Flawed…

I can feel the night shifting with a sway in my favor. I usually pivot to adjust to a tasteful kiss savored. Anxiety ripping through my nerves with an unsettling fear. Oh how I wish the sun would hurry up and come back around so I can get outta here. The lead it’s not me getting on with letting someone down. This is disturbing my silence that’s on the edge heartbeats pounding so loud. I don’t have it in me to luv. Why do I see me in eyes connecting an us? This isn’t the plan for here just isn’t one. Oh, fuck. I gotta get outta the way of an arrow aimed at my chest. I just want it to miss so I can’t be blamed for being a mere guest. Somehow the moment needs to catch a snag in my flaws before comfort eases in. How does the movement of shadows from the flame mimics a grin? I need to slip off into the unknown prior to this finding a way to evolve. Maybe fall into a reason to leave with a problem solved. I don’t have involved music with the circumstances of change. I’m not ready to open the gates. No matter the natural soothe that wants to take control. I just wanna go home. The line is so close to being crossed and I’m not up to the task. I wanna blink and let this be over fast. It’s just past midnight and retreating within. Is it noticeable or is the lights a lil too dim. I’m falling away from hands reaching for a touch. My skin has become numb. I can’t begin to play the part of a different version of me. So why the stare of me by another’s as if they’re attempting to smother me in their dreams. I life being lost on the outter banks of an after thought. One that’s not memorable in the morning that’ll be coming along to expose my flaws. Goodbye is almost on the horizon. I can feel a sigh building in my pulse as I don’t wands be in luv…