grip my grin

Sittin in the eye of the storm.
Feelin the calm.
At peace with self.
Finding my all.
Watchin the world spin.
Outta control.
Around my head.
It neva slows.
Im as still as one can be.
Damn near froze stiff.
Scared of the 2nd comin.
Something I thought of as a myth.
Inside bracin I cry.
Iv gave all I can.
To be blown away.
N its hard to stand.
Its comfy here.
Relaxin to the bone.
Yet the other side jus came.
N im afraid to be alone.
I fought off the hail.
Sheilded self from the rain.
Bit the burr.
N im frightened of the pain.
What to do blinkin eyes drainin.
Run with it or face the wind?
This is my world closing in.
As I grip my grin.