are a unmentional problem as of this far.
Yet I'll do anything as I have from the start.
It is not two ways on the street that is lived.
Maybe it is me I do not get.
Putting someone else first before thy self.
I only want an other to honestly help.
Make me that one they would do for like no other.
Sometimes I wonder why I should bother.
With the things that make me tick.
Feels like I need to get a fucking grip.
I am wrong for asking as if I am begging.
I think I am going to be forever waiting.
That is not the way two as one was meant to be.
Half stepping reallities ever wanted dream.
I have patience for my only to realize what it takes.
Possibly accepting love as an undenyable fate.
Does she know what she has before her eyes?
I do not front refusing her fix as I worry about mine.
I just want for someone to do for me.
What is it I have to do to get off my knees?
I feen for it so bad it tully hurts.
To know an other does more tha flirt.
I've been in the possition and been left alone.
Coming up short is not imagined in the dome.
All that is wanted is a love that is rare.
Yet it seems for my enjoying she does not care.
I found that unique individual that means that much.
Guess I'm not as important as I keep it on the hush.
Ways of the duece.
Face to face.
One as whole.
Keepin the pace.
Defining unconditional.
Hearts flow.
Knowing the stand.
Willing to show.
Defending meaning.
Solid purpose seen.
Playful intensions calming.
In ways of need.
Wanting the comfort.
Easing with love.
Emotion lives.
Never feeling stuck.
Games a past tense.
Dealing the received.
Taking a couple.
Accepting a please.
Cheeks to thighs.
Clinching my face.
Going off signs.
Enjoying the taste.
Moans to ear.
Taking up space.
Making it clear.
Your not going to waste.
Lapping with a slurp.
Picking up pace.
Tongue is a flirt.
Hide and seek on base.
Planted in pleasure.
Trimmed in lace.
Playing together.
In your cave.
In the middle of between.
Tucked into the seems.
Looking at the opposites.
Idling to the differences.
Within the comforts.
Watching basics roar.
Individuallity speaks.
Observing how two paths meet.
Relaxing in mutual grounds.
Realizing the common bound.
Loves noticed in the actions.
Reaching over me is passion.
Air tight breaths are taken.
Emotions are not immitating.
Attraction is at wills hands.
Nutural zone has been invaded.
Colliding touch is traded.
As one with own edges.
Shaping in time for the ages.
Ticking hearts beat a dream.
Naturally settling in the middle of between.
Thing is, I'm in luv.
Madly in luv.
With the only woman I'd eva.
Eva give me the way I do.
I'm so fuckin whooped.
Not in a bad way.
Nor controlling.
Yet its a connection I've longed for.
Begged myself to find.
I am head ova heals.
Passionately involved.
Opened to the luv.
Its that simple.
I'm 100% dedicated.
No matter what emotion I diddle.
I am without a doubt, free.
With my best friend beside of me.
I'm so happy I could cry.
My luv is MANDY!.
N I haven't a clue y I deserve her.
I'm jus me.
Luvin her is natural.
Instict if u will.
I can not help myself.
I am so in luv with her its unreal.
I jus wanna see her smile.
Pause for her in the middle of the day.
Jus to show her someone cares.
True to the point.
With ova flowin expressions.
Making waves that splash in the heart.
She's my one.
The only one that will ever get me.
No bullshit.
Id die for this woman.
Give my own breath to give her a fraction of a second.
Jus so she could live.
I am willing.
I care.
I am the definition of reallities meaning.
Living the dream not everyone gets.
I am fortunate to have someone like her.
Yet there's not a soul like her.
One of a kind.
N she's all mine.
I refuse to give her back.
She owns me cuz I am hers.
MANDY!.
Deep within me I am so rightfully urs.
Made to luv only u.
Cross my heart, I will always luv u.
U see I want to be the difference.
Cuz I am able to be a man.
For u.
For us.
My life is ours to outlast life.
Becomming more than a feeling.
U rock me.
Do things I've neva felt.
U make me complete.
Ilu1!
Seems I'm running around the point here.
I jus wanna be a friend.
For there's no chance without it.
I like u.
N that gives me a chance to luv u.
With honest to god truth.
U r part of me.
Helping me realize I am real.
I can't thank u enough for stopping to take interest.
My only wish is to know u.
Be a part of whteva ot is u allow.
They say being impaired brings out the truths.
N I am.
Buzzed as u sleep.
Craving u.
Feeling u breath as the day breaks.
My luv.
To touch u in a way no one can is an honor.
A privalage.
N I thank god u r willing to give me what I give.
Please know.
I am unconditional.
A friend.
For life I am urs.
I am honored to have u as my wife.
U r my dream.
One that's lived within me for damn near all my life.
N I'm crazy about u.
I know ur beautiful.
But that's noe the reason I married u.
U see I can not help myself.
I've neva met anyome that does what u do to me.
U bring me out.
Because of u I am me again.
I am BUTCHIE.
Thank u 1!
For I ubderstand u.
I feel u.
For I know u.
We r the same.
Jus different sexes woth an ova powering attraction.
I will alays be true.
Patient without a flaw.
U r me as I am u.
Foreva baby.
U r it.
Tag me back.
Since we were kids.
Plaese understand u do it for me.
U r what a woman is in my eyes.
In mt heart.
Uve been inside of me far to long not to give u all I have.
My best.
Undenyable self that shows it.
Actions 1.
If time hasn't told u that by now.
Idk what to say.
I fuckin luv u!
AILOWY!
I JUS WANNA SEE U SMILE FOR U DESREVE IT.
Cuz u r human as I am.
I am here by ur side n its ur call.
N I'm worth every second of the way.
Trust that.
Know that........
Its me.
BUTCHIE.
N all I want is my chance with MANDY!
As one.
Halfs complete.
I need u!
I want u!
I allen ray moragn.
Luv u!
AMANDA JO MORGAN!
N THERE'S NOTHIN LEFT TO SAY.....
CAN U SEE ME?
A man shouldn't be born with emotion.
Unable to deal with the misunderstood confusion.
He's the last one that gets his feelings noticed.
Always strong to give every inch of self for the better.
And everyone wonders why we don't want to feel.
Always strong to give every inch of self just hoping.
As a man not a big tough profile that's fake.
Yet unseen as human beyond the exterior of the shell, he waits.
Unable to ask, for its suppose to be without question.
Over thinking the walk in his mind as he finds direction.
We who accept our roll go without, being last.
Down to last dime broken from a bill called hard earned cash.
Knowing one day true acceptance is honest fate.
Yet the journey there shouldn't be a great debate.
Hurting silently.
I speak no sound.
Curling inside of me.
Catching up to now.
Pain aches my nervous system.
Bruising confidence.
Stunting a stem.
Twisted in defiance.
Breaking down to behave.
Strenght is not seen.
No longer brave.
Turning mean.
Tested and beginning to fail.
Rated on a 1 to 10 scale.
I forgot how to be me.
Yet I'm living the dream.
Bending for loves existance.
Laying down defences.
Putting an other before self.
But I'm needing some emotional help.
And I'm not being heard.
It feels like my head is beginnig to turn.
Switches throwing flags right and left.
Nothings about me even at my best.
A two way street has become singled out.
Seems its me sitting in a drought.
Me doesn't exist anymore.
I've lost my own indiviual core.
Pared up for one sided relations.
Some things are hidden with irritation.
I'm falling backwards slower than the eye can see.
Motionless trying not to blow off steam.
Yet no one stands for me and my purpose.
I'm beggining to feel worthless.
Having less meaning as days tick by.
And I haven't a clue of why.
I've noticed actions speak loud.
As words fall out of an over flowing the mouth.
Me is abscent and distant within.
Fighting a demon that won't allow me to grin.
Post dating emotions hoping to find self tomorrow.
But what are the odds of filling the hollow?
The numb fighting off smoking images forming behind the eyes. Bluring vision that stings a wink clouding the minds understanding of why. Shades pulled closed with a twist shut so sights are blinded in a sense of confusion. Making shapes that shift as wind blows in between the ears causing illusions. False state of mind resisting the possibilities of truth rejecting the movement. So close to the edge walking backwards and about to lose it. Tricks play along the inner walls of the minds curtain. Hardly making out what's so clear as most certain.
My erge to right anymore is fading.
Seems I speak from within yet I'm immitating.
Past experiences retold to the ear.
That's what I've been told oh so clear.
Yet every letter chosen means more than they've ever.
I can't believe I'm portrayed as clever.
Words expressed so true with meaning and purpose.
Left unread and if had feeling they'd be hurting.
I've opened up to hear sounds that confuse my mind.
I've never lied in one single line.
Yes I started writting along time ago.
But now I write with real emotion within every flow.
Cut down and falling from my hobby for its irrelivant.
Never taking notice in honest time spent.
I'm thinking about quiting this dead end.
No one seems to care how the heart bends.
Verbally discomforting to say the least.
But how am I to feed a hungry beast?
Giving all I can to ubnderstand my own point.
Somehow truth jotted down is found a void.
Not interesting enough to peek a look.
Guess I know where I stand in my unwritten book.
Spread upon pages with so much passion.
And there isn't a single curiousity attaching.
I just want to lay my finger to rest.
Even after giving my very own best.
I can't out do the hurt of being brushed aside.
I wish this resistance would tkae the explosiveness in my mind.
Far away and never return.
For the one thing I enjoy has been burned.
Taking from me the will to scribble another sentence.
Shutting down all inner sequences.
Seems my thing isn't good enough to see its meaning.
Maybe one day I'll wake up no longer dreaming.
That someone actually cares that someone is letting them know.
They mean the world to them and just wants it to show.
But its all good if that's how its seen.
Even if ever curve of the alphabet clings...... wtfever...
I wanna move inside.
Become your cryptonite.
Float within so smoothly.
Filling a void more than soothing.
Deep under the touch.
Soaking with a careful rub.
Sliding firmly as you peek.
Sweeping off your tender feet.
Beneath the presense you hide.
Climbing I wanna reach your mind.
Up further than no one has gone.
Meaning rights and wrong.
Under the secrets held in a hand.
Feel me i am your man.
Reaching a poke worth a reply.
Shot like an arrow in a perfect sights.
Dead aim as I sink with a grin.
Fingers on your skin growing thin.
Melting together in a moments notice.
Finding the hidden in the middle of a kiss.
Open your gate and let me in.
I can make your head do more than spin.
Shaking off the confusions point.
Tapping at the meaning in your joints.
Crawling along your inner needs.
Carressing as gentle as I can be.
Blowing out thoughts of being alone.
Let me in as interests in action are shown.
Caring about what gets you going.
Doing what it is we are doing.
Holding you tightly in your zone.
Just to hear your unwinding tone.
Letting out a blurt speaking omg.
Let me in as your head will nod.
What's the password?
That one that touches a nerve.
Letting you in.
Flowing from limb to limb.
Give me your best guess.
Put your curiousity to the test.
See if you know what it takes.
To get inside my gates.
Communicate with direction.
Enter with acception.
Say what you think it might be.
And play within my dreams.
What is it that crosses your mind?
Speak and know if we can spend some time.
Closing the door behind yourself.
Take a chance to give me some help.
Off the tip of your tongue.
Before it goes numb.
Give syllables aligned just right.
I promise I won't bight.
If I were dyin.
Would u wanna know?
Could I have mercy?
On ur on goin soul.
Would it kill u everyday?
Standin by luv easin into a fade.
Watchin one an other cry.
Would u be by side?
What if I were?
Could u speak without a slur.
Kiss my tears?
Chasin away our fears.
If forever was at this moment.
Fase to face as emotions r spent.
Could u feel the lose.
Before the dirt was tossed.
Could u bare the pain?
Forced to let go of luvs gain.
Would u stand strong?
After I'm gone.
If dyin alive was our reallity.
Would u hold onto stability?
Where would u wind up?
If I rested beneath ur luv.
Could u see me in memory?
Or am I temporary?
Would ur heart heal?
Walkin without its beats feel.
If I were abscent tomorrow.
Could u reach for my sorrow?
Unable to tell u ilu.
To hold only u.
Would u cave emotionally?
Honestly.
If I were to drift asleep.
Would it be me u need?
Am I the cause of ur lonelyness.
If I were never to wake to ur happiness.
Imaginin me through memories.
Would pain flow as it streams?
Feelin so utterly empty.
Cut short of luvs fill of plenty.
Would u move on as I lay?
If I were to slip away.
Where would I fit into ur life?
After bein cut watchin my ly.
I beg for ur forgiveness.
If I were to enjoy ur bliss.
If time were to give out on me.
I appologise now to u my dream.
I please know I didn't wanna go.
I hadn't a choice to go so low.
By ur side is where I belong.
My heart beats our song.
But if I weren't to be found in the mornin one day.
Know I miss u and I'm affraid.
Could u be as close as we r now?
If I lived in the clouds.
Leavin u here to live without luv.
Would u forgive me as ur heart goes numb?
Livin our life as urs.
Lonely in ur core.
Could u keep me alive?
As my wife?
Settled nerves easin downward towards pillows soft.
Breaking day fallin into dark sights seizin pause.
Calmed thoughts uprooted layed about to sleep.
Slippin dreams claimin realities overflowin stream.
Leakin drips drainin urges past pain diggin in.
Turnin lights clickin off ignorin lifes sample within.
Coverin covers sheildin bones from the breezes chill.
Warmin soul gainin releif comforted by relaxations reel.
Motion playin pictures movin a drift silent to this world.
Lost hours taken control stealin early mornins as minds a twirl.
Lastin illusions needin escapin from civilized ways made.
Deep dark hidin behind lids shapin peace formin trade.
Collapsin frustration suffacatin time undone between lights.
Restin will reborn uncertain givin meaninful purpose of life.
Must see me. Without vision. Untouched to the naked eye. Like glass as if crystal. When sight is abscent. Seen. Hardly vague. Having no shape. As motions rest. Noticing presence. Blind to movement. Knowing in whom. On the inside. Sinking in. Lids closed. Hiding the retnas. Of colors getting lost. Staring with sense. Understanding the appreciation. Feeling the concept. In the hearts light. Finding truth. Invisibly real. As self. Standing in the way. Pupils relaxing. Recognizing beyond form. Accepting nonfiction. At one with beleif. Unimagined proof. Interacting with satisfaction. Impossible as it seems. Unmistakably partaking in life. Opening the mind. Tapping into feelings. Living within the meaning of being perceived. Undescribably enjoyable. Perceptable. Aware of the conscious realization. Paying attention to the signs observed without a glimpse. Revealing an observation with heed. Must be seen.
Everytime I look into ur eyes I fall deeper n deeper in luv.
Face to face locked in a stare that does more than a touch.
Yet when u touch me my body tingles n I get butterflies.
As nerves cling to the contact that fits the thought of luv in my mind.
U make me feel how a man should make a woman feel.
Opened to the unconditional presense that is forever real.
I luv the way u look at me as if there's no one else around.
N I melt the way u release three lil words so true from ur mouth.
U make me feel like a lil girl in luv with her first crush.
Sharing the taste of a kiss that speaks of so much trust.
Like the very first that took away my breath for the first time in my life.
Bringing out the best as we wed husband n wife.
Holdin in irritations n not speakin a sound.
Conversation doesn't take place from ur mouth.
Boilin emotions causin misguided intension.
Everytime words flow confusion is mentioned.
Waitin on time to linger on thoughts.
Instead of talkin n keepin feelins soft.
Tension swings in the balance ever so often.
Yet a friend like no other is paused n haultin.
Hopin actions r tellin on self worth.
As visions of truth r unfocused n blurred.
Deep inside as if u wait to see.
Sits u alone pickin at a dream.
Peicin together the value of what u gather.
When letters r irrelivant to what matters.
To hear the situation as it unfolds in its time.
Would be nice, not somewhere down the line.
Honesty is key to the clues evaluated.
But now is the moment for images not to be insinuated.
Goin in at self makin sense of surpressed nonsense.
When there shouldn't be a single line of defense.
Breakin loose with passion.
Out the gate n runnin.
Overflowin feelins.
Blowin in the breeze hummin.
Takin flight on luvs journey.
Shapin clouds n rearrangin their form.
Glidin with the wind.
As close to possible with the norm.
Loop d loops n free.
Higher than the imagination can fly.
Talkin to an angel.
In the middle of the sky.
If the heart doesn't have room for luvs dish.
It is a wasteland of mixed emotional rubbish.
If the compacity of possibilieties that can roam isn't enough.
Life itself will seem so pointless at the end of lust.
Completion is a seek that hides momentary to be found.
Yet if one doesn't accept the patience the heart won't pound.
Beating with purpose with the truth of an others need.
So if willingness isn't given, the heart is filled with greed.
Stealing luvs intensions away from pure honesty.
Hidding in content of false, selfish, abandoned loyalty.
I've neva been with anyone I wouldn't mind walking away from at some point. It crossed my mind from time to time. Or all the time for I knew my intensions. But u, ur somethin else luv. Even in my dreams I fight for ur hand. Strange. I've neva been this way before. Their isn't a soul walkin earth I could'nt ignore. Eccept urs. I crave u luv. Somethin I've neva done. Needin u is a neccessity for my happiness. Its unexplainable to so the least. One, I feel for u in my heart that has awakened my manhood that has been half steppin with intention in my cores everything. You've found it be bein u. And that's some crazy shit. I could step away from anyone until I ran back into u. I don't have it in me. I can not willingly make my feet move unless they follow u. Please understand my emotions that agree with my minds thought of knowing u r my one n only. Ur what I've missed for so long. Damn near my whole life. So to have u willingly. I will do anything to help u smile. For it's what makes my day when we wake in the mornin n the curve of ur face lights up when u see me through those eyes that cave into my presence as mine does to u. Luv, this is my heart gatherin everything from my head to toe. Trying to let u know what it is that makes my good tick as its released with ur name. Ilu1! N I will remain, AILOWY! (Always in love, only with you) foreva!
I didn't know I was gonna change.
I need you here to see me.
Becoming a man one day on my death bed.
With emotions that aren't free.
But no, ur soul is running.
N I'm here passin time.
On my way home as u wait.
Jus like the end of this rhyme.
Pausing time to remember ur face.
Breifly together u were there.
Never to return in person.
I really need u here.
To witness what I've become.
Blinded to closed eyes.
Wonder if I wasn't the same.
Would u notice the me I am?
Seems we're both beneath the rain.
That's as close as it gets.
Cutting deeper as days fade.
And the ache is void.
Forgettin the shape of ur face.
I am no longer the same.
Grown and wanting to be seen.
I know u had to go.
But it doesn't change my dream.
Spinnin like a ying n yang.
Twisted, boom like bang.
I'm cavin in on a spiral ova ur luv.
U fit me n I wanna touch.
Out of control I'm on a mission.
For ur all I've been wishin.
Closer than breaths I wanna feel ya.
Flush as sweat collides wit u ma.
My service is all but polite.
Down for whatevas on ya mind.
Soul mates wrapped in tanlged arms.
Lady I mean u no harm.
Teasin the hunger inside.
Pleasin a climax so hard to find.
Lemme do ya what ya neva felt.
Gauranteed ta make ya drip n melt.
I wanna appreciate ur presence.
Lay down ya wall of defense.
Round n round I go dreamin.
Driftin on thougths screamin.
Callin out ya name ova n ova.
I jus wanna show ya.
What the man in me is about.
Creep down eva so further south.
Ease back for me one.
Don't stop me til I'm done.
Happiness is jus moments away.
N I'm here at ur beckin to stay.
U got me sprung, I'm so far gone.
N I can last all night long.
U won't havta do a damn thing.
But let me hear ur heart sing.
Can ya feel the hormones feenin.
I'm jus one man beggin n pleadin.
Diggin deep into ya souls flirtation.
Baby I don't know if I can be patient.
U do it for me like I've neva had done.
By ur side I know I've won.
Relax n set ya self free.
Be wit the moment outside ya dreams.
I'm here tellin u.
A silhouette speaks true.
It jus needs a face like mine.
For ya to notice as ya ride.
I'm ya special secret til further notice.
N I'm doin it on purpose.
Throwin intensions in ya ear.
Woman u haven't a damn thing to fear.
Its jus me n u alone.
Actin unselfish n full grown.
Bumpin bellies moanin til mornin.
Tell me which way ur goin.
Cuz that's the way I'm headed.
Passionately followin for u to be bedded.
Let's jus get lost n see where it goes.
Talkin bout how bright the moon glows.
Do our thing n grab ahold.
Can ya be so bold?
Control ur time n enjoy ya life.
I'm trippin on the word wife.
I'm strecthin the expression for ya.
To become betta than ya eva.
Tko lights out u got me.
Blown out the box I can't breath.
I'm one man feelin heavens blessin.
N ur the one I wanna be messin..................
Get it out.
So ya feet move.
Say it loud.
Living a groove.
Stand for self.
Release the pain.
Tharaputical help.
Laugh at the rain.
Know you.
Give ya mind.
Speak the truth.
In ya time.......
A year ago I was pure.
Yet I've been stepped on like manure.
12 months in the past.
And I've changed as I've been bashed.
Gave my all with devotion.
Backfired with verbal expolsions.
Aimed to hurt truth.
Selfish games have no use.
Watching words shot from lips.
Those in which I kiss.
Taste changing face.
Heart losing pace.
How much more can I take?
For my own sake.
Actions speak louder than being heard.
Eyes zoomed quickly in from a blur.
Forgotten and ignored.
Heart bouncing in rythm on the floor.
Slice by slice inches shaved.
Emploding as the chest caves.
Once I was pure.
But time I have endured.
Crashing in a burn.
When will I learn?
Unwanted is how I feel.
Tongue shedding a peel.
Dragging out the point.
Squeezing a void.
Upon a time ago I was everything.
Believed every syllable sang.
Left searching self for respect.
Nerves shaking and tense.
Where is home?
The mind roams..........
Elapsing emotion appologising for feelings redirected.
Closing in on chasing down a dream that is protected.
Collapsing, a care stares at walls blurred and frightened.
Images change every so often as moods tense before enlightened.
Remorse, regret all fade in times way of crossing paths.
True intensions losing ground in partaking pains wrath.
Twisted touches redirecting resistance ever so often.
Walking journeys colliding and forsaking hearts that soften.
Fear controlled by lonely bottles in hand that can not change.
Beginning endings re-admit smiles to realities rage.
Five to ten becomming else as self is not the same.
Sitting in middle of avoiding games unseen til it rains.
A to b zzz's come quickly as collisions sneak as minds sleep.
Sorrow slips in casting prayors in between the days as the leak.
Sinking aikes whisper forgotten loves passion under breaths.
A cycle rounding circles as the equalibrium dizzies like death.
Failing and forgiving forever fingering fiction pretending.
Breaking free, balancing hate pulling after pouring out til the end.
In the endless lose gripping an enevidable stoppage in trust.
Taking licks picking battles til from the shoulder brushed.
In my mind where thoughts play out realities conflictions.
I crave help through the confusion blocking the answers of vision.
Climbing the walls I cling to the truth of facts coming out.
Deep in my imagination I creep to find the words hidden from thy mouth.
Fallin inward behind the eyes that peek on patterns that speak.
Here within the cage I drift to seek a way escape my leash.
Chained to my dungeons darkness I search for purpose.
trying to avoid all the pain that appears to be lerking under the surface.
I wanna see me through the irresistable stare in your eyes.
As you speak when I'm not around and so far outta sight.
I wish I could crawl up into a curl inside your caring chest.
Feeling my forever presense at its very own loving best.
I'd like just once to know how I am truly received.
Without a doubt believing in the undenyable relief.
I crave the oppertunity that lives so comfortably within.
Deep in your heart where for so long I've been.
To hear you as tongues are all but unreconizably slurred.
Watching actions when my face is unseen and turned.
To peek under the mask that reveals the unconditional truths.
Ooh the satisfaction of giving purpose so much more use.
Where's my world calmin the tension.
Split like ends in fists that clinch em.
Where's the ease behind the storm that neva ends.
Pourin like tears that drown out all that pretends.
Where's the sense of homes comfort relaxin.
Pluckin feathers as if a chicken needs a catchin.
Where's simplicity layin in eyes that r blind.
Seein only the dark as if nights r lost without light.
Where's time taken seconds only once seen.
Clickin away at life like the cycle is a dream.
It is a mindset n a heart that determines a man.
His head set on his part not forgettin the stand.
In the way of harm before it reaches his luv.
Maintainin charm for his purpose to be touched.
Genlte as a giant can be as he is a teddybear inside.
With an alliance on this lifes joyous ride.
Faithfully real n devoted to the honesty shared.
Measured by his will that shows how much he cares.
Giving self in every way possible as unconditional.
Earning emotional wealth that is irreplaceable.
His patience is the key to happinesses way.
As words mentions deep feelings of love everyday.
Wish I had somewhere to go.
Maybe hang out as time ticked slow.
Where I could step outside.
Ignore problems for once and hide.
A friend of families back porch.
It be nice to roast some smores.
Only if I had somewhere to go.
Like everyone else not just a phone.
Feels I have not a place to be.
None worth a moment I see.
And I am resisting all contact.
A home away froms homes impact.
Yet there's nowhere to go.
And I am just sitting here counting crows.
It is sad how my trust is over powering.
I think it is time for a showering.
For I am here as those close to me drifted.
Because the point they missed it.
With a lack of tolerance for b.s.
Here I am still as letters on a list.
Paused in time wanting to get out.
Like the words coming from my mouth.
Let's hold the moment find answers to the facts.
Questions with words spoken through a stare that lasts.
Take my good away from intensions and ask self of my importance.
Would you still love me if I were jus like the rest of the ignorance?
Let the tongue taste the release of the truth within.
Bringing forth all the unknown hidden behind grins.
What if I were just as simple as this world that surrounds us?
Would you still love me if my eyes shaped lust.
Wait on the reply as we attempt to figure a few things out.
Allow time to consumed crucial responses of the mouth.
If I were to love you a little less after this.
Would you still love me or rid me as shit.
Will yourself to be known where it is I stand.
And what importance I would be if I were a man.
But what if I left tomorrow sometime before daybreak.
Would you love me or even miss me for your own hearts sake?
Gimme jus a second of space in your ear to fill.
With a conversation meant to understand where I fit in.
For as the ticks click around I'm running out of time for where I've been.
So suppose I did love you yet needed the same kind of pleasure in return.
Would you love me if I were less of me ir let me burn.
Give it a minute or two to catch your attention.
I am a man willing to go the distance and did I forget to mention.
This is real talk searching for the honestly in between breaths.
So if I were abscent in your life would it make a difference?
Would you love me if I hadn't a chance for true deliverence?
Falling inward on selfs imprisonment.
Never good enough for the energy spent.
Tight roping a wire thinner than air.
Driven by the lining of the hearts care.
Hiding pleasure from pains control.
Creeping a stroll that's on a roll.
Sliding deep beneath the skins attachment.
Sighing away from my own reaction.
Hands clinched as fist break thy will free.
And I'm losing the day slipping into a dream.
Its deep. I'm fluxuating inside. Changing like a cloud. Shapes forming unreconized. Tripping in silence. Breaking down. The movement is critical. Mute to speech. Shifting mind. Direction uncertain. Images confusing thoughts. Open curtains. Side shows off the main stage. Making more sense. Acting out screams. No line of defense. Gripping reality from a dream. Smokes squeezed unheld. Flowing through the fingers. I am not well. Unstable illusions. Roaming freely. Lost in sleep. Blowing off steam. Particles of truth feed the point. Running out of room. My cage is my punishment. Chained to my doom. Uncontrolled emotions play. Passing times chance. Nightmares defeating intensions. Losing my stance. Its deep. Pausing nights are dark. Having their way. Waking not knowing my part.
You ever lost yourself?
Woke up and realized you don't know self.
Misplaced in times treat.
In between the cracks in the street.
Like waking from a dream.
On someone elses screams.
So far from what was normal.
In a moment of termoil.
Searching for the one that is lost.
In a state of empty loss.
Years past whom you was.
As someone now you must.
Reinvent that person without a fuss.
Living a life that's doesn't seem right.
Waking in the morning missing the night.
Kind of wishing to have another chance.
For you know who you'd like to dance.
Knowing they'd make the world of difference.
With a lifetime of deliverence........
