The stray...

Awakening to the wonder of a lost cause... Feeling the misplacement of comfort climb the walls... As one face after another ain't the one... Knowing the heart is to suffer if it we're to open to a false luv... It seems strange beds cannot capture the ease of home... Going from one luv'r to the next something is missing when not alone... As eyes notice the surroundings one jus does not belong... Sitting in the dark in someone else's linger trying to get along... Self jus wants to leave so the sinking of emotions doesn't reach... To fall short of ever getting in as the hurt is not mine to teach... The fuckin boundary of friends being crossed scared off trust... As lanes weave in a blur merging likes n the expectancy of luv... Only having so much time before the release sends them away... As thy feet get to stepping back with a directional turn to remain sane... Loosening the grip of sleepovers that should have never taken place... But to up n go in the middle of the nights is a cowards escape... As their hands touch the skin that creates anxiety ready to run... Oh the unfortunate twist of having no use in laying flush... For the attachment isn't a desire needed to having someone always around... The clingy restraints claims the freedom of the mind losing its ground... As still as not wanting to awaken what sleeps less than inches from me disappearing for good... N nah, in them i cannot find the joy needed to even look... No depths favor my curiosities to ever take part at sharing life... Jus moments that grow old even though I'm blind... Allowing good ones to land in palms jus to slide through fingers that let them go... Like water if it was to continue tears would flow... So the cutting of strings come sooner than thoughts could ever regain... Once gone it's forever as regrets will remember the fear if being trapped by anger burning flame... Lit in the dark for me to see where i must not be... Unable to sleep here i jus want my own dreams...