Lost n found...

 Coming to mind when moving on to where life is goin.... The thought occurs of them memories never made n others missed out on.... The twist feels how it'll be someone else to gain self...  Having those moments ti be cherished that brings two people together skiing a lil comfort to help... In the transition of letting go to fully grasp worth is the only way to be a friend... Showing a new face enjoying the presence of a use lent... It's how touch is claimed by s different set of fingertips feeling there way along the flesh... Changing a mindset that used to be stuck tinkering with old emotions that diff themselves into thetechie of the chest... As the heart comes around to witness the beauty in the way it hauls... Like layers peeling away to depths surfacing fur something real... Leaving what's tormented free will to open back up... To be in a more natural flow to release the expression of true lluv... 

come back to life...

When u come to, remind yourself it's more than emotional luv... Somehow loosening up briefly so the restraints aren't so snug... As thoughts are free to remember what it was like to have someone self could tell anything to... When a convo is reflected upon as a good thing put to use... With a physical connection that isn't just about sex... The commitment to self has finally come to terms with what it means to be felt... When enough time has passed to forget about the nonsense the single life fights... N the allowing of the wonder of an unknown real friend is quietly thought about once there's been a clearing of the mind... As a willingness whispers at night when the drifting lays still... Think of me n be honest if u will... In a moment to clarify if i am indeed what you've waited on for so long... Jus don't steer me wrong... If life isn't awakening within u maybe u need more time... Bcuz if it isn't natural imma go on back to my life... A true chance shall never be without knowing who is a friend... Someone with more than a physical presence to lend... As only one individual can reach in n turn u on... I'd like to know if i am ur kinda norm... But interest must go both ways for hearts to slowly begin to feel luv'd... But for now, I'll hush...

lingering in the single life...

Why is it i long for u.?. N why when i think of u my emotions move.?. What is it u don't luv me.?. Why can't u just leave me be.?. My heart doesn't understand why ur not in my arms... As my mind keeps trekking it it's just not in the cards... Around n around i go daily wondering if I'll ever recover... When there's no on i touch that is equivalent to u as a luv'r... I lost my friend n now i don't know where to go... Since we parted there's no sense of home... As u wall through my dreams missing it unbearable to wake..  Why is it i cannot have what i want when i say u mane.?. Why the lonely nights when there's no one holding u right.?. Who have i become in the deep stare of ur eyes.?. I'd luv to know so i can settle within life... Why do u haunt me the way u do.?. Why can i not cut u lose... As it feels like ur beating on my chest... N is damn near like i wish there was nothing left... Then maybe i would be free to drift away... Hoping the thought of u truly escapes... Yet the fantasy of feeling ur flesh still drives me mad... Why do i havta be crazy over u as u claw at our past.?.

believe in me...

N when i look into ur eyes n i cannot see anyone else, what then.?. When life changes n there's no going back to the way things were ever again.?. When the answers point at what i cannot do without... When time has been long enough lingering from place to place n i pause bcuz it's u i found... Would it be me the wonder has thought of for so many yrs... Would ur heart truly open knowing u have not a damn thing to fear.?. Would i be given ur undeniable reason to live.?. N would tears slip down ur cheek when i kiss ur lips.?. How breathtaking does it feel in a moment with u in my arms.?. How deep does touch go inches from the surface hovering in the dark.?. How will the mind adapt to us moving simultaneously through life.?. N how could i ever forget a friend that willingly stands by my side... As hope holds the resolution to the chaos in my head... As all others do not exist nor am i misled... As u before i is the one thing I've waited for to come along... As ur company will forever be cherished while chuckles bounce of the walls... If i were to graze ur cheek with my fingers, tell me what's next... If words stepped aside so expressions didn't havta guess... If u looked at me the way i see u the way i do... Only if it were possible for u to believe in me as if i'm someone u could never lose...

tell the truth...

Can u truly live without me.?.

Have u forgotten who i am.?.

Is it really that harsh.?. 

To disown me aa ur biggest fan...

Are u capable of goin about ur way.? 

Back to someone i just do boot know...

Does it fall strange that I'm not there.?.

When u stepped away like i wasn't worth the hope...

Could it be u promised onmy lies.?.

Just To watch the pain settle in...

Working it's way down past the luv we shared...

Aa i struggle to remove u from my pits...

It's just that easy to walk the fuck away...

As if ur heart never felt me standing still...

N i wonder if u ever dream of my face...

The way u turned n skewed me the truth...

Having no use for me I ur life...

So tell mere how smooth the decision was...

Bcuz it hurts to think i wasted my time...

Believing on a friend i never had...

Opening up to witness u pretend...

Was i that bad u fell straight through.?.

Falling to a descend until u laughed while devouring me in the end...

in person...

1... If your home when I get there I'll tell u everything that's been on my mind... Nah, I'd rather not tell you on the phone... It's the only way we can ever truly be defined... Just trust it'll be honest as my heart speaks of what it knows... Just give me time to get to you n life will be what it is to be... Ok, I'll be there shortly... Nah, It's best if I tell you this way... I want you to see the expression upon my face... You'll see it for yourself as truths surface before your eyes... Just be ready so a use can be distinguished from the hype... What's that.?. Lol, I think you'll agree being who you are to the terms I'm pulling out of the hat...  I'll break it down the only way I know how... I'm not, but you should know by now... We are what we are... Two characters choosing to play the part... This is like a dream... Stay awake... This needs to take place... I just wanna do it in person... It would be more worth it... Nah, come open the door...

2... Just tell me or I'm saying goodnight... What's up with your tone.?.  Okay, just hurry up... I've had a long night... That's all I could hope... I'm ready to go to sleep... Why can't u just tell me in the morning.?.  What are you trying to say.?.  Don't play.!. Wtf are you talking about.?. Spit it out... Am I supposed to laugh.?. Is that a fact.?. You're beginning to touch my nerves so get here now... Don't be all the way across town... How am I to know what you're thinking.?. Have you been drinking.?. What part is that.?. I'm setting my alarm... That's where I wanna be... Why are you playing games.?. It's late.!. Oh, here we go... Are you slow.?. You have me up like I'm some kind of whore...

1 If your home when I get there I'll tell u everything that's been on my mind...

2 Just tell me or I'm saying goodnight...

1 Nah, I'd rather not tell you on the phone...

2 What's up with your tone.?.  

1 It's the only way we can ever truly be defined...

2 Okay, just hurry up... I've had a long night... 

1 Just trust it'll be honest as my heart speaks of what it knows...

2 That's all I could hope... 

1 Just give me time to get to you and life will be what it is to be...

2 I'm ready to go to sleep... 

1 Ok, I'll be there shortly...

2 Why can't u just tell me in the morning.?.  

1 Nah, It's best if I tell you this way... I want you to see the expression upon my face...

2 What are you trying to say.?.  Don't play.!. 

1 You'll see it for yourself as truths surface before your eyes... Just be ready so a use can be distinguished from the hype...

2 Wtf are you talking about.?. Spit it out...

1 What's that.?.

2  Am I supposed to laugh.?. 

1 Lol, I think being who you are that you'll agree to the terms I'm pulling out of the hat... 

2 Is that a fact.?. 

1 I'll break it down the only way I know how...

2 You're beginning to touch my nerves so get here now... Don't be all the way across town... 

1 I'm not, but you should know by now...

2  How am I to know what you're thinking.?. Have you been drinking.?.

1 We are what we are...

2 What part is that.?.

1 Two characters choosing to play the part...

2 I'm setting my alarm... 

1 This is like a dream...

2 That's where I wanna be...

1 Stay awake... This needs to take place...

2 Why are you playing games.?. It's late.!.

1 I just wanna do it in person... It would be more worth it...

2 Oh, here we go... Are you slow.?. You have me up like I'm some kind of whore...

1 Nah, come open the door...

2 I am. What.!.

1 We're done...

laying in the dark...

Who is ur pillow supposed to be at night.?. When holding on for comfort... What thought eases ur mind.?.  Is there a sense of wanting more.?. When ur laying there snug n drifting off... Slowly going under... Hoping ur dreams pull u into a silent pause... Fading to the other side where the imagination can touch a luv'r... What thought comes to u when ur arms wrap around the mental visualization of hope.?. Laid up as snug as u can possibly get in ur bed.?. Do u get a sense of home.?. A piece of self that doesn't feel so dead... Where do u go when the lights go out.?. As the silent walls can't see u toss n turn... In the middle of the room not making a sound... As the night comes along to pluck ur mind's worth... Reaching for depths that squeeze the stuffing as if it were someone real... Do u pretend to be laying about with an other jus so u can fall asleep.?. So for a split second to feel... Before u slip off into a different world following the z's...

Me n u...

 Ur not here n all i waaa do is say ur name outloud... I canfeel u yet ur nowhere around... Where cani find u bcuz i don't know where to look... It seems from a current version of reality I've been sgook... Left waiting patiently for u to magically appear... N it doesn't gave a damn thing to do with the shedding of tears... It's just years ate starting to tick n i could use u right about now... I don't even know who u are n I'm falling in to heartbeats thumping to a synchronized sound... Though ur elsewhere as life ages doingwho knows what... When my arms crave the day ur embraced by my luv... Shits getting real n old on the same sense of needed u close... Maybe if you'd come outta hiding you'd witness me aa everything you've never known... It would be nice asf to loosen up for once n come to believe in us... But imma need u to show yourself so this can exist Bennie ashes turn to dust...  As one on one knowing a friend like no other has finally cone into view... It would just be me n u...

Choke it out...

When u just don't wanna feel shit but ur heart wants to try n come back to life... It'll make u wanna choke it out so it stops before emotions once again fuck up the mind... Oh how boredom luvs falling in luv with the hype's gaurd dropping in varies moments of wow... Digging in to new battles just for a fight to wind up with a frown that's gone n flipped upside down... From beginning to ends the truth continues to turn up hidden lies demanding to be believed... Watching a to good to be true friend eventually break the cycle of sharing the same dreams... Passion wnats to live as desires feed into lusts in a single mindset just attempting to remember natural intent... The spark never seems to go out for it's the light showing self around in the dark to somehow someway come from within... When the ol thumper ain't done n behind to beat on its own... Forcing the head to nod to a frsh rhythm after rendezvous that molded it to act like its grown... Though trust isn't something to be given just bcuz it claims to be good for a lil bit... Removing restraints that are loosened as if sighs don't take breaths n turn them into gasps once kissed... Changing realities on a gamble of character due to no one appears to be who they say they are... Choke it out like a sponge that's absorbed a touch making a sane thought prices so fuckin hard...

Holding out...

 The heart was built for relations but the moms went on a solo run... Dragging emotions along some or geeky the news to fall in luv... To remind self of all the bs that comes from the selfishness of others... Aa the skin has forgotten the feel of touch from every new luv'r... Eventually fading into the crowd making it hard to be seen... Just bcuz the label of hoe comes with the full package peole do not believe... Seems any man who chooses to be single is said to be unworthy... So it's fuck the jealousy that spews from females mouths feeding the thought that real men are out to hurt thee... Always worried about the nex chick workout realizing how ugly it truly is... Making it easier to be alone due to self hasn't the time for their immature bs... N as the head fills worth wonders curiosities linger... Waiting on life as it passes bu to show just one who's not pointing fingers...  Just one who isn't so far gone to the attention of everyone else... Unable to be a hypocrite for they seriously wanna be felt... As passion n desires are trapped within the cage firmed around their well being... Saved for s worthy moment I which fees true feelings...

Playing for keeps...

 Fingertips don't need sight to know ur curves... Just turn of the lights so i can caress ur nerves... As i fell me rendering u even I the dark... Deep into the night where evolution builds on the heart... No sex just u n i getting familiar as time ticks... Slowly enjoying the texture so smooth asf i capt hep but bite my lip... For words need no disruption due to the tongue's silence on hush... With a lil one on one feltas depths surface with truths of us... Just listening to a chuckle as ribs are grazed... Laying together on a moment to see hire we fit in blinded eyes that cannot see a face... I the presence where beauty simply cannot be seen... Relying strictly I who we Are just trying to be... Falling in true form beneath the covers snuggled up... With a need found friend not just chafing luv... Just kiss me as we have a lil bit of fun doin what we want... Wearing each other with knuckles locked, like a hand in a glove...

Getting relative comprehension that'snderstood...

 I get the fact yay you've loved someone else on a way that you've never loved anyone else... But, where does that leave us.?. Will i ever be felt.?. Never to be wrapped up in ur touch... I understand how it feels to live in the shattered aftermath of hope... Just wanting one more moment to help emotion let go... So are u to parish before i can leave u alone.?. Watching u fade the way we witnessed another drift on their roam... I can relate to the hesitation of accepting claiming to be real... As the heart gives in you allow the mind to pick others apart... Even after the stillness that pauses to heal.... N yet, have we truly become loners scraping off the char.?. I more than comprehend e what it'll take to trust what words never actually mean... Though Will that mindset define us on a way were no more than momentary friends.?. Loosening just enough to pull back n remain in endless daydreams... Or shall we believe serve found something that well never end.?.

to live...

to live for a greater cause... for another's joy... as a smile stretches their face... filling a void... to feel more complete... having a friend to call home... as alone isn't a requirement... where emotion is free to hope... to adapt to a norm that sticks around... never feeling lost... never having to start all over... able to hear a voice ease a frown... to be as is... accepted as someone true... gaining luv's unique nature... actually put to use... to come from within... spreading cheer in moments remembered... with memories ones able to keep... settling in as a member... to open the heart without fear.. .as fingers feel the skin.. trusting in how together is the way to change... standing eye to eye with nibbled lips... to loosen up for proof to be shown... in arms where comfort holds... believing in another somehow someway... until age catches up with wrinkles so old... to awaken come morning with sighs so real... leaning into someone willing to stay... jus doin whatever comes to mind... to say that one n only name... to live as another's reason to breathe... just by being alive... giving to a cause unselfishly... never having to hide...

Down n out...

You trapped me in my heart but didn't expect me to find the door and sound off the alarms... Shock waves rumbled until my mind woke up... And from the rubble i had a better understanding of luv... Standing in the aftermath with chains laying at my feet... I cannot believe i allowed someone like you to humiliate me... Giving in to being restrained from remaining what i who i truly am... Slowly loosening the knot that belittled my compassion as your number one fan... So i climbed from the hole u pushed me in... Little do u know of the things I've learned of deep in the depths within... Down in places you could never reach... As here today i am free... No longer a prisoner to meaningless lies... Nor captured by the nonexistent truth in your eyes... I found my way back to the surface without your help... As if i ever needed you for you were no more than an emotion felt... You failed to realize i was there when i didn't need to be... As i fell in to feel the bottom long ago just to redirect my own fuckin dreams... Now on the outside of your clinched fists i stand alone... The same way i stood attempting to get you to see me as your comfort for hope... You're not for me as i am not yours to claim... And within the cellar of your mind i do not belong to the games... There is no more shackles restraining me to give in to your selfish needs... Buried in the pits of will i transformed and left so i could breathe... The lock was picked by truths u still cannot seem to admit... N of all things u are the lone thing i haven't been able to come to miss...

Burning pages...

 I lit a fire to the beginnings of us... Burning pages was appropriate to finalize an amateur type of luv... Removing our story from ever being read... There was just no need to spread such a fairy tale that's simply better off dead...U should of heard the silence of every word go up in flames...Even they knew there was no need to mention the special editions escape... The book of luv perished before my eyes... As the blaze enjoyed the end to every little lie...  Torching any evidence that we ever coexisted... It was a moment that felt good on levels where life chuckled as it twisted... I sniffed the smoke to ride the high... As individual letters were relieved to be done with useless sighs... It was a thing of beauty to listen to the singe truly speak on what we are... Disintegrating chapters one by one honestly resurrected my heart... Who would of guessed a spark is all it took to rid myself of it all... I luv me a good roast that can deliver a char as the crackle is the aww...

Let go...

Ur losing me n i don't know if there's anything u can do..  I've tried not to let go yet pieces of us slowly has been removed... The want is vague to crave u close enough to feel me breathe... I believe luv has ran ores course n the cove is weak.   It seems time has come to tell u my heart hasn't a need to continue the whole inconsistency of having u around... I guess the in the healing of holding on my fingers let go..  U just wasn't worth the threat of emotional destruction that was ultimately found... Just past the friendship i realized. Who i was by watching ur disregard towards me... The constant neglect become a numb that transformed into what u will never be able to enjoy... Bcuz i witnessed myself in reflections that mutated in ways i did more than evolve as a void... There are no words to express the twist of reality in which i now live... I'm just so much better off without the emptiness swallowing me up like a black hole when i have so much more to give..  Please understand or don't when i say ley go of me... The landslide settled at the bottom of relations with the ruins of dreams... N i cannot remember one valid reason to allow my life to deteriorate from the inside out... All bcuz u refuse to be honest I a moment that would define a bond's determined route... So i must leave u here to die wiggling me after everything i attempted to site only u... I simple don't want the waste u claim is as real as getting ur way n that's the truth... This let go is the one answer to my own mind comb full circle to r evolve... You've made it easy to rather be alone than to deal with u as a problem to solve... Desperate is truly the only illusion felt in ur arms... As i was the only one who was lost in the cycle of relentless harm... Let go... Ur presence in my life is just the opposite of what creates hope... Ur a foe in luv with the attention when it's good for u.. N I've already cut u loose... As my monster chuckles in the shadows where u do not confide... Behind closed doors when the lights go off is where I've spent too much time... Ur fading faster than i ever imagined u in my mind... N i don't feel the need to play nice just to live up to ur hype...

Short n sweet...

There's no need to hurt me for a selfish benefit... I'll step away before a scenario gets so complex... I haven't in me to feud over childish ambitions... We can be mature without being a victim to the situation... Just talk to me n I'll ease on back.. Conversation is just to see if we can remain intact... People change n it's okay to evolve even if it ain't together... It's not like there's an actual forever... So keep the righteous sideshow others luv so much... If I'm not a friend i have no use in such an ambush... I won't let u tare me apart bcuz u don't have it in u to grow up... My heart is a piece of me that matters n in it i trust... I'm just not into the harsh reality of so called hopes... That real thing is more attractive when trying to give the mind a home... As if alleviate the hurt I'll keep it short n sweet... Am i too u what u are too me.?. Do friends exist with luv transformed from likes... Without the physical pleasures where sight, emotion n touch manipulate how individuals enjoy life... To the basics of interest in which connections are created... Relate to me in a moment nothing less than an honest use could ever be imitated... Sit if u will n spin ur end of what's to be known... To open up is to trust where convo goes...

Truth is,

Truth is, I've never looked at anyone but u n felt my heart fall outta my fuckin chest..  Truth is, I've never been able to put it back ever since it's been kicked around n left for dead... Truth is, I'm lost n i do not know where to turn... Truth is, I put my dues in to the lesson learned... Truth is, life just ain't the same... Truth is, I wish it were ur smile I could find a way to hate... Truth is, u being felt wasn't enough to witness me as is... Truth is, others cannot reach what I have to give... Truth is, I melted when we collided years ago... Truth is, I don't ever want u to know... Term is,  i army through all the pain alone... Truth is, for us, there never truly was any hope... Truth is, I'm better off trying to find my own way... Truth is, passion was the suicide needed to survive every fickin day... Truth is, I wish we could go back... Truth is, it be u I'd bypass... Truth is, I'd miss out on the only thing that had ever gotten to me... Truths is, it all just reminds me of some horrific dream... Truth is, I do know how u feel beyond all the reasons to let go... Truth is, ur the only thing that ever felt like home... Truth is, there's no looking back... Truth is, I'm good with leaving u in my past... Truth is, the spark is evident as we still exist... Truth is, it's a wasted thought dismissed... Truth is, truths lie n need removed... Truth is, lies no longer snuggle up to an open wound... Truth is, the good times are forever embedded in my mind... Truth is, I just wanna forget bcuz it was no more than some sorta useless hype...

The thorn...

 I Just wanna see ur face light up...

With a single symbolism of luv...

A rose plycked from ores roots...

Just to give it to u...

Though it doesn't make much sense...

For Its own life source or can no longer depend...

So what gesture can i possibly make.?.

So the beauty of perals don't wither away...

Is there anything tgat can capture how i feel for u.?.

Ur a thorn the stuck my heart n released hope more on the loose...

Maybe a hand across ur cheek is enough...

Or a Kiya on ur forehead will earn me some trust...

I'd luv to show u what's been on my mind...

To honor uhere I this crazy thing called life...

From a moment of truths til the clinging end...

To know if I'm the one is the becoming od friends...

Shoyld i just hold u in arms until u fall asleep.?.

Bcuz of fall former ink u of i felt u breathe.  

I cannot liye of what hopes on in my chest...

As even the thought of ur lips pressed against mine i do fickin intense...

Va can u sense my detritus surfacing I the way i cabbie help but to stare.?.

As i await the moment our eyesights. Meet in the middle of what is like air...

Allowing the blooming of beauty to rise to the occasion to live...

Fully opened for a scent to be remembered n cravee by the tickle in the ribs...

What's fair if we never ge lost in the way fingers cassettes the skin.?.

If there's no us shared...

No accepting what is known as rare...

With n smile created by being stripped to bare a chance...

All that's needs is a split second to define a use...

A caring touch reaching for who we choose...

As if two flowers I the bush content to be free...

Or shall i just awaken from this dream.?.

Friends in luv...

Luv just ain't no fun without a friend... N one only comes around every now n again... Seems time truly holds the key to the heart... N the rush does nothing but trigger alarms... As passion builds in suspense craving more than hope... Emotions come alive just wanting to know... Is it real or is it another moment to pass... For the mind awaits a use to open at last... With a lil high so actions I Motrin can speak... The crave drives a tenderness to a touch feeling the way luge 4 breathes... Though they'd no enjoyment if it all funded to an end... To restart from scratch lingering n dense... It's a piece of another familiar to selfs art... Having the capabilities to maintain through the spark... Lighting up mood than nights composing desires... For they'd so much more to come after the initial flick that lights the fire...  With a companion to share the tensions of time with... So the makings of memories can be savored up the best set of lips.... As fingers ease the weight of this world with a simple caress... Settling in sacred depths witness to the way willingness fits in the chest... N thoughts gather to remind facial expressions of  of truths n playing parts... Configuring what's behind the scenes in warm embracing arms...