What if I... Pt 1...

What if I didn't take out what others have done to me on u n jus kept it real when I lean into u, feeling the life in me bcuz of wtf it is u do to me..? Would it make a difference in the way u see me as if it clicks that I'm not like the others n all I ever wanna do is fall into u with undying need... What if I jus wanted to come home everyday n show u what u mean to me n help out in life in ways that would give u a reason to fuck with me..? Bcuz I ain't built for this single shit trying to figure out who it is I'm supposed to be crawling up next to at night like a lil kid literally n figuratively free... Let's say I made u the one I didn't wanna go without as my only escape is to run to u when shit gets tough n I need my fuckin friend to help me... Would u fall in luv with the way ur lips shape my name knowing I mean u no harm for it's not my intent to hurt u as I simply jus wanna come home to thee... U see I don't know where that is n I've tried a couple times to feel something that wasn't felt as I had gotten left in the past that wound me up here... Can u feel me bcuz I'm lost jus like u wonder around tellin yourself u don't need anyone knowin damn well we both go through the same shit as there's some nights we wake up with a dangling tear that punches the heart callin out to the dark realizing no one's there... So what if I gave u what I have to give n made sure you'd never feel alone again... Would u redirect ur stance like this opposing gender in which I am labeled jus wants to get close enough to u that u never want me to leave...